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Chapter 26

Before Lu Lingyou left, Zhao Yue was arranged to keep an eye on Fang Ning's progress.
Zhao Yue left the conference room and followed Fang Ning into Ji Ou's interrogation room.
Fang Ning nodded towards Zhao Yue, and entered the interrogation room alone.
Ji Ou hasn't slept for several days, and he looks very tired.
She had never seen Fang Ning before, so she raised her head and looked over inquiringly.
"Hi, my name is Fang Ning."

Ji Ou's expression showed a little surprise.
"You were the first policeman who came in and greeted me."

Fang Ning turned on the recorder and sat down slowly.
"I'm not a policeman."

Ji Ou was taken aback.
"Then what are you? A lawyer?
As I have said, I do not need legal aid."

Fang Ning shook his head again.
"If you're asking about my profession, I'm a psychiatrist."

Gio made a sound.
"Why, the hard ones won't work, now let's start the soft routine?"

Ji Ou watched Fang Ning put the phone on the table, and seemed to have no intention of recording it.
"Qin Shuxue, live broadcast.
You know about this, right?"

Ji Ou shrugged, not surprised at all but did not answer directly.
"Beauty, I've been detained here by that big police officer of yours. My mobile phone and everything have been confiscated. I don't know who is live broadcasting."

Fang Ning smiled quietly in his heart, this big guy should be talking about Lu Lingyou.
"I can see that you are very relaxed now.
Especially after learning that Qin Shuxue has indeed started the live broadcast."

Ji Ou shook his sore neck indifferently, but deliberately avoided Fang Ning's sight.
"Jiou, you don't have to have too much resistance to me.
First of all, I am not here to interrogate, and the topics I have discussed with you will not affect your plans in the slightest."

Ji Ou raised his head and carefully looked at this psychiatrist with outstanding temperament.
"Then what are you doing, come to see a doctor for me?
Tell me, what's wrong with me?"

Fang Ning shook his head with a smile.
"Neither.
I was invited to come here temporarily to assist in psychological profiling, not to participate in the progress of the case.
I'm just pure, curious."

"Curious about what?"

Ji Ou's relaxed expression made Zhao Yuefang behind the one-way glass see a completely different person.
Zhao Yue was startled in her heart, took out her phone and reported to Lu Lingyou.
The conversation inside is still going on.
"Curious about what?
Maybe it's the story you made up together.
In the field of psychological research, such cases are rare.”

Kiyo laughed mockingly.
"It's okay, you don't have to pack your words so mildly.
I know there is no such thing as empathy in this world.
You bystanders think that you can understand the suffering of the world by looking at everything from the perspective of God.
How can we know how miserable we are in the game every day."

Fang Ning nodded and did not refute.
"I read your profile.
Famous university, four-year full scholarship, postgraduate guarantee after graduation, and got the qualification to go abroad for exchange and internship just after entering the radio station.
Now that you sit here and look back, do you feel regretful?"

Ji Ou's eyes seemed to have a slightly different expression.
"Pity?"

She smiled self-deprecatingly.
"Do you know how I got all this?"

Fang Ning did not speak, waiting for Ji Ou to continue.
"Back then, I was supposed to end up dropping out of school.
In the small town where I was born, people think that the best ending for a girl is to find a stable husband to marry, and have a few children to continue the incense.
As for me, it’s even more unfortunate that I was not only born in such a big environment, but also sadly had an alcoholic and domestic violence father.”

Ji Ou rubbed his palms together and let out a long sigh.
"My mother, that can be said to be a small beating in three days, and a violent beating in five days.
In memory, her physical injuries have never completely healed.
She never resisted, and seemed to have accepted her powerless fate.
The only time she confronted my father with a straight back was because of my education.
My mother didn't want me to go her way, she wanted me to learn to get out of that rotten town, to be like the emerging independent women on TV, with the right to control my own destiny.
So, she took me to rebel.
After my father spent all my tuition money to buy alcohol, she picked up the scissors and stabbed my father who wanted to hit me."

Ji Ou's hands on the table kept stirring his index fingers, his eyes were dim, and he seemed to have returned to the repressed and desperate memories at that time.
"This incident has caused a lot of trouble, and many people have come to mediate.
But my mother firmly believed that as long as my father refused to divorce her, she would only do the same thing every day.
That is to kill him."

Zhao Yue opened her mouth silently outside the glass, and the hand that sent the message to Lu Lingyou unconsciously stopped in mid-air.
“The process of mediating a divorce is so long.
Every day my father still beats her, and beats me too.
But he dared not bring up the matter of not letting me go to school.
The leaders of the village and town felt that my mother was a country woman who had no survival skills and no help from her natal family.
If you get divorced, and you bring me such an oil bottle, it will be difficult to find another person to rely on.
But my mother was firm and refused to agree to leave me to my father.
Later, there was no other way, and there was no result after making troubles.
My father finally agreed to let us go one day in his sober state."

Ji Ou raised his head, his eyes were reddish and he looked at Fang Ning opposite.
"The day of the earthquake was the second month since she took me out independently.
She has been trying to find a job since she sent me to boarding school.
On the same day, she called me from a payphone and told me that she felt fine on her first day at work.
The boss is nice, and gave her half a month's salary in advance, and she would go to the bank to remit it to me as living expenses as soon as she found time.
She said that the boss also agreed with her to live in the store after get off work and take care of the store. It’s better to eat and live than to eat at home, so I can rest assured.”

Ji Ou's voice carried some subtle tremors.
"Who would have thought that it was the first day when I just got out of the sea of ​​suffering and went through all kinds of hardships.
Ha ha."

Ji Ou lowered his head and laughed again, but didn't continue talking.
"So, during the period from junior high school to university, you didn't know the so-called truth behind this incident, right?"

Ji Ou raised his head, furious.
"Doctor Fang, don't you think my hard work these years is a bit ridiculous?
What was supposed to be a natural and man-made disaster turned out to be a disgusting and dirty third-rate drama.
I thought that as long as I worked a little harder, I could let my mother, who was watching me in heaven, die in peace.
But what about the result?
I got up at [-]:[-] in the morning, people rode bicycles, and I walked and trotted all over the town to deliver milk.
At noon, when the students had lunch, I sneaked out of the school over the wall and ate the leftovers left by the guests while washing the dishes in the back kitchen of the restaurant."

Ji Ou's fingertips dug deeply into the flesh of his palm, but he didn't seem to feel any pain on his face.
"Yeah, I was really having a hard time at that time.
But I don't feel pain about this.
I think, if my mother is still alive, all these sufferings will be on her shoulders.
I am willing to resist and share these for her."

Ji Ou wiped the moisture from the corners of his eyes and let out a long breath.
"In this way, I finally got to the university, and I got a national subsidy and a university scholarship.
The day seems to have seen the light of day.
I went to the grave to sweep my mother's grave, and it was always a pleasure.
I want to tell her that what I promised her at the beginning is about to come true."

Ji Ou raised his head suddenly, his gaze became ferocious.
"But at this moment, just like back then, everything suddenly changed.
I was not brave enough. When my mother's body was carried out, I would just hide and cry.
Missed the best time to investigate the truth and collect evidence.
It was my fault."

Ji Ou covered his cheeks with regretful hands, took a deep breath, and did not continue to speak.
"Ji Ou, did Liu Ping find you? Or, it was you."

Ji Ou put down his hands and raised his head, secretly suppressing the overwhelming emotions just now.
"Doctor Fang, you have asked this question many times.
My answer is still, I don’t remember.”

Fang Ning didn't mean to make things difficult.
"If you don't want to say, I won't ask more."

"Doctor Fang."

Fang Ning gave a low hum.
"I see your dressing style, you should have a good family environment.
Children like you who have been treated preferentially by God cannot understand the life of low-level people like us.
Love is the only thing we can grasp in our desperate life.
Love and hate ebb and flow, without this one and only love, we have nothing.
You, you... never understand."

Fang Ning could see that Ji Ou was very defensive, and no matter how much he asked, he might not be able to get any particularly useful information.
She stood up from the chair, picked up her phone and was about to leave.
When he reached the door, Fang Ning suddenly stopped in his tracks.
"Jiou, maybe you feel that no one understands you.
Because everyone distinguishes their own feelings from others, and regards their own unique existence as their own.
I can't comment because that's your own world."

She turned her head to look at Shang Jiou's probing eyes.
"I don't judge whether what you did was right or wrong.
I just want to remind you from the perspective of a psychiatrist."

Ji Ou smiled.
"what?"

"There are many kinds of love and hate in this world.
They are widely used as excuses and reasons behind people's actions.
The word revenge seems righteous and fierce.
But you have to know that your revenge is for your mother who died innocently.
Or because of that timid and cowardly self who was suddenly alone and relaxed after being separated from his parents."

Ji Ou opened his mouth halfway, and the hand that was holding the broken hair in front of his forehead also froze in place.
Fang Ning didn't look back at her, turned around and walked out of the interrogation room.
Zhao Yue hastily greeted him.
"What do you mean, Fang Ning, I didn't understand why.
What is for herself."

The two greeted the police officers at the door, and left the interrogation room one after the other.
"From what she tells about her experience, it's clear that she despises her backward environment and lack of culture in her family.
Although all the sharp words were used on the alcoholic and domestic violence father, in fact, deep down in her heart, it was the mother who had never resisted for many years that she resented the most.
After the earthquake, her parents both passed away. She said that she worked hard and lived an unimaginable life without feeling bitter.
On the surface, she seems to be trying hard.
But in fact, she felt very relaxed about the current situation of being alone.
It is a kind of ease that is no longer bound and tied, and finally out of the abyss.
But at the same time, she is afraid of such a ruthless and indifferent self."

Zhao Yue was speechless, and for a long time could only rub the goose bumps on her arms.
"Fang Ning, I really can't imagine this.
Does every prisoner have such a twisted and terrifying side in his heart?
It's a terrible feeling."

Fang Ning turned his head and glanced at himself reflected in the corridor glass window.
"Not every prisoner.
Yes, everyone."

(End of this chapter)