Fast time travel: He made up for his mistakes in the plane

Chapter 22

Extra Story - Song Yuhuan
If fairness is a candy exuding sweet temptation, then Song Yuhuan never got it from her parents in her whole life.

Of course, what she didn't get was not just a candy.

Some people say that being loved by parents is a wonderful feeling, and it should be sweet. Just thinking about it can't help showing a happy smile.

It can be used as a memory of having few parents before the age of ten, living with the mother after the age of ten, listening to "you are older, you come to work", "you are the elder sister and let the younger brother" "Why do you stare at everything?" Looking at my younger brother, he is younger than you, do you know?" "Who wants to be fair to you, can you be more sensible?" The little girl with an impatient voice of course, the kind that is vividly and deeply reflected on TV and books. Maternal love is like the stars in the sky, she can see them, but she can't touch them no matter how much she reaches out.

Do you want it?
who doesn't want.

Jealous?
That's for sure.

Dissatisfaction, resistance, demand, resentment, flattery, indifference, habituation.
Song Yuhuan has done all these.

She wants her mother to treat her like a brother.

But in the end it was of no use.

As for her father, huh, she hasn't come back for several years, smiling at outsiders, and facing her daughter's father who is indifferent in his bones, she is afraid.

four years old.

She was four years old that year, no, not yet.

She will always remember the loud slap on her sister's face, because her sister peed on him.

What kind of fear can leave a memory in the mind of a child under four years old.

After that, every time she saw him, she didn't dare to raise her head, and she didn't dare to say no, for fear that the thick slap would fall on her face.

In fact, she could see clearly when she was ten years old, otherwise she would not have climbed up the railing on the second floor, thinking that she had nothing to miss, so she just jumped down and settled it.

I thought I could expect, you told me, I gotta let.

"Why did you give birth to me if you don't like me! You should have drowned in the first place!"

"Do you know that I'm in a lot of pain!"

"Do you think I want to be your daughter? If I can, I'd rather go to the [-]th floor of hell and live forever than have parents like you!"

"Everyone says I want to let go, when will I let go."

"Do you know that when I was a child, I was ridiculed and bullied at school and I had to endure it! Why didn't I say it, did it work? I know no one will help me, no one will protect me, and no one will give me I seek justice."

"Oh, you will?"

"At that time, people called me my nickname every day. What did you do after hearing it? Nothing. You just don't love me."

"A child who has no one to protect him can do nothing but learn to be patient, sensible, and grow up silently in a corner without sunlight."

"Do you still remember that one time I got a big piece of my thumb with nails and flesh cut off. I couldn't feel the pain anymore. You took a look at it and said to disinfect it with alcohol, and it was gone. Then For a moment, my heart felt cold, and it hurt more than my hands."

"Song Zidong warmed up a bowl of rice for you. You can talk about it since you were a child and feel warm in your heart. Have you ever counted how many meals I cooked?"

"When I was ten years old, you came back and decided not to go out again."

"I really think it's funny. A person who has never appeared in my memory but claims to be my mother. When we meet, there is no warmth, no concern, no inquiry, but asks me to do this and that and take care of the whole house. Please ask me Isn't it your daughter? I haven't seen you for many years, don't you miss me?"

"My heart is full of scars that cannot be healed, but you blame me for not being close to you. Adults always hope that children will understand them and be sensible, but who will understand children? Children who are disadvantaged groups are obviously more pitiful."

"Mom and Dad said they love you, but they took a razor and cut a knife on your heart with their own hands, calling it "good for you."

"Maybe, these things that are very important to children are not worth mentioning to adults."

"I've been worrying about these little things for so many years, am I stupid, or am I too stingy?"

"Just treat me as stingy."

"It's a big deal to use a longer, longer time to treat childhood."

"I admit it, I admit it, I thought that's it!"

"But why? Why can't I feel love for my child!"

"I don't know how to take him, how to protect him, how to communicate with him, and even, I don't know how to love him."

"Because of these, I haven't gotten any."

"I haven't experienced it."

"My childhood was ruined, it doesn't matter, I grew up, I look like most people, there must be someone in the crowd like me, extremely sensitive, low self-esteem, social fear, insecure, don't know what to do love, and receiving love."

"But I can't ruin my son's childhood."

"I'm in pain."

"I should love him, love him unconditionally, love him forever, make him happy, protect him."

"Do you know how terrified I was when I found out that my attitude towards my children resembled that of your father and me?"

"If this continues, he will definitely become the next me!"

"He would also vent hysterically on me when he was growing up."

"I bought a lot of books, and started to watch family-hunting shows. The love between parents and children collided fiercely. I wiped the tears that poured out like crazy and thought, my son is too difficult. I want to love him more and treat him better. Encourage him, comfort him, tell him I love him every day."

"I observe others, listen carefully, and see how others get along with their children."

"I love him, that's not enough, I want him to feel that his mother loves him."

"It's so sad that a mother has to rely on external stimulation to love her child."

Luckily, I wasn't too bad after all, I didn't ruin someone else's childhood, and my kids didn't have to spend their entire lives brooding over that childhood candy they didn't get.

Regrets will always be regrets.

For the rest of my life I can't get over it.

Spoiler - Song Yuqing
I stood in the yard, tilting my head to see my sister stretching her arms on tiptoe and trying to reach the biggest and sweetest fruit on the tree. She was so anxious that she was about to cry, but my mother said, you can’t move, that’s for my brother , you can only smell its fragrance and imagine how sweet it is.

I looked back at Dad.

Oh, and it's always empty there.

But I know that my sister and I are not at all in my father's eyes.

What else am I fighting for.

My sister is smart, beautiful, and good at studying. She is like a stubborn young tree that grows endlessly.

So be it.

As a result, I have already seen it, and I went to fight for it, and it was still the same.

Mom was right.

The fruit looks good, so I'll have a look.

The fruit is delicious, so I just smell it.

That's not mine.

People, you have to accept your fate and be content and happy.

Don't think about things that are not yours, people's hearts are always dissatisfied, if you have too much greed, you will live an unhappy life.

No one in this world should give anything to anyone.

I can't ask, I dare not ask, even my parents think I am unworthy, let alone other people.

Only what I have worked hard for is mine and only mine.

The elder sister cried loudly to her mother, expressing the dissatisfaction that had been suppressed in her heart for many years, while her brother-in-law looked at her distressedly.

I was amused, but also a little sad.

What's so sad about it.

Didn't you understand it a long time ago?

The wound finally formed a thick scar, so why tear it open with your own hands.

Bloody, ugly and painful.

She would not do such useless work.

Out of the corner of my eyes, I saw my husband looking down at his phone, and I turned my head lightly, which was fine.

Leaving the original family, entering another completely strange family, and living with a group of strangers.A successful run-in is like a compatible jade pendant, tolerant of each other.Failure to run in is like two hard pebbles colliding with fierce sparks.

Even, broken.

She is not afraid of shattering.

If you don't have feelings, you won't be hurt.

No expectations and no disappointment.

But, why does she feel so lonely? Even though she has a father, a mother, and her own husband and children, she feels alone and helpless.

I can never trust anyone.

can't.

Extra Story - Song Zidong
I am not happy, at least, I think so.

I have had a sweet and delicious candy since I was born.

I love so much.

Especially when the sisters want it too.

Seeing their eager and begging eyes, I was very satisfied.

I'm not at all afraid of being robbed.

I don't even need the slightest defense.

Because Mom and Dad will stop any hands that are stretched out towards me, even if it is their own daughter.

I grew up gradually.

kindness.
The candies didn't seem as sweet and big as I was expecting.

I want too much.

But I only have one candy.

When I chew this candy, chew it, and swallow it, I'll have no more candy.

Only then did I realize that I have been living well on this candy for half my life. Once this candy is gone, I will have nothing to rely on in this world.

The street is cold and I'm hungry.

I couldn't help but blame my parents, why didn't they try harder to make this candy bigger.

Don't they know that the sweetness of a candy can't afford their son's life.

Spoiler - Hong Tian

I knew from a young age that I was different from the girls in the village.

I am the eldest child and the only girl in my family, and everyone in my family loves me.

I was surrounded by love and lived in happiness. I studied hard, stayed up late to solve problems, and became the best and best kid of my age.

I held the half sugar in my mouth, thinking that my life would be as sweet as this sugar.

until i grow up.

I found out that my parents owned a candy factory, which they built for my brother over the years.

Yes.

without me.

My mother said, "I gave you half a candy, so don't be unsatisfied."

Dad said, "If it's really difficult, the family will not ignore it."

Grandma said, "You read a lot, but your younger brother reads less, so you let him."

Grandpa said, "Yes."

The younger brother said, "Dad, Mom, give me the money, I want to use it."

It turned out that I was no different from other girls in the village.

It's just that they haven't tasted candy, but I have.

Now those sweets have turned into arsenic and gnawed at my heart.

pain!
It really hurts!

If you never got it.
I thought I got it.

(End of this chapter)