Died three times, the third ex-husband went crazy

Shu Yin left.

Lin Yu was lying on the bed, although sleepy, it was difficult to fall asleep.

After so many repetitions, she couldn't help becoming anxious, wondering if she was wasting time.

If I knew I couldn't sleep, I should have set off early so that I could get closer to the capital earlier.

As for rest, when the body can't hold on, it will naturally be so sleepy that the eyelids can't be opened. If you go to sleep at that time, you will naturally be able to rest, which is better than working hard like this.

But it was too late to start now.

It was getting late and the night road was dangerous, at least we had to wait until dawn tomorrow before we could set off.

She couldn't fall asleep left and right, so she simply got up and planned to go for a walk in the yard to get some fresh air.

Unexpectedly, as soon as Lin Yu opened the door, he saw a familiar figure standing in the yard, staring at the moon in a daze.

"Chen Ci?"

Chen Ci turned around, a little surprised: "Has Ayu not slept yet?"

"Why haven't you slept yet?"

"I...can't sleep." He looked towards the main room, where Zhu Rongzhan was resting.

Lin Yu walked to his side and made a joke: "You don't want to kill him now, do you?"

Chen Ci looked at Lin Yu and smiled.

He didn't answer, but just smiled. Lin Yu didn't know what he was thinking, and that smile made her feel a little panicked, "...you don't want to kill him, do you?"

"Fortunately."

"Fortunately, what do you mean?" Lin Yu sighed, "You...how did you feel when you saw him?"

"..."

"This should be the first time you've seen... the prince."

"That's right. This is the first time," Chen Ci laughed at himself and said, "I was just a petty official in my previous life, and a county magistrate is already a noble person as noble as a heavenly man to me, let alone a prince. ?”

Lin Yu asked softly, "What do you think of him?"

"Nothing special." Chen Ci said, "Ah, so this is the prince. That's it."

Lin Yu suspected that he was concealing his true thoughts, so he couldn't help urging: "Be more specific."

"I really don't have any special feelings," Chen Ci laughed, "I just think, um...the crown prince, the son of the emperor, the future emperor...the son of heaven, the son of god...that is, two eyes, one nose, A mouth can also be poisoned, wounded, and killed. It is no different from the lowest person."

"Because they are all human."

"Yes, they are all human beings, but the destiny destined for each person from birth is so different."

The two were silent for a while.

Lin Yu raised his eyes and glanced at Chen Ci, and saw that he lowered his eyes, wondering what he was thinking.

She took the initiative to ask: "Don't you have anything to ask me?"

"Um……"

"You must have heard it behind the screen, right?"

"Ah."

"Don't you wonder why the prince said that?"

"If Ayu doesn't want to say it, don't tell me."

"Even if I don't tell you, you should be able to guess it. You said that you have spent the whole life with me, just like a dream in Nanke, and I have had such a dream more than once. I dreamed of you for the first time, and then I entered The second dream, in the second dream, I was terrified."

Chen Ci looked at her.

"Because of what happened in the first life, I was very scared. I was afraid that I would be disobedient and that innocent people would be implicated in the end. I was also afraid that I would be killed by my family again. I was afraid that I would have nowhere to go...so I, Decided to forget you."

Chen Ci lowered his eyes.

"I'm sorry. I'm not as firm as you think...I'm not as good as you think. I gave in, I obeyed my parents, and I married Zhu Rongzhan and became his princess."

"I didn't protect you well." He whispered, "It's my fault."

Lin Yu shook his head, "It's because I overestimated my abilities, because I was too self-righteous... In short, in my second dream, Zhu Rongzhan was deposed, and I was also demoted to be a commoner. The two of us depended on each other for life. A few years later, someone wanted to get rid of Zhu Rongzhan, so he designed me as a bait and killed him, and I died because of it."

"Zhu Rongzhan remembers these, just like I remember our dream."

"Yes."

"He doesn't know he's your second dream?"

"do not know."

"Will you tell him?"

"If necessary."

"Then what about Li Ying and King Beirong?"

"Li Ying is not. The King of Beirong is the third dream."

"Because you want to find a way out," Chen Ci whispered, "You want to find a way out."

"Yes."

"The king of Beirong... didn't protect you well?"

"When I was in Beirong, Zhu Rongzhan was still abolished. Within a few years, Datu announced to the outside world that he had died of illness and that the young emperor had ascended the throne. Beirong was ready to move because of this. Cangtao was unwilling to provoke a war, which aroused the dissatisfaction of his subordinates. , They forced him to kill me, and completely turned against Da Tu."

"He agreed?"

"...Maybe? I don't know. I tried to escape without waiting for him to make a decision, but failed."

"It is almost impossible to escape from the Northern Army cavalry alone on the grassland."

"Yes. And I've been through so much, but I never thought of looking back for you."

This sentence sounded a bit cruel, Lin Yu didn't want to hurt Chen Ci, but felt that he had to make it clear.

She gritted her teeth and made up her mind. For a moment, she felt as if she had stabbed him with a sword.

But Chen Ci's tone was the same as before, as if he hadn't been affected in any way: "So you went to find Li Ying this time?"

"……Yes."

Chen Ci said, "It's my fault."

"How could it be your fault?!" Lin Yu couldn't believe it: "I'm cowardly, timid, selfish, and want to take shortcuts to live an easy life..."

"Who wouldn't want it?" Chen Ci smiled: "Who wouldn't want to be able to live a relaxed and happy life?"

Seeing Lin Yu's sad face, he smiled slightly, approached her and said, "It's my fault, it's not easy being a woman in this world, I should have taken the initiative to come to you, I should have tried hard to prove to you , I am worthy of being relied on by you, but I... also cowardly, timid and selfish, self-righteous. I dare not... I can't guarantee that I can let you live a better life, so I thought about staying away, hoping to have Someone else can make you happy."

He raised his hand, stroked her hair, and lightly touched her cheek: "...you must have suffered a lot."

For some reason, Lin Yu's eyes were sour, and tears fell down.

Chen Ci hugged her into his arms: "I'm sorry, I'm only here now."

Lin Yu wrapped his arms around his waist, and she could feel that she was completely embraced by the man in front of her. His tenderness made her hold Chen Ci's clothes tightly.

"It's all my fault," he added.

"You are very good." Lin Yu disagreed that he took all the problems on himself, "You are very good to me."

"Then..." He asked hesitantly, "Why did you give up on Li Ying this time?"

Lin Yu hesitated for a moment.

She didn't want to hide anything from Chen Ci, but was it really necessary to tell him everything Li Ying had done?

The two of them had a hard time reaching a cooperation, did Chen Ci need to know that Li Ying had killed her?
She whispered: "...It's nothing, it's just that after a while, I suddenly found that it doesn't fit well."