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The corners of his mouth turned down, and Su Deng's eyes were smiling, "You still said, in order to save you, I had a cut on my calf, and the blood flowed so scared that I was so ugly, can I not cry? Neng, look, they all have scars now."

The trousers were loose, and Su Deng just tore them apart a little, and Shen Yuqing saw a faint raised mark on the fat-like skin of her left calf, extending inward along the muscles and bones.

For a moment, he couldn't help reaching out to caress, but was dodged by Su Deng the moment he touched it.

She put down her trouser legs and sat down, smiled and said itchy, "I still want to go to the hospital for surgery to get rid of this scar, but it's a pity that either I don't have time, or I always forget it."

His eyes lingered on her fair legs and feet for a while, before Shen Yuqing finally said, "It's quite pale, no need for surgery." Facing those clear and reddish eyes, he tried his best to smile, "Besides, I didn't go either. Hair."

He pointed to the top of his head, and Su Deng was amused by him. After thinking for a while, he understood what he meant, nodded and said, "Now you are a sick patient, I will listen to you."

Shen Yuqing saw that she was not well-behaved, but when she heard the reason, she shook her head helplessly, and looked out of the cave, "Cough, we were young at that time and didn't have a mobile phone, and you still told me that you heard wolves howling, so you dragged on." I walked forward, dragging and cursing..."

"Why did I scold you?" Su Deng opened his eyes wide in doubt.

"You scold me that learning Go is useless, and I can't help you with anything now." Shen Yuqing said flatly.

"I..." Memories fell from her heart like fallen leaves, and Su Deng finally remembered that it seemed that there was such a thing. Suddenly, she touched the tip of her nose in embarrassment, "Uh...you were ignorant at that time, let's talk about it , you learn chess... In our current situation, can playing chess send us up? It's really useless, isn't it?"

When the words fell to the ground, Shen Yuqing looked at her helplessly and pulled the corners of his mouth. The light that tore through the clouds from outside the cave came in and hit the mirrors on both sides of his tall nose. sex.

Speaking of this, Su Deng couldn't help holding his chin, "Shen Yuqing, the first time we had a conflict was because of Go, why do you love playing chess so much?"

The pearls are round and jade-like, the tender and melodious voice soaks into the heart lake, the ripples are round and round, and Shen Yuqing lowers his eyes.

why?

Is it because his parents got married in a business relationship, but they gave birth to him despite having no love, and then each went out to have fun?Or was it because of the five-year-old boy who couldn't speak, and the mother waved the stick at him with tears on her cheeks, just to make him speak?Or is it because when he was diagnosed with autism at the age of 7, his parents never cared about him, and even put the confiscated chess records back in his room, as if he had never been a son since then?

None of these seemed as interesting as him touching the chessboard, twisting a chess piece, and exploring the infinite changes hidden in the game.

"Think for yourself." Shen Yuqing flicked her head, "You already knew the answer."

Su Deng pouted in pain, "What do I know...don't say it if you don't want to say it." She seemed to be thinking of something again, her tone slowed down a little, and she said carefully: "There is something, actually, I've been wanting to ask you for a long time. .”

She approached him, "Do you remember when we played for the first time? Let me first admit that it was my fault for messing with your chessboard, but I just wanted to win you at that time, what do you say about me..." She crooked She thought about it for a while, "Oh, you said that nothing is worth tarnishing a game of chess to obtain, that I play chess for fun and only compete for victory and defeat, and I am not worthy of playing chess at all." She curled her lips, "I really don't know Go, When you play chess, you only think about winning or losing. But don’t you want to win? Don’t you want to win? It’s a bit too much to scold me like that.”

A smile like spring water and warm sun appeared on the corner of his lips again, and Shen Yuqing said: "Now that I think about it, in the way of playing chess, if you win, you lose. If you lose, you will find a way to win it back next time; if you win, you will find a way not to lose."

Su Deng couldn't help nodding, "What you said is more human than what you said back then."

Shen Yuqing raised his eyebrows, "I had my own pursuit of Go at the time, so I knew you cheated and beat me..."

"Ahem..." Su Deng blinked in embarrassment.

Shen Yuqing changed the subject with a smile, "But chess is a hand-to-hand conversation, a process of close friendship between the two players. If I could have learned a little more tolerance from the thousands of changes in Go at that time, and a little less about the process-oriented results If that's the case, we might have had a better time getting along."

Before the words fell to the ground, there was a slap sound, and Su Deng was clapping exaggeratedly beside him, "Tsk tsk tsk, as expected of you, I thought someone was going to scold me again. See, you have become so big and broad-minded, I can't match it."

"You." Shen Yuqing laughed, "Go can only be played by two people." He made a two-two with his hands, "Both chess and friends are very important. It took me ten years to understand this truth."

"Children can be taught." Su Deng sighed, touching his unnecessary beard.

"But..." Shen Yuqing emphasized again, "Su Deng, I still want to say one thing. Since ancient times, there has been no famous chess game. If both players care too much about winning or losing, playing chess itself will lose its proper meaning." He helped He took off his glasses and said in a long and eloquent tone, "Winning one eye is winning, and winning a hundred eyes is also winning. The winner is not arrogant, and the loser is not discouraged. Life is only a few dozen years, and it is lucky to be able to settle down without regret."

The deep voices fell to the ground one after another, Su Deng felt like a big warm palm, calming down the restlessness in her heart out of thin air.

She couldn't help putting away her teasing look, and looked seriously at the person with star-like eyes in front of her, "Shen Yuqing, since you like Go so much, and you happen to be very talented, I still remember you saying that you want to be the world's number one chess player, But why did you give up Go and study medicine instead?"

Outside the cave, the rain seemed to be getting tired, and it gradually died down.

"Originally you could shine in the chess world, do you really not regret it now?"

Sighing lightly, Shen Yuqing looked at the puzzled girl beside her with complicated and deep eyes.

It took a long time for Su Deng to hear the man's calm and self-sufficient voice rushing towards her like deep sea water, "It's me who loves Go, and it's also me who changed his mind to become a doctor. I don't regret learning chess, nor do I regret choosing to become a doctor in the future Both Go and medicine are what I wish, I just chose the one I want more, and it has nothing to do with regret.”

Saying that, Shen Yuqing couldn't help stretching out his hand to caress the delicate and beautiful face in front of him, "Didn't you ask me why I am willing to help you?"

Su Deng nodded.

"Then have you ever thought that the answer to this question is the same as the one you just asked?"