The Redemption of Spy War

Fang Mengao never imagined that he, who had witnessed the real troubled times and fought life and death on the battlefield, would actually live in the new century. When the millennium came, watching the brilliant fireworks outside the window and the cheers of young people not far away, this young man Flying over the death hump, the extremely daring old pilot felt an indescribable fear in his heart, the fear of loneliness.

In fact, Fang Mengao could have been less lonely, but his noble temper all his life would not allow it.With the decryption of many things, his legend is also attracting attention like a golden light: after a century-old family, one of the core members of the Flying Tigers, and the first batch of flight instructors after the founding of the People's Republic of China. These titles made him often attract attention after the reform and opening up First, when some international friends and independent journalists came, he was asked by the relevant departments to meet him. Later, some film and television drama novelists also came to him, which disturbed him.

In fact, there is another important reason. That year, his wife He Xiaoyu died of illness.

Meng Ao knew that he had never been a good husband, but he didn't know what to say.But Xiao Yu comforted him on the hospital bed, "I have never regretted meeting you in this life. I just don't know if you regret it?"

Meng Ao was always serious with a bit of joking, but this time he suddenly remembered what his brother-in-law Zheng Yaoxian said before he died,
"It's okay not to be together, it's really good, I really have a next life, don't meet me again, it's too hard, it's all me, let me suffer with her."

Although it was uncomfortable at that time, it didn't really hurt my heart. Now it's my turn. Even though Fang Mengao knew that they were much luckier than Meng Ying and Zheng Yaoxian after 45 years of husband and wife, he burst into tears and held his wife's hand. What to say.

On the contrary, He Xiaoyu felt her husband's tears flowing on her old and gully-ridden face. Although she couldn't wipe it away, it was rare that she was no longer a lady, but smiled: "It's okay to regret it. There is no one to deal with those interpersonal relationships for you anymore, you should take care of yourself and don’t offend others. When you get old, you have to learn to take care of yourself.”

Fang Mengao was taken aback. He knew his wife Neixiu all along, but he ignored how much He Xiaoyu had done because of his aloofness. She was so happy and quiet. people.
Without waiting for him to think any further, He Xiaoyu suddenly sighed and said: "It's just that you sent away our generation." After saying that, he fell into a coma and never woke up again.

Since then, the economics field in China has lost a highly respected old professor, and Fang Mengao has lost the other half of his life. He returned to the multi-storey apartment renovated from the old house in He Qicang, Beijing, except for the nurses sent by the army and the occasional visits. Daughter, grandson, barely see anyone else.

The price of longevity is that you are doomed to walk behind your loved ones, suffer pain over and over again, and feel lonely.Meng Ao sometimes basked in the sun and thought that what He Xiaoyu said was right, but he didn't say it completely. He not only sent away a generation, since he lost his biological mother in the war in 1937, he kept saying goodbye.

During the eight years of the Anti-Japanese War, he lost countless comrades who fought side by side.

In 1948, he personally drove his younger sister Fang Mengying to the North China Liberated Area, and heaven and man were separated forever.

In 1960, his father Fang Buting died in Los Angeles, USA. He went to the funeral and took back his stepmother Cheng Xiaoyun to support him.But Cheng Xiaoyun also died in 1987, and his last wish was to scatter his ashes in the creek next to the stage that year.

In 1964, his father-in-law He Qicang passed away. Due to policy reasons, Meng Ao and his wife did not go to Los Angeles until 1979 to bring his ashes back to China for burial.

But in the same year, brother-in-law Zheng Yaoxian and eldest brother Fang Mengqi both passed away, and it was still Fang Mengao who came forward to deal with the funeral.

It's not that the Fang family's nephews and nephews didn't want to help, but Fang Mengao rejected their kindness, because he knew that his generation had carried too many joys and sorrows, and the children would not understand. will be respected to the greatest extent.

It wasn't until Xiao Yu's death that he realized that he no longer had peers around him.This is the main reason why Fang Mengao, who has always been high-profile, is unwilling to accept interviews. People with shared memories have already left, so why is he still chatting about old things with others?Show off!
Fang Mengao is considered to be the last generation to be educated by a typical aristocratic family. His aloof character and upbringing do not allow him to be so grandstanding, and he doesn't feel that facing some young people who come to watch the excitement can relieve his loneliness.

For example, last time, when someone actually asked about the acquaintance of Meng Ying and Zheng Yaoxian, the malicious look in their eyes was short of asking whether Meng Ying was rumored to have been a geisha.

Meng Ao, if Meng Ao hadn't been stopped by the little soldiers on duty, he would have picked up a chair and taught this legendary "Godfather of Romance" novelist to be a man!
However, Meng Ao made an exception once in the late 90s, accepting an interview with a senior reporter from the party newspaper about the contribution of the entire Fang family to the country during the War of Resistance Against Japan and the War of Liberation.It's not that he wants to be famous. If he wanted this, as the few remaining members of the Flying Tigers, he would have attracted countless people who are interested in this period of history in China and the United States.And the reason why he agreed was because this Ms. Lin Tianli was specially told by her cousin Guiyi before his death to ask him to take care of her.

Meng Ao didn't know the relationship between them, and thought that his cousin had a year-end relationship, but he was almost beaten.But Guiyi also knew that it was difficult to explain, and finally sighed, "In my heart, she is the same as Xiaowan, so don't talk nonsense."

Guiwan, also Fang Mengao's cousin, was assassinated by Kuomintang agents in her prime of life.

Meng Ao was silent at that time. During the ten years of wars and undercurrents, they lost too many relatives, so even he was a bit ashamed to be called an old hero for such a lonely person. It's not that I feel unworthy, but I feel that too many people have not enjoyed these flowers and applause. What face do I have to enjoy everything for the dead comrades in arms.

But what Lin Tianli said is also right, "Mr. Fang, in this era, the people are getting better and better, but many young people have forgotten how the ancestors sacrificed, and what kind of humiliation we have experienced in the previous generation to get to where we are today." The country is rich and the people are strong, we want to record it truthfully and teach them patriotism with real people."

This convinced Meng Ao very well. As an old man, he began to recall the Western scenery of Shanghai when he was a child. Their family was harmonious and beautiful, but they would always be lower than foreigners when they went out; He recalled that he took his younger brother to work on the pier after losing his mother and sister, and swore he would never forgive his father again; after being taken back to the Kuomintang-controlled area, he passed through the house instead of entering, and went directly to Guiyi to go to the flying academy. Described the social changes in detail from the perspective of an aristocratic family. The more he talked, the calmer he became. In the end, his personal emotions were almost zero. He just concluded: "A while ago, my nephew came to visit me and talked about how advanced the flying technology is now. , in fact, it is not only the aircraft industry, thousands of families have changed. But I hope that the days will get better and better. At the same time, everyone should not forget that our country was still experiencing the crisis of national subjugation and extinction decades ago, and don’t forget that for today There are a lot of people who sacrificed their lives for the peace of the country and the people, and they were high school students when they left.”

Among them was his dear sister, Meng Ying.

Lin Tianli also had silver-white temples. This descendant of a revolutionist caressed the frame of her glasses and solemnly agreed.

So, when everyone was reveling to enter the new century, Meng Ao was also watching the fireworks on the balcony at home, and Lin Tianli's interview was placed beside the rocking chair.

Born in poverty, but coming to welcome prosperity in old age, Meng Ao felt that he was very content.

Just recovered, the writing may not be very good, everyone will just read it