Eye of Sin

Although Ning Shuyi looks like a fair and well-behaved girl, and most of the time she speaks in a gentle and gentle manner, she is not an emotional character at heart.

She can even be considered a somewhat rational person at heart.

But now, sitting in the pavilion, blowing the cool evening breeze, listening to Huo Yan talking about his past experiences in a calm tone, she felt that the wind tonight seemed to be particularly cold, so cold that she wanted to I was shivering, and even my nose felt sore and swollen as if I had been exposed to wind and cold.

Ning Shuyi didn't know what to say for a moment, but a picture suddenly flashed in his mind. It was the time when two people went to the hospital to understand the situation in order to investigate Chang Junchao's case.

At that time, there was a bouquet of lush apricot flowers facing the hospital corridor window, which was very beautiful under the sunlight.

But for such a beautiful picture, Huo Yan not only had no mood to appreciate it, but seemed to feel a little irritated by it. He found an excuse to buy water and walked away, not wanting to see it.

At that time, Ning Shuyi thought his reaction was strange, but she didn't know the reason and didn't explore it. Now when she heard Huo Yan take the initiative to talk about the past to her, she suddenly thought of something.

"When you were sent back to the orphanage by that couple, was it also the season of apricot blossoms?" She really didn't want to call those two people Huo Yan's "adoptive parents", even if they were "former adoptive parents" "No way.

The selfishness and immorality of those two people made Ning Shuyi feel disgusted and even disgusted.

Even if it is a puppy or a kitten, if you keep it by your side for two years, it will develop a deep relationship, let alone a child, a living person!

These two selfish and irresponsible guys really don't deserve to be called "parents".

Huo Yan was stunned for a moment, and then he realized that Ning Shuyi must have made some association, but he didn't expect that his reaction at that time would be noticed by Ning Shuyi and remembered to this day.

The tense muscles on his cheeks relaxed slightly and he nodded: "Yes, at that time there was an apricot tree in the courtyard of the orphanage. It was about to bloom, and the tree was full of buds.

I sat in the yard and waited every day, hoping that one day they would come back to pick me up, until the apricot blossoms bloomed all over the tree, and then the flowers withered again, and my mood also changed from holding hope to disappointment, and then finally knowing the truth. , desperate.

From then on, when I see apricot blossoms blooming, I can't help but think of my feelings back then, so I feel very annoyed and don't want to see them. "

"It is also because of this experience that you feel that you are a person who is not accepted or cherished by others, so you are so open to yourself?!" Ning Shuyi laughed at Huo Yan's words just now wording in it.

When he was young, he was particularly concerned about the fact that others were forced to stay in orphanages, but he was actually abandoned by his parents and family. However, he encountered a leaky house and encountered Lian Yeyu, and met such an evil couple. This made his temperament go to extremes of negativity.

Some people take themselves too seriously, such as Ning Shuyi's brother-in-law Nie Guang.

Some people don't take themselves seriously enough to risk their lives anytime and anywhere, such as Huo Yan.

Ning Shuyi felt a little complicated for a moment and didn't know what to say.

She felt that she was usually good at persuading people, but now she just felt a little sad in her heart and didn't know what to say.Many times, if you have not experienced other people's trauma, you will not be able to understand the pain. When you talk, you will be aloof and "handle it with care". It seems to be more rational and open-minded, but in fact it is just a stone that did not hit you in the foot. Just go up.

Ning Shuyi thought about it, if she had encountered Huo Yan's growth process since she was a child, would she be able to have a more positive attitude than him now, and would she be a better person than him.

She couldn't give an answer.

When Captain Dong asked her about Huo Yan's psychological condition before, he mentioned that he was persuaded by Xicai's superiors to change jobs because he lacked a sufficient desire to survive when performing tasks and was too willing to give up.

At that time, she didn't quite understand Huo Yan's mental journey, but now she suddenly understood.

Huo Yan didn't resent anyone because of what happened back then, he just looked down on himself.

And when he underestimates himself, he is not giving up on himself or feeling sorry for himself, but he is trying hard to do all the things he is supposed to do and wants to prove his worth. At the same time, subconsciously, because he underestimates himself, he would rather take all the risks by himself to save himself. Others who are needed more by this world.”

Thinking of this, Ning Shuyi felt an indescribable sadness in his heart.

Huo Yan heard something strange in her tone. He turned to look at the people around him and found that his partner, who usually had a slight smile on his face most of the time, looked quite serious now, with his brows slightly furrowed. .

"It was before, but it's not now." He didn't want to deny his past thoughts without conscience, but couldn't wait to explain, "You taught me a lesson before, and you said that you should be your most loyal teammate.

You're right, I listened, so I won't use other people's mistakes to punish myself in the future. "

After listening to his words, Ning Shuyi's brows relaxed a little. She felt that after Huo Yan took her to eat wontons, his whole body seemed to be a little more relaxed than before, not so depressed and tense.

I had been emotionally affected by his story just now, but now I realized it.

This was a good sign. Seeing him relax, Ning Shuyi's heavy and depressed heart seemed to be relieved.

"But, having said that, if I had done something like that back then, even if I met you by chance and recognized you now, I would have wanted to cover my face and run away. How dare she take the initiative to strike up a conversation and ask you to confirm her identity?" Ning Shuyi felt that the "former adoptive mother's" behavior was a bit strange.

"I didn't think about it that much." Huo Yan shook his head, "I haven't thought about those things for a long time, or tried to avoid bringing up unpleasant memories. I just want to live a good life now.

So she was caught off guard and ran over and stood in front of me. My emotions were a little out of control. That kind of emotional control made me a little angry with myself and felt that I was so useless. After so many years, I could still be in a moment because of what happened back then. It was a mess. "

"You were injured when you were on a mission before, right?" Ning Shuyi remembered what Captain Dong told her before, "Now that it's a rainy day, will that scar be painful and itchy?"

Huo Yan nodded, with a slightly confused expression, as if he didn't understand why Ning Shuyi would mention this: "Yes, but I'm used to it, so it doesn't bother me."