Eye of Sin

Regarding Huo Yan's reaction, Ning Shuyi just shrugged and did not discuss with him whether this view was right or wrong.

It is said that the same rice feeds all kinds of people, and everyone has a completely different trajectory, whether it is their innate personality or the subsequent personality changes that are gradually formed through various life experiences.

Huo Yan is a very opinionated person with a very strong willpower. Such a person can only accept other people's opinions from the bottom of his heart when encountering anything.

Maybe Ning Shuyi's reaction was a little too calm, but Huo Yan felt a little guilty for no reason. He put the dumbbells in his hand on the shelf and sat down on the mat.

"I think it's meaningless. It's really objectively meaningless. It's not about subjective emotions." He explained to Ning Shuyi, "It's not like I haven't heard the truths that psychiatrists can say in the past. I understand.

I used to feel worthless because I was a child that no one wanted.

When I was arranged to receive psychological counseling and was asked about my past experiences, I told them everything, and the psychiatrist began to persuade me to let go, to look forward, and not to punish myself with other people's mistakes.

The problem is, I have experienced the pain of being abandoned twice. Of course I know that those wrong actions were done by others and have nothing to do with me, but am I still bearing the consequences?
People who abandon me don't feel pain, and even if I let go, will the hurt feelings that I have grown up with over the years disappear?

They kept talking, as if they were saying that although those who abandoned me were wrong, they were already wrong, and nothing could be done to them, they could only forget it.

On the contrary, if it’s me who still feels pain because of those things, then it’s my fault!

Since the knots in my heart are caused by those people's wrong actions, why doesn't anyone ask the people who did wrong to apologize, but instead unilaterally ask me, the most innocent person from beginning to end, not to have even the slightest emotion and to let go? Otherwise, is there a psychological problem? "

Ning Shuyi didn't expect Huo Yan to explain this to him, and after hearing his words, he felt speechless.

I have to admit that he is right. It seems that many times, most people will choose to let the party whose interests have been violated let go, be relieved, and reconcile with the past, but they are helpless against those who have violated other people's interests and hurt other people's feelings.

Although from a rational point of view, it is indeed the right choice to let go of the pain of the past and reconcile with oneself, but after all, human emotions are not computer programs. You can update them when you say they are updated, and delete them when you say you want to delete them.

At this time, if you can't really understand the pain of the other person and just blindly persuade the other person to let go, otherwise it means that you are mentally unhealthy and you can't live with yourself. It does have the effect of turning the injured party into the at fault party.

Even if he has no personal experience, just by imagining it, Ning Shuyi can guess the helplessness and anguish of not being understood.

It's no wonder that Huo Yan's attitude towards Xu Li is so cold and distant. It's probably because all the psychiatrists he met before blindly asked him to let go, which made him instinctively reject the practitioners in this field.

Thinking of this, Ning Shuyi suddenly thought of Xu Li's promise to do Uncle Pan's ideological work and help him enlighten him.

I don't know what Xu Li's working style is like. If it is what Huo Yan just said, I'm afraid that not only will the stubborn and stubborn Uncle Pan not be able to look away, but it will make the old man even more stubborn.

Thinking of this, she couldn't help but feel a little worried, and subconsciously sighed softly.

Huo Yan saw Ning Shuyi sighing and was stunned for a moment: "I no longer feel that I have no value in existence! Really!
Today I felt that since I had already looked away, there was no need to listen to those clichés, so I didn’t go.

The words you usually tell me are more useful than any psychiatrist. "

Ning Shuyi was stunned for a moment, and then realized that Huo Yan had misunderstood his reaction, and waved his hands hurriedly: "No, I don't think you need to listen to the psychiatrist's report. In fact, everyone can see your change. Yesterday was not Even Xu Li thinks you are more relaxed than before. Just when I heard what you said, I suddenly thought of Uncle Pan."

When Huo Yan heard what was going on, his brows relaxed: "Uncle Pan has a stubborn personality and is getting older, so he is not easy to persuade. We can only let nature take its course."

After that, he stood up again and hooked his hand at Ning Shuyi: "You're here, let's go after practice!"

Ning Shuyi was originally thinking about Uncle Pan, and was still a little melancholy. But when he heard Huo Yan's words, he was suddenly brought back from all his thoughts.

She stood up with a smile: "Ah... I almost forgot. When I came here just now, Ren Yaya seemed to have something to do with me...

So what, you practice first, I won’t disturb you, I’ll go back to the office..."

The reason was found, but unfortunately Huo Yan didn't buy it. He stretched out his hand and pulled Ning Shuyi back, who was about to leave. He pulled her aside and stuffed a medicine ball into her arms.

"Come on! Three sets!" He patted Ning Shuyi on the shoulder and pointed at the dumbbell next to him, "I'll help you count while you practice.

Don’t forget who gritted her teeth and asked me to take her to physical training. "

Being reminded like this, Ning Shuyi's fighting spirit, which had been dissipated recently because his life had been too quiet, was revived again.

"Practice! Help me count!" She nodded, her voice a little more heroic.

This heroic spirit lasted about 10 minutes...

It's not because of her 3-minute popularity, it's mainly because her strength really doesn't allow it...

At the end, Ning Shuyi, who was moving his legs on the treadmill with no hope of life, deeply felt that heroes are not the only ones who are short of breath in this world...

And when she finished the physical training with sweating profusely and weak limbs, she looked at Huo Yan, who had trained much more intensely than herself but seemed to be okay. The cruel differences between people gave her another feeling. one strike.

"Let's go." Huo Yan looked at the time, "Go back now, I still have time to help uncle."

"Oh." Ning Shuyi was so tired that his head was half a beat slower than usual. After responding, he realized something was wrong, "Oh, did I just forget to tell you that you are going to my house to eat seafood tonight?" thing?

I haven't said anything yet, how do you know? "

Huo Yan raised the phone in his hand: "Uncle sent me a WeChat message."

Ning Shuyi was a little dumbfounded. The time was just right. When he thought about such a hot day, he was sweating all the way home, so he simply didn't take a shower at work, and went directly back to the office with Huo Yan to get his bag, and then went home from get off work.