Eye of Sin

After dinner, Ning's mother and Ning's father knew that Ning Shuyi and the others were still focused on work and didn't even help clear away the dishes, so they kicked them out of the restaurant and asked them to go upstairs to talk about work.

Ning Shuyi was "bombed" out of the house dumbfounded, and went upstairs to sit with Huo Yan for a while.

In fact, there is no job that she must talk about, but her parents have preconceived ideas about it, and nothing she says will help.

"I told my mother that there was no important work to discuss, but she didn't believe it, and you didn't say anything!" When they got upstairs, Ning Shuyi said to Huo Yan helplessly.

Huo Yan reached out and pulled her to the sofa, gesturing for her to sit down: "You have nothing to say, I do."

He sat down on another sofa next to him: "After you sent Tong Chujun's parents away today, you were in a bad mood because you thought of me?"

Although the tone was questioning, there seemed to be a sense of certainty.

Ning Shuyi did not deny his speculation, but asked: "How did you discover it?"

"Although you didn't say a few words, your eyes kept glancing towards me."

Ning Shuyi smiled, she almost forgot about this person's observation ability.

"I don't know why," she shook her head. "I'm sitting there today, listening to Tong Chujun's parents trying to shirk responsibility, blaming their neglect of their children on Tong Chujun's bad personality, so that their own incompetence doesn't sound so bad. obvious……

I can't help but think of your former adoptive father and mother.

Seeing the ugly words and deeds of the ex-couple in front of us, I seemed to be able to understand how desperate and chilling Tong Chujun was when faced with such a pair of parents.

That kind of pain cannot be relieved by a few words of persuasion from others.

I heard someone say before that you should never persuade others to do good unless they have suffered. I thought it made sense.

Now I suddenly feel that it is not just to persuade others to be kind, but also to persuade others to be at ease and to be open-minded. It is more or less painless to stand and speak.

People who have never experienced those traumas are naturally open-minded and can think openly. After experiencing those things themselves, they may not be as good as the person involved. "

"So?" Huo Yan looked at Ning Shuyi with a complex expression, and suddenly felt like he couldn't help but laugh, "From the beginning to the end, you never tried to persuade me. You are not the one who 'persuades others to do good'. kind."

"I know I'm not." Ning Shuyi sighed, "It was through Tong Chujun's experience this time that I made some assumptions.

You originally wanted to be alone, but because the people around you appreciate you and love you, they desperately want to pull you out of the protective shell of the past.

Objectively speaking, the starting point of doing this is definitely for your own good, but from your standpoint, it is also necessary to uproot the source of security you provide yourself and drive you out of your comfort zone. Such cruelty.

It must be the same for Tong Chujun. It was obviously because of her parents' inaction that hurt her feelings and made her lose her sense of security, but she was accused of having a bad face towards her parents, being neither cold nor hot, and being shot. The taste of medicine and the like must be very unpleasant, and because of this pain, you may want to shrink deeper into your shell and isolate yourself from the outside world. "

"Are you worried that the subsequent investigation will not be carried out because of Tong Chujun's situation, or are you worried about me?" Huo Yan asked.

Thinking of Ning Shuyi's reaction when her ex-adoptive mother came to the door of the police station a while ago, and her first reaction when she met an old man who was lost and wandering at the door of her work unit, she was worried that her ex-adoptive father had come to find her again. Yan really has no way not to make such speculation.

Ning Shuyi smiled helplessly, sighed, and looked up at Huo Yan: "Which one do you want?"

"There's no need to worry about any of them. I'm not that fragile, and Tong Chujun's situation will definitely find a breakthrough." Huo Yan lowered his eyelids and looked at his knees, "After all, there are no truly isolated people in this world, as long as When you move around in society, you will leave traces, but they may not be so conspicuous.”

Ning Shuyi sighed, looked at him, and said nothing.

Huo Yan originally thought that Ning Shuyi would say something, but after waiting for a while, all he heard was silence. He looked at Ning Shuyi a little uneasily, and his eyes met hers.

"Why...why didn't you speak?" Feeling guilty, Huo Yan almost stuttered when he spoke.

"What about you? Don't you have anything you want to say to me?" Ning Shuyi asked instead of answering.

Huo Yan rubbed his hands on his knees and rubbed them again. "You are the smartest person I know." After a brief moment of embarrassment, he decided to be honest, "Whether it is IQ or EQ, you are the highest."

Ning Shuyi was dumbfounded as she listened to Huo Yan's praise of herself: "So...should I say...thank you for the compliment?"

"That's not what I meant." Huo Yan shook his head and his ears turned slightly red. "What I mean is that you are very good in every aspect and very dazzling, just like the sun hanging in the sky. You can't see or feel it." , are impossible.

But the problem is, I’m not good…”

"What's wrong?"

"You know all about my situation..."

Ning Shuyi raised his hand to indicate that he did not need to continue talking.

"I know that in the eyes of others, you have changed very obviously over the past period of time, but in fact, you are just a scallop with your shell cracked open." She teased Huo Yan with a smile. , "You have your own knots in your heart, so no matter how vigorous and calm you are on the surface, deep down you will still worry about gains and losses when encountering some things.

Compared with the pain of losing something after gaining it, you would rather never have it from beginning to end.

I can understand your thinking.

It's just that you shrank in your shell and refused to let anyone get close to you. This was a kind of escape.

Now, many things are right in front of you, but you insist on refusing to clarify them. You insist on maintaining the status quo and not making any changes. This is also a kind of escape.

Some things, if you don't take that step, you can stay in this state forever and never change.

If some questions are overdue for so long, it won’t matter what the answer is. "

Ning Shuyi stood up, walked past Huo Yan, and walked towards the door. Huo Yan quickly stood up.

"I'm not afraid of being hurt, I just think you deserve better conditions than me in all aspects. I can't just be selfish..." He said, his tone more urgent than usual.

Ning Shuyi stopped at the door, turned around and sighed: "Just like your former adoptive parents, if they have a better biological son, they will give up on you, the second best adopted son?"

Huo Yan was speechless. He wanted to refute, but couldn't find a convincing explanation.

"You don't have to rush to express your position now." Ning Shuyi shook her head at him, "Even if your knot becomes smaller, it's still there, so I understand your concerns and worries.

But worrying about losing something before you get it is just like worrying about aging and death as soon as you are born. It is a bit too pessimistic and even ridiculous.

Others really can't persuade you to resolve the knots in your heart, so don't rush to a conclusion. It's better to think it over yourself. "

After saying that, she opened the door and went out, preparing to go downstairs and go home.

The door that had just been closed behind him reopened.

"Ning Shuyi!" Huo Yan stood at the door with a serious expression, "I will not let this issue expire."

Ning Shuyi looked back at him and nodded: "Okay. See you tomorrow."

After saying that, he went downstairs alone, and his figure quickly disappeared around the corner of the stairs.

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