the moon is not as good as you

Chapter 189 Only the most dazzling one is worth remembering

"I don't remember that either." Xiao Yi looked up at the boundless starry sky and pointed his finger in a certain direction, "I only know that it is the constellation Cygnus, the most striking constellation in the night sky in the northern hemisphere, which runs across the center of the Milky Way."

Jiang Ningyu looked in the direction of his finger, "Is that all there?"

"Well, that's Tianjin Four, the tail of Cygnus, forming a big triangle with the Cowherd and Vega stars on both sides of the Milky Way. Every time I see the Milky Way, I think..." Xiao Yi paused, "One will meet many amazing people in one's life, but only the most dazzling one is worth remembering."

Hearing a kind of aloofness from his few words, Jiang Ningyu smiled and said provocatively, "It sounds like you haven't experienced much."

Xiao Yi raised his eyebrows and looked at her.

She sat down again, and said faintly, "After a lot of experience, you will find that except yourself, all other people who appear in your life are decorations. Those amazing people are just a little bigger decoration."

The atmosphere was silent for a while.After a long time, Xiao Yi seemed to be touched by her sarcasm, and suddenly opened his mouth slowly, "I always feel that a person's life is a constant encounter and farewell. Some waiting should not be too long, and memories cannot be eaten."

"I once liked a girl very much. You probably guessed the name. We were classmates in junior high school. She played the violin very well and was well-known in the school. She also had a bright smile. Every time she competed, I would sneak to the city where she was. But at that time my parents had just divorced, and I didn't know what the future would be. I didn't dare to disturb her rashly."

"Until I went to the United States, I found out that she was in Boston, a 4-hour drive away. I took many opportunities to find her, almost every week, and then we were together."

Jiang Ningyu looked at him in surprise, but did not interrupt, and listened quietly to what he said.

"We talked for a long time. I talked to her with the purpose of getting married. I liked her at the time. It seemed that holding the whole world in my hands was not enough for her. When I saw her, I thought how could there be such a beautiful person in the world. Until one day, she suddenly broke up and said that I couldn't give her what she wanted. I couldn't accept it. I asked for reunion several times, but was severely rejected."

"By the way, I thought you looked a bit like her when you laughed, so I often looked at you in a daze. Maybe it was because of this that your ex-boyfriend was upset with me, so he came here to talk harshly to me... Do you still like him now?"

Caught off guard by the question, Jiang Ningyu panicked for a moment, then quickly calmed down, "I won't be a mistress."

"Me too." Xiao Yi nodded, "Thinking about it, it's quite sad. I knew her earlier and was with her earlier, but now I am a stranger without identity."

"Didn't you ask her why she broke up?" Jiang Ningyu asked.

"Why didn't I ask, but... She didn't say it at first, but then she wanted to, and I didn't think it was important anymore." Xiao Yi said lightly, "Even if I found out later that something happened to her family, she broke up because she was afraid of hurting me, and I didn't agree to her reunion. As I said, the wait can't be too long. I squandered all my feelings in those three years."

Jiang Ningyu felt sad when he heard it, and always felt as if he was listening to himself from his story.

She was silent, but Xiao Yi continued, "It's true that all the feelings were wasted. It's not that there are no girls who show interest, but I rejected them all."

"I know that I may hold another girl's hand in the future and do the same thing with her, but until I am free and easy, I may not start a new relationship again. Be responsible to yourself, but also to others, isn't it... why are you crying?"

Suddenly Xiao Yi's surprise made Jiang Ningyu touch her face subconsciously, and she really felt the coolness of her hand.

She couldn't help lowering her head, looking at the blurred gravel at her feet, "The wind is too strong, the sand blinds my eyes."

"You haven't let go yet." Xiao Yi understood, and said softly, "Try to let go, no matter how unforgettable the past is, throw away those unnecessary fantasies. No one in the adult world is willing to accept a mess."

Afraid that she would get confused, he added, "I mean, at a certain age, everyone is selfish. Without so much infatuation and absolute patience and love, you will dissuade many people if you can't let go of your ex."

"Alone is fine."

"The premise of being a good person is to live freely and freely, aren't you? You just got emotionally hurt and erected a high wall for yourself." Xiao Yi paused, afraid that he would be too sharp, and then comforted, "However, time will heal everything, and you don't have to force yourself too much."

Jiang Ningyu rubbed her eyes, "Can I stay by myself?"

"Okay, I'm going to take pictures." Xiao Yi simply waved his hand, jumped down the hill lightly, and walked towards his companions deep in the hinterland.

After he left, Jiang Ningyu stared at the starry sky on her phone for a while, and shared it on Moments.

[I have been here, I have left, leaving only the starry sky. 】

Then he lay back and lay directly on the gravel.

The bright starry sky desperately squeezed into the field of vision.Xiao Yi's words flashed through his mind, and Jiang Ningyu knew it was meaningful.

They are all very high-spirited people. From Xiao Yi's perspective, they can somewhat understand Lin Xuyue's state of mind - in fact, she has already guessed it, so it seems more accurate to use the word "proof".

She raised her phone and clicked on Lin Xuyue's wechat avatar.

On top of the sporadic bits of her self-question and self-answers, there are actually a lot of his caring confessions.But they were all answered coldly, or refused to call.

Thinking about it now, he would only find it ridiculous that he was humble at that time.

Jiang Ningyu slid off WeChat and stuffed it into her pocket.

People are neither gold nor stone, only a fool will persevere after bumping into obstacles over and over again.

——She didn't say it at first, but then she wanted to say it, and I didn't think it was important again.

The mixed emotions in her mind made her close her eyes lightly.

But, but...

It's still different.

Obviously she was the one who was kept in the dark and suffered so much injustice. Why did she not even have the right to choose, so she had to convince herself to live freely and freely?

She decided that she wanted to go a long way with that person, why couldn't she do so?
Thinking about it carefully, her life has not gone smoothly.

What about the glamor on the surface, the parents who like to control her preferences, the stressful student days, finally getting through the difficult stage, getting rid of the shadow of the family, thinking that she can reap happiness, but was betrayed by the person she helped, and was packed into that person's bed like a prostitute.If it weren't for him to have such a self-confident bottom line, she would not dare to think about what kind of situation she is in now.

However, Jiang Ningyu felt self-defeating and self-defeating, it couldn't be worse than it is now.

(End of this chapter)