2006: School beauty loves me again

Chapter 186 Dunhuang Suicide Note
Atlantic winds wet the entire European continent in August, from Brussels to Barcelona, ​​from Paris to Cheshire...

Small but delicate countries dot the coastlines and high plains.

When it lands, it will break away from the group.

Chen Wan is like a little oriental fairy traveling through the magical world, wandering in the sometimes humid and sometimes bright western streets, but never blending in.

The little muddled god's first trip abroad is a bit nonsensical.

Since the Spring Festival, Chen Wan has been jumping back and forth between endless anxiety and ego pua. That mysterious woman will appear this year. It is the concern brought by the brat from the "past" of more than ten years. He will give up?Obviously not.

What about yourself?An "old woman"...why should she compete with others?
When I was young, I only focused on studying and never fell in love. As a result, my grades were not good, and I missed the right age for falling in love. I started working after graduation, went on blind dates, urged marriage... met a brat who fell from the sky.

Chen Wan didn't know when her love was born, maybe it was because of dependence, maybe it was something else, in short, the brat was like a tick that bit and wouldn't let go, somehow it got into her heart.

I've done everything I shouldn't have done, and I haven't done what I can do.

Chen Wan presented herself unreservedly in front of him, and let the king pick and choose, but at that point, the brat was still hesitating.

Well, she thought it was his insistence on that mysterious woman, but what happened?Huh, Li Li?
What are you doing, what are you doing, why are you bullying people?

Chen Wan won't lose her temper, she won't swear, and she doesn't want to make trouble, just like a little doormat, she's nestled in the quilt every day, humming.

She didn't understand, she was split...was she split?
But why don't she hate the brat, Li Li... She can't express any emotions except sadness, and the world is fading?
A pimple with extremely high internal pressure bulged in her heart, suppressing her pulse and making her breath suffocating. She wanted to find a new environment to relieve the pressure a little bit, otherwise she would explode and blow herself up to the point of bruising. She was afraid.

She chatted with Li Li all night long, and the two made an agreement.

Do you let go after you calm down?try it once.

Overseas travel has become very popular in recent years, there are many travel agencies in Dongshan, Chen Wan is rich, but she didn't apply for the most expensive tour.

As the saying goes, expensive is not necessarily good, but cheap is definitely not good.

The 12888 European countries reported in [-]... It was only after landing that I realized that it was a two-person tour, not a two-day tour.

"Two-day trip? Are you planning to finish shopping on the plane?"

The tour guide couldn't figure out what this silly big beauty was thinking, but the other group of couples didn't mind.

It's cool to have a beautiful girl in the team.

The male companion is a junior, who believes that appearance is the truth, and stepped forward: "Hi sister, I am your teammate, don't worry, I am a decent person, you don't have to worry about traveling with you... Or, do you have a boyfriend?" ?”

Chen Wan wants to be quiet, it doesn't matter to the big group, it's a big deal not to talk, but if there is any game interaction between the two, forget it.

"There are some, what's the matter?"

The spirit boy resentfully stopped talking.

There is no need for the tour fee, just take the passport and leave the group to travel freely...

Brussels is beautiful, and the banks of the Seine are even more beautiful. There are piers and fortresses built of big stones on Saint-Gerie Island. Chen Wan wants to eat hot pot because she is not used to it.

Barcelona is a colorful city. There are many tourists, and they are very enthusiastic. Chen Wan doesn't like enthusiasm. After staying for half a day, she hurried away without eating, and she didn't know if she was used to it.

The first time I went to the Champs-Elysées, it was very ordinary, short, many boutiques... Chen Wan didn't buy anything, but the fallen leaves under the plane tree were very beautiful, and she found a colony of French ants that were moving. Not used to eating, she wants to eat the big bone stick of the brat.

There are many ancient towns with rural style in Cheshire. The black and white half-timbered farmhouses are very distinctive. Chen Wan took a lot of photos, but she is not used to eating. She wants to eat the brat’s fried pork.

Brat, I miss him so much.

The steaming water vapor from the Irish Sea caused three days of rain in Cheshire. The environment of the hotel was very good. Chen Wan was lying on her side by the window, and there were splashing raindrops outside the glass.

The alleys and stone roads were wet, and Chen Wan's eye sockets were also wet. She was tens of thousands of kilometers away from home, and she finally felt lonely.

The stinky boy has been away from home for 17 years, he is lonely, right?

It is very close to Edinburgh, which was the last stop of her originally planned itinerary.

The public geography class a year ago left a deep impression on her. Edinburgh is the favorite of the brat, and Chen Wan has always wanted to come and see it, but the original plan was to be with him.

She wanted to stop in Edinburgh, think about the road ahead, and curl up by the bay window, but she didn't want to go.

The multi-day journey not only did not make Chen Wan think clearly whether she was broken in love... On the contrary, she felt that the invisible kite string was getting tighter and tighter.

She couldn't let go of the brat's hug, the brat's kiss, every scene of the brat's.

In the end, she decided not to go to Edinburgh, and finally she had to leave a way out for that relationship. What if, what if there was a chance to go with him?
Chen Wan rubbed the corners of her eyes, and stretched herself out from the thin blanket.

The phone that had been off for more than a week came back on.

Drop drop drop drop.

The last text message was sent by the brat last night.

'Don't answer me, please introduce me to your best friend. '

Chen Wan couldn't hold it back, and immediately squatted on the ground hugging her legs and burst into tears.

I only have two girlfriends in total, why are you bullying others!
Heavy rain outside, heavy rain inside.

Chen Wan sobbed and packed the little luggage into a small box.

Check out, book tickets, go to London, and beat him back home!

The rain drenched half of her body, sitting on the long-distance bus, the chill in Chen Wan's heart dispelled the enthusiasm of the whole summer.

There are only four songs in the earphones, which are repeated repeatedly, until the rainy London.

Chen Wan had nowhere to go, the flight was at eight o'clock in the evening, and she still had five hours.

I dare not be alone anymore, the whole world seems to want her no more.

The stop of the long-distance bus is not far from Russell Square, where there is the world-famous British Museum.

The British Museum has the world-famous Dunhuang posthumous writings.

Museum tickets cost £14, half price for students.

Inexplicably, Chen Wan saved the small box and walked in.

There are countless rare treasures in the collection, plundered from various ancient civilizations.

Turning a deaf ear to the voices of the tour guide and explanation, Chen Wan went straight to the glass display rack, where a few thin, yellow paper lay flat quietly.

Tourists are not allowed to take pictures, Chen Wan stood quietly in front of the small crowd.

The Dunhuang posthumous book - S.1824, on the front is a "Receipt of the Ten Precepts" written by "The Bhikkhu of the Three Realms Temple believed in the Faxin in the east of the city, Suoshijun Fotangtou".

Not to kill is a novice precept, can you keep it?Can answer
Not stealing to the end of one's life is a novice precept, can one keep it?Can answer

It is a novice precept to last one's life and one's life without lust, can one keep it?Can answer

It is a novice precept to live one's life and one's life without lying, can one uphold it?Can answer

Not drinking alcohol until the end of one's life is a novice precept, can one keep it?Can answer

……

"The girl fell in love with the novice monk, and the presiding officer presented the "Ten Precepts" to the disciples. On the paper, it was written: Temporary marriage, after a hundred years, each will follow the six realms, and will not be related."

Chen Wan has been thinking about this passage in her heart for a year...

Now, she finally saw the two lonely lines behind the paper:
The sun and the moon look at each other forever, and they are not centrifugal.

Seeing the place where you sit, it's like burning your body with fire.

"I don't know who wrote it, maybe it was the monk Faxin! Did he say "no" before he passed away?
This poem is so simple that even children can understand it, but the emotion expressed is so real that it resonates.

Boys and girls who are just in love, silently pay attention to every move of the person they like, even when they see her walk past the place where she has sat, they feel hot on their bodies and faces.

Every frown and smile of the person you love can't be waved away, and it turns in your heart, affecting yourself all the time.

The sourness and sweetness of falling in love are vividly expressed in this love poem that spans thousands of years. "

Li Li said that "monks are also romantic" is true, or maybe human emotions are interlinked, no matter ancient or modern.

There was a small Chinese tour group beside her, and the voice of the tour guide entered Chen Wan's ears.

"Monk Faxin has long been lost in the long river of history. No one knows his life trajectory, and no one knows how old he was when he wrote this document, and what emotional stories he has experienced. But the poem he left behind can always be remembered. Let people have endless daydreams.

Maybe Faxin had a crush on a slim girl near his home when he was writing poems.The girl's beautiful eyes are looking forward to, curling up Tingting.

Faxin looks out the window every day and waits on the bridge. As long as he can see the graceful figure of the young girl one more time, he will be satisfied and die without regret.

Maybe Faxin is passionately in love with a beautiful woman in his hometown.A woman is as delicate as a spring flower, as beautiful as a morning glow, white jade inlaid with beads is not enough to match her beauty, and the first rose is not so beautiful.

Sitting in front of the flowers and under the moon with the woman, Faxin and the woman smelled the fragrance slightly, and their spirits drifted away. They only felt that the breeze and the moon would last forever.

But like many people's love, the end of good and sweet memories is love.

Maybe one day, the house of the girl who has been secretly in love for a long time will suddenly be filled with red and colorful colors, and it will be very lively.A big red sedan chair picked up the girl with a phoenix crown and a xiapei, and disappeared at the end of the street along with the welcoming crowd.

Maybe one day, the woman who had forgotten her passion and love suddenly became seriously ill and passed away.The beauty is as bright as jade, and it returns to the loess in a blink of an eye. From then on, the moonlight melts and the fragrance of flowers is faint.

Maybe I don't know what kind of situation it is. One day, Faxin's heart will be broken, all thoughts will be lost, and he will be at a loss to know the world.

In the year 888, when Buddhism was at its peak, the novice monk searched for liberation in Buddhism, and finally realized that the flowers bloom impermanently, the moon waxes and wanes, and the world cannot be as it should be.

When sentient beings sow seeds, the cause and effect return to life; ruthless have no seeds, no sex and no birth.Three cups of turbid wine, parting from the king, a pinch of loess, burying incense to cover jade.

The novice monk came to the east of the city to Suoshijun Buddha Hall, shaved ordained, and wrote "Accepting the Ten Precepts", which became a monk's Dharma letter. "

In the British Museum in London on June 2007, 6, Chen Wan burst into tears.

The music in the headphones kept reverberating.

"We were once the other party's only hope..."

Brat, love her.

A love like a burning body.

She is not inferior to anyone.

She hates herself, hates herself for being cowardly, why didn't she know to go to the Internet to check this information...

Chen Wan turned around and wanted to run, she wanted to find the small box, to get the phone, she couldn't wait to hear the brat's voice.

One step, two steps, lowering her head, Chen Wan plunged into a generous chest.

"Little lady's saying that she loves me doesn't count?"

Brat's voice?

Chen Wan covered her small mouth and raised her head abruptly. Fang Yuan took off the small sunglasses she was wearing, revealing a young face with blue eyes and swollen right eyes.

Surrounding Chen Xiaowan, Fang Yuan smiled and asked, "Miss me?"

"No, no, no, not at all, not at 01:30."

"hey-hey."

Chen Wan nodded: "Kiss me."

(End of this chapter)