Net King - Blizzard

Another rainy day.The lingering drizzle is just as dark as my mood.

What's even more interesting is that I almost forgot how to 'laugh' these days.I didn't dare to tell Ryoma about the underworld, nor did I dare to tell him that I was going to the underworld.yeah i will go.For Yan Ye - I will go.Although I have made up my mind, ah, I really hate Ryoma.If I go to the underworld, will I really never see him again?

I kept thinking, and I kept thinking.Oh, but I can't think of a way to get the best of both worlds.Oh, no choice?

I can't let go of Longma, let alone Yan Ye's life and death.I want to be selfish, but I can't.I don't want to trade Yan Ye's life for my own happiness.

In the past two days, Ryoma's brows became more and more tight.His appearance reminds me of Toshiro Hitsugaya in "Reaper", that 133-year-old kid, who also frowns all day long, as if someone owes him millions, doesn't he?I laughed, but Ryoma said to me, "Don't laugh, laughing is uglier than crying." 'Did he feel it?My hesitation?It's just that he didn't know what I was hesitating for.If he knew all this, what would he say to me?Will you support me?Or will I stay?I would like to know, but dare not ask.I'm afraid... I'm afraid I'm going to change my decision.

God, are you crying for me too?I don't like rainy weather, I don't know why, whenever it rains, I always feel bad.I don't know why, but whenever it rains, I always feel depressed.

I know that my decision is very unfair to Ryoma, but do I have other choices?If possible, I would rather Ryoma forget me and my existence after I leave.Maybe that way...he wouldn't be sad.

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"What are you thinking about?"

"Huh? It's nothing. Have you finished your shower? Let's get ready for dinner." Looking back at Ryoma, I smiled.

Ryoma looked at my smile and frowned again, and said nothing.Just looked at me quietly, and then left the kitchen.

After watching Ryoma walk out of the kitchen, my eyes were a little sour, and I looked up at the ceiling.Now, Ryoma.You don't want to look like this, okay?why don't you askWhy don't you ask anything?

Covering his eyes with his hands, he let out a long sigh.There was a hot and humid touch in the palm of my hand, and I realized that I was crying again.Ah, no, I can't cry, I have to prepare dinner.He hurriedly wiped his face with the back of his hand, and continued to cook the last dish for today's dinner.

Take a deep breath, turn around, and smile. "Okay, let's eat."

The dinner this time was very depressing, and neither of us spoke.I watched Longma eating, and raised the corners of my mouth unconsciously, feeling a little warm in my heart, but also a little bit lost.How many days can I stay with him?How many more times can I cook for him?How long can I look at him like this?After thinking about it, I was stunned, and I didn't even know when the chopsticks fell.

"Are you uncomfortable?" Ryoma put down his chopsticks.

"Ah? Oh, no. Maybe... Maybe I'm a little tired. Have you finished eating?" I didn't dare to look into Ryoma's eyes, for I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to help but cry.Bend down, pick up the dropped chopsticks from the ground, and then walk to the sink to rinse.

"Really?"

"Well, really." With my back to Ryoma, I kept rinsing the chopsticks.

Ryoma came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist, resting his head on my neck. "What's the matter with you? Why don't you say anything, why don't you tell me anything?"

After hearing Ryoma's words, my body froze and I forgot what to do next.The water just flowed like this, for 1 minute, 2 minutes... I lowered my head, closed my eyes, and bit my lower lip tightly.The pain made me wake up a little bit, and I reached out to turn off the water.Should I say it?Should I tell him?No, no, I know it's unfair to him, but I still can't say it.I was really hateful and wanted him to ask, but after he asked, I couldn't answer.Now, Ryoma, I'm sorry.

"Really...it's nothing, I'm just tired, yes, I'm just tired, it's okay." I gently put my hand on Ryoma's, trying to comfort him.

Ryoma didn't speak, but the hand around my waist tightened even more, it was so tight that I felt some pain.

"Hey, Ryoma, it's time for me to put away the tableware." Yes, I want to run away, I'm afraid I won't be able to resist telling him everything.

Ryoma turned me around and made me face him.But I turned my head away, not daring to look at him. "If you don't want to say it, forget it."

Suddenly there was a softness on my lips, and I widened my eyes and looked at him in front of me.Ryoma bit my lip lightly, holding my waist with one hand and the back of my head with the other, making it impossible for me to escape.Ryoma took my lower lip and sucked it repeatedly.After lightly licking my lips, he put his tongue into my mouth, flipping it between my mouth.I slowly closed my eyes, began to respond to his kiss, and put my arms around his waist.

After a long time, my lips parted, and I panted and leaned on Ryoma's shoulder, inhaling the fragrance of his body wash.It's not that I haven't kissed Ryoma before, it's just... It's just that this is the first time I have kissed so deeply, thinking of this, my face starts to feel a little hot.

Just like this hugging each other, I don't know how long, until...

"We're back~~!"

After hearing Nanjiro's voice, I hurriedly pushed Ryoma away, turned around and ran into the room.Damn it, I must not let this old man see me like this, or else I will be laughed at for a few days by this old man because he fears the world will not be chaotic.But when I ran to the stairs, I heard...

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)

Seeing Nanjiro pretending to be sad, I twitched the corners of my mouth and glared back at him. "Just pretend." Then he ran back to the room and closed the door.

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The days passed day by day, and finally the day of the final of the national competition came.

Ryoma was taken to the mountains by Nanjiro for special training, but I didn't follow.The reason is 'the injury is not healed, it is not easy to exercise', but the real reason, probably only I know.Because, I have already decided, after watching the national competition finals, I... I am ready to leave.

"Where's Ryoma? Has it arrived yet?" Coach Ryuzaki asked.

I covered my mouth.God, how did I forget?Ryoma he... he... he will... lose his memory today.I'm so sick, why didn't I remember it earlier, if I had known earlier, I would have gone to the special training with him.Thinking of this, I suddenly felt a little weak all over my body, and I fell down on the chair in the stands.

It's really terrible. It's impossible for me to remember all the plots of the anime I watched more than ten years ago, but how could I forget such an important thing?It really shouldn't be.

"Are you OK?"

"Ah, it's Yukimura. Uh...I'm fine." I was a little surprised, why did Yukimura come to the stand of Qinggaku?

Yukimura sat down beside me. "Long time no see, hehe, why isn't she called 'Beauty'?" ^_^

"Uh...it's been a long time, hehe." Hearing Yukimura's tone, I laughed twice. "Are you all right?"

"Well, it's all right, the rehabilitation was successful." Speaking of this, Yukimura reached out his hand in front of his eyes, and shook it twice, as if confirming it. "What about you? Are all the injuries on your body healed?" ^_^

"Ah, it's all right, I'm recuperating now."

"...I heard that you and Echizen Ryoma are dating?" Yukimura turned to look at me.

"Yes, Ryoma and I are dating." Thinking of Ryoma, the corners of my mouth uncontrollably curved, and my eyes became gentler.

Yukimura smiled helplessly. "Hehe, is it? I'm still late."

"Huh? What?"

"It's nothing, I'm going back to Li Haida. Anyway, I'm also a minister, so I can't leave for too long. Goodbye."

"See you."

"Will you cheer for me?" Yukimura stopped after taking two steps, without turning around, just asked with his back to me.

"Eh? This..."

"Ah, sorry, I shouldn't have asked that."

"I will help you cheer." Yes, I will help you cheer, as a friend, help you cheer.Not 'for' you.After all...my heart has already been given to Ryoma, and there is no room for another person.Yukimura, I'm sorry.

"Thank you."

"Beauty, come on." Sorry, I can only say 'come on' to you at this moment.

"Yeah." Yukimura turned his head, smiled, and then left the stands of Aigaku.

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After Yukimura left, I touched the necklace around my neck.In the end, I closed my eyes, gritted my teeth, and took off the necklace ruthlessly.

Not long after, only a commotion was heard.I turned around and saw that Feng Yi was here, so fast, so fast that I didn't even have time to regret it.Today she is dressed normally, with high buns and black casual clothes.Heh, luckily it wasn't the dress she wore when I first met her, otherwise I really don't know how to explain it.

Feng Yi walked to my side, sat down, and asked softly. "Have you decided?"

"Well, it's decided. As long as you are willing to save Yan Ye, I will go to the underworld with you and never break my promise." I looked at Feng Yi and expressed my determination.

"is it?"

"Well, can you give me a moment? I want to..."

"You want to say goodbye to someone you love?"

"Yes; is that ok?"

"Okay, anyway, we still have a lot of time, don't we? Hehe, it's not too late to say goodbye." Feng Yi chuckled. "No regrets?"

"Maybe. But, for me now, Yan Ye's life is more important. Let's talk about the future. Thank you. After the finals, let me meet him again, and then I can leave."

"It's nothing."

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Now, Ryoma.I'm leaving and never, never coming back.will you hate meSurely it will? !After all, I never gave you a chance to choose.No matter whether you blame me or hate me, I just want you to live a good life and hope you can live happily.

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go away

like a kite with a broken string

fly to the blue sky

go away

Forgive my selfishness and willfulness

please be happy

go away

on the day i leave you

before my tears burst

let me send my last blessing