Net King - Blizzard

Looking at the bright moon hanging in the sky, I sat on the window sill in a daze.Think back to the scene on the field.Yes, I have to admit.They shook my originally peaceful heart.I closed my eyes and felt like crying.Why do you want to cry?This is a fate that has been decided long ago.

Huh... so uncomfortable, my heart hurts so much that I'm about to die.God, why are you kidding me like this?Why did you let me meet Honglian?Why did you ask him to send me here?Is this—is fate?Looking back on the 13 years of living here, what is worth remembering?no!Even if there is only that kind of heart-wrenching memory.

I've been keeping myself out of the plot, but God played a trick on me again.Everything today seems to tell me - you are not a bystander.I don't understand, I don't even know what I want to do now.

Tezuka Kunimitsu - someone I want to run away from.I don't understand how he has the power to make me want to get close to him and run away at the same time.Because of his tennis?I don't understand.

Atobe Keigo—a person who wants to scold him and make him angry every time we meet.Why do you want to fix him?I also do not understand.I just think it's funny that he jumps his feet every time he is angry, and people can't help but want to punish him and get angry with him.Also, standing in front of him, I will have the feeling of 'I am not an outsider'.

Echizen Ryoma - a person I am most familiar with, who can make me think of the first person no matter what happens.Only he can give me peace of mind.I remember one time when I went to participate in a sports festival where my cousin learned from me, I was dragged to the finish line by my cousin who participated in the pick-up competition.Later I asked him what the subject was, and he said it was his favorite person.Favorite person?At that time, the first thing that came to my mind was Ryoma.It's just that I still don't understand what it feels like.

"What are you thinking?" A voice interrupted my thinking.

who is it?I look back.It's him—Guren, that idiot Reaper. "It's you? What are you doing here?" I frowned, wondering why he suddenly appeared.

This man was really rude, he walked to my bed and sat down. "Let's come to see you and see how you are doing." Khan, after so many years, he is still a 'family, a family'.

"Then you've seen it, so what?" I stepped off the windowsill, shrugged, and sat down on the chair next to the desk.

"Well... people have been observing you for a few days, and the experiment proves that you are not doing well." Faint to death, I was observed by this idiot for several days and still haven't noticed?

When I thought about being...no, being watched by the god of death for so long, I suddenly felt a chill down my back.But still put on an indifferent expression. "What's wrong? You've also seen my identity now. The eldest lady of the Ruoye Group, my family is rich, and my parents are very kind to me now. My appearance is also the kind that makes people jealous, and I am also a genius. Whether it’s tennis or self-defense, I’m better than others in everything. Do you think I’m doing well like this?” I spoke out about my talents and my current family in one breath.

"Really? But I don't think you're happy at all." Guren said in a rare serious tone.

I froze for a moment. "...How is it possible, I am very happy! How could I be unhappy."

"Are you really happy? You raise your hand to touch your heart, you ask your heart, and listen to how your heart answers you." Honglian stood up from the bed, walked to me and lifted me from the bed. Pulling up in the chair, grabbing my hands and placing them on my chest.

Plop, plop.The heartbeat from the palm of my hand was actually so intense.I quickly raised my head to look at Guren.I don't know what expression I have now, but I know that my expression must not be gorgeous.Heh, why did I suddenly think of Atobe's aesthetics?

"You forgot, you forgot how to communicate with your heart. In fact, such a simple question should not trouble you, but you have been unwilling to think about it. Let go of your heart, 'she' I've been crushed by you and I can't breathe." Guren let go of my hand, and then pointed to my chest where my heart was.

"..." I just looked at Guren like this but couldn't say a word to refute him.

"I'm sorry." Honglian suddenly bowed ninety degrees to me, his head was lowered so that I couldn't see his expression now.

I looked at him with wide eyes. "Why? Why did you say sorry to me?" I don't understand.

"If it wasn't for my carelessness at the time, you wouldn't be like this now. I'm sorry, if I had come to see you earlier, you might not have been like this. It's all my fault." Honglian raised her head, his His eyes were very sad.

I took a few steps back, shaking my head while stepping back, tears were in my eyes, as if they might fall at any moment. "Don't, don't tell me I'm sorry. I don't want to listen. I don't want to. There's nothing wrong with you. It's me who is really wrong. I shouldn't be here at all. I was so naive at the time, I thought I wasn't here I can ignore any plot and stay out of it. I thought that no matter what kind of things and scenes I saw, I would not be sad, because I knew the development of the plot. But I was wrong again, and I still couldn’t do it.” Yeah, actually It was always me who was wrong, because I was too smart.

Guren grabbed me who was retreating, then hugged me, and said to me while stroking my hair lightly. "Don't cry, it's not your fault. You just don't know how to face it, it's okay, you will understand." Hong Lian paused, and then continued. "Actually, you just need to follow your heart. You are not a person outside the plot, you were born here too, aren't you? You just have one more 'memory' than others. Don't tie yourself to shackles , you can live for yourself, isn’t this your life? Don’t think that you and them are people from two worlds anymore. Don’t you all live together now? Don’t treat yourself as if you don’t exist anymore , you touch yourself, isn't it hot? Don't stand in your own circle, go out. Don't pay too much attention to that 'memory', you are you, whether it's Duan Lianxue from before, or The current Wakaba Fubuki is fine too. You are still you, don’t care what others think, you just need to be yourself. Do you understand?” Guren patted my head. "I'm leaving first, and I'll come to you tomorrow. Then, tell me what you think. Okay?"

I closed my eyes. "Hmm." Guren let go of me and disappeared into my room.

I collapsed on the bed, looked at the ceiling, and thought of Guren talking.

……

The night... is getting dark.The lights in the city gradually went out, and the noisy streets returned to tranquility.The wind was blowing like this, bringing a burst of coolness, but blowing away the high wall in my heart.I - can I not care about those plots?