Shepherd Tantra

Chapter 193 Inheritance of Death

Of course Aiwass himself did not keep a diary.

This will make him feel insecure, as if someone is spying on him.It feels like just writing it out, even if theoretically no one else will see your diary.

In this case, if Aiwass was asked to write a diary, he would not be able to write the truth.

It’s like sharing daily life on social platforms—of course, the shared content has been processed, refining the interesting parts, artificially removing those boring elements, and hiding those things that would make you feel ashamed.It is even possible to tell a lie that I believe, and repeat it over and over again in an attempt to modify my memory.

——But on the other hand, if you read other people's diaries, it will make Aiwass feel a kind of aggressiveness.

Peeking is a kind of secret aggression. It is different to accept the other party's consent and watch under the other party's gaze-it has a feeling of peeling the other party's heart face to face.This feeling excited Aiwass even more than ripping off his clothes.

Even if the diary is not all the truth, but at least you can taste the state of mind when writing the diary... Just like folklore, there is usually a little connection with what actually happened at that time.

After all, a lie is like a dream, a psychedelic thing that needs the truth as the wine grains to ferment.

Isabelle said that "that part can be ignored", but she did not explicitly refuse.That is to let yourself see.

From this perspective, perhaps it was not Aiwass who peeled off the first layer, but Isabel herself...

Aiwass vaguely felt that Isabel may have been alone for too long, and she desperately hoped that someone could free her from the fear of the past.And that change had better be tough enough.

Because if she is too gentle, she may want to stop there and stay still... Her heart is strong.Because only a little comfort from gentleness is enough to heal the heartache caused by her stopping in the dark.

But that's always a temporary solution.

If you want to buy it, you can buy permanent fashion, and if you want to bring people, you can take it to pass the customs!

How can there be any reason to do half of things?

Unless it is deliberately molesting the other party...

And this made Aiwass feel excited for a long time.

But he still suppressed his heart, and started to read from the beginning of the chapter—if he turned directly to the end, the purpose would be too obvious.And without the previous foreshadowing, he would not be able to resonate with Isabel, and would make her feel disrespected and uncomfortable.

However, Aiwass looked at this "Royal Diary" seriously, and quickly invested in it.

Because this diary did record a lot of things that he didn't know...

"In 1887, May 7th, sunny."

"If you see these words, it means that I am dead."

Transcribed in elegant and clean words, it is a diary or a suicide note left by a seemingly calm person: "Whether it is due to poisoning, disease or curse, eight people in the family have lost their lives in the past seven years. .It can't be accidental in any way.

"In other words, we must be prepared to die at any moment. To live each day as if it were our last, and to prepare for the possibility that one day in the future, all of us will die.

"At that time, no one will speak for us, and we will no longer be able to speak. Because the dead cannot speak. Before that, we have to leave some evidence... to prove that we have been here, and that we have lived."

"My brothers and sisters, my elders, my children. I hope you will not be too sad when you read these words, and it will not be too late... Don't be too late to lose your sanity and dignity. From here Say, I wish I could die sooner.

"I will keep my diary until I die. After my death, this diary will be passed on to the entire family of Du Lac.

"I want you to remember-the descendants of Lancelot have no cowards, no fear of death."

This is the first diary entry at the beginning of the book, and apparently why they keep a diary.

...Leave records and proof?
Aiwass was thoughtful.

Although he didn't know who this person was, he did admire his composure.

And the next one is still his tone, but a lot of content is skipped in the middle.Apparently Isabel only transcribed the most critical parts of it.

"In 1887, May 9th, sunny."

"I may be dying, but I hope you all live well."

And then, the tone of the second person.

He seemed anxious.

"September 9th, heavy rain"

"Brother also passed away. He seems to have died from a curse. Mom is also very sad... It has been raining for three days. Did you come to see him off?"

"I saw your diary, and I understand what you mean. A knight must have his own dignity...but..."

"My lord...my lord. What on earth are you thinking? Why do you let us suffer this kind of suffering?"

And then, it jumped directly to a few months later.

"January 1rd, rain"

"My Anne is finally gone... She's only eight years old! This damned curse has tortured her for so long!"

"If you really want to die, you might as well let me die for her! If I can catch the caster, I will ruthlessly skin him and roast him on the fire!"

"My lord, what do you think? Is this your punishment for us?"

Seeing those words full of despair, Aiwass' fingers moved slightly.

He pursed his dry lips.

This should be the child of the prince or princess who recorded the diary has passed away.

His excitement gradually became heavier, and his brows frowned slightly.

Just from the diaries of two people, he felt the resentment and obsession entangled in this book.

At the same time, looking at the selection of content, he realized another thing:

If only Prince Andrew was the ghost, he shouldn't have attacked the little girl.This is more like a traditional curse... According to the traditional curse, the curse will attack the weakest person within the range of the curse.In this case, it is easy to be cursed by children.

That is to say, when Andrew went to find the mastermind behind the scenes to cooperate, the curse had actually been popular for a while?

He sat on the chair in front of Isabel's desk and looked at Isabel who was standing behind him, also looking at the diary: "When were you when you started copying this?" "This is actually the third book. The first When I copied it for the first time, I was nine years old."

Isabelle's hand rested lightly on Aiwass's shoulder, just like Aiwass's on hers before.

Her Royal Highness the Princess with long golden hair said softly: "Anne is my sister, she is one year younger than me. I remember it very clearly, because that was my first playmate who died in the curse.

"Before this, I actually didn't feel much about the curse. Even though it happened around me, I always felt that it was something far away from me.

"—until my best friend fell on the hospital bed and kept coughing. The curse she suffered from was chronic. She was cured repeatedly by the pastors, and it recurred again...but she couldn't eat, and her body became Weakened. Eventually left us in the middle of the night...she didn't call for help, probably tired."

Isabel lowered her eyes and said softly.

Immediately afterwards, Aiwass turned back the diary.

"June 1, sunny"

"Today is a sunny day, a good day to die."

"In 1889, May 1th, sunny."

"Yesterday, Princess Valeria committed suicide. Perhaps she was overly saddened by the death of Princess Anne. This is also the first member of the Du Lac family who committed suicide after an unknown curse occurred."

"It was suggested to go to war with Starbow or Iris, but Mother dismissed it. She seems to have made up her mind, and I believe her."

"I actually don't want to go to war, because we don't know who our enemy is. The curse may not be permanent, but the damage caused by war to people is permanent..."

"I am Herak du Lac. I will record all this and tell people. I will do my best to record it to the end... The Du Lac family persisted until the end and never fell."

"July 1889, 7, sunny. But I hope it rains."

"Crea is dead. My wife Correa is dead."

"It turns out that the curse is not aimed at the Du Lac family, but at the entire royal family."

"I'm shaken. I'm angry and I want to go to war too. I know it's only going to destroy me, destroy Avalon. But I'd rather have everything destroyed...but no. I can't do that, Krea He told me to stand up for my justice."

"…useless justice."

"I just want to protect my little Fili right now and hope he's okay."

Aiwass was silent.

There is apparently no one named "Fili" among the living royal family.For him who already knew the outcome, this story was too heavy.

So he paused for a while before turning another page.

"In 1890, May 1th, rain."

"Papa is dead. I'm Phil, and now I'm going to write for Papa."

"I want to live, and everyone wants to live. I want my own griffin, as mighty as Uncle Renekton. Destroy all evil and save everyone."

"April 1891, 4. Sunny."

"Little Fili's dead. Another dead. When will I be? I don't know."

"You can live one day at a time, and the bluebells are beautiful today. Just like me."

"Haha, I hope I can die beautifully. If possible, I want to wear my most beautiful dress and die peacefully among the bluebells. It's best to draw a painting."

"Will anyone love me after death? Hang me, if I give myself to you, can I dance with you under the moon?"

"In 1891, May 8th, sunny."

"Today, Chris passed away. It's probably almost my time."

"His Majesty advised us, saying that those who want to live can leave the Palace of Silver and Tin and abandon the name of Du Lac, and maybe they can live. But now, is it really useful? People who really want to kill us, even if Can we survive if we leave here?"

"I think the only way to survive is to become a Star Antimony or an Iris Man. But I choose to refuse such an ugly and humble way of life."

"I hope that those of you who read this diary will also choose to refuse. But if you choose to accept, I will not blame you."

"Everyone can live and die, children. You have the right to live. But I hope you will not betray honor—betrayal is the worst sin, and losing honor is worse than death."

"My Lord, I will fight to the end and never give in. I will hold my head high until the end of glory and life."

"My lord, I will come to you."

Those are powerful words.

Aiwass took another deep breath, his fingertips trembling slightly.

So much for the diaries of the royal family members, the rest is Isabel's diary.

And the first line that was opened was the diary from 1887.

"I'm so scared……"

"Dad said I could cry..."

Only two sentences.

This is the first diary entry left by Isabel.

But just looking at it, Aiwass seemed to see the little girl who was only nine years old.

She was so alone, so scared...so vulnerable.

He turned back and looked at Isabel who looked away shyly.

Even so, there was a faint, invisible smile on her face.It was the expression that he showed when he deliberately kept his face straight while he wanted to laugh.

—she was no longer afraid.

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