Shepherd Tantra

Chapter 381 Death longing for fireworks
"...So that's what he said."

Aleister sighed and changed the subject: "Speaking of which...do you still have the urge to transcend the path?"

Seeing David's obviously hesitant expression, Aleister added: "If there is anything, you can tell me.

"After all, it will be difficult for us to meet again in the future, and we are usually not in the same social circle. You can just use me as a tree hole to vent those things that you dare not say to the people around you."

"...That still won't work."

Unexpectedly, David rejected Aleister's proposal.

"why?"

"You are friends with Mr. Aiwass, and I respect him very much. He is a wonderful man...gentle, honest and kind."

Mr. "Knight" hesitated for a moment, but finally said: "I don't want him to know that I am a person who tends to go beyond the path."

……Wow.

You are so good at complimenting people.

Aleister even felt choked by the praise and didn't know how to respond for a moment.

But soon, a gentle smile like a coaxing child appeared on her face: "Well... let's make a deal, David. I swear that I won't tell Aiwass what you said to me, how about that?" "

"But is this really good?"

David said with some worry: "You are friends, right? In this case, you are hiding something from your friends... I am afraid that you will quarrel because of this. I respect you all, if you quarrel because of this reason , that will also be my fault."

"...That's it. If I want to tell Aiwass about you, I have to get your consent first. Is that okay?"

Aleister seemed to take a step back.

And David was clearly successfully cajoled.He thought seriously for a while, and then nodded slowly: "That's okay. If you want to quarrel about this matter, remember to tell me... No, if it is an emergency, I will agree by default. ."

"To be honest, I think you are more suitable for the path of devotion."

Aleister sighed: "You are indeed a good boy."

But when he heard Aleister praise himself as a good boy, David curled his lips instead, obviously not happy.

He did not continue, but kept a straight face, acted like an adult, and spoke seriously: "Miss Aleister, I have seriously considered the three questions you asked me."

"Just call me Aleister." Aleister added with a chuckle.

"Yes, Sir Aleister."

David was a bit stubborn, but maybe he just didn't dare call Aleister by his first name.

He said seriously: "I think that I have been able to achieve at least the first two points stably.

"——The courage to live towards death, and the consciousness to challenge the invincible enemy.

"Only the third point...'Giving up the victory you have already won to seek a greater victory' is a bit difficult. I think I may be able to do it, and I have that determination. But after all, I have never really faced such a situation. It's a painful choice... so I'm not sure whether I can make such a move then..."

From the beginning, it was obvious that he didn’t want to talk about it.But after he started talking, he started talking non-stop.

Obviously he usually has a lot of worries and troubles, but he doesn't dare to say these words to others.

Although Aiwass knows that the illegality of Avalon's Transcendence Path largely comes from the illegality of the Noble Red, which monopolizes the knowledge of Transcendence Path advancement.And with the Noble Red now being wiped out, the Transcendence Path will soon be lifted.

The restrictions on other paths are basically career restrictions.For example, the twilight path may be a preservationist or a necromancer.From the general moral perspective of the Avalonians, the former is a good guy and the latter is a bad guy.

But obviously, David, who is not familiar with politics, does not understand the problems with this position.

He simply felt that he was touching Avalon's taboo.

On the one hand, he did feel the resonance of Taoism, but on the other hand, his father's identity made him dare not say this to anyone.

He was afraid that his father would be disappointed in him and that he would cause trouble for his father.

Only "Miss Aleister", a transcendent person who transcended the path, but was very kind to prevent him from embarking on this path, could make him boldly express the sorrows in his heart.

David sat across the table and talked non-stop to Aleister.

It started with the "Three Principles of Beyond the Path" that Aiwass once showed him, and then he smoothly talked about his classmates, and then started to complain to Aleister, the human-shaped tree hole.

He thinks his classmates are too naive.There are no ideas, no dreams, and no responsibilities.It was as if they were just living one day at a time, squandering their time casually... and this made David feel uncomfortable all over.Because he was repeatedly taught by his parents, which put tremendous pressure on him; but from another perspective, he did feel very tired.

That's why he skipped class - his skipping class was not out of fun, but because he thought "the teacher couldn't give him what he wanted" and he wanted to learn something more useful and profound.But even his parents didn't know David's true thoughts.

Because David did not dare to say these words.He felt that this was "too transcendent" and would make people question their suitability for the path.Therefore, he is still deliberately concealing his true thoughts.

Aleister just smiled and catered to him.As David talked, it gradually became natural.

From that upright sitting posture, he gradually turned into a lazy posture lying on the table.David is 1.6 meters tall, but the interrogation chair that was too tall to highlight the tall image of the interrogator was still too tall for him, causing his legs to swing back and forth very naturally.

Under Aleister's guidance, David successfully talked about his emotions.

He does have a girl he likes in his class.

It was a bishop's child, as old as he was this year.Her mother, like Bishop Mathers, was a spiritual councilor of the Round Table Hall.Probably because of this, they were able to study in the same school.

At first, David secretly fell in love with her because of her gentleness and kindness.

Because he felt that the other party had a "mature" temperament - or in other words, it was different from the thirteen or fourteen-year-old kids around him.That kind of feeling of taking care of people, like a sister.Against the background of those carefree children, it seemed that the other party was much precocious than the others.But David did not confess to her, but secretly observed.

But soon, he felt disappointed again.Because he found that the other party was not as mature as he thought...she would be willful, noisy, and like the same things that children like.

What shocked him the most was that at a social party, he saw the girl arguing with her mother, saying that she wanted to go home, and even burst into tears - that was the same tenderness as her at school. wide and completely different image.

David never quarreled with his parents.

He admired his parents very much and dreamed of becoming a great person like them, able to protect others with his own life.

"That's it."

Aleister said softly: "So you don't like her?"

"Ah."

David nodded, but felt a little disappointed: "In other words, I never knew the real her. What I fell in love with was just a silhouette of her, but I thought that was all of her."

"Not bad, he can also say some philosophical words."

Aleister smiled: "It's good that you can figure it out on your own."

"Yes, so I plan not to fall in love or get married in the future."

David raised his chest and raised his head, and said seriously: "I will protect Avalon with all my life."

"Then you will be beaten by your father." Aleister said with a light smile.

Hearing this, David shrank his neck and did not dare to speak.

He does want to be a "hero".He was indeed beaten by his father.

In fact, his original dream was to become a "sacrificial hero" and be worshiped and mourned by people. Later, after being beaten by George, he reluctantly gave in and changed his dream to "hero".

"But I still...want to fight to the end and die for others."

David whispered his true thoughts: "If I had a wife and children, they would definitely feel sad because of my death... Just like if my father died, I would also be very sad. And if I died, , it should also affect their lives...so, I think it would be better not to get too close to other people."

This is the thought hidden in his heart.

If he hadn't had such a happy chat with Aleister, he would never have expressed this thought.

——Because this seems to be admitting that his sacrifice has "ulterior motives."Then he is no longer a pure hero, but just a fanatic who yearns for death.

Aleister mused.

She also felt that it was not so much that David wanted to be a hero... but that he longed for a heroic death like fireworks.

This is determined by his adaptability beyond the path.

In other words, when his parents were not adaptable to the path of transcendence, the fact that he had such a clear desire to transcend at such a young age shows that he himself is abnormal.It's just that the Great Guardian's education was so good that it concealed his problems.

——Then maybe, we can really hand over the Ascension Warlock to him.

This kind of career that is aimed at death is undoubtedly the most suitable for David.

"So be it, David."

Aleister said softly: "Do you believe me?"

"I trust you very much, Lord Aleister!"

David said firmly, with some enthusiasm in his eyes: "Is there any task you want to give me?"

Although Aleister was different from the image of a mature woman he imagined...but her gentle and intellectual image, like a sister, really made him want to keep getting closer.

He also believed that Aleister was by no means a bad person.

In other words, Aleister who can be recognized by her father and is willing to let her get in touch with her... There is no doubt that she must be an innocent and good person!
And seeing Miss Aleister, who was wearing only a sweater, being restrained on a chair in the interrogation room in the depth of winter... this made him feel a little uncomfortable.

If there is anything I can do for her...

"In this case, after you are promoted again... you can go find Miss Ligeia."

Aleister said softly: "Just say that Aleister introduced me and got Aiwass's permission. You want to ask her for the 'secret of molting and rebirth'. Just say that you are looking for something that can be used for Seven Memories of the Ceremony…”

Upon hearing this, David couldn't help but widen his eyes and straighten his body.

He suddenly realized that this was not a mission.But an opportunity.

He listened carefully to the mystery that Aleister was telling, and there was a faint purple aura in his pupils.

Ligeia, who was holding Aleister's skirt and preparing to enter, stopped at the door.

She closed her eyes and listened for a while, then shook her head silently.

Wait until Aleister has finished telling David everything and after David has confirmed the details.She waited for a short while before reaching out and knocking on the door.

"Miss Crowley," Ligeia said in a childish yet inexplicably majestic voice, "the interrogation has been completed. You can leave now."

Then, she pushed open the interrogation room door.

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