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Chapter 101 Selfless Love
Pan Xishi finally realized that the child's mental health was already worse than he imagined.

At night, she brought Zheng Xiaoyun back to her residence.She knew that this would bring herself a lot of trouble, but she couldn't remain indifferent to her students.

At this moment, she is not Pan Xishi in the Jimao family, she is just a teacher.

At night, Pan Xishi asked Zheng Xiaoyun to share a bedroom with her, and she was not allowed to sleep by herself.But the child is not used to sharing the bed with others, so she gave up the bed to the other party and slept on the sofa in the bedroom by herself.

Zheng Xiaoyun said: "Auntie, don't be afraid, I won't do stupid things. And I think, if I can have such a small house, I can arrange it according to my own wishes if I have money, and then have dogs and meows as companions." , is also very good!"

Pan Xishi said: "This small house has made your aunt put in little-known efforts and a huge loan. You have to pay a lot to get a little thing you seem to have. There is nothing to feel sorry for yourself. , because this is a natural law, it is too easy to get, and if you don’t know how to cherish it, you will not feel happiness in many cases.”

Zheng Xiaoyun said: "Auntie, do you think I can achieve this small goal in the future?"

"Of course you can. I don't know how much higher your starting point is than mine."

"Where am I tall?"

Pan Xishi said: "First of all, your English is very good now. When I was your age, I could only speak dumb English. When I met a foreigner and asked for directions, I couldn't express it. Also, your grandparents only have you and you. You can't bear the younger brother and two juniors. My grandparents have so many juniors, and they can leave me with much less love than you."

Zheng Xiaoyun fell silent.

Pan Xishi said: "Although your parents didn't live with you since childhood, they paid child support, and they also entered into the obligation of being a parent financially. "

Zheng Xiaoyun said: "Then do you think there is still hope for me in the future?"

Pan Xishi said: "Hope is earned by oneself, and the life you want is the same."

Zheng Xiaoyun suddenly smiled: "Auntie, is happiness really obtained through misery?"

Pan Xishi said, "Then do you think I'm miserable?"

"You..." Zheng Xiaoyun was at a loss for words for a while. She felt that Pan Xishi was not miserable at all. Whether in school or in life, she looked very high-spirited. beauty and confidence.

The next day was the weekend, Pan Shengnan called and asked Pan Xishi to have dinner with his parents.If it was Pan Xishi herself, she would resolutely refuse, but seeing the girl doing her homework at home, she changed her mind.

Zheng Xiaoyun is determined not to go, she has severe social phobia, going to school is already the limit, usually she just wants to be alone and doesn't want to see anyone, let alone strangers!

"You don't have to go with me, but I will send you home." Pan Xishi's tone was not negotiable.

"Can't I study at your house by myself? If I'm hungry, I can order McDonald's by myself. I don't know anyone in your family very well. Why should I go? Didn't you say that you are racing against time to prepare for the mid-term exam?"

"You study for yourself, not for me. Why should I accommodate your time? What if something happens to you at my house? Not to mention anything else, just say that you ran away from home and couldn't find it. Do you still want to live? The good life of my life has just begun, and I can't live in the future just because I got this landmine of yours at home!"

"Isn't your words too hurtful?" At home, the parents just snubbed Zheng Xiaoyun and criticized her grades. There was no need to come in and humiliate her, but they never said such serious things.

Pan Xishi said: "Anyway, there are two roads in front of you, one is that I will take you home, and the other is that you will be where I am on the sixth day."

"Then you don't want to go anymore, okay? Aren't you not kissing your parents?"

"This is my home, you have to listen to me here. When you can afford a house in the future, you can close the door and be the boss."

"Why are you like this?" Zheng Xiaoyun asked, extremely wronged.

"Miss, not everyone in this world has to revolve around you. You may be forgiven for thinking that your parents are sorry for you, but other people really have no obligation to spoil you."

"I know! I'm not going home anyway! I'm definitely not going home! I feel disgusted when I see those people, I can't even eat when I'm with them, I just want to vomit!"

Both Pan Guanlin and Song Jiahui's health is not very good. Usually on the [-]th, the two daughters will take turns to visit, but in fact they are the ones who cook for the children.

I am old, but I can’t change my habits. I always feel that the children can’t handle it well, and I don’t want to admit that I need people. I hope that the children can still improve their lives on weekends. Only then do they feel happy and feel that they are worthwhile!
Today I heard from my eldest daughter that Pan Xishi is coming too.Pan Guanlin was even more amazing. He took his wife to go shopping early in the morning, and made it according to the way of eating during the Chinese New Year. No, it was better than eating during the New Year.

When they went, the old couple went to the vegetable market hand in hand, and when they came back, both carts were full.

Life on the road, Pan Guanlin said: "You call the boss and ask her to buy a small cake!"

"Why buy that, it's full of trans fatty acids, it's easy to block blood vessels!"

Pan Guanlin said: "Children like to eat! When I went to Xishi's, I saw small cakes on the table. There is no harm in preparing more!"

Song Jiahui was made uncomfortable by his shadow: "Looking at your snobbish eyes, I can't stand it anymore. I'm different from you. Let alone buy a house, I won't curry favor with her even if she becomes a rich man. I It's mother, she's a daughter, the three cardinal principles and five constant rules can't be changed by anyone, she's just trying to curry favor with me!"

"How is this flattery?" Pan Guanlin said, "I've already lived to this age, who knows how long I can live with this body? I can do whatever I want, and I don't need to explain why to anyone. Whatever, I'm happy, I'm happy!"

Song Jiahui took his wife and walked home: "Yes, yes, you are willing. Look back and see if your third daughter can honor you well!"

"You actually said these disunity words. Who am I pointing at? I don't want to count on anyone except you in my life!"

"You old guy, you have a conscience. Now you know the importance of my old lady. It's not the time for you to give the house to your brother, mother, or nephew!"

"You, as a people's teacher, can you stop digging up old accounts? I'm really tired. I'm not in good health, and I haven't had a good life for a few years. You put all the old millet and rotten sesame seeds from my husband's family and my mother's family. Let it go, let others go and let yourself go, okay? Let the child go too!"

This day was the most complete staff in Pan Guanlin's family. The eldest daughter brought the eldest grandson, the second daughter brought the younger granddaughter, and Pan Xishi brought Zheng Xiaoyun.

Song Jiahui didn't dislike the arrival of this little girl, but happily took a video and sent it to Song Jiahe.The other party not only could only stare with anger, but also had to say thank you repeatedly.

Zheng Xiaoyun seldom participated in family gatherings. She didn't know anyone in the old Song's house very well, and she hated that kind of family atmosphere very much, except for comparisons.

From adults to children, every meeting is like a variety of rankings.But she felt that the Pan family was different. The atmosphere of the Pan family was very loving, except for Shangyan.

"Hey, who is this, Miss Zheng, who went from an international school to a public school. It's so beautiful to be able to come to my grandma's humble house, we are all lucky!"

Zheng Xiaoyun said: "Shangyan, you don't need to be sly. It was my aunt who insisted on bringing me here, but I couldn't say it all the time, and she just didn't agree."

"Who is your aunt? That's my aunt. Do you know what a watch means three thousand miles? You should call me auntie!"

"What's wrong with my name being Auntie?" Zheng Xiaoyun said, "My Auntie grew up with my grandma back then, it doesn't mean that she is close by blood."

"Are you sick? No one paid attention to you at school, and I heard that your family also ignored you. Now you come to our house to provoke you. You are not fake, you are really annoying, super annoying, whoever sees it will get tired of it!"

"Shangyan!" Pan Shengnan stopped his son, dragged him to a place where no one was around, and reprimanded him, "You are the host, Xiaoyun is the guest, you are classmates, and you are still a boy. Think about it for yourself, right?"

"I'll tell you, Mom, I've never hated someone so much since I grew up. You haven't even seen her arrogance in class. It's impossible for me to be friends with this kind of person."

"We are relatives!"

"My relative is a bird. For a cold-blooded guy like her, even if I'm lying on the street, she won't take a second look. If I can't help it, she will go up and kick me."

"Shangyan, how other people do things represents her level, and how you do things represents your level. Do you understand?"

When Shang Yan came out again, he had already quarreled with Zheng Xiaoyun, but his eyes still glanced at her from time to time.Zheng Xiaoyun didn't show any weakness, and just stared back.Neither of them wanted to show weakness, their eyebrows and eyes were fiercely fighting.

Pan Guanlin was very happy to be busy in the kitchen, and he didn't ask anyone to help. He and Song Jiahui cooked by themselves, preparing a large table of dishes.Pan Shengnan didn't go out in the kitchen, so he was reluctantly agreed to beat him.

Check out this big table dish:

Stir-fried pork belly with spicy cabbage, red stewed beef in casserole, pot tenderloin, salt and pepper shrimp, sweet and sour hairtail, fish-flavored eggplant, squid carp, fish fillet, single gluten, custard crab roe, Korean whitebait, hibiscus scallops, braised western steak, Tomato Shrimp Ball, White Caviar and Crab Hot Pot, Braised Lamb Knuckle, Steamed Mandarin Fish, Grilled Vegetarian, Pot Stickers, Knuckle Crisp, Roasted Fish, Bazhen Tofu, Blueberry Yam, Multi-flavored Spinach with Nuts.

As soon as Shang Yan was on the table, he exclaimed: "Grandma, grandpa, this is too rich, 24 dishes, more than the number of dishes for the Chinese New Year! How much effort does it take, my aunt really has more face than us, I This is the light of my aunt."

Pan Guanlin said: "I can't eat it, your mother and your two aunts will share the package and take it away. Let your aunt bring more, she is working the hardest now!"

At this time, Pan Xihong served the last dish, and Shang Yan shouted again: "There is still cake! What's the festival today?"

Pan Guanlin and Song Jiahui had already taken their seats.

Pan Guanlin said to Shang Yan: "Today is the Reunion Festival. Go, bring me the bottle of red wine that your father brought me last time, which is said to cost more than 5000 yuan, and each of us can drink some."

"okay!"

Pan Guanlin filled Pan Xishi himself, and then said: "Xishi, going to work is very hard, and you have to judge your homework and write manuscripts. You must pay attention to your health. Go home when you have nothing to do. Dad will cook soup for you .”

"You are not in good health, you should take care of yourself more!" Pan Xishi wanted to say don't miss me, but he just couldn't say it out, as if he said it, he would feel goose bumps all over his body.She missed when her grandma was alive, she went home to eat every day. Although it was a simple home-cooked meal, it was so natural and comfortable to eat.In this big battle now, she can't even taste the taste of the food, and she always feels like sitting on pins and needles.

Pan Shengnan smiled and said, "Xishi, aren't you good at cooking too? Come to my parents when you have free time, and I'll let you have the kitchen, so you can show your strengths!"

Shang Yan said: "It's almost time. My aunt has been tired for a week, and I have to come here to cook later. Look at the three of you, my aunt is the thinnest now. It is not easy to make money, and it is not easy to be a good teacher." Ah, you have to bring this oil bottle with you when you eat!"

Pan Shengnan said, "Shangyan, shut up!"

Song Jiahui said to Zheng Xiaoyun: "Xiaoyun, your parents came back here because of you, because you passed the high school entrance examination, which is one of the key nodes in life. If you have any unhappy things, you can talk about it later, and you can't look back. Aunt and grandma asked your parents and grandma to seek justice for you, but the matter of the high school entrance examination cannot be used as a bargaining chip for anger, because ah, if you fail, the only one who loses is yourself, and now is not the time to play childish temper."

Zheng Xiaoyun looked at her aunt who had always had a lot of opinions on her, and suddenly she felt that the old man in front of her was not annoying, and she could feel from the words of the other party that these words came from her sincerity to herself.

"Grandma, you are so kind to my aunt. You actually cooked such a large table of dishes for her. The standard is too high. My parents came back from abroad, and I haven't seen my grandma for several years, and I haven't had this kind of treatment!"

The smile on Song Jiahui's face suddenly became unnatural. Looking at the dishes on this big table, she felt mixed emotions in her heart. She said to Zheng Xiaoyun: "Eat more, we will share the cake later!"

Pan Xihong said without hesitation: "Mom and Dad, I'm not talking about you. If you set up this posture, Xi Shi will be even more embarrassed to come here in the future. Whose family eats like this, you can receive big leaders now, tired I was sweating all over my head and face, which made me feel guilty."

Shang Yan was teased by the second aunt and laughed happily: "Grandma, grandpa, if my aunt really becomes a famous writer and super teacher in the future, don't you have to cook fifty dishes? You have to prepare half a month in advance."

Pan Guanlin said: "You bastard, parents want to cook more delicious food for their children, what does it have to do with famous writers and special teachers?"

Shang Yan said: "My aunt has also come here before, and I have never seen you treat me so warmly. You will be accused of eating a piece of mooncake. Now that the value is different, the treatment will naturally increase. It's normal, and I understand it."

Pan Shengnan said: "What do you understand, children are born in every family."

"Of course I understand, the society is like this now. Our primary school classmate Song Qiang used to bully me, but now I see that my dad has made more money, my mother has become a teaching and researcher, and my family has changed to a new house. My dad is not at home, but he burns the bag I bought a luxury car, saw their family of three the other day, the guy was much more polite to me, and even invited me to their house to play, is it too realistic!"

Pan Guanlin said: "Look, children are too social now, and it's all the fault of their parents. If they are educated like this, how will they be scientists, how will they be the pillars of the country, and how will they protect their families? To make money? Such parents, what do they think?"

Pan Guanlin said to his three daughters: "As teachers, you have to reverse the values ​​of some children in the classroom. You don't have to be rich to get respect! If you don't explain this truth to the children clearly, you will He is not worthy to be a teacher, nor is he my child!"

Seeing that his grandfather was angry, Shang Yan stuck out his tongue in fright and stopped talking.

Song Jiahui sighed and said: "Is it really useful to pay attention to these material things? Most parents in ordinary families always try to give the best to their children, and they also show the best side of the family to the people around them. They all look like They are rich people, and many of them are in various debts.

But when the child grows up, the parents are simply unable to provide superior resources. The child is used to the comparison and cannot bear it psychologically. The child has never suffered since childhood, and cannot bear the hardships of life.

Looking back, the parents will find that they have personally raised and disabled their children's ability to struggle.Enrichment beyond ability is harm! "

Zheng Xiaoyun felt that these words seemed to be talking about herself.Her family is not poor, but compared with many wealthy families in international schools, it is indeed much worse.Although the parents are abroad, their family conditions are actually similar to those of Shang Yan, and there are still two children in the family.

Shang Yan also feels that this is a bit like talking about himself, so parents don’t talk about it, and grandma and grandpa also eat and use the best for themselves. This is a double standard.The child sighed and said, "It's easier said than done. In the future, if you don't have the skills, you will be bullied, but now you are ridiculed, and you are bullied now. Parents have nothing to do!"

Pan Shengnan said, "Mom and Dad, don't listen to business talk. School uniforms are now worn from elementary school to high school. The school pays attention to this aspect."

Shang Yan said: "That's a pretty good school, there are many schools that don't wear school uniforms every day!"

Song Jiahui said to the eldest grandson: "Then you have to do well in the school."

Shang Yan said: "I still remember, when I was in elementary school, the school organized some activities, that is, I took pictures of my home and sent them to the class. Every student's family environment was exposed. Many parents changed houses because of these few photos every year. !"

Pan Guanlin said: "That means that the parents in your community are still rich, otherwise, whoever said they would change houses?"

Pan Xihong said: "Let's eat, let's eat. When you go to college, especially a famous university, it doesn't matter whether you have money at home or not. It depends on your real talents and learning."

Pan Xishi remained silent the whole time, as if he couldn't tolerate such a topic.The small plate in front of her was already filled with food from her father and elder sister, including Pan Xihong who took great care of her.At this moment, Shang Yan, the little gossip guy, said to Pan Xishi, "Auntie, why are you silent?"

Pan Xishi thought for a while and said: "I have never lived abroad, I only know that life is not easy, and there is no easy meal in the world."

She said that this sentence meant earning money to earn a job, but Song Jiahui felt that the other party was insinuating, making such a large table with more than 20 dishes look extremely embarrassing.

Song Jiahui said to the youngest daughter: "Xishi, your father really wants you to go home for dinner, we have no other intentions!"

Pan Xishi suddenly realized what she said just now, and she hurriedly explained: "I didn't mean that, I wanted to tell Shang Yan and Xiaoyun that no matter in the past or now, whether in China or abroad, ordinary people think It is very difficult to achieve a little achievement, and most of them are ordinary people in this world!"

With such an explanation, the atmosphere became even more embarrassing.

Pan Guanlin tried his best to find a topic, but he still asked about Pan Xishi's writing. He said that when he was young, he was also a literary youth. She is about to publish a book, so proud and proud of her!

Pan Xihong jokingly said: "I have also published a book, and I have never seen you so happy!"

After a few glasses of wine, Pan Guanlin sighed: "I expected to publish a book when you got a Ph.

Song Jiahui said: "It's not academic books, isn't it just making up novels?"

Pan Xihong said to her mother: "Look at what you said, how many novels by literary masters in the world have inspired generations after generations. I don't like hearing your words!"

Pan Guanlin nodded: "Xi Hong is right. I am happiest when I see my three daughters have grown up, and I will die in peace. They say I have no sons, and I will be useless all my life. Now slap those people in the face , look at my three daughters, one is better than the other, let them be envious!"

Pan Guanlin said a lot during the meal that he hoped that Pan Xishi would treat this place as a real home, and the two sisters also echoed it.Song Jiahui didn't say anything but didn't refute, which is very rare.

On the way back, Pan Xishi was silent all the time carrying the big bags and small bags. She suddenly asked Zheng Xiaoyun: "How do you feel today?"

Zheng Xiaoyun thought for a while and said: "It looks pretty good. If it's relatives and friends, I'm really grateful. I met such a good person, but if it's my parents, it's not what I want!"

Pan Xishi said, "Go ahead!"

"Auntie, when I went to the United States, my parents were very polite to me, just like entertaining distinguished guests. I can feel this. Now they have completely lost confidence in me, so they are no longer polite."

"so what?"

Zheng Xiaoyun said: "Auntie, I know, you want me to understand that as long as I constantly improve my ability, I will be respected. I understand and I have seen it. I will work hard to impress my parents. But I There is a problem!"

"Go ahead!"

"Auntie, is there a kind of love in this world, that is, whether you are good or bad, the other party will not dislike you, and will love you no matter what, even if the whole world ignores you, they will still treat you well , I regard you as the most important person in my life. The book says that this kind of love should be the love of my parents, but I have never had it." The little girl's eyes suddenly turned red.

Pan Xishi said: "Then when you become a mother in the future, be kind to your children."

"What about you? Auntie, why don't you get married, want a baby, and treat them even better?"

"You are all my babies. I don't have children, so I will treat my students even better now. I won't be polite to you. If you don't correct your mistakes, just spank your ass!"

Zheng Xiaoyun laughed for the first time in a long time. She figured it out, the only one who paid for her anger was herself, her parents and younger brothers, and the person grandma loved most was her father.She no longer expects their selfless love, and maybe one day they can still get their respect.

(End of this chapter)