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Chapter 104 Only Sunshine and Hope in My Heart

Outside the emergency room, all members of the Pan family were present.

Besides the four girls, two sons-in-law and Pan Xinyi's fiancé, Xiao Cui, also came.

Shang Yunxuan got the news from Pan Shengnan, thinking that Pan Xishi might become the target of public criticism again, so he rushed over.

A big accident happened at home, and the two old people went to the emergency room.

Pan Xishi didn't say a word, and the rest of the people also had serious expressions.

Song Jiahui's heart disease has reached a very serious level, so she can't be tired, angry, over-worried, or frightened.When Pan Guanlin heard that his wife had been rescued for a long time, he was issued a critical illness notice, his eyes darkened, and he also entered the hospital.

Pan Xihong cried and said to Pan Xishi: "Our mother is such a strong person, no matter how sorry she was to you before, she took the initiative to go to you. Can't you treat her better? Just treat her as a guest and pretend to be polite." Can't you?"

Pan Xinyi's eyes were red from crying: "Uncle and Auntie have been so kind to me since childhood, and I have no ability to repay them. I always thought that my conditions would be better in the future, but I didn't expect it."

Shang Yunxuan silently stood beside Pan Xishi. He could see the sadness on her face. This was definitely a very difficult and complicated situation. Even if Pan Xishi had enough reasons, he couldn't deal with it as calmly and indifferently as before. What's more, if the old man has something wrong, as a biological daughter, she will never forgive herself for the rest of her life.

Shang Xuehai looked at his wife's distressed expression, sighed, turned around and said to Pan Xihong, "His second aunt, grandma goes to his aunt's place, and you should be alone. How does Xishi know the old man's health condition? You also know grandma's condition." That temper, just say it, and leave at my house before, how can others understand these situations?"

Xiao Cui glanced at Pan Xinyi, frowned and said, "Why are you crying? The old man is afraid of you when he rescues you. It's annoying!"

The air suddenly became quiet.

Pan Shengnan took a deep breath, and said to Pan Xishi: "Xishi, when our mother gets better, you must treat her better. Parents are old, even if there are thousands of things wrong, the fate is only so many years, What do you say?"

Pan Xishi's face was pale.The moment the photo of Song Jiahui collapsed in the elevator was posted to the owner group by the neighbors, she was really out of her mind. Maybe she was naturally cold?Her first reaction was guilt, but then it turned out to be afraid of taking responsibility, and she hadn't had it for many years and was at a loss.

Facing Pan Shengnan's question, she chose to remain silent.

Chang Yuan also said: "Xishi, parents who are all right in the world, don't be too stubborn. Listen to the elder sister, wait for our mother and our father to get through this disaster, and we will get along well. After all, we are a family and should love each other. In this way If you are close to your own family, it is good for outsiders to see, right?"

Afterwards, everyone talked to each other, covering Pan Xishi like a net all over the sky.

Pan Shengnan said: "Yes Xishi, don't let yourself have regrets for the rest of your life! Those are your biological parents."

Pan Xinyi said: "Sister Xishi, just take it as me begging you, as the old saying goes, if you want to raise a child, you will not wait for your relatives!"

Pan Xihong said: "When parents are alive, they know where they came from, and when they die, there is only a way back. We are all teachers, and you are also a part-time writer. Don't you understand this truth?"

Pan Xishi's emotions completely exploded amidst the questioning of the crowd and the sound of chicken soup being poured over his face.From the moment she dialed 120 with trembling hands, her spirit was always tense, and her heart seemed to be able to stop beating at any time.

In fact, deep down in her heart, what she fears the most is facing the current situation. She thought she could handle everything calmly, but it turned out that she really couldn't.

Now she felt that these people in front of her were like creditors, asking her for debts one after another.

But who did she owe it to?
"Xi Shi, don't get excited!" Shang Yunxuan took out a Ferrero, handed it to her, and was thrown off the ground. He felt that the girl who had been admonishing himself to be calm and to do emotional subtraction was gradually shaking all over her body. trembling.

"If she had passed out in the elevator while leaving any of your homes, would you be so aggressive in pursuing accountability?"

Pan Xishi hadn't shed tears for a long time, and she couldn't help sobbing, "Who told you that your mother had an argument with me?"

"How do you know I didn't treat her like a guest?"

"Besides, have you ever quarreled with your parents at your own home or at your parents' home? The old man in the emergency room has a bad heart and poor health. Because of you kids?"

"Whether you are dear or dear, how much trouble have you caused the old man, why didn't I see what you said?"

Pan Xishi felt that he was wronged, but when he said these words again, he still felt so guilty.For a moment, she felt that she was not as good as an orphan who was completely abandoned by her parents. Without the blood relationship of close relatives, she would not have so many creditors, and would not have so many self-blame!
She was muddy and struggling all the way, and life became easier with great difficulty, but so many heavy family ties came to her, like a rope trapped herself, and the more she struggled, the tighter she tied it.

Pan Shengnan also noticed the strangeness of the little girl: "Xishi, what's wrong with you? You."

Shang Yunxuan said: "I'll accompany her outside to get some fresh air, and I'll be right back!"

Under the bright sun, Pan Xishi cried like a child, unable to control himself.

Shang Yunxuan wanted to comfort her at first, but as soon as he got closer to her, she resisted extremely, as if he was an invader who broke into her world, she armed herself with full armor, if someone took a step closer, she would desperately resist .

"Xishi, this is just an accident and has nothing to do with you. You have been wronged!"

The man's gentle and gentle words, just one sentence, made the crying girl fail, crying louder, more like a way to vent.Shang Yunxuan had never seen Pan Xishi like this before, besides being distressed, he also seemed relieved.

After a while, Pan Xishi gradually calmed down a little, she said softly to Shang Yunxuan: "She came to my house, I really hate her, I don't like what she says, and I don't want to obey her opinion. If I could have spoken to her in a more polite manner, perhaps she would not have had the disease!"

Shang Yunxuan said: "I know what kind of person you are, don't think too much, this is really an accident, no one wants to do this!"

Pan Xishi said: "If she recovers this time, I am willing to reduce my life by ten years."

Shang Yunxuan said: "Usually calm and smart, but now you look like a child. You are the most precious thing in the world, and everything about you belongs to yourself."

After rescue, Song Jiahui finally saved her life from the gate of hell. The first thing she did when she opened her eyes was to find her little daughter.

Looking at the pale mother on the hospital bed, Pan Xishi suddenly thought of how old she was.When they first came to Xingang to visit relatives, she seemed to feel the same way now, longing for the past in her heart, but timid in her heart.

The person on the other side is obviously my closest relative, but I want to take that step, as if thousands of rivers and mountains are separated.

Song Jiahui said to Pan Xishizi: "Don't worry, I'm fine!"

"The moment I fell in the elevator, I told myself that I had to take care of myself and not cause trouble for Xishi. I have never raised this child, and I can't let her carry such a big burden in the end. She will always remember me, and at the end, my mother will not spare me."

"How should I put it, I'm also the child's own mother, and that's it for me. She will have a long life in the future!"

"Compared with her having to feel guilty towards me for the rest of her life, I'd rather she just scolds me in her heart for the rest of her life!"

Pan Xishi looked at Song Jiahui, and suddenly choked up, "Mom!"

Song Jiahui waved her hand. She was in a very good mood now, with a smile on her lips, she turned her head and said to her children, "I'm fine, everything is fine. From now on, I will take Lao Pan with me when I go out, so as not to cause trouble for others. In the future, we will Forget about this pair of old things getting together every day, and never lay mines for the children!"

The whole family laughed.

Pan Shengnan said: "Mom, look at what you said! How can we just let you stay with my dad to raise a child to guard against old age? If you like it, my dad won't!"

Pan Guanlin and Song Jiahui were in a double ward, and the doctor said that they both had to be treated for a period of time before being discharged. Compared with Song Jiahui's heart, Pan Guanlin's physical condition was not easy to be optimistic.

At this time, Pan Guanlin said: "I can't just be with this old woman every day, she has too many things. She won't hold you accountable, and hold me accountable every day, this is unbearable!"

With that said, the whole family laughed again!

After that day, Pan Xishi came to the hospital more often than when the old man was hospitalized.But in the process, the parents and the youngest daughter had some conflicts.

Pan Xishi often thought, could it be that he and his biological parents were really at odds?
A few days ago, every time Pan Xishi came here, the old couple asked her every day when the relationship with Shang Yunxuan would be finalized?Thinking that Song Jiahui was angry because of talking about this matter before, but now Pan Guanlin's memory is getting worse and worse, sometimes he understands, sometimes he is confused, he can't remember many things that just happened, sometimes he sleeps for too long, if it is not artificial When I was woken up, I was afraid that I would fall asleep like this.

So Pan Xishi kept restraining himself and gave the two old people an ear.But they just wanted her to fix the relationship with Monk Yunxuan.The more this happened, the more Pan Xishi kept silent. She felt that the relationship was between two people, and there was no need to explain it to anyone else.

But on this day, Pan Guanlin and Song Jiahui actually opened their mouths to discuss with Pan Xishi, if she really couldn't decide whether to date Shang Yunxuan, then she should just go on a blind date with someone else instead of getting too close to him.

Monk Zhang Er was puzzled and frowned, "Why should I go on a blind date with other people? If I want to get married, it must be because I want to get married, instead of looking for a man everywhere for the sake of getting married!"

Pan Guanlin said: "You are [-] years old this year, when will you want to have a free relationship without going on blind dates?"

Song Jiahui also said: "I used to think that it would be nice for you to be with Mr. Shang, but looking at it now, we don't think it's suitable again!"

Pan Xishi was even more puzzled: "You guys are changing faces faster than the sky! A few days ago, you were doing endless ideological work with me. What happened today? Could it be that you want to use aggressive methods? I can't accept it!"

Pan Guanlin shook his head: "Your mother and I are already in this state, so I don't have the heart to joke with you. Besides, you are not used to our jokes, and you can only be cold when telling jokes with you. We are speaking from the bottom of our hearts!"

Song Jiahui said: "Did you know? Shang Yunxuan came to see us that day, and he said that he would resign next semester!"

Pan Xishi frowned even tighter. Shang Yunxuan didn't tell her such a big matter.

That time, Shang Yunxuan came to the hospital to visit the elders of the Pan family, just in time for Pan Guanlin to fall asleep in a daze, unable to wake up no matter how much he screamed.Song Jiahui was crying silently.Shang Yunxuan remembered Pan Guanlin's radiant look when he was teaching in Inner Mongolia before, so he narrated what he heard in the old man's ear.

Pan Guanlin's eyelids moved when he heard Shang Yunxuan's story about his past teaching, as if he heard it and was very touched.Seeing this, Song Jiahui quickly went on to talk about a lot of things about the school back then.

For example, Pan Guanlin was in the graduating class for three consecutive years, working hard from morning to night.Once, he was even assigned to the "cow herding class". Although he felt bitter, he tried his best to teach these scumbags. Unexpectedly, in a district-wide unified examination, the cattle herding class actually got an average score in mathematics. No. [-] in the school
It is said that men do not flick their tears lightly, but that time Pan Guanlin actually cried. He entered the school before 5:11 in the morning and left after [-]:[-] in the evening. Day after day, the dolls in the small place finally let a lot of children go to college. hope.What kind of skill is it to teach top students well? A good teacher is to let the students with poor backgrounds get good grades.

No one can understand the hard work during this period. Once he lost his temper at the messy discipline of the whole class.He said: "You get up early and go late to study every day, isn't it for the university entrance exam? If you come to school to eat, the food brought at home is not good, and it is better to eat at home. To come to school to relieve boredom? Why not go back and help your parents plow the land? Niu. If it’s for making friends, if someone is admitted to university, even if they treat you as friends, how many times can they see each other in a lifetime? Do you want to accompany the prince to study? Does the prince need someone who failed the exam to accompany him?”

There were too many scenes when teaching, and each scene flashed before the eyes of the two old people and echoed in Shang Yunxuan's ears.

Later, I heard two old people talk about their teaching in Inner Mongolia. Shang Yunxuan suddenly told Song Jiahui that he was going to resign and leave the opportunity of further study in a famous foreign school sent by the government to his colleagues who needed more resources.

He wants to start his own business, but the original intention of starting a business is not to make money, but the lowest cost, public welfare webcast teaching, to help more children in remote areas who do not have access to high-quality educational resources.

It turned out that Shang Yunxuan once worked as a volunteer teacher for one year after graduating from university. The difficult learning environment of those children was deeply imprinted in his mind, and he never forgot the promise he made to the children in the class before he left. Will do my best to help them.

Over the years, Shang Yunxuan has sent clothes, books, learning materials, and remittances to children in poor areas, but these cannot really solve the key problems encountered by children in their studies.The inequality of educational resources is the biggest obstacle for these children to be admitted to a good school.

He had been unable to make up his mind.However, he was very touched to see his student Ren Fei leave his hometown and live alone in Xingang for a year away from his parents, and was finally admitted to No. [-] Middle School.

Children who come from a small place and are very talented have to pay more to achieve the same results, while those children who will never have high-quality educational resources will likely have their talents buried during their studies in the future.Shang Yunxuan felt that after studying and teaching for so many years, he should use the limited time in his life to help more children.

This is his dream, the seed he planted deeply when he was teaching.In the past years, there was such an excellent teacher as the second elder of the Pan family, who only cared for the children’s good, regardless of gains and losses, and went to the fellow’s home to help the students with their homework. In today’s Internet age, he can better continue to complete the old one. It is the unfinished dream of an outstanding teacher of the generation.

As for income, Shang Yunxuan felt that he was born in a family with relatively good living conditions, and since he came to this world, he has already had a lot of resources and gained a lot.His future is more about giving back to the society on the premise of ensuring his basic life.He believes that in a sense, the more you give, the more you have.

After Song Jiahui narrated what happened, she said to Pan Xishi: "The parents who put up with Mr. Shang's utilitarianism back then hoped that you could be together because on the one hand, he was really good to you, and on the other hand, he felt that his job was relatively stable. , Drought and Flood Guaranteed income, going abroad for further study, maybe there is a possibility of being promoted to the principal in the future. But now"

Pan Xishi said, "What's going on now?"

Song Jiahui said: "Now I start my own business, which is still of a public welfare nature. Obviously, the future is unknown, the hope is slim, and the income is not optimistic. Why should I let my daughter follow him? Do I accompany him to live an unstable and fearful life? ?”

Pan Xishi said: "Mom, you still said that Shang Yunxuan's parents are philistines. Looking at you now, I think you are enough philistines. Teacher Shang regards you as a role model in the teaching team, how would you know that you are so philistine?" In my later years, my outlook on life has changed, and my mouth and mouth are full of material things, and they are all about money. Where did the two good teachers who were high-spirited and sparkling for their dreams go?"

Pan Guanlin said: "Son! Dad hasn't changed. After Dad came to Xingang, seeing your mother and your sisters, including the grievances you suffered under the fence of others, I have to admit that material things are very important. .When you are single, it is your own business whether you like to pursue money or regard money as dung, but once you have a family, it is no longer your business. Your mother and I are both experienced, we don’t want you Any of the three sisters will suffer this again!"

Pan Xishi said: "It sounds like there is nothing wrong with it, but I still can't accept it. I grew up with my grandma, and the education I received was not like this. I can't start a career because of the high and low material conditions. Affection and rejection of a relationship."

Song Jiahui said: "Your grandma, your grandma, your grandma wants to train you to be a maid for their family, can you really teach you to be careful? If you know how to protect yourself, you won't be fooled by those relatives, and you won't be fooled by those relatives. As for being so estranged from your parents.”

Pan Xishi said: "I don't agree with your point of view. My grandma taught me to be selfless, to treat others with sincerity, to be self-reliant, to have self-respect and self-love, and to not blame others. Although the people I met may not be so good. But I These years, relying on these principles taught by the old man, every time I stand up again from the bottom, I have gained a lot of sense of accomplishment and happiness in other aspects."

Pan Guanlin sighed and said: "Xishi, there is nothing wrong with what you said. But you have to know that parents really care for you and really have no other ideas. If you are already talking about marriage, let's say this It's been a while, but since you monk teacher hasn't started yet, you might as well consider our opinion carefully."

After finishing speaking, Pan Guanlin fell into a coma again, wondering how many things he had forgotten after waking up this time, and whether he would become more confused.

Pan Xishi looked at the elderly parents on the hospital bed, she swallowed many words, stood up and covered her father's life, she turned and looked at Song Jiahui.

"I know this matter, you are for my own good, I will seriously consider it. But grandma is the one who raised me, try not to say bad things about her in front of me in the future, I will be very embarrassing. Grandma No more, you are also getting old, and I will be old in the future. I don't want my children to be exposed to this kind of resentment and self-pity from childhood.

I hope that he can be like Teacher Shang, with sunshine in his heart, and what he sees is the beauty of life and the goodness of humanity, instead of focusing on the self-consuming things in these native families. "

Song Jiahui said: "Xi Shi, I see! You should think carefully about my suggestion, and I will remember all the opinions you gave me. But what you said really makes me feel uncomfortable."

Pan Xishi said: "I actually feel bad when I say this! I really just want to remember the good side of my past life. I even told myself time and time again that when I was young, my aunts and uncles were all He treats me sincerely, but later the position is different, and the role is different. I can’t deny everything. I think if there is only beauty and hope in my heart, how happy will life be?"

(End of this chapter)