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Chapter 65
Zheng Xiaoyun was sitting in the classroom of Class 14, Grade [-], Xingang No. [-] Middle School, feeling inferior and contemptuous of others.How to put it, she was also a person who attended an international school before, and in the indoctrination of her parents and grandma, going abroad is a matter of getting ahead.But in her heart, she didn't want to go abroad to reunite with her parents and younger brother, so when she knew that she might go abroad after graduating from junior high school, she was so worried that she couldn't sleep every day.She is [-] years old this year, and she spends very little time with her parents, and after the birth of her younger brother, they are the real family. She has been to the United States once, like an invader breaking into someone else's territory. will not be liked.She is willing to stay in her hometown and be with her grandma, never to be separated.

But when she transferred to No. [-] Middle School, she found that she was no better than her classmates who did not go to international schools.Even her English, which she has always been proud of, especially her oral ability, is not the best in the class, at best it can only be said to be excellent.Moreover, the children in No. [-] Middle School have not lost their interests and specialties, such as piano, cello, accordion, zither, violin art, chess, swimming, tennis, basketball. Almost every student has more than one specialty, which can be said to be excellent. There are so many classmates, she didn't realize her superiority, on the contrary, she was not as good as her classmates in many places.Especially the foreign girl next to her, she looks rustic, but she is a veritable academic master.

Zheng Xiaoyun was arranged by Pan Xishi to be at the same table with Ren Fei.I thought that when two girls were together and their parents were not around, they would be more sympathetic to each other, but who knew that Zheng Xiaoyun looked down on Ren Fei at all.Another last point of imbalance is that Zheng Xiaoyun can't figure out that she was rejected in an international school, and now she has to go back to a public school and suffer from the high school entrance examination. She has no emotions on the surface, but she has always been unable to balance in her heart.

Ren Fei longed for friends, especially felt that Zheng Xiaoyun, who had just transferred to another school, would worry about not being able to integrate into the group as before, and felt lonely and fearful in the new environment.But unexpectedly, Zheng Xiaoyun received the fruit jelly candy from him, and handed it back directly: "I don't eat this kind of cheap candy."

Ren Fei was choked so badly, this pack of candies cost 8 yuan, she had bought more expensive snacks before.Then, Zheng Xiaoyun didn't bring any English books, so she kindly handed over her own book to read with the other party, but the other party told her in disgust that she was good at English and didn't need to read at all. There were many such things, and Ren Fei was not without temper , and I don't want to continue to use my hot face to rub other people's cold buttocks.

Pan Xishi also found out that Zheng Xiaoyun didn't communicate with anyone after class, just sat in a daze, went to the bathroom by himself, and ate alone.In physical education class, sometimes the teacher arranges the students to play table tennis independently, and she stands by herself.After school, the classmates take the subway together or ride the shared bicycles together to go home together, but Zheng Xiaoyun is always alone, as if dealing with this strange environment, he closes himself up and uses the thorns all over his body to prevent harm.Pan Xishi seemed to be able to see some shadows of himself in Zheng Xiaoyun's body.In her opinion, she is more worried about Zheng Xiaoyun's taciturnity than Shang Yan's mischievousness, Li Kun's inferiority complex because of his family background, and Ren Fei's extremism after being encouraged.

In each weekly test, Zheng Xiaoyun's performance was very unsatisfactory, and he rarely passed the subjects.She wants to ask the children to come to the office to communicate like other students, or to stay and have a chat after school.But Zheng Xiaoyun never gave Pan Xishi such a chance.In desperation, she had no choice but to bite the bullet and come to the little aunt's house for a home visit.But she has a request, please ask Song Jiahe to go downstairs for a stroll temporarily, and leave the space for the two of them for the time being.

Zheng Xiaoyun said to Pan Xishi: "Auntie, to tell you the truth, I don't want to study hard at all. My culture class is probably only at the level of the second year of junior high school. Now I will suffer if I go back to a public school. But if I continue to study in an international school, My parents will let me go abroad next year, which is tantamount to killing me. Now they heard that I have depression, ran back to the public school, the previous high tuition fees were in vain, and told grandma on the phone to give up I despised me from head to toe, and even gave birth to me later, annoyed why they couldn't have only my younger brother!"

Pan Xishi said, "Did your grandma still say bad things about me recently?"

Zheng Xiaoyun was stunned for a moment, not understanding why the other party suddenly changed the subject.

Pan Xishi said: "Your grandma used to like to speak ill of me behind my back in front of many people. I have secretly heard it many times, but she refused to admit it. When you were young, I secretly told you that if Your grandma has spoken ill of my aunt again, tell me, and I will buy you potato chips."

Zheng Xiaoyun recalled it for a while, and suddenly laughed: "I thought of it, it seems that such a thing really happened!"

Pan Xishi said: "Of course, they didn't let you eat potato chips when you were young. I'll use this as a bait for you, but it will make you hungry."

Zheng Xiaoyun smiled and said suddenly, "Auntie, my grandma speaks ill of you, why do you still treat her so well?"

Pan Xishi said: "Because I have always felt that even if I am the closest person, if people criticize you, they may not really treat you badly. But I don't want others to speak ill of me behind my back, so I just With you as a small correspondent. Thinking about it now, we are both quite naive."

"Then why don't you like to talk to her now, and don't even want to contact her?" Zheng Xiaoyun asked.

"Because people change. In the past, I received signals that she was kind to me, but now I receive signals that she wants to hurt me, so I naturally avoided, otherwise I would Is it a big silly hat? So."

"So what?"

"So, even if the person closest to you says something bad about you, as a child, you should understand it in a good direction, because when we don't have the ability to distinguish, we can only rely on the person closest to us and believe that human nature is good. Etc. When you grow up and have the ability, you find that they are really not sincere for your own good, then you can express your attitude. If they really just hate iron but not steel, just say a few words, and you still have to believe that their starting point is OK."

"But what if they really mean it literally, want to give up on you, regret having you, and don't wish you well at all?"

Pan Xishi said: "This kind of thing is still rare! In this world, there is a high probability that parents can really sacrifice their lives for their children and want to give their children 200% love."

Zheng Xiaoyun asked stubbornly: "Then if I really want to give up on you, I really regret having you, and I really don't want you to be well?"

Pan Xishi said: "If it were me, then I would live a better life. A man fights for his breath, but a tree is a piece of skin. The less favored he is, the more promising he will be."

Zheng Xiaoyun's eyes lit up, but soon dimmed again.

Pan Xishi said: "Look at your grandma, how is your attitude towards me different now than before?"

Zheng Xiaoyun said: "Grandma used to come to you as soon as she called and leave as soon as she beckoned, but now she seems a little afraid of you! She is also polite to you, and sometimes she speaks according to your face!"

Pan Xishi said: "Although it's not as serious as what you said, it still illustrates a problem. I didn't follow their established script to work, and I lived well for a time, which made them wait and see. When encountering difficulties and falling into a trough, many people get excited, thinking that the script they planned will become a reality, how foresight I am. But I stood up again from the trough, and saw that life is getting better and better. The better. They may still be belittling you on their lips, but they still start to reassess in their hearts. The key is that I didn’t continue to swallow my anger and let them know that if they do something, they will be exposed.”

Zheng Xiaoyun said: "It sounds really cool!"

"Of course!" Pan Xishi said, "When you are strong enough, you will find that everyone around you will be friendly to you. Sometimes the relationship between people does not depend on how much you treat them. Well, it depends on your strength and weakness, people are generally more tolerant of the strong, and even if the weak have done nothing wrong, people will be very harsh on you, and sometimes the closest person is also applicable."

Zheng Xiaoyun asked Pan Xishi: "Is there only such a relationship between people?"

"Of course not! So if you find that someone can treat you unconditionally and love you, even if it is your biological parents, you should be grateful and cherish it sincerely. Because not all parents are [-]% for their children Giving, even not all children can get [-]% love from their parents. If it is really unfortunate, we are the ones who were born without enough love. Only by becoming stronger can we get more kindness. If we are self-destructive, not only will we not Getting more attention will only make the public feel that other people's scripts are really wonderful."

Zheng Xiaoyun said: "I don't think I have that great ability, and I feel very tired."

Pan Xishi said: "Anyway, it won't be worse than it is now. What does it matter if I work harder every day? And I don't work hard just to impress others. You will find that after working hard, you will form a habit, which will really make you feel better." When you become better, you will meet more kind people. As for the question of whether you are tired or not, as far as I know, playing games every day is also very tiring, and traveling every day is also very tiring. So What is the track you have set for yourself, and what will be the end of your game. Would you like to try it?"

Zheng Xiaoyun thought about it, let her parents in the United States look at her with admiration, let her grandmother recover, love herself like a child, and let herself become a better person than her younger brother without going abroad. It seems that this game is quite interesting.And it may not be impossible, isn't my aunt a good example?She has seen with her own eyes how grandma and aunts have made each other worthless, but now they come to beg others with nice words.

(End of this chapter)