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Chapter 84

There was a vast expanse of whiteness all around, and Cheng Jia didn\'t know where she was at all. She stretched out her hand and groped forward with difficulty.

Tears were all over her face.

\"Gao Zhan! Where are you?\" Cheng Jia cried.

The dense fog rolled around her, and Cheng Jia was terrified.She said tremblingly:

\"Gao Zhan, where are you? Are you leaving me alone? Why can\'t I find you!\"

Cheng Jia curled up into a ball and squatted on the ground.

\"Mommy mommy!\"

It was Cheng Cheng\'s voice, and the fish, Cheng Jia raised her head.

\"Mommy mommy……\"

Suddenly she heard the voices of the children.

Cheng Jia stood up. She hadn\'t seen her child for a long time, and her child was calling her.The two children are so young, they will definitely not be able to see their father and mother, and they will be afraid!

She quickly ran deep into the thick fog...

On the hospital bed, Cheng Jia was in a coma with a pale face. She lost a lot of blood. Fortunately, she was rescued in time and saved her life.

Li Ye was extremely decadent. He sat by the wall and looked at his feet weakly.He didn\'t dare to look at Cheng Jia, and his heart skipped a beat just by looking at her. The way she was lying in a pool of blood made him still terrified.

Li Ye clasped his hands tightly together:
How can Cheng Jia rebuild her confidence?He didn\'t expect her to be so decisive.He knew that Gao Zhan was good to Cheng Jia, and he also thought that she would be heartbroken and sad, but he never thought that she was so fragile.

In Li Ye\'s impression, Cheng Jia was capable, smart, cheerful and understanding. He never thought that she also had such a weak, stubborn and extreme side.

As the saying goes: You cannot save a person who is determined to die.He saved her once or twice, but if Cheng Jia just wanted to escape, he couldn\'t save her.Li Ye thought of what Gao Zhan said to him - \"She still has a child!\"

He immediately asked Xiao Li to pick up the two children. Gao Cheng took his sister to the hospital and held her hand all the time.

Li Ye explained to Gao Cheng about his mother and father. He thought that children would not be able to understand, but Gao Cheng only told him with tears in his eyes:
\"Uncle Li, I know what to do!\"

Seeing his mother still unconscious on the hospital bed, Gao Cheng said to his sister:
\"Dad has gone to a far away place, and we may not see him for a long time. Mom is angry, and she wants to find him. Yu\'er wants to let mom know that we don\'t want her, we need her!\"

\"Brother, I also want to find my father, so why don\'t we go find my father together?\"

\"No, the place where Dad went is too far away, and Mom will die of exhaustion.\"

Gao Miao\'s eyes widened in horror, \"I don\'t want my mother to die, it will stink. My little fish will not move when it dies, and it will stink later!\"

After she finished speaking, she opened her mouth wide and began to cry, Gao Cheng hurriedly said: \"Yu\'er, don\'t cry, we will coax mom well later, like dad coax her, if she is happy, she won\'t leave!\"

Gao Miao\'s big eyes were shining with crystal tears, and she nodded quickly.

Li Ye looked at Gao Miao, she was simply another Cheng Jia, especially those big eyes, like a puddle of water, just like the eyes when he first saw Cheng Jia.

He knelt down and said to Gao Miao, \"Your name is Yu\'er?\"

Gao Miao still had tears on her face, she nodded:
\"Father said, I was sleeping in my mother\'s womb when a fish flew over and woke me up, so I was named Yu\'er!\"

Li Ye wiped away her tears: \"What a good name! Fish never cry, and you will never cry again!\"

Gao Miao tilted her head: \"Isn\'t the fish sad?\"

\"Have you ever seen it sad? It\'s not sad when you have sad things and think about happy things! You have to remember what uncle said!\"

Gao Miao immediately grinned, like a small morning glory in full bloom.

Li Ye was stung by her smile. He had always hoped that Cheng Jia would give birth to a daughter exactly like her. The little girl in front of him was really the same as Cheng Jia. Her smile was so pure and innocent...

He thought Gao Miao was his child, and Cheng Jia found his lost child back.

He smiled.

Gao Cheng grabbed his mother\'s hand and called out one after another: \"Mom! Mom!\"

Cheng Jia ran around in the thick fog, completely lost her direction.

She suddenly saw Gao Zhan, Gao Zhan looked at her expressionlessly, without saying a word.

\"Gao Zhan, Gao Zhan!\" Cheng Jia shouted in surprise.

\"Did you come to pick me up? You take me away!\"

Gao Zhan shook his head.

Cheng Jia grabbed Gao Zhan\'s hand, which was cold.

\"I don\'t care! I want to follow you!\"

Gao Zhan took Cheng Jia and walked forward without saying a word.

\"Mom! Mom!\" Gao Cheng was still calling her.

Cheng Jia was very anxious, she said loudly to Gao Zhan: \"Cheng Cheng has been calling me, he must be scared, let\'s go find our son!\"

Gao Zhan looked at her and smiled, very warmly.He put Cheng Jia\'s hand near his mouth, kissed it affectionately, and then pushed forward silently.

Cheng Jia was startled, she called out: \"Gao Zhan!\"

Then he saw a pair of eyes exactly like Gao Zhan in front of him, shining with crystal light, looking at her with surprise.

\"Mom! Are you awake? Mom, you finally woke up!\"

Gao Cheng cried out.

Cheng Jia rarely saw him cry, so she couldn\'t help wiping her son\'s tears.

When Gao Miao heard her mother woke up, she ran over immediately, opened her mouth wide and cried out:

\"Brother said, Mom is going to leave us alone to find Dad. Mom, don\'t you want me? Don\'t you want me and brother? We listen to auntie every day, why is mom still angry? Mom...\"

She cried very sadly.

Cheng Jia\'s heart was about to break when she heard her daughter\'s crying, especially when her daughter\'s cry of mother seemed to hollow out her heart.

The two children were crying in front of her, Cheng Cheng was only nine years old, and Gao Miao was only four years old, she looked at them - who would leave them?
Cheng Jia\'s parents walked over, his father was in tears, his head was shaking constantly because of the excitement and sequelae.

\"Cheng Jia, we raised you up so much, you are the only child, how could you have the heart to leave us like this, we are getting old, and we want us to watch you like this...\"

Dad was so choked up that he couldn\'t speak.

Cheng Jia trembled and shed tears.

Mother stroked her hair: \"It\'s easy to die, it\'s just a matter of closing your eyes, but why are so many people still struggling to live? Just say Gao Zhan, didn\'t he struggle until the last moment? Cheng Jia, why do you think so?\" ?Because there are many people who need you, and many people who care about you. Gao Zhan absolutely does not want you to be like this. He has been working hard to make you happy. How can you live up to his painstaking efforts and goug out your mother Xin, do you want us to watch you die? Or do you want us to accompany you too?\"

Cheng Jia had nothing to say, she wept silently.

Li Ye looked at Cheng Jia\'s mother: \"Mom... No! Auntie! You have been here for a long time, go back and rest! Cheng Jia just woke up, let her rest, I am here!\"

Cheng Jia\'s mother was a little hesitant, but nodded when she looked at her father who was shaking his head and Gao Miao who was crying.

Gao Cheng held his mother\'s hand: \"Mom, Gao Miao and I are the only ones left with our mother. We can\'t live without our mother. I\'ll wait for you at home! I will do what my father does for him in the future, and I will accompany my mother!\"

Gao Miao also said loudly: \"There is me, mom! I will not be naughty anymore, I will eat well, don\'t abandon us! I want mom!\"

Cheng Jia\'s face was full of tears, and her heart was pulled together. The tearful eyes of the two children were like two belts, tearing and binding her heart, making it form a heavy knot, which made her sting and dryly ache.

She opened her mouth, unable to speak a word.

The nurse came in and said, \"The patient just woke up, so don\'t surround her with so many people. She has lost a lot of blood and needs to rest. We are going to have an examination now. Let\'s all go out!\"

Cheng Jia\'s father and mother are going out with their two children.

Gao Cheng held his mother\'s face in his arms, and kissed her lightly: \"Mom, you have to be strong! I love my mother!\"

Cheng Jia looked at her son, feeling very guilty.With trembling hands, she wiped the tears from his face.

Hoarsely said: \"Mom loves you too!\"

The two children left, and Cheng Jia\'s father walked last.

Every time he took a step, his body trembled, and the three fingers of his left hand stretched straight, and he also exerted force, as if he had exhausted all his strength in every step, and his mother supported him - with white hair all over his head.

Cheng Jia remembered that her mother\'s hair was not so white.

She closed her eyes, feeling like two knives were spinning in her heart, full of colic:
It\'s easy to die, just close your eyes, but does she really have nothing to worry about except Gao Zhan?
The doctor performed a series of examinations on Cheng Jia, and said while recording:

\"You have the courage to die, why don\'t you have the courage to live? Look at how many people in this hospital are fighting, which one is easier? How many people are trying to live a few more days, but have no money, scrape together and sell iron, what do you have?\" There are sons and daughters, there are old and young, and if you say die, you can do it! Is it true that the world does not let you miss it? You leave your children behind, how do you let them live? You are so young, don’t Live up to the painstaking efforts of our group of people, and you don’t let down the blood that was transfused into you, it’s all for people in society to help those in need, not for wasting it!”

Finally, he took off his mask and looked at Cheng Jia: \"It\'s not easy to die, but it\'s not so difficult to live! You have to think about it, I can heal your body, but I can\'t restore your heart. You have to focus on it.\" Begging to die, no one can stop you, but I will look down on you! You are sorry for everyone, and you are sorry for yourself! Do we live once just to die?\"

He turned and left.

Cheng Jia blinked her eyes weakly, her heart was weak, she was panting with difficulty, and her head was limp.

Li Ye sat by the wall far away from her, looking at her with some despair.

His hair was disheveled, his eyes were empty, his face was full of stubble, and he looked decadent and haggard.

\"Why do you want to save me?\" Cheng Jia\'s voice was weak.

Li Ye shed tears.

\"If it were you, would you save me? Would you watch me die?\"

Cheng Jia closed her eyes.

Li Ye came over: \"Cheng Jia, I\'m afraid of you now, I\'m afraid when I see you. I realize that I really don\'t understand you!
I know you love him very much. You have had such a deep friendship for so many years. Even if you don\'t care, there are still people who care about you, but you don\'t even care about your children and parents?You can be so selfish!Everyone has pain, and they all face life and death. Is it possible to give up all of them like this?He left, but he didn\'t take away his love for you, he was asking me to help you at the last moment!How can I help you?How can I do it?What do you want me to do with you?
You left me at the beginning, you left me decisively, leaving no room for me, I can convince myself that Gao Zhan is more suitable for you than me, and you go to him!Now that you are so determined, do you really think you can find him?He won\'t see you because you are too sorry for him!You are too sorry for me!I will feel that I have wasted all my efforts!
How easy it is to die!If I don\'t save you, you will die!It is said that life after life has an afterlife!But tell me, where is it?where is it?I only see that people are dead and can\'t come back!You are dying and you will never come back!Your children will be displaced, your parents will be old and homeless, Gao Zhan\'s life\'s hard work will fall apart, and I will hate you too!
Cheng Jia, I have nothing else to ask for, I just want you to be well, just like you once hoped for me! \"

Cheng Jia\'s heart was sour.

\"Ask what love is in the world, and it makes life and death promise each other. Flying guests from all over the world, the old wings have a few cold and heat. Fun, parting is bitter, and there are even more idiotic children. You should have words, ten thousand miles of stratus clouds, thousands of mountains and evening snow , only shadowing whom to go to.”

——Gao Zhan, you broke your promise!And I broke my promise, I can\'t follow you anymore!

Although there will be boundless loneliness in the days to come, I will always face the fact that you have left, but I no longer have the courage to die!
The sky is big and the earth is big, people come and go, I don\'t have you anymore...

(End of this chapter)