Secret love words

Chapter 19 Kaner
Ji Yan was silent for a while, his voice hoarse, and he said slowly: "Is this question important?"

"Important." Xu Chenyin tightened his grip on the bottle, and said in a weak voice, "Ji Yan, you still remember what you said ten years ago, so between us..."

"Xu Chenyin."

Ji Yan lowered his eyelashes slightly, his face was half-lit and half-dark, and his black hair was scattered in front of his forehead, making it hard to see his expression at the moment, and he said slowly: "There is no going back between us, what happened back then I can't and can't act like nothing happened, you understand?"

"I can apologize, I can make up for that incident back then, you give me..." Xu Chenyin shook his head anxiously in the middle of speaking, reached out and grabbed his sleeve, and said quickly: "Just treat it as a reunion between us." Another chance, okay?"

After Ji Yan's various reactions to her before, she can be sure that Ji Yan, like her, has not forgotten their past relationship...

"make up?"

Ji Yan laughed lightly: "Xu Chenyin, there's no way to make it up."

When such a tragedy happened back then, he couldn't even forgive himself.

"Ji Yan who can make up for it." Xu Chenyin put his hand lightly on the back of his knuckles, bit his lips tightly, and tears gradually filled his eyes: "Ji Yan, I didn't want to leave back then, it was my mother who didn't inform me." In my case, I left school for me, I wanted to find you that night..."

"But you didn't come after all, did you?"

Ji Yan's tone was light, and his thoughts seemed to be drawn to that cold and bitter winter at this moment.

That night, his father's company was framed and went bankrupt. His father was in debt overnight, and because he couldn't accept it, he jumped off the top floor.

And he witnessed this scene with his own eyes. For a moment, his mother's painful wails and neighbors' comments resounded in his mind.

It wasn't until the hospital, when his father was pushed into the operating room, and the moment the door of the operating room was closed, that he leaned against the cold wall in a daze.

Just when he was at a loss, the cell phone rang suddenly, which was very clear in the silent corridor.

It was Xu Chenyin calling.

Looking at the call, he felt as if he was catching life-saving duckweed in a dark and dull swamp. When he pressed the connect button, his hands were trembling.

It wasn't until the girl's concerned voice came from the phone that his tense nerves relaxed a bit. After talking with the girl about what happened just now, the girl anxiously told her: "Ji Yan, I'll go find you, wait I."

But that night he waited for a long, long time, from night to dawn, he didn't wait for the expected figure to arrive, but only waited for the news that his father announced that the rescue failed and passed away.

And the phone call from Li Yu. On the other end of the phone, Li Yu said: "Brother Yan, don't wait for Xu Chenyin. Xu Chenyin has already dropped out of school and is leaving for the United States today."

His mother heard him using the speakerphone, and said in a sad tone: "Ji Yan, people are the most realistic nowadays, your father is dead, our family is down, and we are still heavily in debt, so they will naturally avoid you Far."

"Mom, Xu Chenyin is not that kind of person."

After he firmly refuted this sentence, he dialed Xu Chenyin's number again, but this time it was not Xu Chenyin's voice, but a serious middle-aged woman's voice: "Ji Yan, right? You and I I know everything about my daughter, and I will definitely not agree with your affairs. You should do things at any age, not to mention that your current family affairs should be enough for you to deal with. Chen Yin is still young and doesn't understand, but I It's her mother, I'm responsible for her, don't contact Chenyin again."

After hearing these words, he was completely stunned in place, but he remembered the girl's words last night in his mind, and chose to chase to the airport desperately, just to hear the girl's answer in person.

It was also this decision that made him regret to this day.

Every night, he would always think, if he had listened to his mother's words and hadn't pursued him, then would such a thing never have happened...

A gust of cool evening wind blew by, and the cigarette caught between his fingertips fell a piece of ash, which burned his arm and brought his thoughts back to reality.

"Ji Yan, I was ready to go out that night, but my mother handed me a glass of milk. I never thought that my mother would put sleeping pills in it..."

"Xu Chenyin, this is not the only thing between you and me." Ji Yan's eyes darkened, and his tone was a bit cold, "That night, I..."

"Forget it, get out of the car."

Ji Yan suddenly felt extremely tired, didn't raise his head, and said without any extra emotion: "As for between us, you just need to remember that it's impossible, neither you nor I can make it up."

And he didn't want to tell her about that matter. Letting her know about the irreparable matter would only lead her into the endless abyss again.

"Is there anything else I did wrong?" Xu Chenyin's eyes were stained with tears, she held Ji Yan's hand tightly, and said in a hoarse voice: "You tell me, okay? Let's work hard together, what? can pass.”

Ji Yan leaned on the back of the chair, closed his eyes, felt her hot tears, his Adam's apple rolled down, and murmured in pain: "Chenyin, that's a hurdle, a very high hurdle, it separates We can't get over it."

"Yes, I can."

Xu Chenyin's eyes were red, she pursed her lips tightly, and said in a voice that was almost choked up: "Let's talk about it, and the matter will be resolved..."

"Xu Chenyin." Ji Yan closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, a pair of dark and deep pupils looked into Xu Chenyin's eyes, and said seriously: "That matter has passed, I don't want to bring it up again, after tonight , You also completely forget everything about the past."

"forget?"

Seeing Ji Yan's plain expression, Xu Chenyin suppressed her sadness and asked, "Then have you forgotten?"

"Forgot." Ji Yan withdrew his gaze, looked at the dim light outside the car window, and answered without hesitation.

"you're lying."

Tears fell from the corners of Xu Chenyin's eyes, and she sobbed, "You still remember the little thing about buying candy, but now..."

"Get out of the car and take you back."

Ji Yan's expression didn't change at all. After saying this, he opened the car door first, got out of the car, lit a cigarette outside, leaned in front of the car, and waited quietly for Xu Chenyin.

Xu Chenyin sat in the car, raised his hand to wipe away the tears on his face, exhaled softly, and after adjusting his mood, he opened the door and got out of the car, walked up to Ji Yan, and said softly: "Ji Yan, I know you have yours. Difficulties, but I really don't want to leave any regrets between us, so..."

As she spoke, she tightened her hand hanging by her side, and said slowly, "So, I won't change my thoughts about you. I believe that one day the hurdle between us will be over."

(End of this chapter)