Secret love words

"Looking for me?"

Xu Chenyin was taken aback when she heard the little nurse's words, but when she realized that it was Ji Yanhou, she quickly stood up and chased after him.

"Hey, Miss Xu..."

The little nurse was a little confused by Xu Chenyin's sudden action, and when the little nurse looked back at Xu Chenyin, she had already run out of the ward.

There was only the sound of the door being closed.

Zhao Jinzhou's face darkened. Sitting on the sofa, his aura was even more frighteningly cold.

The little nurse sensed something was wrong, minimized her presence as much as possible, and walked out of the ward lightly.

When Xu Chenyin caught up with Ji Yan, he was about to go back to his ward.

"Ji Yan."

Hearing her voice, Ji Yan stopped and looked back at her with cold eyes.

He didn't speak, but waited for her to speak first.

After Xu Chenyin looked at him silently for a few seconds, he stepped forward, pursed his lower lip and asked, "You... did you have anything to do with me just now? Why didn't you go in."

Ji Yan looked away, and said calmly: "It's nothing, it's not very important, I didn't intend to go in and disturb you."

Xu Chenyin froze, looked at him, hesitated to speak.

After a while, she lowered her eyelashes and said slowly, "That's because I'm bothering you again, sorry."

There was a distance between the two of them. Although he still looked calm, he was a little more distant than before.

There seems to be a thick layer of glass between them, unable to take a step closer to each other.

After Xu Chenyin finished speaking, she kept her head down, ready to turn around and leave.

Ji Yan pursed her lips, her black eyes sank slightly, and when she turned to leave, she suddenly said, "Wait..."

"what?"

Xu Chenyin's eyes lighted up slightly, and he immediately stopped and looked back at him: "What do you want to say?"

There was hope in her eyes.

Ji Yan glanced at her, and said lightly: "Come in and talk."

"Okay." Xu Chenyin nodded, and followed him into the ward with a beating heart.

When the two walked into the ward, Ji Yan turned his back to her, and after a moment of silence, he asked slowly: "Xu Chenyin, between us...do you think it's still possible?"

After he asked this sentence, he looked sideways at her.

Xu Chenyin collided with his eyes for a moment, and then replied softly: "Ji Yan, we are all looking at how you decide in your heart."

Hearing this, Ji Yan's eyes flashed with a struggle, but he didn't respond.

"The hurdle you keep talking about, I never know exactly what it is. I don't understand what can make you so sure that the two of us can't get over it." She lowered her eyes and said quietly: "Ji Yan, now the choice is yours."

"..."

Ji Yan's eyebrows were slightly pressed, and the voice could not hear any emotion: "Is the choice mine? But if I choose you, your family, do you think they will agree?"

"I……"

Before Xu Chenyin could speak, Ji Yan stared at her beautiful eyes, and continued indifferently: "Xu Chenyin, from the moment we reunited, have you really understood me in these few years?"

His family, his situation, and his burdens can all be a gulf between them.

"I've tried to understand, but everyone deliberately avoids things about you from me. I really don't know what to do."

Xu Chenyin said anxiously, "They..."

"It's also for your own good that they avoid you." Ji Yan interrupted her, looking at the scenery outside the window, his tone was also flat: "Back then, my dad jumped off the building without any warning, and left my family with an astronomical debt. To this day, there are still many fragments of that debt."

"As long as we work hard together, the money we owe will be paid off one day." Xu Chenyin said, and took a step towards him: "If this is the hurdle you have been talking about, then I think you are completely underestimating the relationship between us."

"Xu Chenyin." Ji Yan looked at her and was silent for a moment, his dark eyes did not hide his affection, but what he said was so realistic: "My current burden is far more than these debts."

He said, closed his eyes, sighed deeply, and said: "Back then, not long after my father left, my mother just because of..."

Speaking of this, when Ji Yan looked at Xu Chenyin again, his eyes were a little more complicated.

"What's wrong with Auntie?"

Xu Chenyin could not stop worrying.

"My mother, she had a car accident and became a vegetative state, and now she is asking for a lot of money every month."

In the end, he still didn't tell the reason, because deep down in his heart, he was blaming himself, and he couldn't get over the hurdle in his heart.

But when he heard what Wang Wu said, he couldn't deny his jealousy for Zhao Jinzhou and his reluctance for Xu Chenyin.

So, in the end, impulse overcame reason.

He went to Xu Chenyin and wanted to explain everything to her before letting her make a choice.

Reconcile with each other, the choice is hers.

But at the last step, when he heard her laughter, he flinched again. He knew very well that as long as Xu Chenyin knew what happened back then, she would definitely take the responsibility on himself, and then let her fall into deep guilt.

Moreover, even leaving aside that matter, there is still a big gap between them.

He was afraid that he wouldn't even be able to maintain the life she was living like now.

After all, what kind of person Zhao Jinzhou is, he doesn't need to say more, just mentioning the Zhao family is enough to silence everyone.

He is not as good as Zhao Jinzhou, he knows it in his heart.

Originally, at the moment when he came back from her ward, he told himself countless times in his heart that he must let go, even if he was reluctant, he must let go.

But to his surprise, Xu Chenyin would chase after him.

Facing her dejected appearance, maybe his own heart was also secretly disturbing, so he still said these words to her.

It's just that the reason for that incident was brought to the past.

The right to choose now is still with her.

"Ji Yan, I'm sorry." Xu Chenyin pondered for a moment, then raised his eyes to meet his gaze.

Ji Yan understood what she meant, shook his head, suppressed the choking in his heart, looked away, looked out of the window, and said: "Understood, the choice is yours, and besides, the choice you made is very correct."

If you follow him, nothing good will happen.

"What?" Xu Chenyin was stunned for a moment, then reacted to his words, and his brows moved slightly. He didn't rush to explain, but followed his words and said: "I don't choose you, you look very sad."

Ji Yan's face was slightly stiff, and he lowered his eyes to deny: "No..."

Xu Chenyin raised her eyes to look at him, the corners of her lips curled slightly, and said: "I was rejected by you many times before. You said a lot of ugly things to me, and I did think about giving up, including what I told you a few days ago. If I was a burden to you, I would definitely not stalk you again. When I said these words, you didn't respond. Do you know how sad I was?"