I accidentally made a fake show with the actor

The twilight had fallen at some point, Bai Munan was lying on the bed, he could see the scenery outside the window by tilting his head, the sky was fine when he came, but now it was raining lightly, and the thunder could come from time to time, disturbing his sleep.

She tried to sit up, but there was a sudden soreness in her waist, she went limp after a little effort, unable to use any strength at all, Bai Munan had to give up, and cursed Feng Qi a few times in her heart.

He turned his head and wanted to complain to the culprit, but found that there was no one around him.

Where's Feng Qi?
It was raining outside, thunder bursts, and sometimes a bolt of lightning fell, instantly lighting up the room. It was really scary, Bai Munan grabbed the quilt subconsciously, looked around in horror, feeling abandoned.

Her heart was empty, and her mood began to be inexplicably depressed. Those bad memories from before came flooding back. Looking at the empty room, she felt sad from her heart.

"Shhhhhh-"

Another thunderstorm fell, half of the sky was illuminated, Bai Munan carefully curled up at the head of the bed, hugging his knees, tears streaming down his face.

It was as if Feng Qi had never appeared before, it was just her hallucination, everything was fake, it was her extravagant wish.

"Why didn't you die?"

Suddenly, the mother's disgust came, pointing at her gnashing of teeth and questioning, wishing to swallow her alive like that.

Yes, why not her, this is also her most curious question, maybe it was herself at the time, then she would not be so painful, and her parents would not stay in the past forever.

Because her death will not cause any regrets to other people, they may be sad, but it is only temporary, far less impactful than Baimei, so that a family is torn apart.

"Why, why not you!"

These words stimulated her over and over again, like a death sentence for her, so don't try to forget her.

"I don't know..." She shook her head vigorously, and her emotions became more and more agitated. She seemed to see Bai Mei's figure passing by the window.

"I also hope that the person who dies is me, but these are not things I can choose..."

She yelled in pain, her voice piercing, her tears wet the quilt, her hands clutching the quilt were bruised, and she looked helpless and pitiful.

There was no one around who could give her a hand, no one who could tell her that it wasn't her fault, that she had lived in self-blame for five years, but they said it wasn't enough, that she deserved it.

Maybe only when she dies can she really be freed.

This idea suddenly rose in her mind, her eyes became desperate, even though her waist was sore and it was difficult to exert strength, she still kept moving to the side of the bed, and when she got out of bed, she lost her footing and fell on the ground.

A layer of soft carpet was laid beside the bed, so that it would not hurt her from falling, but instead of waking her up, it made her more and more painful. The sense of physical powerlessness and psychological torture made her more and more desperate.

……

"Mu Nan?"

At this time, the door was pushed open, Feng Qi came in with a cup of hot milk, and saw Bai Munan standing by the window, opened the window wide, and was about to climb up.

"boom--"

The cup in his hand fell to the ground, and white milk splashed everywhere, Feng Qi didn't care about that much, and ran towards Bai Munan at the fastest speed.

That time he was really scared, worried that he would lose her from now on.

Feng Qi hugged Bai Munan tightly from behind, his strength was so strong that Bai Munan was a little out of breath, and he wanted to embed her into his bone marrow.

This kind of pain also made Bai Munan slowly wake up. She turned her head blankly, looking at the face so close, she felt very wronged, and burst into tears like rain.

She didn't know what she was sad about, maybe it was Bai Mei's death, or she was afraid of losing Feng Qi, these mixed emotions were intertwined, which gave her the idea of ​​committing suicide for a while.

Looking back at where she was standing, even she herself felt scared.

It shouldn't be, she has always felt that she is very strong, and she would not choose to commit suicide because of this, but at that moment, she seemed to really lose the courage to continue living.

It turned out that she had never stepped out, but she had always been pretending to be strong.

Seeing her crying, Feng Qi's heart throbbed in pain, the movements of his hands were a little gentle, but he didn't dare to let go, he just stood there and hugged her, as if he was holding a treasure, for fear of Once you let go, you will never see her again.

"You're back... I thought you were gone..."

Bai Munan's voice was very soft, like a feather drifting gently, mixed with some bitterness and a little unexplained sadness.

"I think I'll leave you alone, so you..." Feng Qi didn't dare to say the following words, he was afraid that his words would become a prophecy, because it was the first time he knew that Bai Munan would behave like this, and he was very afraid that he would really lose her.

"Will you leave me?" She raised her chin, her eyes sparkling.

She shouldn't have asked these words, but now her emotions are very unstable, and she has too many negative emotions. She is afraid, afraid of losing, afraid of being abandoned, and afraid of becoming herself again.

Feng Qi knew that she was depressed at the moment, so he gently hugged her and said softly: "No, I will never leave you, don't think about anything, just sleep for a while, I will always be here."

"No, I can't sleep. I just woke up and couldn't see you. I suddenly... felt empty, unable to restrain my emotions, and became very out of control. I shouldn't be like this..." She Shaking her head, she couldn't explain clearly, and it's not like she didn't do this before, but she silently digested it by herself.

This time, it was probably because of the double blow brought by her parents, and the fact that she couldn't see Feng Qi when she woke up, so she completely collapsed.

No wonder, Yu Shao told her not to read those negative comments on the Internet casually, it would not do her any good.

"I'm sorry, it's my fault. I saw you were sleeping deeply, so I went downstairs and made you a glass of milk. I didn't expect to make you so scared." Feng Qi apologized, while leaning on the bed and hugging her into the bosom.

Leaning on Feng Qi's chest, hearing the beating heart in his chest, she felt inexplicably peaceful, and her ups and downs finally stabilized.

"It's because I think too much, I'm sorry, I've lost control of my emotions recently..."

Bai Munan opened his mouth, and said these words in a very soft voice. In fact, there are many things she should tell him, but she doesn't know where to start.

"Is it because of what happened today and yesterday? Although you didn't tell me what happened, when I heard your voice, I knew you must be unhappy, so I came to you immediately."

"Well, after I finish filming, I must give myself a long vacation so that I can relax."

She was changing the subject while talking inside and outside, and didn't directly explain why she was sad, and Feng Qi didn't ask, he was waiting for Bai Munan to say it himself.

"You want to stay with me." Suddenly, she raised her eyes, as if she was acting like a baby. In fact, the more she was like this, the harder it was for her to hide the sadness that hadn't dissipated in her eyes.

But Feng Qi didn't expose her, but kissed her forehead lightly, said with a smile: "Okay, let's have a long vacation together."