First Wife of Zhu Family

Chapter 264 You Never Came
Song Zixun's heart skipped a beat, "Rong'er..."

"Those days may not be worth remembering for you at all - I was always begging and pestering you regardless of my reserve, and probably caused you a lot of trouble." Du Rongzhi ticked off self-deprecatingly. The corners of the lips curled up, "Even in your heart, you may have hated me very much..."

"No..." he said quickly, "I never hated you."

Du Rongzhi didn't seem to hear it, and said to herself, "But at that time, I really liked you."

The corner of her mouth slowly curled into a faint smile, that smile appeared on her pale and thin face with a dreamy look, and even her cheeks were dyed with a light blush, "I never liked it like that Someone—to the point that if you just look at me, or say a few words to me in a soft voice, I'll feel... full of joy."

She spoke slowly, those youthful times that even she thought she had forgotten long ago, after two lives, are still as clear as yesterday, "You may not know..." She said softly, "Because Like you, I have done many stupid things."

"Really?" He held her hand that seemed never warm, and asked in a low voice, "What's there?"

She smiled slightly, and said seriously while recalling, "I was not a good female celebrity at the time, but I always wanted to imitate others and make something for you by myself. After two nights of hard work, even my fingers were swollen, but I only I embroidered a four-dimensional purse..."

He frowned and thought for a long time, but he didn't remember any purse he had received, so he couldn't help asking, "What happened next?"

"Later..." Du Rongzhi shook his head with a wry smile, "Later, I asked Ah Che to hand it over to you, but he laughed at the embroidered ducks instead of mandarin ducks, saying that my embroidering was not half as good as Fu's... I was so angry , threw the purse into the lake, and had a big fight with him, but I felt extremely uncomfortable... That night, I hid in bed and cried all night."

Song Zixun held her in his arms, "...I don't know about this."

"That's right," Du Rongzhi nodded with a smile, "Because these...are actually not important at all." She said softly, "The reason why I cried all night may be because, since then, I have known... ...No matter how hard I try, I'm not good enough for you."

"Nonsense." He felt a throbbing pain in his heart, frowned and looked at her, and said seriously, "I want a wife, not an embroiderer... What's more, you are very good at embroidering now."

Du Rongzhi smiled noncommittally.

How could he know?

In the days when she was rejected by him in her previous life, and she was treated with cold eyes and cold eyes, her only pleasure every day was doing embroidery work with the girls...Practice makes perfect.

Du Rongzhi reached out and caressed the center of his brows, smoothing out the wrinkles little by little, "Zixun, believe it or not... I have been married to you for more than a year, and I have really tried my best to be a good wife. "

Song Zixun couldn't help being moved, he pulled her cold hand and put it on his chest, "I know...you're fine, you've always been fine." He said hoarsely, "I couldn't help but hurt your heart... "

"You didn't apologize to me." Du Rongzhi shook her head with a smile, and sighed softly, "I am too greedy... I want too much."

"We also had a very happy time." She said softly, "Since I walked in, you have always treated me very well... I am grateful in my heart."

"... Later, Guan'er gave birth prematurely, and I almost couldn't make it through. It was you who ignored everyone's dissuasion and rushed into the delivery room to accompany me and comfort me..." She smiled at him, "At that time, I told myself... you Treat me so sincerely, what am I not satisfied with?"

"...Lovely and well-behaved daughter, considerate and affectionate husband..." Du Rongzhi chuckled, "I even thought that I was the luckiest person in the world."

She looked at him, her tone was as calm as if she was talking about an unimportant matter, "Until that day, you tell me——you, it's not up to me."

Song Zixun shook her hand violently.

"That night, I hugged Guan'er, who was convulsed with fever, and asked myself over and over again, was it my fault? Was it because I wasn't doing well enough?" She still smiled lightly, but tears streamed down the corners of her eyes, "I don't remember How many times have I looked at the door, always dreaming in my heart, maybe you will push the door in the next moment..."

Song Zixun opened his mouth. He instinctively wanted to say something, but his throat seemed to be blocked by something, and he was so dry that he couldn't even speak a word.

"But you never came."

She smiled and let go of his hand, "Thinking about it now, maybe I've been sick since that day... I hate Mrs. Fu, and I hate you too, but I always have to pretend that I don't care about anything... But I In my heart, I really can't make it through."

"Even when you and I get along the most harmoniously, when I look at your back, I can't help but think: This is the person, he, who destroyed all my dreams of marriage and family..."

"Don't say it, Rong Zhi, don't say it..." Song Zixun finally recovered his voice, he hugged her tightly with red eyes, and said hoarsely, "That night was really just an accident, I was drunk, Wannabe I don't even know when something happened to my child, and I don't even know that it will hurt you so deeply... If I had known earlier..."If he had known earlier...No matter what he said that night, he would not have left her alone!

"I lived in a muddle during those days, and I didn't know how I got through it." She laughed at herself and let him hold her obediently. "I kept telling myself that it's normal for a man to have three wives and four concubines, not to mention that you come from a noble family. Even if there is no Fu family, there will always be others in the future. I am not qualified to ask you for more..."

She took a deep breath and smiled weakly at him, "But thinking about it is much harder than doing it... Whenever you try to get close, or do something close... I can't help but think of that Desperate night... That kind of despair made me more and more irritable, more and more hysterical, and also... hated you more and more."

"Rong Zhi..." He interrupted in a low voice, almost pleading.

But she turned a deaf ear, "I thought all this would pass sooner or later... When there are more and more women around you, I will slowly wake up... Just like every whimsical wife."

But then, her child was gone.

Her child... was gone again.

The secret that has been kept in the deepest part of her heart for such a long time, the secret that she dare not think about or touch, when she dreamed back at midnight, the wound that was often so painful that she couldn't breathe was uprooted again like this, and was torn apart in front of everyone with blood dripping .

"Zixun, I want to live a good life with you..." With tears in her eyes, she smiled helplessly, "It's just...it's really difficult."

(End of this chapter)