Lingzi is not too cold today

Chapter 156 Zhuang Shengxiao dreamed of butterflies

For a while, she didn't talk to Gongsun Jin.

He has someone he likes and a lover who is close to him.

Proud as Zhuang Xiaomeng, unable to stalk.

All she can do is to keep enough distance and give herself a little dignity.

Although she will also miss, miss those exciting stories that Gongsun Jin told her before going to bed every night.

I will miss the cucumber and ham fried rice he made in the kitchen when she said she was hungry late at night.

I will also miss the story he read to her called One Hundred Years of Solitude, and I will miss him buying pizza and waiting for her in the flower bed downstairs.

Thinking about it carefully, Gongsun Jin was really kind to her.

However, just when she was moved, Gongsun Jin was with another girl.

In this case, why did he treat her so well in the first place?
So good that she couldn't let go.

When she falls, he will tell her that he does not belong to her.

Zhuang Xiaomeng even thought that it would be nice if she and Gongsun Jinsu didn't know each other at first.

That way she wouldn't fall for that good skin.

There were no stars in the evening sky, only a crescent moon.

Zhuang Xiaomeng wore headphones, listening to Gongsun Jin's voice as he walked along the path in the forest.

The plane trees on both sides of the road look a little bleak in winter.

Not a single leaf could be seen on the bare branches, and the crows refused to rest, and flew to high places to build their nests with the branches in their mouths.

It reminded her of the song "Bu Suan Zi".

"In the absence of a moon, hang on a sparse tree, and leave a person's first tranquility. Whoever sees a lonely person coming and going alone, is a lonely shadow."

"Start up but look back, there is hatred and no one to forgive. Pick up all the cold branches and refuse to live, and the lonely sandbar is cold."

Zhuang Xiaomeng picked up his phone and took a picture, and attached this poem, ready to send it to Gongsun Jin.

But his finger was on the send button for a long time, and finally he had no choice but to delete all the words he had typed.

She wanted to share her mood and what happened in her daily life with him, but she felt it was unnecessary.

It's not good to disturb a boy who already has a lover.

It was a bit cold at night, and the breath he exhaled turned into white mist under the street lamps.

She tucked her chin into her collar and walked out of the school gate with her head down.

On the long street outside the campus, there was a long line of people selling snacks at the snack street, and there was an endless stream of people coming and going.

Most of the people gathered around the food stall were junior high school students from a nearby middle school.

The face is immature and green, with braids.

I don't know how to dress up, and my hair looks dry and split in winter.

The blue and white school uniform seems to be uniform across the country, and the trouser legs are fat and bloated.

Occasionally, when some little girls saw Zhuang Xiaomeng, envy and anticipation would appear in their eyes.

They yearned for the adult world like Zhuang Xiaomeng.

You can wear nice skirts, make up, and grow long hair, instead of wearing rustic school uniforms.

Of course, there are also some children from poor families who can't hide the inferiority complex in their eyes.

Zhuang Xiaomeng stopped at a small stall selling mutton sausage, looked at it for a while, and finally left again.

At that time, that guy didn't even have the money to buy a grilled sausage.

It was this street. He stood in front of her that day, holding half a broken beer bottle and confronting those gangsters, almost causing an accident.

She didn't like his recklessness, but when he stood in front of her, that back view really fascinated her.

On the way back, he said that his parents' compensation money for the air crash was stolen away.

She still remembered that when he said this, his eyes were lowered, full of depression.

The pessimism and loss made her feel distressed.

So she told her mother specifically and asked her to help get back the money that should have belonged to him.

She wants justice for him.

It's not about love, it's not about friendship.

It's just about the sense of justice that I want to speak out for after witnessing a kind person being bullied.

At the end of the intersection at the east gate of the campus, the lights were dim, covered with fallen leaves and hoarfrost.

When he looked back by chance, he broke into his side face unexpectedly.

Of course, she really wanted to express the feeling of seeing Gongsun Jin in a paragraph of words, but she still failed to do so.

There are tens of thousands of words in the dictionary, but the sentence she wants to say cannot be organized.

Later she told Gongsun Jin about it.

Gongsun Jin said, "I looked for him thousands of times in the crowd, and suddenly I looked back, but the man was in a dimly lit place."

As soon as he opened his mouth, Zhuang Xiaomeng was amazed.

She stood up suddenly, incoherent with excitement.

It was this feeling that she wanted to express.

Gongsun Jin can always sum up what she can't express in words with a wonderful poem.

The lights of the car at night are lit from far away, from far to near.

Like a lover's eyes, tender and tender.

This description is too flirtatious, it is Gongsun Jin's style.

But she felt that it was better than when he looked into her eyes and sang your eyes.

"Why do you keep thinking about him?"

Zhuang Xiaomeng asked himself, but couldn't find an answer.

Perhaps it was unwillingness, and he had no choice but to accept his fate.

She doesn't want to be too concerned and attached to someone like this.

A girl's personality is complete only when she loves no one.

Once she has someone she likes, she will lose her ego and make herself weak.

That's not cool at all.

Zhuang Xiaomeng continued to walk forward, not knowing where to go, but just following the instinct of his feet.

It was only when she raised her head that she realized it.

She stopped in front of the pizza shop that Gongsun Jin often bought her.

"You are really sick."

She was a little self-deprecating, entered the store, and ordered pizza, pineapple pudding tart, and milk tea out of habit.

This is what Gongsun Jin often bought for her.

She found a quiet place and sat down, eating slowly.

There was a very old song in the store, one that used to make her laugh.

"I think she is indeed a more suitable woman for you."

"I'm too gentle, elegant, mature and sensible enough."

"If I return to the position of a good friend, you will no longer need it. It's so embarrassing."

"I love you very much, so I am willing, willing to let you fly to more happiness."

"I love you very much, I can only feel at ease if I let you have love."

Listening to this song now, she couldn't help but laugh.

After eating two pieces of pizza, she always felt that it lacked flavor, not as delicious as the one Gongsun Jin bought for her.

Packed the rest of the food and went back to Cranberry Garden.

After thinking about it carefully, I still took a photo and sent it to Gongsun Jin.

"Bought pizza, how much is left over."

"Well, thank you."

Gongsun Jin replied to the message and sent Lin Hui, who was as drunk as mud, back to the dormitory.

He really wanted to send Yi Katie a message and ask her to come pick him up.

But Lin Hui repeatedly said, don't contact her.

In desperation, he contacted Ouyang Rui and Tang Fulin and asked them to come and help.

Tang Fulin said that he was in the library and was not free.

Ouyang Rui saw the news, but did not come.

Gongsun Jin probably also understood the reason.

Ouyang Rui should have a estrangement in his heart because of the relationship between Lin Hui and Zhuo Yufan.

In desperation, he had no choice but to help Lin Hui back to the dormitory by himself.

Without supporting him to take two steps, Lin Hui bent over at the side of the road, vomiting heavily.

"Maybe, you don't like her that much."

Gongsun Jin stood aside, his voice drifting in the wind.

"No, I like her far more than I thought."

"It's only now that I know."

Lin Hui was panting, his voice hoarse.

"Don't pretend to be so affectionate, it's too greasy."

Gongsun Jin sighed, helped Lin Hui back to the dormitory, then went outside the corridor to get a cup of hot water and put it on his desk.

"I have something else to do, I'll go first."

"Well, thank you, Gongsun."

Lin Hui rubbed the center of his brows, seeming a little tired.

"fine."

Taking an umbrella in the dormitory, Gongsun Jin went out without looking back.

When I arrived home by subway, there was still snow in the sky, and the lights in the house could be seen shining in the twilight from a distance.

When I think of someone waiting for me at home, I feel a kind of warmth in my heart.

When he entered the door, he happened to see Zhuang Xiaomeng taking out the heated pizza from the oven and putting it on the table.

The hot pizza and milk tea are steaming, and a pair of cotton slippers are placed at the door.

"Eat while it's hot."

Zhuang Xiao dreamed of him, just said this softly, then sat on the sofa and read a book quietly.

After a while, the doorbell rang again.

Gongsun Jin walked over and saw Zhong Lingzi winking at the camera and pouting cutely on the monitor.

Opening the door, Zhong Lingzi ran in quickly.

She had just returned from the set, her face was still covered with makeup, and she was also wearing a very thin dress, with only a down jacket over it.

"Phew, I've had a lot of schedule recently. I just discussed it with the teacher again."

"There will be an interview program tomorrow."

"Is there anything to eat? I haven't eaten yet, I'm starving to death!"

She kicked off her shoes, stepped on a pair of slippers in the cloakroom, and entered the door briskly.

After seeing Zhuang Xiaomeng in the living room, she slightly restrained her smile and voice.

Seeing the pizza and egg tarts on the table, Zhong Lingzi's eyes lit up immediately, and he walked over to eat them.

"Did you buy pizza again?"

"Ah! I haven't eaten pizza from this place for a long time."

Hearing Zhong Lingzi's voice, Zhuang Xiaomeng's heart was slightly touched.

It turns out that what Gongsun Jin gave her was not the only one.

He also bought it for Zhong Lingzi.

"Gongsun Jin, do you still remember, when was the first time you gave me pizza?"

Zhong Lingzi ate the pizza and looked at Gongsun Jin.

"Hey, it was when school just started, you bought pizza and went back to school."

"I asked you for a piece with a straight face."

"At that time, I was still a resident singer in a bar, and I wanted to earn money to pay my sister's tuition. I was so hungry at the time that I couldn't even afford to buy a [-] yuan bun."

"That was the first time I ate pizza, and I thought it was delicious."

She is eating pizza with a happy smile on her face.

"This pizza was bought by Mengmeng."

After Gongsun Jin finished speaking, she subconsciously looked at Zhuang Xiaomeng.

"what?"

Zhong Lingzi was slightly taken aback, and his eyes widened.

Her chewing slowed down, and she looked sideways at Zhuang Xiaomeng, her cheeks were still bulging.

"It's okay, you can eat."

Zhuang Xiaomeng looked at the book and shook his head nonchalantly.

At this time, she also suddenly remembered something.

A few times, the pizza that Gongsun Jin bought for her was always missing a piece.

At that time, he always said that he ate it himself.

It turned out that the missing piece was given to Zhong Lingzi.

There must have been many stories between her and him.

Thinking of this, Zhuang Xiaomeng felt a little relieved.

……

On weekends, Zhong Lingzi was woken up by Zhang Yana's phone call early in the morning, and was about to go back to the company to make up and record a program.

After becoming an artist, she basically said goodbye to weekends and holidays.

He didn't even have time to eat the breakfast made by Gongsun Jin, so he drank two mouthfuls of grits soup and left the house in a hurry with the steamed stuffed bun still in his mouth.

At the dining table, there were only Gongsun Jin and Zhuang Xiaomeng.

The atmosphere is not as harmonious as before, a little awkward.

Both of them wanted to break the silence, but both fell into silence.

It wasn't until Shi Qing drove over to take the two of them home that the silence was broken.

"Are you used to living here?"

Shi Qing looked at her daughter with a smile.

"pretty good."

Zhuang Xiaomeng said calmly.

Gongsun Jin took her suitcase, put it in the trunk, and sat in the back row.

Zhuang Xiaomeng sat on the other side, deliberately keeping a distance from him.

Unlike when I used to go home, I always sat next to him.

The smile on Shi Qing's face froze, and she noticed something strange.

On the way home, the two people in the back row still didn't speak a word.

Shi Qing looked at the two of them through the rearview mirror and frowned slightly.

"Xiaojin, Mengmeng lives with you, didn't I cause you any trouble?"

"No, she's fine."

Gongsun Jin shook his head.

When Shi Qing heard this, she couldn't help but feel worried about Zhuang Xiaomeng.

After arriving home, Shi Qing took Zhuang Xiaomeng aside while Gongsun Jin was helping Yuyu with her homework.

"What's the matter with you two? Are you having a conflict?"

"No, it's fine."

"Then why didn't you say a word?"

"It's better to keep your distance."

Zhuang Xiaomeng turned her face away.

"Are you stupid? Keep your distance and let others get there first?"

Shi Qing had an expression of hating iron for being weak.

"He's already dating Zhong Lingzi."

As Zhuang Xiaomeng said, there was a sense of loss in his voice that he hadn't even noticed.

"what?"

Upon hearing this, Shi Qing opened her mouth slightly with a look of astonishment.

After a long time, he sighed again.

"This...you are still not active enough."

"Too reserved."

Shi Qing rubbed the center of her brows, feeling very distressed.

"It's okay, it may not be suitable to be in a relationship."

"After getting along for a long time, if we can't get along, we will break up."

"You still have a chance."

She comforted her like this, but Zhuang Xiaomeng didn't care.

"Don't be discouraged, there is no corner that cannot be dug, only a shovel that does not work hard."

"I can't do that shit."

"It's not good to hook up with someone who knows he has a girlfriend."

Zhuang Xiaomeng shook his head again and again with a stubborn expression.

"But if you don't grab it, you won't have a chance at all."

Shi Qing spoke earnestly and sincerely.

Zhuang Xiaomeng looked at Gongsun Jin who was helping Yuyu with her homework in the living room.

After a long time, she still shook her head.

"It doesn't matter anymore."

After tutoring her homework, Zhuang Xiaoyu put her homework book in her schoolbag and rolled happily on the sofa.

"Hey, you can play casually for the next two days!"

Gongsun Jin scratched her armpit, and the little girl giggled.

Then, Yuyu sat on the sofa and looked at Ultraman.

Gongsun Jin sat beside her sister, quietly watching with her.

The question of which Ultraman is the most powerful has never been answered.

"Children, let's go shopping today, shall we?"

Shi Qing looked at Zhuang Xiaomeng who was sitting aside reading a book, and then at Gongsun Jin.

She wanted to create some space for the two of them to be alone.

"I'm tired of shopping, why not watch Ultraman at home."

Yuyu blinked her watery eyes, and spoke in a childlike voice.

"Ah, Yuyu wants to go shopping!"

Shi Qing smiled softly.

"I don't want to go, I want to see Ultraman."

Zhuang Xiaoyu shook his head like a rattle.

"Ah, Yuyu said that she likes to go shopping with her mother the most. Let's go out quickly."

Shi Qing smiled more gently.

"I want to see Ultraman!"

Yuyu looked aggrieved.

"I know you want to go shopping."

Shi Qing didn't give her a chance to refute, and directly hugged the little girl.

Shi Qing said that if she wanted to go shopping, she had to go shopping, so Yuyu reluctantly went out.

In the commercial street, Shi Qing signed Yuyu's hand and walked far ahead, leaving the space for Gongsun Jin and Zhuang Xiaomeng.

The two walked slowly behind, roughly maintaining the same pace.

After walking for a while, Zhuang Xiaomeng might also feel bored, so he took the initiative to break the silence.

"Have you finished writing the song for this issue?"

The moment she spoke, she knew she had lost.

He obviously didn't want to talk, but he couldn't help but opened his mouth.

"Already inspired."

Gongsun Jin nodded slightly.

He paused, and continued to ask: "Do you know the story of Zhuang Zhou's dream of a butterfly?"

"That's how I got my name, don't you think?"

Zhuang Xiaomeng glanced at him with a cold expression.

One day Zhuang Zhou was sleeping on the grass and had a dream.

In his sleep, he dreamed that he had turned into a butterfly, and the butterfly was dancing in the air, wandering around, so happy that he forgot his original appearance, and also forgot that he was transformed from Zhuang Zhou.

After a while, Zhuang Zhou woke up suddenly, but the dream was still clearly imprinted in his mind.

He got up and looked at himself, and thought about the things in his dream again, feeling a little confused for a moment.He couldn't figure out whether he was Zhuang Zhou or a butterfly.

Did he turn into a butterfly in his dream, or did the butterfly turn into Zhuang Zhou in his dream?

"Sometimes in life it's hard to tell the difference between dreams and real life."

"Dreams sometimes give people a real feeling, and in real life, they can also give people the feeling of being in a dream."

"Everything in the world is constantly changing like this, and so is life. Nothing is eternal."

When Gongsun Jin said this, he said softly: "Sometimes I also have some strange dreams."

"I dreamed that I became another person and had a completely different life."

He was talking about the fact that he traveled to this world and became Gongsun Jin.

"I was thinking, did I dream of that person, or that person dreamed of me."

After Zhuang Xiaomeng listened, she said seriously: "Are you mentally ill?"

"Ha ha!"

Gongsun Jin laughed, his handsome eyebrows curved.

Zhuang Xiaomeng thought that face was so pretty that she couldn't hate it.

"Is the song you're going to write related to this story?" she said.

"It shouldn't matter."

"It's just the name of the song, called Butterfly."

Gongsun Jin said softly.

"Sing it to me."

Zhuang Xiaomeng said in a tone that sounded like an order.

"it is good."

Gongsun Jin nodded slightly, adjusted her breath, and sang slowly.

"The lips have not yet parted, and they have already hurt each other.

"I don't want to look forward to an appointment until it's settled."

"The phone has not been hung up yet, and the relationship has rotted."

"I wish you were a butterfly, come and go as fast as you come."

When Gongsun Jin sang here, he couldn't help thinking of the swallowtail butterfly that stayed on the windowsill and then flew away.

"Give me a pair of hands and rely on you."

"Give me a pair of eyes to see you leave."

"It's like a butterfly can't fly in the sea, no one has the heart to blame."

Zhuang Xiaomeng listened, her beautiful eyes narrowed slightly.

The words written by Gongsun Jin can always touch her heart.

Just like a butterfly cannot fly in the sea, no one has the heart to blame.

"Give me a moment to love you."

"Give me a lifetime, and send you away."

"Wake up from the dream before dawn."

"We're all free."

Gongsun Jin's voice is very gentle, with a little sentimentality and melancholy, trying her best to sing this song like Faye Wong in memory.

"A song written for Zhong Lingzi again?"

Zhuang Xiaomeng asked.

"Ah."

Gongsun Jin nodded slightly.

"Humph!"

Zhuang Xiaomeng snorted coldly and quickened his pace.

After finally opening her mouth to speak, she suddenly didn't want to talk to him anymore.

(End of this chapter)