quadruple sleep

After Hang Si talked about the past, he felt as if a layer of his skin had been peeled off by life.

Whenever she is involved with Qiao Yuan, even people and things related to Qiao Yuan will trigger a strong physiological reaction in her. It is the most direct physiological reaction caused by fear and depression, such as cold sweat, rapid heartbeat, shortness of breath and even dizziness. dizzy.

Just like her at this moment, her hands were cold. Lu Nanshen gave her a cup of hot water, and she held the cup and slowly soothed the coldness of her fingers. But this coolness has stayed in my heart for too long. How can it be dispelled by a cup of hot water?
  If the cold stays for a long time, it will freeze. The ice will continue to condense in the deepest part of the heart. The more it condenses, the thicker it becomes. Even if the sun shines in, it may not be able to melt the ice.

She longs for the sun, but she also knows that she doesn't deserve it, so when she encounters it, all she can do is avoid it. Lu Nanshen was this beam of sunshine, warm and soft. She couldn't help but want to get closer, always wanted to absorb that little bit of light and heat, but Qiao Yuan's shadow was everywhere, telling her clearly that you are darkness and filth. In the quagmire, you and that beam of light are two different worlds. He cannot save you, and you should not try to get close to him.

Hang Si's nose was sore and he wanted to cry, but he couldn't. After a long time, she spoke, "The matter between Qiao Yuan and I is clearly laid out here. Lu Nanshen, we are more suitable to be friends."

Lu Nanshen was surprisingly calm throughout the whole process. He didn't respond to her questions, but said softly, "Drink a few sips of water first."

Hang Si picked up the cup and took a few sips.

When hot water enters the throat, the stomach becomes warm.

Lu Nanshen whispered again, "Take another two sips."

Hang Si didn't understand and did as he was told. Unexpectedly, Lu Nanshen asked her to drink. When Hang Si drank more than half of the glass, he shook his head at him and put down the water glass, "I can't drink any more, Lu Nanshen, why do you always make me drink water?"

Lu Nan smiled deeply and said, "Haven't you heard the old saying? Drink more hot water."

Hang Si was speechless, "This is what scumbags say on the Internet."

You should drink more hot water in everything, and there are many jokes about this on the Internet.

"It may seem ordinary and perfunctory, but in fact it is not without scientific basis." Lu Nanshen said with a smile, "For example, drinking more hot water when you have a cold will promote more sweating, and the toxins in the body will be excreted along with the sweat in the body. , which gives you an opportunity to exercise to strengthen your own immunity, which is better than taking medicine and getting injections.”

Hang Si was stunned for a long time, not knowing why Lu Nanshen told her this theory. She said, "I... don't have a cold."

Lu Nan pursed his lips and smiled, his eyes always soft and bright. "For example, if you are in a bad mood and have fallen into a low mood for a while, drinking hot water is the simplest and most effective way to calm down your mood. For example, are you feeling better now than before?"

Hang Si didn't know what to say for a moment. Although she didn't think there was any scientific basis for drinking hot water to calm her mood, as Lu Nanshen said, she would indeed feel a little better now.

"Now, do you have anything else to add?" Lu Nanshen asked her softly, "Whether it's about Qiao Yuan or other things in your past, is there anything else you want to say or can say?"

Hang Si really didn't understand Lu Nanshen's thinking.

In fact, although she didn't deliberately look at Lu Nanshen's expression during the narration, Lu Nanshen's silence also made her feel unsure. It is said that caring leads to chaos, and his calmness as usual can most likely indicate that it has nothing to do with him.

Anyone who hears these things will be tempted to run away. Even if the other person is Lu Nanshen, even if he has experienced more storms than ordinary people, he is naturally qualified to stand by and watch other people's difficult things.

Hang Si was mentally prepared. In fact, this was also the purpose of her telling the past.

Show him the bloody analysis of her truest self, without covering it up or hiding it. In the end, even if she ends up eclipsed in life, it is normal. She should be alone, this is the norm.

She shook her head.

Lu Nan looked at her deeply, "So, can I express my opinion?"

"of course."

Lu Nanshen nodded slightly and continued, "Hanghang, do you know why I didn't interrupt you halfway?"

Hang Si looked up at him.

"I hope you can pour out all the grievances in your heart. I'm not afraid that you will chatter endlessly or even be hysterical. I'm just afraid that you won't say anything and hide everything in your heart. So no matter what your purpose is, you will tell everything about the past. It's all been said, and that's a good thing." There was warm light flowing lightly in Lu Nanshen's eyes. It was obviously dark, but there seemed to be light all around him.

He is the proud man of heaven.

"I am very grateful that you are honest and honest with me. And my idea is that Qiao Yuan is indeed a bastard, so will you be imprisoned in the world of bastards for the rest of your life and never come out? I am not Qiao Yuan, and I will not do anything to you. Those things, Hanghang, I want you to be with me, just out of pure love. I like you, so I want to be with you, it's that simple. "

Hang Si looked at him blankly and shook his head for a while, "I have said so much and you still don't understand..."

"I understand." Lu Nanshen whispered, "But it was Qiao Yuan who did the wrong thing. What does it have to do with you?"

"I have been ruined by Qiao Yuan!" Hang Si was excited again.

Seeing this, Lu Nanshen sat down next to her and sighed, "What has ruined you? Your body? I think what you really need to adjust is your psychology. Nothing else matters. The important thing is that you have to take the initiative to get out of that cage. I know this is difficult. "It doesn't matter, I'll walk out with you." "You were stabbed by Chen Lin before, and you met a thug again today. Do you think I can get out of the cage set by Qiao Yuan? Lu Nanshen, it's not that I haven't tried, I thought the door of the cage had been opened, I thought everything was over, but everything that happened now reminded me that this matter was difficult to live with. It was not me who walked out of the cage, but Qiao Yuan who allowed me to move forward like a cat playing with a mouse. After taking two steps, as long as he pinches the chain, I will still be pulled into the cage."

Hang Si looked up at him, the light in his eyes was dim and desperate, "I'm not telling you this to ask you to pity me. I don't need anyone's pity. I hope you will take back your thoughts and don't show off. I don't want to implicate innocent people."

Lu Nan was silent for a while, "Maybe I'm not the innocent one."

Hang Si didn't understand what he said.

"You mentioned that you were kidnapped when you were a child. Do you still remember where you were kidnapped?" Lu Nan asked deeply.

Hang Si frowned in deep thought, searching for clues from that year based on his memory, "The climate is quite hot, and the surroundings are quite desolate. It looks like a base of some kind. In short, there are places, and it should be near the sea, because what I eat the most every day is seafood. Fengli It has the damp smell of the sea… not in the country.”

The light in Lu Nanshen's eyes gradually dissipated, and he whispered, "Is there a tower in your impression, a tower on the mountain?"

Hang Si was startled, "Grey, like a cone-shaped tower?"

Lu Nanshen nodded slightly.

Hang Si took a breath and looked at him in disbelief the next moment, "How did you know?"

Suddenly, she remembered some things she had heard before, and she suddenly thought of it. She suddenly stood up and stared at him, "You...could it be...that the person locked up in the tower is...you?"

Lu Nan was silent for a moment and nodded slightly.

Hang Si was shocked and froze, muttering, "How is it possible..."

Lu Nan couldn't help but laugh. He didn't expect that things in this world could be such a coincidence.

"That group of people must have purposefully kidnapped some children. You just said that you were kidnapped by the wrong one, so obviously you were implicated by our children." He raised his eyes to look at her, "I was that one The most important thing among the group of children is equivalent to me causing you trouble. Hanghang, if you think about it this way, the source of all your pain is the kidnapping when you were a child. I am the root cause, and you should not let it go easily. I'm the."

Lu Nanshen's words obviously hit Hang Si too hard. Although she guessed it right, this kind of thing sounds very unbelievable. How could it be like this...

"I... don't understand, why?" She fell on the sofa, frowning.

"In order to deal with the Lu family, I was kidnapped and locked in that tower. I was the only one." Lu Nan said in a low voice.

Because he was still young, that experience was a fatal blow to him.

He was taken away by a group of people and locked up against his will. The environment was very dark, the only light that could be seen was through the palm-sized windows, and the whole tower was completely silent.

He was frightened and at a loss.

But he could also faintly hear the voices of other children, crying and screaming, and then the adults yelling harshly, and the sound of iron rods hitting the railings.

He was extremely nervous. He once thought he would be killed and was in high tension every day. Until he looked through the tower window and saw some figures in the distance, including several children, about the same size as him.

But gradually, he began to lose sight.

But there were a lot more sounds in my ears every day, crying and shouting, and there were also many people who escaped and were beaten. Those sounds were like knives stimulating his brain nerves. He also cried and broke down and cried, but to no avail.

He didn't get beaten, but the feeling of suffocation in the tower was better than being beaten severely.

Hang Si suddenly understood when he heard this, "So, it's because of the kidnapping that your eyesight has decreased and your hearing has become unexpectedly sensitive?"

Lu Nan nodded deeply.

From that time on, his physiology changed. His vision was so blurred that he could hear sounds that others could not hear.

Hang Si suddenly realized that this should be a physiological function adjustment that occurred rapidly in the dark. In other words, it was an imbalance. Coupled with extreme fear, this change occurred.

Lu Nanshen said that later a child came to the tower to deliver food, and he learned that the children there were all kidnapped and were all of the same age. Later, when he saw the child again, he asked him confusedly, since you can move around freely, why don't you run away?
  The child shook his head and said, I ran away and I don’t know where I went.

Speaking of this, Lu Nan looked at Hang Si deeply, his eyes pitiful.

Hang Si suddenly lost his breath and almost suffocated. She stared at him with wide eyes, and then murmured for a long time, "That child... is me."