I make a thriller, it's God chasing and feeding

Chapter 294 [Alien]

Looking at the girl in front of me who couldn't hide her inner emotions, she looked a little heavy.

Lu Zhengyi was in a daze, and the palm that he originally stretched out to rub her hair stopped.

In the past, even if he squatted down, Liu Baoning's height was not shorter than his. He looked exactly like a child.

But now, after he squatted down, the little girl was already as tall as him.

Some of my childhood actions no longer seem appropriate.

It was only a few years ago, but it was already very different from my initial impression of Liu Baoning.

The changes in people's growth stages are really obvious.

I still remember that when we first worked together, she was a very lively and spiritual-looking child.

Because of his precocious wisdom, he can see many things clearly.

Compared to Li Zhenxi, Lu Zhengyi sometimes felt that this child acted more appropriately.

At that time, Liu Baoning often came to see him.

Because he is the first person she has ever met who is different from ordinary people and can understand her.

She often talks to herself. When she is on the set, she will follow him like a little follower. After becoming familiar with A Yong and the stone statue, she will often go to them.

Compared with ordinary children at this age, they like to play with dolls and watch cartoons.

She is different.

After knowing that Lu Zhengyi had the ability to ensure her safety, she liked to come into contact with these novel people and things.

But now, not only has she grown taller, but some of her ideas have also changed.

Liu Baoning is no longer the seemingly carefree child, but a girl who is slowly integrating into the social environment.

After the filming of The Grudge 2 started, she rarely bothered him again.

Even when he talks to himself, he adopts a cautious tone, no longer as casual as when he was a child.

Of course, this kind of caution is not because she is afraid of herself.

Lu Zhengyi could tell that she was more cautious than cautious.

When I was a kid, I went to my grandma's house during the Chinese New Year. I met a lot of relatives, whether they were uncles or aunts, and I could deal with them naturally, and then I went around with a group of unfamiliar cousins.

But when I grew up, I went to my grandma's house and faced the uncles, aunts, cousins, and cousins ​​I was familiar with when I was a child, but I felt so stiff that I felt like I was facing a stranger.

Even strangers may not be embarrassed.

After all, strangers on the roadside may just meet each other on a casual basis, asking for directions or casual chatting... There was no friendship in the past, and there will be no friendship in the future.

But when you face those relatives you were very familiar with when you were a child, they warmly come forward to greet you and ask how you are doing recently, but you can no longer face and respond with the mentality you had when you were a child. That kind of reaction when Lu Zhengyi celebrated the New Year, from some It can be felt on the faces and expressions of relatives' children.

And their appearance at that time was very similar to Liu Baoning today.

As she grew up, she began to gradually understand this society, and was bound by some social frameworks, and began to think about her own abilities, whether they were good or bad.

Lu Zhengyi turned his head and looked at Yu Wenxiu who was covering his mouth in disbelief due to some speculation.

"Teacher Yu, please go out for a while."

He spoke softly, "I have something to tell Ning Ning."

"Director Lu, Assistant Director Zhang is really..."

But Yu Wenxiu did not leave, but asked hesitantly.

Although she had already speculated about this matter before, after all, Zhang Yu's mental and physical changes from before were so great that it was completely obvious that the shock caused by a heart attack had a negative impact on his body. What a big impact.

But she didn't expect things to happen so quickly.

The stent has been completed, why can’t it hold up after only two years?

And hasn’t Assistant Director Zhang already visited Dr. Xu Bingcai and prescribed medicine?

That Dr. Xu seems to be a practitioner. As a practitioner, his medical skills will be higher than ordinary people, right?

"Everything in the world is unpredictable. It's my fault."

Lu Zhengyi explained helplessly, "Maybe I was frozen when I participated in the filming of Alien Space."

"After all, it was winter and the filming location was in the Northeast, so it must have had an impact."

"Winter is too difficult for patients and the elderly. He may have blamed me, so he left without saying goodbye a few days ago."

In fact, a few days ago, when Zhang Yu said he was going back in the car, he could sense that the other party's tone was somewhat complaining.

But his words are actually correct.

If he had not been so proactive in participating in the filming, but had chosen to retire directly after falling ill, his body would never have been worn down so early, maybe in a few years.

Thinking further, if I hadn't met myself, if I hadn't rekindled my creative heart, and continued to follow the market, being a dawdling, easy-going assistant director, I might have been able to live for more than ten or decades.

After all, he was only in his sixties, just past retirement age.

Even though some dreams and pursuits have been sacrificed, living is the most important thing.

Listening to Lu Zhengyi's words, Yu Wenxiu defended instinctively, "I don't blame you. In fact, at that time... Assistant Director Zhang had a strong desire to rejoin the group, and you stopped him several times."

"That's what happened, but no matter what, I am responsible."

Lu Zhengyi waved his hand, "Okay, there is no need to hide this matter, because Lao Zhang already knows it, but I still hope that after you understand the situation, you will not care about him or stimulate him. Everyone... It would be more appropriate to continue pretending that you don’t know anything.”

"……I understand."

Yu Wenxiu nodded, "I will tell others. I think... as friends who have been together for so many years, everyone needs to know."

"But I will also ask them not to contact Assistant Director Zhang to inquire about the situation, or to care about him or irritate him."

"Actually, when Sister Wei went to visit Assistant Director Zhang's house before, she added the contact information of Assistant Director Zhang's wife, and we get in touch from time to time. We can keep an eye on her through her."

Lu Zhengyi replied, "This is good."

After that, the atmosphere became quiet.

After a few seconds of stalemate, Yu Wenxiu said softly, "Then I'll go out first."

"Remember to close the door."

Lu Zhengyi gave instructions.

"it is good."

Yu Wenxiu replied and came to the side of Liu Baoning, who was looking a bit sad. "Then I'll go out first, Ning Ning."

"Goodbye, Aunt Xiuxiu." Liu Baoning waved.

And when the door of the room was closed with a soft bang, only Lu Zhengyi and Liu Baoning were left in the room.

"sit."

Lu Zhengyi casually pushed the chair next to him, "Ning Ning, what do you think of what I just said?"

"Am I responsible for Assistant Director Zhang's situation?"

"If it weren't for me, he would definitely be able to live a little longer."

Liu Baoning sat down next to him obediently, but still looked cautious. He thought about his answer for a long time, "I feel... Aunt Xiuxiu's words are quite reasonable. This matter is not entirely your fault."

These questions are difficult to answer. She seems to think that following Yu Wenxiu's thinking is the best answer.

"It's definitely not all my fault. Lao Zhang himself is also responsible."

Lu Zhengyi replied straightforwardly, "After all, we all knew about his body at the beginning, and we also proposed to let him recuperate for a while."

"But he still asked me once or twice when he could join the group. In the end, I really couldn't resist him, so I let him join the group."

"But when a person reaches this stage, the thought of survival will definitely lead him to have some more selfish thoughts. This is normal."

As he said that, he paused, "But if it were to happen again, I would still make the same choice and let Lao Zhang join the group."

"Even if I knew there would be consequences, I would do it."

Liu Baoning's eyes widened, "Why?"

Even though he knew he would die, he still let deputy director Zhang join the team?

"After all, before Assistant Director Zhang joined the team, he knew very well that his decision to join the team might worsen his condition and... lead to death." Lu Zhengyi explained softly, "I advised him , his wife also advised him, and other people on the crew also advised him, but he still wants to join the crew, why do you think it is?"

"Because...Assistant Director Zhang likes filming?"

Liu Baoning replied hesitantly. The answer was not difficult to guess.

"Yes, he likes filming very much."

Lu Zhengyi continued, "At that time, he believed that he wanted to accompany the crew to go further than to die."

"He feels that people should do more meaningful things to enrich themselves before death, instead of forcing themselves to accept some maintenance programs in order to live a few more years, such as going to bed early and not eating spicy, greasy food. Things can't...can't do many, many things that have become habits in life."

"It's just that when death really appeared in front of him and he felt that his body was getting weaker and weaker, his mentality changed. He believed that compared to dreams, pursuits, and enjoyment, as long as he could live, it was more important than anything else."

Liu Baoning was a little silent. She didn't understand why Director Lu told her this.

"Death is a necessity for man."

Lu Zhengyi looked at her silence and continued, "When a person has the concept of 'death', he knows very well that he will definitely die. He also knows that some bad habits may increase the speed of facing death."

"But only when death truly comes before you and your body feels pain will people begin to truly face this issue."

"But this is what a person should experience and the path he should take."

"Even if you have already felt it, as long as this memory and this feeling are deleted and people go back to an earlier time, they will still make the same decision and continue not to cherish their body and be unable to recognize the face. The fear of death.”

"And you, even with the help of these eyes, can peek into the end of some people, but in the end, that is the path that others should go through, and it has nothing to do with you."

"You're just on the other road, holding a telescope and watching them end step by step, that's all."

But Liu Baoning's doubtful eyes were stunned.

More emotions appeared in her eyes.

If you are like Yu Wenxiu, Zhou Jie, and Xu Bingcai, who acquired their abilities through their own efforts, they probably won't think about whether it is good or bad to have this ability.

They only acquire the ability after their thinking and cognition mature. This kind of over-the-top thinking almost never occurs.

They may use their abilities to help others, or they may have some bold ideas because of their abilities, but they will hardly doubt their own abilities and their own existence.

But Liu Baoning is different.

She may be precocious, or she may have appeared mature as a child, but this does not mean that she is truly an adult.

On the contrary, she will continue to acquire some new knowledge as she grows up, and for this knowledge, because of her uniqueness, she will have some different perspectives and perceptions from ordinary people, and she will think about some strange problems. .

For example, questioning yourself…

"I still remember that you liked to chat with me when you were a child." Lu Zhengyi finally stretched out his palm and put it on her hair, "But I can't say it was when you were a child. I should say...when you were in elementary school."

"Now that I'm in junior high school, I have a secret, right? I feel uncomfortable and don't want to tell me anymore."

"During this period of filming, you always look absent-minded. Is it because of Assistant Director Zhang?"

He said a few simple words in a calm tone.

Liu Baoning, who was originally stunned, nodded with difficulty after saying these few words.

She didn't cry, but she lowered her head.

"I don't want to see something bad like this."

"Today it's Uncle Zhang, but if it's someone else, someone I care about more, what should I do?"

"Should I continue to just watch from the side like my mother said? Why do these eyes give me the ability to discover these things, but not the ability to solve them."

"What's the point if I can only see it? Even those people I don't know at all may be smiling or full of sadness when they are walking on the road, but my eyes can detect it. , they are about to die, and more and more light is emanating from them, but what can I do?"

"I could only watch from the side, watching indifferently. I would be sad at first, but later, I found that I was used to it, and I was not so sad anymore. I felt that I was cold-blooded, and I hated myself..."

What Liu Baoning is more sad about than not being able to solve the problem is that he gradually got used to it in the process.

These words are not easy to say.

It was as if a natural disaster had occurred and many people died. While everyone felt sad, and as humans should have sad emotions, my heart was very calm and indifferent.

She felt that she was an alien.

And in front of Lu Zhengyi, he admitted this fact.

Lu Zhengyi was stunned by Liu Baoning's words.

This was something he didn't expect. He had previously thought that the little girl was blaming herself for not being able to help Zhang Yu.

But now... the problem seems to be more serious.

This change in ability gave her a deeper sense of separation between her own perception and that of ordinary people.

(End of this chapter)