I, who disguised myself as a woman, turned out to be a queen! ?

Chapter 640: The girl has innocent thoughts, but the innocent girl also has sorrow
During the Cold Food Festival, people in the capital city would go to worship their ancestors, go out for an outing, or play football, tug-of-war, and cockfighting.

According to the regulations of the Great Xia Dynasty, the court would be closed for seven days during the Cold Food Festival, and there would be sacrifices during the Cold Food Festival.

Originally it should have been a grand sacrifice, but Xia Fengxiang ordered that everything in the palace be kept simple, so it was changed to a small sacrifice. There was no need for all the civil and military officials in the court to come. Only Su Changan and Xia Fengxiang were needed to go to the Taimiao to worship their ancestors.

Minister of Rites Cao Shen and Minister of Taichang Temple Cui Yu originally refused, but Xia Fengxiang had already made the decision. The two were helpless, but still felt that it was not right to do so. After all, the Cold Food Festival was the largest festival of Daxia, so how could they be so careless about it?

But after the two were left alone, they finally agreed.

But even though it was a small festival, the two of them still managed it properly.

Su Changan was taught etiquette by Li Xingyue.

There were some imperial edicts from officials at the previous court session, and there were also some from the harem.

Among them was Li Xingyue, who was transferred to the Taichang Temple to serve as the Xielü Duwei. It was not a high-ranking official position, only a sixth-rank official position, but he was in charge of music, rituals, sacrifices and other aspects. He was an official position in the Taiyue Bureau under the Taichang Temple, and all the dancers and musicians in the palace were under him.

It is a professional match. After all, Li Xingyue's attainments in music are praised by the great scholars in the Imperial College. Moreover, she is invited to participate in poetry gatherings of major scholars because of her music. There is only Li Xingyue in the whole capital. But when it comes to her literary talent, everyone shakes their heads.

The name of Li Dazhentou is too famous.

Especially when Li Xingyue was reading, she would spend half a day to look at some difficult characters, and she had to rely on guessing.

After a sacrifice, Su Changan collapsed on the floor of Lingqi Pavilion. Although it was a small sacrifice, there were too many rules and etiquette. It was very troublesome to participate in it.

But Su Changan was exhausted.

Sitting on the floor, Su Changan looked at the ceiling. Behind him were Aunt Sun, Xun Xia, and Li Xingyue, who were helping Su Changan remove the head ornaments on his head.

Xia Fengxiang sat on one side, looking at the memorials in his hands. Most of them were greetings from other places, such as "It's raining today", "Your Majesty and Your Majesty are in good health", etc.

Xia Fengxiang would always read it and then write the word "read" on it, but sometimes, when he was in a good mood, he would reply with something like "The weather in Beijing is nice today."

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The main reason why Li Xingyue was here was because of the Cold Food Festival banquet. Originally, there would be such a banquet after the sacrifice, but Xia Fengxiang cancelled it.

Su Changan also cancelled the banquet for the female officials in the palace, and simply gave each of them some silver money, allowing them to do whatever they wanted.

So Li Xingyue came to confirm this matter after the sacrifice, because Su Changan also gave the people in the palace a holiday to prevent Xia Fengxiang and Su Changan from suddenly wanting to watch dancing and listen to music, so Li Xingyue came specifically to ask whether to keep people and so on.

The wind is blowing, the sky is blue and white, people on earth are relaxing, but I wonder how many people in heaven are thinking of them today.

Su Changan went to Yuqing Temple secretly with Xia Fengxiang yesterday. They stayed there for quite a long time and didn't talk for long. Just looking at the family's tablets, Su Changan inexplicably thought a lot.

Xia Fengxiang was accompanying Su Changan on the side.

Just as Xia Fengxiang occasionally missed her parents, Su Changan would accompany her to the Taimiao to see the portraits. Sometimes they would stay there until late at night, and Su Changan would also chat with the two of them, but every time he finished talking, Xia Fengxiang would take action.

Once when he met his grandmother, Su Changan looked at her portrait and asked, "Grandma, were we really this pretty when we were young?"

So Su Changan watched Xia Fengxiang run away, leaving himself to be beaten.

This is what a harmonious marriage is like. When disaster strikes, it is better to run away first.

Su Changan looked at Li Xingyue who was carefully placing a hairpin in a brocade box. Now Li Xingyue was getting better and better at using rouge. She was no longer the little girl who tried her best to apply lead powder on her face to cover up the freckles on her face.

Looking at Li Xingyue, who looked unique even after a little dressing up and with freckles on her face, Su Changan smiled and joked, "It's been so long, and there are so many young talents in the capital. Xingyue hasn't met a man she likes?"

What is love? It is probably a fleeting glimpse of someone in a crowd of people, which you will never forget.

Li Xingyue shook her head: "No, I'm not good-looking, and I'm not particularly good at anything. At most, I can play the piano and dance. Those young talents, as long as they are not blind, will look down on me. I still have this self-awareness."

Li Xingyue said that she had an ugly appearance. Aunt Sun and Xunxia looked at the daughter of the prime minister. What was wrong with her? Of course she was ugly standing next to the empress. But who in the world would not look ugly standing next to the empress?

And at most he can play the piano and dance, that's the most he can do.

They have all learned bad habits from the Empress.

Su Changan smiled and asked, "How about I help you? Recently, many ministers have asked me for help in finding a marriage. I have a lot of resources, but I don't have any suitable one for you at the moment."

Li Xingyue shook her head: "Forget it, just take your time to look for it. There's nothing to rush about anyway."

As she spoke, Li Xingyue picked up the comb and carefully helped Su Changan comb his hair, but looking at the white hair, Li Xingyue was a little distracted.

It's not that she hasn't thought about love, after all, she is at this age.

But when I think of my previous aloof look, scary makeup, and the reputation of Li Da Zhentou, who would look up to me?

Although with the comfort of Sister Chang'an, it is not like before, but it seems to be the same as before.

Dad became the prime minister again, and everyone was respectful to him and dared not say a word. Only Qingning and a few other playmates had a good relationship with him.

The capital has changed a lot and many things have happened, but it seems that they have nothing to do with me. Yet the relationship is very direct. I feel much better because I go out on the streets. Maybe it’s because I see more smiles on people’s faces on the streets.

Although she had not read much, she knew that this was all because of His Majesty and Sister Chang'an.

Moreover, I was timid. Every time I accompanied Qingning to those dark places, I was actually scared to death. But Qingning insisted on going, so I had to accompany her. However, I kept reminding Qingning in my heart not to faint again. I was so tired of carrying her, and I was afraid and tired.

To this day, Li Xingyue feels confused. Anyway, it is the next day and she just has to live her life as usual. So Li Xingyue always reminds herself to have pure thoughts and be content.

When it comes to love, just think about it and there’s nothing else to do.

Su Changan asked, "Do you know how Hu Niu and Yao Mo are doing now?"

Li Xingyue said: "Before, Sister Niuniu came to have dinner with me, and she kept scolding the prince. She said that the prince couldn't say a word when he saw her, but kept talking nonsense in front of others, and lowered his head, didn't even look at him, but looked at other women straight, as if he disliked Sister Niuniu. Sister Niuniu was almost angry when she said that. She said she would take Qingning to Prince An's mansion to ask clearly, asking if she was ugly, what did it mean by not looking at her, etc. I don't know if she went there or not."

Having said that, Li Xingyue pursed her lips and stole a glance at Xia Fengxiang, forgetting that His Majesty was also there.

Xia Fengxiang continued to look down at the memorial, but he was listening with his ears, cursing in his heart, "Xia Yaomo, you coward, you act like this every time you go on a blind date with a girl, it's a wonder you're liked by any girl!"
Su Changan sighed, feeling a little overwhelmed.

Zhao Huniu delivered the paper the day after the grand court session, but the content was very official, and judging from the handwriting, it was written by Linhan.

Su Changan had no choice but to put it aside and pretend it didn't exist.

However, Zhao Huniu did seem like a leader among the children. Su Changan heard that Zhao Huniu had gathered Su Linhan, Li Xingyue, Su Qingning, Cui Yuer and other people who had studied with her in the capital at the time for dinner and drinks.

Even Zhou An'an was called. At that time, Zhou An'an seemed to ignore her, but Zhao Huniu went straight to Zhou's house, currying favor with Zhou Yuanrang, and then took Zhou An'an directly to the gathering place.

No one doesn't go, and no one dares not to go.

If anyone dared to ignore her, Zhao Huniu would go straight to her door.

Li Xingyue finished combing her hair and looked at Su Changan sighing. After thinking for a while, she said, "There's nothing to worry about. When fate arrives, we will be together naturally."

Su Changan asked with a smile: "It's not our destiny yet."

Li Xingyue was calm. She carefully placed the brocade box in her hand, which was a national treasure, on the tray in Aunt Sun's hand, and then looked at Su Changan: "Stay single. It's not like you can't live like this. The sky hasn't fallen, and the ground is still under your feet. The next day will be the same as the next day. Isn't that what my sister told me about Si Wuxie?"

Su Changan smiled bitterly. This was the truth, but this truth did not apply to some things.

Xia Fengxiang glanced at Li Xingyue and said nothing. He just thought that this was another person who was corrupted by Su Changan.

Li Xingyue left early. After all, she didn't want to disturb the Queen and His Majesty, and there were still things to do at home.

After leaving the palace, Li Xingyue didn't intend to go home directly, but to go to the restaurant that her father liked to eat at the most, because she had ordered a meal, and although the restaurant could deliver the meal to the house, she took it back on the way.

Holding the snacks given by Su Changan, Li Xingyue treated them as treasures and handled them with great care.

Li Xingyue didn't take a carriage, but just walked. It wasn't that Li Jiulang didn't get a carriage for Li Xingyue, but Li Xingyue was too lazy to take it. It was much better to walk.

Perhaps it was because the World Expo was scheduled to be held after the Cold Food Festival, so there were a lot of people on the streets.

There were more and more martial artists in the capital. Li Xingyue was timid, so when she saw those ferocious-looking martial artists from afar, she would go around them and even lower her head and dare not look at them.

Little did they know that if any of these people dared to be aggressive towards Li Xingyue, the secret guards sent by Li Jiulang would immediately take action.

But when she saw a good-looking female chivalrous warrior or male swordsman, Li Xingyue would secretly take a few glances at them. It was not because she was yearning for them, but she just liked them and would tell Qingning about them next time. Qingning liked these very much.

Li Xingyue looked from afar and saw Yan Shu and Zuo Shaoweng.

Li Xingyue and the other person could only be considered acquaintances, but were not very familiar with each other. The places where they often met were poetry gatherings and literary gatherings. They could occasionally be seen at the Su Mansion, but both of them came to pay their respects to Lord Su Zimu and Old Grand Tutor Su.

But seeing the two of them on the street, Li Xingyue naturally wanted to say hello, but what surprised Li Xingyue was
There is another person who is not as good-looking as Yan Shu and Zuo Shaoweng. But after looking at him for a while, he looks as good as Yan Shu.

Yan Shu and Zuo Shaoweng naturally also saw Li Xingyue, and they both bowed to her.

Li Xingyue hurriedly returned the greeting, then looked at the young man curiously, thinking he was a scholar from the Imperial College.

Zuo Shaoweng said, "Miss Xingyue, this gentleman is Lu Yuanzhi, and we just met."

Li Xingyue smiled and bowed, but then she was startled because she noticed that the clothes of this gentleman who she liked more and more were a little torn at the waist, but it seemed that this gentleman didn't notice it.
Li Xingyue was silent for a moment. If Qing Ning had said it directly at this time, she would have pretended not to see Lin Han's words, because she couldn't embarrass people, especially when a woman told a man such a good thing, wouldn't it make the man even more embarrassed?
Do not understand.

but.
Li Xingyue looked at the young man who seemed to be unaware of his appearance, especially the torn part where a corner was exposed. It looked like a purse, but also like something else. If she didn't take care of it, something would be lost.

Li Xingyue was silent for a while, thought about it, then took out a handkerchief from her sleeve, handed it to Zuo Shaoweng, and whispered something in Zuo Shaoweng's ear.

He didn't care about anything after that. He bowed to Lu Yuanzhi again and turned away.

'The man's clothes were torn, and there was something in there, so he had to use a handkerchief to cover it, otherwise the things would be lost.'

This is what Li Xingyue said to Zuo Shaoweng. Whether it can be really blocked, Li Xingyue doesn’t know, but it is better than just doing nothing. Besides, if she just leaves quickly, the man won’t be embarrassed.

Li Xingyue was still walking slowly by herself. After getting the lunch box from the restaurant, she continued walking towards home. There were still all kinds of people on the road. Many of them were excited because of the worldly meeting, and they were in a hurry because of the festival.

There was no hot food in the lunch box. After all, it was the Cold Food Festival, so Li Xingyue was not worried that it would get cold.

On the way, Li Xingyue met some acquaintances, Cui Yuer and Gu Chiyu. They were helping Mr. Shuiyun to buy things. They said that Huajia Baiqi would be coming to Beijing soon, and Mr. Baiqi was Mr. Shuiyun's senior brother, so they had to prepare some things to entertain him.

After they separated, Li Xingyue met a strange person, a woman with her eyes closed, appearing to be blind.

The woman was walking on the road. Li Xingyue felt sorry for her and looked at the carriages on the street. She was a little worried, so she reached out and grabbed the woman to help her walk to the side of the road. She said, "Where is your home? I'll take you back. There are too many carriages on the road."

The beautiful and dignified woman closed her eyes and asked with a smile: "Does the girl often play the piano?"

Li Xingyue was stunned for a moment, not knowing how she knew that, but she still answered, "Some."

The woman grabbed Li Xingyue's hand, touched it and said with a smile: "Young lady, you should play better than my disciples."

Li Xingyue suddenly realized it, but noticed that another carriage was coming, so she immediately took the woman and walked on the side of the road.

The blind woman, who seemed to be touching Li Xingyue's hand, but actually had her hand on Li Xingyue's veins, was stunned for a moment, then turned to Li Xingyue and said, "Miss, are you willing to take me as your master and become my last disciple?"

Li Xingyue was stunned for a moment, because it was very confusing and abrupt. After all, who would suddenly grab someone and ask if he wanted to be their disciple? This was probably only found in the Jianghu stories that Qing Ning often told her.

But Li Xingyue immediately shook her head: "Aunt, I don't want to be your disciple. I'm sorry."

The blind woman smiled and shook her head: "I was wrong. I asked too suddenly."

Li Xingyue felt even more confused, because it was her fault for not becoming a disciple, so how could it be the aunt's fault? So she said, "I'm sorry, but I'll take you home first. It's dangerous here, and there are many people with swords on the road. They look very fierce. If you run into them, I don't know what will happen."

The blind woman shook her head: "My disciples will be here soon."

Li Xingyue was about to speak when she saw three women running towards her.

Seeing them, Li Xingyue let go of the woman's hand and said, "Then I'll leave."

So, Li Xingyue left just like that.

But after walking a few steps, she turned around to look at where the woman was and found that the three women were looking at her in surprise. The woman had her eyes closed, but she seemed to be able to see her and just smiled at her. Li Xingyue was surprised for a moment, but didn't think much about it.

It just feels weird.

When she returned home, Li Xingyue went directly to the ancestral hall.

Li Jiulang saw his daughter, smiled and said, "Master Li is back."

Li Xingyue glared at her father in reproach, knowing that her father was teasing her.

Li Jiulang laughed. He liked to tease his daughter because the child looked exactly like her mother.

After following his father to pay homage to the elders of the Li family and his mother, Li Jiulang took out the cold food and placed some wine in the small courtyard outside the ancestral hall.

Every year during the Cold Food Festival, the Li family’s father and daughter would sit in front of the ancestral hall and eat together.

In Li Jiulang's words, "Just think of it as eating with the elders and your mother."

It was scary, but Li Xingyue was happy about it.

Li Xingyue couldn't drink alcohol and could only take small sips at a time, but she still accompanied her father to drink.

At the same time, Li Xingyue told her father what happened today.

When Li Jiulang heard that the Queen wanted to arrange something for Li Xingyue, his eyes actually brightened. But when he heard that his daughter refused again, he sighed again.

He was also anxious, but there was no use being anxious. What could he do if the girl was not anxious?

When he heard about the blind woman, Li Jiulang was stunned for a moment, and then he kept it in mind and decided to look into it.

The sun sets and a bright moon hangs in the sky.

Li Jiulang looked at the moon in the sky and asked, "Xingyue, do you miss your mother?"

Li Xingyue took a sip of wine with a strange expression, but when she heard Li Jiulang's words, she shook her head: "I don't want to, my father is here."

Li Jiulang looked at his daughter and said "Oh".

Li Xingyue lowered her head, looked at her hands, and began to count silently. When she counted to nine, Li Xingyue stopped and bit her lip: "Dad"

Li Jiulang: “Yeah.”

Li Xingyue whispered, "I do think about it, every day. But there's nothing I can do, so I can only pretend that I don't think about it."

After saying this, Li Xingyue lowered her head and continued to count, but never exceeded nine. Every time she missed her mother, she would count.

Li Jiulang looked at his daughter silently and smiled gently. Unknowingly, she had grown up a little.

……

"Mom, what's the number after nine?"

Many years ago, in front of the sickbed in the Li Mansion, Li Xingyue, who was only seven years old, was lying on the bed. The woman on the bed was skinny and her face was dry and ugly.

But after hearing her daughter's words, the woman tried her best to say, "Ten."

The child nodded, then pointed at his hands and started counting again, but when he got to nine, he asked again, "Mom, what's the number after nine?"

The woman smiled and said, "Ten."

The woman raised her hand slightly and tried to touch her child, but found that she didn't have the strength to do so.

The child nodded, then lowered his head and continued counting, not noticing his mother's actions. When he reached nine, the child asked the same question again.

But this time, the woman did not respond.

The child raised his head and looked at his mother who was tilting her head with her eyes closed and a smile on her face, as if she was looking at him and smiling, but she did not move.

The child bit his lip, as if he had known it for a long time, lowered his head and said, "It's ten."

But the child's face was covered with snot and tears, but the child still smiled and asked, "Mom, what's after nine?"

The child asked with a trembling voice and a choked voice, "Mom, please say something."

As she was talking, the child held her mother's hand, and could no longer hold back his tears. He buried his head in his mother's hands and tried hard not to cry, because his mother said that she wanted him to be as bright as the moon and stars, never cry and always smile, so he couldn't cry.

But the child couldn't help crying out loud: "Mom! Speak! You said you would teach the stars and the moon to count."

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PS: This is a long chapter, there may not be a second update. I’m telling you all that I want to lie down for a while, and I’m afraid I’ll fall asleep, so I’m telling you all in advance.

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