I, who disguised myself as a woman, turned out to be a queen! ?

Chapter 692 Wake up
Covered in blood, he killed people in the mountain stronghold.

Most of the bandits are refugees, and there are no martial arts masters among them. Someone as strong as Su Changan is enough to kill them indiscriminately.

But the first time, Su Changan was in reality and had an emotional breakdown, so he just killed indiscriminately.

but now.
I know it’s a game of inner demons.

But being here, my brother's image becomes clearer in my mind.

And the people in front of him are the ones who killed my eldest brother.

The brother who was thinking about giving him food before he died, and who was enduring severe pain before he died so as not to let his younger brother notice it.

So, I still want to kill.

There were a large number of bandits, but they didn't even have a decent weapon in their hands. The best thing they had was a knife, a very narrow knife at that. It was obvious that it had been sharpened countless times and became like this.

The man holding the knife was the second in command who came after hearing the news. He was also considered the most powerful person in the village.

Seeing the corpses lying all over the ground, especially seeing his eldest brother being cut in half by a knife, he became even more furious and roared at his brothers to go and kill Su Changan.

There were also bandits who hurriedly explained to the second in command why such an evil star had come to the village.

After hearing this, the second in command immediately spat: "Fuck it, he just killed his elder brother, is that a big deal? I killed my elder brother with my own hands and ate the survivors. In our Yan land, is this a big deal? I..."

When he said this, the second in command noticed that the evil star was looking at him and was immediately startled.

Su Changan remembered this person, because what he said next made him furious as he was killing someone for the first time.

The second in command pursed his lips, immediately protected his brothers in front of him, and then pointed at Su Changan: "Fuck you, what are you looking at, you motherless thing, come at me, he can kill all of us by himself! When he dies, I will roast him and his brother together! To commemorate our dead brothers!"

Unchanging words.

And it still hits upon what Su Changan cares about most.

So Su Changan rushed directly towards him.

"Changan, I learned how to hunt today, and I'll bring you a whole wild boar! We can roast it, boil it, or even stir-fry it. It's luxurious!"

"Changan, why do you look like this? Why do I look like this? We are brothers, aren't we?"

'What a joke! My dad is not very good. He just asked me if I was his biological child and then beat me up.'

"Don't cry, Chang'an. We are here. We will make it to the capital alive. Once we get there, we will be able to survive. So just hold on."

"Once you come to Beijing, I will find a way to make a name for myself and marry you off. But I can't get this thing off your face, otherwise... Forget it, you are just a nobody, you don't know anything, just listen to me."

"Chang'an, take the side road, but remember to take the side road beside the official road. Food should be distributed well, don't be greedy. I'm tired, I'll rest here for a while, you hurry up, run as fast as you can, I'll watch you run, I'll catch up with you in a while."

It’s vivid in my mind.

Even though he knew he was in a mental trap, the more he killed, the more vivid these events became.

But Su Changan was clear about these.

It was no longer like the first time, when he had completely broken down emotionally and didn't even know what he was doing. He only knew that these people had killed his brother, and he was completely consumed by anger and resentment.

It's still a familiar place.

After Su Changan killed the second in command who fled to the lobby of the mountain stronghold, Su Changan looked to the side.

There, the women and children who had escaped from the bandits were imprisoned.

It was also when he saw the child there that Su Changan thought of his mother and calmed down.

And now, Su Changan raised his eyes and looked over there.

But when Su Changan looked over, his expression suddenly froze, and he subconsciously said, "Brother..."

There were not as many women and children in the cage as Su Changan remembered.

There are only three people who have it.

A woman holding a very weak and unconscious man in her arms, and a young man with a ferocious face and a stone in his hand standing in front of the woman.

But it can be clearly seen.
Both the woman and the young man looked at him with fear.

"Mom, brother, I..." Seeing the two of them, Su Changan subconsciously took a step forward.

But this step made the woman hug the man in her arms tightly, and the young man waved a stone at Su Changan as a deterrent, showing great resistance.

Su Changan was stunned, and immediately said: "Mom, brother, I am Changan."

But as soon as he opened his mouth, Su Changan saw that the woman's eyes were full of strangeness and fear when she looked at him.

This made Su Changan's heart tremble.

He didn't care what people thought of him, but the woman in front of him
Why do you look at yourself this way?
Thinking of this, Su Changan looked down at himself, but all he saw was red, the red of blood.

Even his hands were covered in blood. He looked up at the woman and the young man, and the fear on their faces was even greater.

Su Changan reacted immediately and shook his head: "No, I didn't, mother, I haven't forgotten what you told me, don't be casual. Don't look at me like that, mother. Brother, don't go, don't..."

For some reason, Su Changan saw that his mother and brother were getting further and further away from him.

And it completely disappeared in the blink of an eye.

And everything around turned pitch black.

Su Changan was still looking in the direction where his mother and brother had disappeared, wanting to chase them, but suddenly he was lost because everything around him was very dark, so dark that he could not recognize the direction at all.

"Your mother is most afraid that you two will become bad, but in fact she is more afraid of you because you are sometimes too thoughtful, unlike your brother who is stupid."

But at this time, a voice that was very strange but extremely familiar to Su Changan reached his ears. Turning around, he saw a middle-aged man with a beard on his face, as if he had grown it deliberately. Otherwise, he would be a middle-aged and handsome man.

The man used the word "good-looking" to describe her, and you can imagine what she looks like.

But even with a beard, he still looks great.

Su Changan felt very unfamiliar because after traveling through time, he only had memories of this man. He felt familiar because even though it was just a memory, he still felt very close to this man.

I don’t know if it’s because he has traveled through time for so long that he has already completely merged with the previous Su Changan.

"Dad," Su Changan said subconsciously.

The man looked at Su Changan and smiled: "You have grown up and become more and more like your grandfather. No wonder your grandmother keeps worrying about what you will do in the future."

Su Changan looked at the man in front of him, pursed his lips, and then moved his lips. He didn't know what to say, but his eyes were already red. Finally, he spoke: "I sent a lot of people, and your daughter-in-law also sent many people to look for you, but..."

But the man said, "Why are you looking for me? Am I not at home?"

Su Changan was stunned for a moment.

But at this moment, the originally dark place suddenly turned into a place with green mountains and clear waters.

And for Su Changan, this place is also very familiar because it is his home.

And right behind the man, his elder brother and second uncle were carrying a big wild boar. His grandmother was sitting under a tree as before, looking at the small river in front of the yard and missing his grandfather. His mother was pointing at his second uncle and saying something to his elder brother. Xia Fengxiang was also there, as if trying to dissuade his angry mother. His second aunt was sweeping the floor with a broom, feeling both amused and helpless.

It's like seeing Su Changan
Everyone looked up at him, and all of a sudden they walked towards Su Changan with a smile.

very nice.
Too beautiful.

Seeing this scene, Su Changan couldn't help but take a half step back, but subconsciously took two steps forward, moving his lips and calling everyone.

But when he saw his mother, Su Changan suddenly remembered the looks his mother and brother had just given him. He immediately retreated and quickly lowered his head.

But what he saw was that his clothes were very clean. They were not made of fancy materials, but just the soft linen clothes that ordinary farmers wore. "Chang'an." The man said.

Su Changan looked at his father.

The man raised his hand and said, "Go back and help clean up the wild boar. You are very strong. Without you, the three of us will have a hard time."

Su Changan looked at the man in front of him, and also at the people who had come to the man's side.

fake.

Su Changan knew very well that these were all fake.

But looking at his family, Su Changan wanted to follow.

I really want to follow!
"Kid, what are you doing standing there? Does he want Qingge to help him?" Mother walked up to Su Changan and glared at him in reproach, then tried to pull him over.

When he saw his mother trying to grab his hand, Su Changan suddenly remembered what he had just done and immediately withdrew his hand.

But when I looked down, I realized that my hands were clean and there was no blood.

The man said, "Killing someone is nothing."

Su Changan looked up at the man and noticed that none of the people around him seemed to hear what he said, or didn't care either.

The man said, "Your mother has killed someone before, too. Have you forgotten?"

Su Changan was stunned.

Suddenly, he thought of the days when he had just traveled through time. His mother and brother took him to escape. At that time, bad guys had already appeared. It was also that night that Su Changan saw the woman waving a sickle in her hand and yelling, "Get out, don't come near us, I won't let you do anything to my son, get out! Otherwise, I will kill you!"

Then at night, Su Changan saw the woman washing her hands and murmuring, "I didn't mean it. I was trying to protect Changan and Ping'an. I didn't. I didn't."

Thinking of this, Su Changan shook his head: "No, it was my mother that time..."

Su Changan shook his head and looked at the woman beside him: "That time it was murder, but there was a reason."

The man smiled and said, "You also have your reasons, so it's nothing. Let's go, go back and pack up quickly. Tomorrow you will go into the mountains with us. You have to learn how to hunt."

Hearing these casual words, Su Changan was stunned and a little dazed.

But looking at his mother, grandmother, brother, uncle, aunt and Xia Fengxiang, Su Changan subconsciously raised his foot, but when he looked at Xia Fengxiang, he suddenly became more sober and retracted his foot.

"You think they are fake and that's why you don't leave?" The man looked at Su Changan and spoke directly.

Su Changan did not deny it.

The man asked, "Is it important?"

Su Changan was stunned again.

The man continued, "What's important is that they are here, and that's the life you've always dreamed of. So what if it's fake? And have you forgotten the way your mother looked at you just now? In reality, you killed so many people, and your mother looked at you that way. Do you like being looked at that way?"

"Or you want to make excuses for yourself, saying that you killed someone to avenge your elder brother or to protect others. Don't laugh, Chang'an, killing is killing, so just forget about it and live the life you've always dreamed of here, with a happy family and no worries. And aren't you thinking about what name to give your child? Don't you want to discuss this with me and your mother?"

"This place is fake, but here, we have everything you want. Outside, we are all gone. And you have the blood of so many people on your hands. When you went to your mother's tablet, didn't you feel ashamed? Even if many people came for protection, what about that village? The bandits killed the entire village just to avenge your brother. You also saw the way your mother and brother looked at you just now."

Hearing this, Su Changan froze in place and shook his head: "No, it's different, I..."

Su Changan thought of the looks his mother and brother had just given him.

It also reminded me of the sudden calm I felt when I saw those children.

That night, the night when my mother killed the man who wanted to harm them, my mother washed her hands for a long time.

Su Changan was very weak at that time, but he knew very well why his mother killed people.

So I tried my best to make a noise, and my mother came back immediately after hearing it.

Seeing that it was Chang'an who woke up, the mother put her hands back into her sleeves, as if her hands were no longer worthy of touching her child.

Seeing this, Su Changan reached out and grabbed his mother's hand.

My mother took it back immediately and said, "My hands are dirty."

Su Changan shook his head and said, "It's not dirty."

Mother was stunned, and she shed tears while looking at Su Changan. She hugged Su Changan and said, "I'm sorry, I killed someone."

After a while, Su Changan said, "Mother, you let us survive."

Mother nodded.

Neither of them ever spoke about this matter after that, but Su Changan knew that his mother had been hiding the sickle.

survived.

In order to keep her two children alive, the woman was willing to do anything, even if it meant becoming the kind of person she hated the most.

When Su Changan saw the woman and child locked in the cage, he thought of his mother.

But what really calmed him down at that moment was the realization that he had become a villain in the eyes of others. Even if he killed people for revenge, did others know? In their eyes, he was just killing people.

So, Su Changan calmed down and ran away.

Because he is not an executioner, he is just killing those who should be killed.

"It's different. Killing is wrong, but it's different. I'm still alive. Mother and brother just want me to live well. I'm willing to do anything to live. So it's different. Killing is for living. Mother won't blame me. What happened just now was fake, and you are all fake too!"

The man continued, "Stay here and live the life you want. Whatever happens outside, it doesn't matter. Besides, is truth or falsehood so important? Life is just a dream, why bother about truth or falsehood in a dream?"

Su Changan looked at the man, moved his lips, then looked at his mother beside him, and Xia Fengxiang who was walking forward.

The wife said, "Silly child, are you still standing there?"

The elder brother asked, "Why, you didn't sleep well and you're still confused?"

Grandmother: "Just like your grandfather."

Uncle and aunt: "What happened to this child today?"

Xia Fengxiang: "Su Changan?"

Su Changan listened to these words and looked at the yard in the distance which was not very big but big enough for a family to live in.

Su Changan yearns for it, he yearns for it very much. There is no one who doesn't yearn for a good life.

But
Su Changan's expression suddenly dawned. He smiled as he looked at his mother, brother, grandmother and others, and finally at Xia Fengxiang: "Life is like a dream, yes, but it is fake, it is fake. I killed many people outside, but I survived. None of the people I killed were innocent. I don't regret killing so many people, because I haven't forgotten what my mother told me not to do bad things."

"If I am asked to kill someone later, I will choose to kill, because I believe I will not kill the wrong person. Even if my mother sees the blood on my hands, she will not think I am dirty, because she knows that I am not an executioner."

The man looked at Su Changan without saying anything, and just turned around.

But as soon as he turned around, the figure suddenly disappeared.

Then there are my uncle, aunt, grandmother, Xia Fengxiang
Finally, there are mother and brother.

Looking at his disappearing mother and brother, Su Changan wanted to reach out to stop them.

But mother smiled and reached out to rub Su Changan's cheek, and gently supported Su Changan's head.

Su Changan closed his eyes subconsciously.

But right away.
Feeling that his mother had disappeared, when he opened his eyes, Su Changan saw Yan Yunxiao and the ruins around him.

(End of this chapter)