the emperor is my uncle

What can be done?

A nameless affair with another man easily ended all my delusions about Fu Donglou.This is the worst way to lose love that I can imagine.

I know that I don't need to be hysterical or mournful at all, because at this moment, my own heart is ashamed.

Fortunately, I finally know what I should do, this incident gave me the courage to make up my mind to leave...

"Xiyuan, I still have to go to the military camp to train, so I can't take you back to the palace in person." Lian Zheng put his coat beside my bed and continued, "It's still raining outside, so you put this coat on your body , Beware of catching a cold."

The person in the night and the person in front of me can't match at all, how stupid am I, to take the initiative to pester him absurdly?I can't figure it out.

Seeing that I was silent, Lian Zheng didn't leave immediately after standing up, but hesitated, "Otherwise...you can also stay here and wait for me to come back, I will go and tell the prince."

I just shook my head, "No, I'll go back."

"Wang Wenquan, send the princess off later..." As Lian Zheng hurriedly left, his voice became smaller and smaller, until the horse neighed and the horseshoes stomped away, only then could I be sure that Lian Zheng really left up.

There was a hint of dampness in the air, and I propped myself up on the bed and sat up.

I have never had such a similar feeling, as if every action of putting on clothes is filled with humiliation and regret.Hey, let alone courtiers, concubines, and common people don't want to see me, I don't even want to see myself.

If it were in the past, when I didn't know my identity, then even a little bit of grievance would definitely be unbearable to me, right?But now, I put on my clothes and left without crying or fussing. From the beginning to the end, I never touched Lian Zheng's overcoat...

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The carriage was galloping, and I opened the curtain to take a look.

Before the soldier driving the car turned his head, he said, "Princess, what are your orders?"

I inadvertently asked, "Isn't it very hard for you to train soldiers in such a heavy rain? You will be in a bad mood, right?"

Xiao Bing still looked ahead, "Fortunately, the general said that he would not practice today. Everyone is free to move around and wait for the rain to stop. Anyway, there is nothing wrong."

It was as if cold water had been poured on my head, from the head to the soles of my feet, "...um."

I have a ghost in my heart, so I dare not make it public. When the carriage reaches the east end of the street, I won't let it go any further.I told the soldier that I would bear all the consequences, and he handed me an oiled paper umbrella, and then drove away.

I walked slowly on the stone road, watching the rain curtain outside the oil-paper umbrella, my heart was also wet.God seems to have a bit of diligence in wanting to cleanse the world, but obviously he doesn't understand it diligently.

When the skirt was soaked through, I finally saw the gate of the palace.

Unexpectedly, Jiang Huai was standing by the door in that moon-white gown, standing alone.His hair was slightly soaked by the rain, but he didn't notice it, and his eyes were still staring blankly ahead.

I closed my umbrella and stepped up to the last step. Not surprisingly, Jiang Huai came to his senses and saw me.In an instant, his face was full of anger, and his thin lips drew a mocking arc towards me, and then spit out a word: "Yo~~"

I shook off the remaining raindrops on the umbrella, as if I was about to enter the mansion.

Jiang Huai blocked me in time. His eyes were already big, but now they were staring so hard that they almost popped out of the window. "Where did you go? I'm asking you! Where are you going when you don't return at night?" gone?"

I shook my head past him without speaking.

"Hey, sweetheart, isn't your rebellious period too long? Brother, I have searched all over the city's brothels, so why don't you put a smile on my face?"

Jiang Huai grabbed me by the sleeve, and I couldn't take it off. I didn't want to talk too much, so I could only smile along with him: "Jiang Huai, your hair is messed up."

His eyebrows were particularly ugly, and his words were full of twists and turns, "Although the saying goes, 'The head can be broken, but the hairstyle can't be messed up', but there is another sentence behind it, 'The blood can flow, but the face can't be lost'! I told you yesterday Wait for me, but you don't wait, I want to get something for you! Are you refusing to show me face like this? Oh, my dear?!"

There was a subtle seriousness on my expression, and then I said lightly to him, "I'm sorry."

The desolation in Jiang Huai's eyes flashed past, but he insisted on insisting, "I'm sorry, if it's useful, why do you need the yamen? Hey... Fortunately, my brother is generous, and I don't care about you, so the things will be given as they are." Look~"

He opened the front of his clothes and took out a small child's shoe from his pocket, "Look, sweetheart, are they cute? A while ago I went to Changbo on business and found that Ma Fengchun had just given birth to a pair of twins. She asked me to bring them to you. Tell you to hurry up too... Hurry up and find a lover. You see, life is actually very exciting, there are many choices, and there are many things that you have time to regret. As for me, I don’t mind if you have——"

I took the little shoe and interrupted him, "Why is it one?"

"I confiscated the other one," Jiang Huai glared at me angrily, "Isn't the point here?! The point is, would you like to be with me?"

"..." This sudden confession was the same as usual, but it was different. I laughed and tears fell, "Stop making trouble, it's not worth it."

In the emotional world, if one more person is dragged in, it will be more crowded. I am already in such a miserable situation, how can I give him hope without revealing the truth?

When I closed the gate of the palace, I vaguely heard Jiang Huai saying: "Fu Xingan, you are really a thorn in my heart!"

……

Three days have passed, I have bathed no less than eight times, and the skin all over my body hurts when I rub it, but I still haven't groaned.

In daily life, I basically stop at the level of "eat when you need to eat, drink when you need to drink, sleep when you need to sleep, and talk when you need to talk". I behave very normally, but everyone thinks that I am a bit abnormal. .

Fengchun gave birth to a baby, and even the hare in the side courtyard of Heshun Prince's Mansion gave birth to a cub.

Fu Baobao pestered me and kept calling: "Eldest sister, elder sister, quickly name Xiaotu a few!"

I stroked his head and said perfunctorily, "You can do it yourself, good boy."

So, the little child frowned, thinking about it for a whole day, thinking about it for several days, the rabbit was finally named "Ergou" by Fu Baobei.

That is, the day Ergou officially got his name, Heshun Palace received an imperial decree, and it was the emperor who announced me to enter the palace.

My heart is no longer cramped, and my emotions are very calm, not turbulent at all.

It took me a long time to realize that this kind of peaceful sadness is also called "accepting fate".