Watching the sea from the shore

Chapter 60 An Illusory Dream
When he returned to the dormitory at night, after washing, Ni Manhua lay on the bed and didn't want to move.She felt that all her strength had been drained out of her, and many tough ropes had grown out of the unsolvable mystery, binding her whole body tightly.

Ni Manhua couldn't break away, and she didn't want to break away. She just wanted to fall into a long sleep and didn't want to care about anything.

Besides Ni Manhua, there was another girl in the dormitory who did not go home. Seeing that she was alone on the bed and motionless, she came up the stairs and asked with concern: "What's wrong, Manman? Did something happen to make you unhappy today? My locker There’s wine in it, two drinks?”

"No, thank you. I'm just tired from standing for a long time. I just need to lie down for a while."

"Okay, then I'll go visit next door and be back soon. Don't worry, I'll be very gentle and won't disturb you."

It was still only nine o'clock in the evening, so Ni Manhua had no reason to interfere with his roommate's activities, but she was so considerate for his own sake, which made Ni Manhua feel grateful.

After his roommate went out, Ni Manhua thought he would fall asleep soon, but unexpectedly, the phone next to his pillow vibrated again. Ni Manhua reached out with difficulty to bring it in front of him, and saw that it was Zhan Ping calling .

When Ni Manhua picked up the phone, he didn't know what emotion to use to make his voice, but he heard Zhan Ping also looking tired, wailing at her: "Manman, I'm so tired, why am I working so hard...you Why did I not listen to your advice and bring so many things here? I was going to school and not moving. Although I did move now, I was really tired. It is a heavy-duty school, and its dormitory building is built with six floors. There are no elevators, and there are no restaurants.”

Ni Manhua was attracted by her words, and his fatigue seemed to ease a little.Ni Manhua asked: "Have you changed dormitories? Where are you moving to?"

"I haven't changed the dormitory. I plan to share the dormitory with your uncle." Zhan Ping's voice suddenly became sonorous and powerful: "Those little girls who only think about tormenting people every day are not worthy of living with me. They restrict my freedom and affect me." Mood."

Ni Manhua sat up from the bed at once, and she was completely free to move: "You and my uncle share the rent? When? Where do you live?"

"That's right. The school rented a suite for your uncle off campus. There are two rooms, so I'll take one. I just moved my things in the past two days."

Ni Manhua felt confused. Maybe it was too long ago and it seemed that this episode had never occurred in her memory.

Ni Manhua frowned. She thought for a long time and remembered that when she was in college, she and Lu Guanhai went out to rent together first. When she told Zhan Ping about it, Zhan Ping was still envious of her and said There are monsters and ghosts living in my dormitory, and I can hardly bear it.

At that time, Ni Manhua was immersed in the joy of renting together with Lu Guanhai. She was mostly talking about Zhan Ping on the phone and was listening. Except for the particularly important things that Zhan Ping said, she couldn't remember much about them overnight.

I still have some impressions. One day Zhan Ping said that Lai Hongtu had brought her out of the sea of ​​misery. Ni Manhua was playing games with Lu Guanhai at that time and had a few words. She was just happy that Lai Hongtu, an unreliable man, had made some difference, but the specifics Ni Manhua really didn't remember anything about it.

Now Ni Manhua feels that he was really unworthy of Zhan Ping during his last college career. He was too preoccupied with dating and didn't really care about her.

Ni Manhua asked Zhan Ping: "You have paid the dormitory fee for one school year, is it allowed to leave the school now?"

"I told the counselor that the accommodation fee will not be refunded, and then the parents will call to confirm, and the recording will be kept for the file. Then we can move. I will move the things first during the National Day, and when the leave is collected, I will go to the office to sign a note and it will be done." None of this is difficult for Zhan Ping. She doesn't need a little money for accommodation. As long as she doesn't cause trouble, her parents will meet almost all her requirements. She calls home and her dad calls counseling for her. The member solved it.

Ni Manhua lay down again: "Okay then, I wish you a happy life together."

Ni Manhua's voice sounded weak, and Zhan Ping asked her, "What's wrong? You don't want me to live with him? Then I'll find a house by myself..."

"No," Ni Manhua was afraid that Zhan Ping would misunderstand her meaning, so she hurriedly explained: "You two are a perfect partner. I originally thought that you two could take care of each other in the same city. I just... Ping Ping, I actually have some things that I have been doing." Wanted to tell you."

She obviously didn't want to say it at first, she wanted to bear everything by herself, but now, Ni Manhua really feels the loneliness that is different from this world. No one can listen to her voice, no one can accompany her. She stepped forward, and Ni Manhua suddenly wanted to grab a pair of hands and find a little peace of mind in this world.

Zhan Ping's tone suddenly became serious: "You speak, I listen."

Ni Manhua plucked up the courage to open his mouth, but when the words came to his lips, he suddenly didn't know how to say them.Ni Manhua cheered himself up in his heart, as nervous as a child who wanted to report his mistake to an adult.

After a long time, Ni Manhua took a deep breath and said cautiously: "I have had several very long dreams recently, which are very real. In the dream, it was 2030, and Lu Guanhai and I were married. You Don’t laugh, after we got married for a few years, various problems in life became very painful, so I was reborn back to this time and space to change the development of the story.”

Zhan Ping was a little worried: "Manman, are you very professional there? Don't think you have mental problems due to fatigue, but this also shows that Lu Guanhai has a very important position in your heart. You two are now together Going to school in a city, how about developing yourself? I think falling in love is also a stress-relieving thing."

"In the dream, I had a big problem with Lu Guanhai's family, and I came back because I didn't want to hurt him. If I were with Lu Guanhai now, it might end like that in the future. I would definitely not be with Lu Guanhai. He's together. I want to rewrite the ending. What I can't figure out now is that I decided to rewrite the ending, but every time I think about the ending being rewritten, I feel very sad."

"Do you feel like you can't tell the difference between dreams and reality? Do you take your dreams seriously? Well, Manman, assuming you are Ni Manhua who was reborn from 2030, then you must still be in love with Lu Guanhai in that time and space , otherwise there are many ways to resolve the conflict between two people, and when you return to this time and space, you want to rewrite the ending, but are afraid of rewriting the ending. This ambivalent mentality is also because you love Lu Guanhai in that time and space. "

"Maybe, but that dream told me that if I had to do it again, I'd better stay away from him to avoid our misfortune from happening again."

Zhan Ping suddenly fell silent, and Ni Manhua guessed that she must be feeling ridiculous because of her words.

Who would be afraid of a dream?Who would struggle because of a dream?Who would have so many unreasonable thoughts because of a illusory dream, a story that may be a spiritual fantasy?

After a long time, Zhan Ping's hesitant voice came: "Manman, do you still remember that when you were in high school, you had a dream about the future, and you said that you dreamed that Lu Guanhai would not be able to pay his tuition when he started school?" , We went to his supermarket to buy a lot of things. But later, Lu Guanhai did not fail to pay the tuition fee. So many stories have been rewritten."

"I remember feeling weird about that one time."

"So your dream this time may not come true. If there is a problem in your future relationship, it is the problem that needs to be solved, not the relationship."

"Then can I still be with him?"

"Of course, as long as you like him and he likes you, the dream is just a warning to you. On the contrary, you are more prepared to deal with difficulties than others."

Zhan Ping is always so optimistic, but after Ni Manhua listened to her words, some knots in his heart were indeed solved.

Many stories have changed, and Lu Guanhai is not the same Lu Guanhai as before, and he will not continue the original life trajectory in the future, so why can't she try again?

"Okay, I understand. Thank you, the wise student Zhan Ping, for helping me answer my questions."

"You're welcome. Just treat me to a few more meals when I come to see you next time. You're so tired. Go to bed early, clear your mind, and stay away from mental stress."

"Then I'll go to bed first, and you should go to bed early. Good night."

"Good night."

(End of this chapter)