Watching the sea from the shore

Chapter 92 Negative Textbook on Marriage
Lying on a familiar yet unfamiliar bed, she obviously slept in the same room and bed last night, but when she slept again today, she still felt different.

The two of them were so close that her mother could accurately understand her unhappiness. Ni Manhua could not hide it and could only whisper: "I feel that this world is different from what I imagined when I was a child."

Mom smiled: "Of course. When you were a child, you didn't know hard work, good or evil. Everything you saw was easy, which is good. Your parents protect you from wind and rain and let you live a carefree life. Such a life, There are only so many years in a person’s life.”

Ni Manhua asked: "Mom, when you grow up, do you realize that the world is different from when you were a child?"

"Yeah, but mom quite likes the world she sees when she grows up."

"why?"

"Because I can distinguish between good and evil by myself, and choose good and bad by myself. I have the ability to be sensible and have the right to make choices. Isn't this better than the life I had when I was a child? Long and carefree is happiness, but There are many kinds of happiness, and unhappiness does not come from growing up.”

Ni Manhua was silent. Yes, her unhappiness was not because she had grown up, but because she had clearly made a choice, but did not have the courage to bear the consequences of her choice.

Her mother patted her on the back: "What happened? Did you have a quarrel with Xiao Hai?"

Ni Manhua didn't deny it. She had nothing to deny. She just didn't know how to tell her mother about divorcing Lu Guanhai.

She was afraid that her mother would worry about her future, and it was also for her own sake.

Ni Manhua expressed it very cryptically: "Our way of thinking... is very different in many places. Mom, do you still hate him now?"

She and Lu Guanhai have been married for so many years, and as time goes by, she rarely hears her mother complain.In the first few years, she always complained that Lu Guanhai didn't know how to pick things and couldn't afford good things, which caused Ni Manhua's living standard to drop.

But as time went by, maybe she was tired of talking, or maybe she felt that it was useless to talk, so she gradually stopped talking. Ni Manhua hadn't heard her talk about Lu Guanhai or what he did for a long time. view of something.

When I mentioned this matter today, Ni Manhua's mother thought about it for a while before saying, "We have been a family for so many years. How can we get along with each other if we have to hate each other all the time."

"Then when did you stop hating him?"

"After you get married, you won't hate it anymore."

"Is it because I like him, so you think it's okay?"

"No, it's because he likes you." Ni Manhua's mother recalled: "When I calmed down and saw how he looked at you, I seemed to suddenly understand why you chose him so firmly. Come back and drink After drinking, I counted how many times he carried you on his back. I also remembered how he usually took care of you. I just watched the two of you go further and further away. After watching for a long time, I no longer hate you. ”

Ni Manhua thought of what his mother said in another time and space: "If he can be so generous to you all his life, I will consider it."

No matter where in time and space, her mother's heart is actually the same. She just hopes that the person Ni Manhua chooses will treat her well. She has been considering it and has been quietly watching her life.

But she was not as snobbish and mean as Ni Manhua thought. Ni Manhua let out a long sigh. What on earth was she thinking and doing in these years? Whether she was facing love or family affection, she was extremely... stupidity.

Mom asked again: "Tell me quickly, what happened to you and Xiao Hai, which made you feel sad here?"

"I'm just what I just said, trivial things in life."

"These quarrels are not worth it. Your father and I have been quarreling for decades. Has there been any result from the quarrel? We don't quarrel anymore. The older we get, the more we understand each other and understand each other, and we are too lazy to argue."

Ni Manhua's father takes care of the family business and is busy most of the time.When Ni Manhua was a child, she remembers that they always quarreled, but then they gradually stopped arguing. When her father didn't come back, her mother went to play mahjong, go shopping, and watch movies with friends. When her father came back, she was busy at home. Taotaoru was talking to him about what happened at home recently.

Ni Manhua understood clearly that the best way to solve the problem is for one party to learn to compromise.

But she can't give up her work and life. She is different from her mother. Her mother is a full-time housewife, but she has dreams and a job.She couldn't wait at home forever, the world revolved around that one person.

That night, Ni Manhua chatted with her mother for a long time before going to bed. Her mother was sleepy, but she was not sleepy at all. She lay in bed with her eyes open, but did not dare to move for fear of disturbing her mother's good sleep.

Ni Manhua felt like he was being suppressed by a giant beast, unable to breathe and unable to turn over.

The next day Ni Manhua called the group leader, who asked her to pack up quickly and set off on the weekend. Ni Manhua agreed, but thinking about a future that might be more glorious but lonely, she was not so happy.

Zhan Ping called Ni Manhua for dinner at noon. Ni Manhua went home and changed clothes. When he sat in the restaurant, Zhan Ping propped up his chin and looked at her: "You are energetic now. I see you have been lying down for a few days and you are still like this." point."

"I'm going to Beijing on the weekend." Ni Manhua was not in the mood to chat and went straight to the point.

Zhan Ping had known about Ni Manhua's departure for a long time and was not surprised. He just asked her, "Does Lu Guanhai know?"

"He went to the hospital early in the morning and hasn't said anything yet."

"You two went back, did you gain anything?"

"It's a showdown and we'll separate."

"Is this a harvest? What are you harvesting? Freedom?"

Zhan Ping rolled her eyes at Ni Manhua. The last time she saw Lu Guanhai and Ni Manhua, she thought they had resolved their misunderstanding and were willing to get back together.

One is a best friend, and the other is an old classmate who has known each other for so many years. Seeing them walk such a long road together, from Zhan Ping's perspective, she does not want them to separate.

Zhan Ping sighed, and Ni Manhua didn't know what she was worried about: "Are you dissatisfied with my divorce, or are you reluctant for me to leave?"

"I think this world is too ridiculous. I don't even know how to tell you if you are like this..."

Zhan Ping looked very troubled. She has always been a cheerful person who can't hide things in her stomach. This kind of Zhan Ping made Ni Manhua feel alarmed: "What's going on? Tell me quickly, I can handle it."

Zhan Ping cleared her throat and said a little shyly: "Lai Hongtu proposed to me a few days ago, and I agreed."

"When did it happen? I saw the ring in his bag last time..."

"After your mother woke up and saw that nothing was wrong with her, she proposed to me. He said it was a wedding, but he proposed in front of you."

Zhan Ping's voice became smaller and smaller.Ni Manhua was petrified, and she twitched the corner of her mouth stiffly: "Why did he ask for it? He said that he finally sent away two troublemakers, so he can take a sigh of relief and go about your business."

At that time, Ni Manhua and Lu Guanhai were still in another time and space, with only two bodies lying there. Ni Manhua thought about the scene and couldn't help feeling a little weird.

"Not really." Zhan Ping also felt that this was not good, but she still said: "He pointed at you two and said, we will definitely not become like you, because we are not as naive as you."

If the person sitting in front of him was not Zhan Ping, Ni Manhua believed that he must have taken action. But looking at Zhan Ping's harmless face and thinking that the person who said this was his uncle, Ni Manhua cursed him repeatedly. She was too lazy to speak.

Forget it, this world is indeed ridiculous, and she has given up struggling long ago.

Seeing that Ni Manhua didn't speak for a long time, Zhan Ping stroked her head like a pet: "I regret it now, I don't want to marry anymore."

Ni Manhua suddenly looked at her: "Why? Did I give you negative teaching materials?"

"No," Zhan Ping shook her head: "That's not because I didn't think that you and Lu Guanhai would really get divorced at the beginning. If you divorce and I get married, what does that mean? It's like I grafted the marriage you should have."

Ni Manhua didn't expect that Zhan Ping was thinking about this. She remembered that Zhan Ping was not a superstitious person.

Ni Manhua was silent for a while and said cautiously: "It's okay, I don't mind. It's just that I can't be your bridesmaid. You have to find someone else."

"What kind of bridesmaid? Neither of us plans to have a wedding. I told him from the beginning that you accompany us to get a certificate and we will be considered married."

Zhan Ping actually doesn't want to get married. She doesn't like complicated weddings and the so-called sense of ceremony.But she likes Lai Hongtu, and Lai Hongtu wants to get married and write Zhan Ping into his family tree, so go ahead.Anyway, Zhan Ping plans to spend her whole life with Lai Hongtu. As long as this goal can be achieved, she can accept all the hiccups in it.

What Zhan Ping said made Ni Manhua even more at a loss. Zhan Ping had a shadow on marriage, which she finally overcome. Ni Manhua could not do more for her and became an obstacle to her.

Seeing that Ni Manhua was getting depressed again, Zhan Ping waved her hand: "Forget it, let's not talk about it, you go to Beijing first, let me take it easy, no one said that if the proposal is successful, we will get married, wait for you Let’s talk about it next time we come back.”

(End of this chapter)