She is different from the empress in the history books

There is probably no child who is not curious about their parents' marriage. After all, it is related to where they come from and whether they are born with great expectations.

The same goes for Xu Shu.

Therefore, when Pei Peng asked, Xu Shu naturally turned her attention to this matter:
"Auntie, can you talk?"

Today's parents are very shy about talking about these things with their children. Some parents even don't even have physical contact with their children in front of them.
Although Pei Peng is not that old-fashioned, she rarely lets Xu Shu see her true relationship with Xu Qing, even though as Xu Shu grows up, the child has gradually gained judgment.

However, it was probably due to Cheng Fei's influence. Pei Peng thought of what Cheng Fei had mentioned about the impact of parents' marriage on their children, and other remarks such as "women will not easily enter marriage as long as they see through it." Pei Peng thought Even though it was still a little embarrassing, I still wanted to talk to Xu Shu.

"Okay, but the story is very long. Do you want to hear it?"

Pei Peng is now 35 years old. She was 17 when she married Xu Qing, and she was 19 when she had Xu Shu. If you really want to count, she and Xu Qing first met 19 years ago, which is a lot. She had forgotten all the details. After all, it was not an important matter, but she had never forgotten the considerations she had made when choosing a husband, the steps she took to become estranged and even guarded after marriage.

"When your father and I first met, I was almost your age,"

Pei Peng turned to look at her daughter. Under the dim candlelight, Xu Shu's cheeks were plump, the skin at the corners of her eyes was tight, and her eyes were black and white. She looked like a young girl, and this was a woman of her age. No amount of maintenance can achieve the effect.

She has also had this time.

"At that time, no one actually arranged for me to get married, but I still had a younger sister. Her mother-in-law was quite capable, and her mother's family was also famous. The elders of the clan had introduced her son-in-law to her early, which caused a scene in the capital. While they were discussing who the consort was, people realized something was wrong. Above her, there was me. My sister didn’t want to marry, and it didn’t sound good for her to make such a big show of it. People from the royal family, although they don’t necessarily do everything. You want face, but on the surface, you always have to look like brothers, brothers, and sisters."

Pei Peng did not shy away from complaining about the royal family's attitude to his daughter, but it was also the same daughter of the Pei family, the same princess. The elders only thought of the younger sister, but not the elder sister.

"Actually, it wasn't just me who was left unattended at that time, there was also my aunt, who was more embarrassed than me. She was the posthumous daughter of the emperor's grandfather. Her mother was just an ordinary concubine, and she only had one daughter. Anyway. , people dug around and found that she and I had reached marriageable age and could no longer live in the palace, so they brought out several marriages that my sister was unwilling to marry and let us choose.

In fact, we don't have the right to choose. Those with good family backgrounds and promising futures. As soon as they heard that they were choosing a son-in-law for us, they all made excuses to avoid it. At this time, they all said that the family was proud of the princes, haha. "

Xu Shu had never seen the existence of this great-aunt in her memory. Xu Shu had only heard of her, but had never seen her even the aunt who chose her son-in-law in a glamorous manner.

"I do know about my aunt. It is said that she died young and left no children and a half. How come I have never heard you mention her about my great-aunt?"

Pei Peng hesitated when asked. It is true that she had never mentioned her aunt to Xu Shu, but no one mentioned her for so many years. Maybe there was a reason.

Xu Shu asked subconsciously, but then realized this. She embarrassedly wrapped her fingers around Pei Peng's hand under the quilt and changed the subject:

"Forget it, I'm not curious about this either, please continue talking."

Pei Peng thought to himself, in fact, it is not impossible to talk to the children about her aunt. Xu Shu is now older and knows everything about what she says and does. She will not spread it casually after hearing it. On the contrary, it is her aunt's experience that can make her grow up. long lesson

Even her sister, who had a bad fate, had some reasons for her bad fate that were worthy of being used to educate her children.

However, these can be put aside later. For now, let’s finish talking about my own experience.

Pei Peng followed Xu Shu's fingers and held them back. Not to mention, maybe it was because the young man had strong firepower, but Xu Shu's hands were obviously hotter than his own.

Mother and daughter held hands, and Pei Peng continued:
"Your father was actually the one who was left behind. He no longer wanted to be the emperor at that time. He felt that my aunt and I were not favored by the late emperor and could not bring much benefit to the prince-in-law. But your grandfather was already determined to train him at that time. Since you are an uncle, I am naturally worried that if my eldest son stays at home, the brothers will kill each other."

Xu Shu knew her father's temper. Of course, he was very flexible when he calmed down later, but at the moment he was very stubborn. This was also the reason for many arguments between her parents.

So, if his grandfather insists that he be the master, he will definitely not cooperate, right?
"When I was young, the way husbands and girls interacted with each other was by going on outings, having banquets, playing polo or going to the garden. Your father would always come over reluctantly, dressed as if he wanted to. It looks like he’s been taken aback, but his expression is totally different.”

Xu Shu was amused by Pei Peng's description. With this twisted behavior, he was indeed her father.

"I was thinking at that time that there were not many choices left for me. The reason why those people were not selected was not because their families were jumping up and down to take sides and making enemies everywhere, or because their mother was not easy to get along with, or because I was too dissolute. Otherwise, he has a bad temper and often kills his slaves. As for your father, it’s just that he has no ability and was abandoned by the family. But for me, his behavior is easier to accept than other problems. At least I can get married. , I open a mansion by myself. I will reward and punish the servants in the mansion, and I will be responsible for the food and clothing expenses. I can also save some family property. Whether it is to subsidize the aunt in the palace or spend it myself, I will be much more comfortable. , and feel a lot more comfortable.”

Pei Peng recalled that she was holding on to straws to plan her marriage, hoping to change her current situation. As time passed, she thought about it again and felt that she was still more urgent and eager for quick success, but this was true. It was the only method I could think of at that time.Pei Peng didn't have much arrogance and self-esteem as a princess at that time. She had too little, and almost every treatment she had was earned by herself. Even the marriage that suddenly came to mind was actually her flower. The result of using money to promote publicity——

She didn't want to be forgotten in a corner of the palace for the rest of her life, or one day her father remembered him and randomly pointed out someone to marry. Then she might as well take the initiative and take advantage of her sister's choice of a prince-in-law. , when you see something suitable, find a way to get it.

Pei Peng has such a personality.Therefore, even if she knew that Xu Qing was not so willing, with the arrangement of the Xu family, he had to be the master. In this case, let him be her consort.

Xu Shu listened to Pei Peng's thoughts quietly, feeling inexplicably sour in her heart.

To be honest, some of her little sisters, when they reach the marriageable age, will also mention marriage when chatting and writing letters, but most of them consider their family background, temperament, appearance, mother-in-law and sisters-in-law, and they When it comes to marriage, I always worry that it would be better to relax at home than to get married.

However, Aniang felt that she would be better off after getting married.

It can be seen that she was really not having a good time at that time.

Pei Peng noticed her daughter's expression and smiled unconsciously. She had gone through a difficult road. She didn't feel it was hard at the time, and she doesn't feel it is hard now. Compared to her sixteen or seventeen-year-old self, she already has a lot more now. If you have more, you will have more, so what’s the point of suffering?

But as parents, it is gratifying to get some sympathy and understanding from their children.

Pei Peng couldn't help but want to comfort:

"Actually, I wasn't too sad in the palace, but now that I've reached my age, I always want to get married. Plus, your father has a good birth. I think it's not a loss for me to watch him every day. After all, a modest gentleman and a lady are good."

"Then you get married?"

Xu Shu did not ask about her mother's childhood experience, but followed Pei Peng's words.

"That's right. Maybe your grandfather feels ashamed that my daughter has been forgotten by him for so long, so he has thought about finding a better candidate for me.

But I understand my own situation. I can't win over a more prominent family, and I don't want to use my title as a princess to achieve someone else's ambitions. Then Xu Qing is the one. It's good if I can live my own life in an ordinary way. You don’t need to have too much money, power, wealth, just a harmonious family. "

"Auntie, this is really not what you said."

Xu Shu couldn't help but complain.

"Isn't it different? But that's what I thought at that time."

Pei Peng also felt that her thoughts at that time were a bit simple. She just subconsciously did not want to submit to her husband's family and did not want others to be her master.But more deeply, does it require more power if you don’t want others to be your own master?A bigger force?A stronger voice?She really hadn't thought about it yet.

Pei Peng thought of Cheng Fei's words again. They sounded shocking, but they actually made some sense.

"But now that I think about it, that may not be my nature. I am not a person who is willing to live my own life. This may be what your cousin said, a kind of domestication? I am not like that, but when everyone People tell me that I am the happiest when I am like that, and I believe it.”

Xu Shu felt that what A Niang said was a bit profound for her. Cheng Fei did not mention the word "domestication". At most, he said strange remarks such as "late marriage, late childbearing, fewer children and eugenics".

Pei Peng could naturally see the confusion and confusion in Xu Shu's eyes. She thought to herself, silly boy, this is why my mother-in-law doesn't want you to get married early.

Pei Peng knows Xu Shu well. She doesn't like restraint, but prefers freedom. She doesn't like to be a quiet beauty in the crowd, but wants to be a leader among them. She doesn't want to be a wife under her protection. The mediocre princess and heir prefers to be the general who charges into battle beside her.

All of this actually made Pei Peng realize that her daughter would just follow her and would not be willing to give up her power or give up her responsibilities.

Then, Pei Peng didn't want Xu Shu to be shocked to find that when she realized this, she had actually entered a marriage that required her to give up her power and freedom.

In fact, I have had styes on and off for a while, and they were on my eyelids. I originally thought that I would take some anti-inflammatory drugs and probably get rid of them, but they got bigger and bigger... and then I could barely open one eye. Just get rid of it.