I'm born again, and so are they

Chapter 146 Remembrance of Past Life Qin Keqing 1 (5000)

【Didn't you always want to know why I pester Su Qi obsessively? 】'Qin Keqing' has gentle eyes, quietly looking at the 17-year-old self in front of her, at her delicate sideburns, at her pair of seductive eyes, the self in front of her is so young, she has not yet figured out love and hate.

Don't worry, don't worry, he has already recognized himself, 'Qin Keqing' still has a lot of time to teach himself how to love someone.

'Qin Keqing' frowned, her tone softened, and she sat gently on the side of her bed. Outsiders could not see the existence of her spiritual body, but in the eyes of 17-year-old Qin Keqing, 'Qin Keqing''s soft and charming face was a little bit Become calm and settle down.

[I fell in love with him is a slow story. The beginning of the story happened in the spring of 2019. As an outstanding graduate, he returned to high school to give a speech to us senior students, but the climax of the story was seven years later. When Lu Xian got divorced, people always say that there is a seven-year itch between husband and wife, and that a friendship of more than seven years is a lifetime. What about me and him, he can hear my whispers in those seven years, and he can hear my seven-year friendship. Is your heart pounding? 】

Qin Keqing's restlessness and sorrow calmed down little by little in the words of 'Qin Keqing', and she quietly listened to her future self tell the story of the past.

【The seven years of unrequited love was too long, and it would take too much time to tell it. Let’s tell the climax of the story first. It was a time in the gutter without the sun...】

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Life is not like making a movie, and you don’t have to wait for years for someone. I have been a very realistic person since I was a child, and I will not spend too much time on vain things that I can’t get.

The four years when I had a crush on Su Qi in college didn’t cost me too much effort. I was keen on club activities and speeches in various competitions. I am definitely the most conspicuous among thousands of colors, so many teachers will be shocked when they know that Qin Muzhi is my sister.

"But Qing is actually that Qin Muzhi's sister, she doesn't look like her at all!"

Qin Muzhi is cold and self-possessed, with a phlegmatic temperament. We are indeed two extremes from each other, but we two sisters are very similar in one thing - we don't need to deliberately maintain relationships with others.

From childhood to adulthood, there are too many people who want to have a relationship with our two sisters. Qin Muzhi has a cold temper and refuses to communicate with others. He does everything by himself and does not ask for much from the outside world. For all Yingying Yanyan who wanted to surround her, even if there was no one around, Qin Muzhi was happy to be alone.

I am more flexible in temperament and do not object to treating others with a gentle attitude, but I maintain an absolute standard. I can be called acquaintances with many people, but I can never be called friends. This is also efficient for me. In terms of interpersonal relationships, many times as soon as I open my mouth, many acquaintances are willing to help.

I know the thoughts behind those people, and I also know that if you get something, you have to give it, so I rarely open my mouth. Even if I do, it is normal for everyone to get what they need. Over time, most people will lose their minds and be at peace with me. Treat each other.

During the four years of college, I made many friends, met many people, experienced many things, and understood many principles of life. I think I have a complete youth, except for the matter of Su Qi.

Su Qi is a very legendary person, hard to forget, very memorable, but he has Jiang Chuyao by his side.

To be honest, I always felt that I didn’t like Su Qi that much because we were students from the same high school. I was considered his elementary school girl and I had not much communication with him, but those interactions were too ordinary. The four years they spent together are not worth mentioning.

He graduated from college a year before me. On the eve of graduation, he broke up with his girlfriend of four years and later secretly married a young director of the school.

After only two years of marriage, he divorced the female school manager, and then there was no news.

I learned these news thanks to my half-baked circle of friends. The news of his divorce caused a lot of noise in our circle of college graduates. Men, women, young and old were all gearing up, saying that it was finally their turn to appear on stage.

But in fact, no one really took action. At that time, everyone had just graduated and began to understand that life would not be just snow, moon, wind and flowers, and they really couldn't find his whereabouts. They all said that the regrets of youth should be left alone.

That's what I was joking about, but after all, my life has been so smooth, and it's a pity that he is the only one, so I still care about him in my heart. I often inquire about his news casually, and I don't worry if there is no news. After all, I graduated from high school in one year and college in four years. One year, I am a very patient person.

The time when he and I really started to have feelings was in the 7th year of our acquaintance, in the spring of 2025.

I found him in Junsha. The person who informed me of the news was the leader of our university dance troupe. Perhaps he was too hard to forget. When the leader told me the news, his tone was very conclusive. It seems that she took his household registration book and checked it in person, saying that if he admitted that he was wrong, she would come to see him.

"It's absolutely impossible to admit my mistake. I'm so impressed! I followed the trend and poached Princess Jiang, so I didn't really get caught in it. Su Nanshen, everyone's Bai Yueguang!"

I really hate the title Princess Jiang. What kind of princess is she? She is clearly a giant baby who cries when she is not awake, and it drags down my time with him for four years.

It happened that my economy was in a slump at that time, and because I refused the opportunity to transform myself into self-media, I was ostracized and suppressed, so I simply packed my bags and traveled thousands of miles to meet him. At that time, he lived in a mid- to low-end apartment in Junsha. He also rented a house nearby so that he could observe him more easily.

Compared with two years ago in college, he has changed a lot. He learned to smoke and drink, and he has nothing to do all day long, except going downstairs to go shopping at the convenience store every morning, and he hardly ever leaves home.

It seemed that something had seriously injured him. This man always hooked his waist, as if something heavy was weighing on his shoulders.

He likes to lie on the balcony railing in a daze, and his black eyes are like the sea reflecting the world. I peek at him from several buildings away, just like in college.

It was a few years after the epidemic, the economy was slowly recovering, the air pressure in the sky was always low, the people in Junsha were hot-tempered, and the sounds of card games and quarrels in the neighboring buildings could often be heard.

I am a proactive character. He has no one around now. This is the best opportunity, so I found a job in the convenience store he often goes to.

The first time I saw him was in the early morning. I deliberately stayed in the convenience store to work until late at night, and then I saw him walking out of the alley with his slippers drooping.

Unlike those people who always wear formal suits or big T-shirts late at night, his dressing style is very casual, not formal, but not shabby either.

It should be that certain habits in the past have deeply penetrated into his bone marrow, so that he will not lose his composure in dressing.

"That man, everyone in our area has noticed him! It seems that he has been living here for a few months, and he is too hard to forget. Don't think about him, Xiao Qin will definitely fail."

The person who handed over shifts to me was a 30-year-old young woman from Junsha. When I mentioned him, I would get excited, and there was a secret love in the eyes of a 20-year-old girl.

Of course he is unforgettable, for example, I have been thinking about it for seven years, and now I have come here.

"He should be a weird person, with a very low aura. If you stay with him, you might cry within half a minute, right?"

The 30-year-old female sales clerk who is already a mother of two children chatted and went to work.

How long can a man like him live?Like the kind of person who would go to Tianhu to commit suicide in spring.

I met him several times at night in a convenience store, and I finally couldn't help it. It was another early morning, and I stopped him.

"Su Qi? Is that you?"

The overhead light was too bright, and his skin was so pale that it was dazzling.

The oden was still tumbling, and it was a little foggy. He raised his head in astonishment, looked at me, and after carefully identifying it for a while, I quickly took off the mask, and he remembered.

"Qin Keqing?" He raised his head and smiled, leaving a piece of Green Arrow gum behind. "Why did the elementary school girl appear here?"

I said I was unemployed, and I came here with my friends for a break.

So like many 20-something literary films, we started chatting.

He is still very easy-going as before, as long as I want, he can chat with me for a long time, maybe he also needs to find someone to talk to, in short, we two are "the same people who have fallen into the world, and we have met before."

Su Qi, neither young nor old, lives alone, single, freelance, not short of money, because of some things, he comes to Junsha to relax and rarely comes out during the day.

I like to eat tofu in oden because it absorbs the soup.

Been obsessed with radishes the last few days.

"I like quiet places, too," I told him. "Can I visit your house?"

As soon as I finished speaking, I felt that it was not good, and my wolfish ambition was a bit exposed.

He just smiled, found a day off for me, and led me to his house.

As seen through the telescope, his home is very quiet and clean, and the floors are swept and mopped frequently to keep them clean.

But it was still messy and dark.

"I don't like places that are too bright. Why? Hospitals, schools, offices, those places are all too bright. I have a psychological shadow on these places."

He kept frowning when he talked about these places, and he didn't seem to be lying.

I helped him install a small desk lamp.

The small table lamp with a cherry blossom shade is a little pink. He seems to be very distressed by the light of this color. Looking at the room that turns pink after turning on the light, he squints his eyes.

“It doesn’t feel like serious lighting.”

baffling.

I often go to his house to help him tidy up. When I work with him, he occasionally looks at me and asks me inexplicably.

"Such a gentle person like Xiaoxiaomei, why didn't I see you fall in love in college?"

"No effort and no interest."

Because I have been secretly crushing on you throughout college.

The fact that I found him spread like wildfire in the circle of friends, and many people came to me to inquire about him.

"Are you still with Brother Su now? How is it? Has he become ugly?" Best friend Chen Zhao sent me an emoji with stars in his eyes, a nympho.

"Is he in good health recently?" Jiang Chuyao specially added me on WeChat, and asked me a little nervously.

"Su Qi, you actually found me? Huh, you really care about me." Li Yuxi, who knew me well, always spoke in a sour tone.

"Help me take good care of him. Please save him. After he divorced Lu Xian, he was very bad." It was Su Luo who called me at the end, and it was rare to see her bow her head.

I told her of course I would.

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He took a deep breath of cigarette and passed it through his lungs in front of me.

A Furong is a relatively popular type of cigarette among Junsha cigarettes. It is neither cheap nor expensive. It is just like the life he and I are living now.

Just right, that's the best.

Junsha is very prosperous, with high-rise buildings, lights, chess and card halls that never close, delicious food on the street, and a night market that only opens at eleven o'clock.

How did he start smoking?When did you contract alcoholism?

He sees through the love of women at a glance, and turns a deaf ear to the admiration of men.

He didn't care about many things as much as he did at the beginning, including food, clothing, shelter, food, drink, and toilet. As long as he was comfortable in life, it was enough.

I get to know him better and better.

The shade I bought him was an ugly, pink lamp, which he told me later made his room look like a whorehouse.

"Don't throw it away! Only replace it if it breaks!"

So he began to calculate the time, saying how long it would take.

I told him that it is a thing and it will have a bad day, and the same goes for people.

I asked him if it was broken, and he shook his head and said he didn't know.

"Am I broken? I don't know. I think I'm fine now. I left a lot of money for Aunt Luo Er'an and the others. It doesn't matter if I'm gone in the future."

He told me that he did not take everything lightly and did not forget anything. He could think of Lu Xian every day. He was in pain and wanted to die, but he did not give up. He also wanted to stand up, but He couldn't find a way to stand up.

It's just that now that the cigarettes and alcohol in his house are gone, it makes people want to give up.

He put out the cigarette butt in his hand in the ashtray, the man lay down on the balcony, it was raining lightly in Junsha today, those fine raindrops drifted into the balcony, and fell softly on his plain skin.

The room was very quiet. I was with him, and he told me that he could hear the rolling air above the clouds, the drizzle falling on the world, and the heartbeats of the two of us.

Finally hear my heartbeat?It has been dancing for you for seven years.

"Let's go downstairs and do some shopping." He muttered, put on his hoodie, took the change, put on his sneakers, picked up the garbage bag, and went out.

This time we did not go home directly from the convenience store. With a rare surge of emotions, we decided to go to a nearby park for a short walk.

It is drizzling, but the raindrops are also delicate, filling the air into a white mist. This mist sinks to the streets, just like clouds coming to the world.

The signboard lights on the street were persistently on, so red, blue light came out from the fog, dyeing the street beautifully.Sometimes a taxi passes by, leaving a bright trail in the fog.Maybe some newly changed leaves just fell, and they were picked up by the air current and floated high into the sky.

There are many tall buildings, and many lights are on even in the middle of the night. Under the effect of rain and fog, the lights dim into a sea of ​​yellow stars.

It's a beautiful view.

The air just after the rain was damp and cold, with the smell of fresh leaves. Neither of us had an umbrella, but we just helped each other put on our hoods. Neither of us spoke, nor did we hold an umbrella. Walking under the high and low eaves, wandering aimlessly.

The sewers flowed in an orderly manner. Some petals and leaves flowed with the small river on the ground. The water droplets on the leaves reflected the light and shadow of the city. From time to time, some water droplets hit the leaves and spun in a small way.

Su Qi looked at this county, feeling aimless and freewheeling. The city appeared warm and quiet in the hazy spring rain. The drizzle melted the edges and corners of all buildings and lights, making everything quiet.

He turned his head suddenly.

"Shall we have a dance?"

I took his hand and walked to the yellow streetlight next to me and started dancing.

I am a black windbreaker, he is a big padded jacket, we dance under the lights, it is a tap dance, the rain is foggy, and the lights are also foggy.

I know a lot of dances, and he learned a lot from no one, but in the end, we hunched over each other in circles meaninglessly, like barbarians around a campfire.

In the eyes of outsiders, all this is really absurd. On this rainy morning, a man and a woman are dancing under the street lamp, which is weird and fascinating.

Suddenly, a wind blew across the street, blowing my long hair, blowing through his moist eyes, and blowing into the depths of the city streets with unknown emotions.

"You gave me a dance, what gift do you want?" he asked me.

There is a pink peony in the closet of the flower shop on the street.

"peony."

"Peonies like that are sold all over the street. Why don't you choose other more interesting flowers?"

"do you have it?"

"I don't, and I'm not your peony."

I was holding that bouquet of peonies and wearing my black windbreaker. I believe that in his heart at this moment, my waist was as slender as a willow.

"Su Qi, I came here specifically to find you."

"I guessed it from the beginning."

"Su Qi, it's time for you to try to love another person."

We didn't talk anymore, just hugged under the street lamp.

Su Qi, actually I have the last half of the sentence left. I hope that other person can be me.

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[Later?There are many stories later, if you want to hear, I can tell you slowly. 】

'Qin Keqing' smiled and looked at Qin Keqing who was beside her in a daze.

"But you paid unilaterally from the beginning to the end. I didn't see his feelings for you." Qin Keqing was still confused.

[Well, I know you will have such doubts, but don't worry, Jiang Chuyao's birthday party will start in a few hours, you should go out and get ready. 】

Qin Keqing sighed, "Listening to what you said, I finally understand. If I have paid so much but not repaid, I will never forget it for the rest of my life."

17-year-old Qin Keqing shook her head, "Forgive me for not being able to empathize with you, I will help you punish that Su Qi, at least let him love you equally."

"I want him to fall in love with me! Chasing his wife to the crematorium!" The 17-year-old girl ignited great fighting spirit and wanted to go to revenge.

　ps: I’ve been holding it in for a long time, I hope you’re satisfied.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)