Poor children

Chapter 85
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It was still two people and one horse. On the way to Taoyuanju, Tianxing and Pao'er each had their own thoughts and no one spoke.

The flowers in the courtyard are still blooming, and the fish are swimming leisurely in the pond. They are not aware of the mixed thoughts of the beauty sitting in the pavilion at this moment.

The poor boy grabbed the steamed bun in his hand and threw it into the water. Several large colorful carps fought for food, splashing the water. The poor boy had something in his heart and was thinking about how to speak to the sky. To put it bluntly, she was so absorbed in thinking about things that she didn't even know that Tian Xing had brought the food to her.
"Why are you so fascinated by the fish?" Tian Xing took her hand and asked.

"These fish live in this pond, I don't know if they are happy or not?" Po'er arrived.
"Looking at them being so leisurely, they must be happy!" Tian Xing replied

"They are all poor creatures who cannot control their own lives. They go wherever others tell them to go, and they have to do whatever others tell them to do. They look at freedom, but in fact they are just trapped in a small world without knowing it. "The poor man threw the remaining steamed buns into the pool, causing another commotion in the pool.

When Tian Xing asked her to speak and move, he suddenly felt something was going on in her heart, so he didn't say much and just pulled her to the table to sit down and eat.
During the dinner, Tian Xing wanted to talk several times, but seeing that the poor boy looked bad, he could only swallow what he wanted to say with the food.
Pao'er was very worried, and Tian Xing also had something to discuss with her. He was thinking about how to talk to her, but neither of them could say anything. They were only focusing on the food on the table.
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"Would you like tea? Let's have tea!" After dinner, Tian Xing finally spoke his first words.
The pauper nodded, went to the teahouse as usual, took a copper kettle, went to the spring to collect water, and then returned to the teahouse to light the charcoal stove and boil water...

Tian Xing packed up the dishes and went to the tea room to sit with the poor boy, watching the poor boy make tea with a worried face, picked up the copper pot on the charcoal stove, and poured the boiled water directly into the purple sand pot , the water was filled to the brim, she didn't even notice when it overflowed, and Tian Xing didn't stop her, allowing her to wander like this, until she recovered and saw the water on this table, almost scalding herself

"You're distracted again. Are you worried about something?" Tian Xing took a piece of cloth to wipe the water that dripped on the table.

"Yeah!" Paoer didn't know how to speak.

"I also have something to tell you," Tian Xing said.
Pao'er poured a cup of tea for Tianxing, but forgot to pour it for himself, "Well, what's the matter?" Pao'er put down the teapot, picked up the empty teacup and put it to his mouth

Tian Xing took off the teacup in her hand, poured her a cup of tea, and then put the teacup back in her hand.
"Although we have not been together for a long time, I feel very close to you. I would like to ask you if you would like to go home with me, so that we can live together in the future." Tian Xing asked

The poor boy didn't expect him to ask, "What does it mean to live together?"

"Will you marry me as a concubine?"

"Side room? Concubine?" Pao'er put down his tea bowl and looked at him straightly.

"Because I have two concubines in my family, and I will marry a main wife soon, so...so, are you willing?"

"I don't want to..." The poor boy said
"Why?" "I won't be a concubine" The poor boy arrives
Tian Xing was a little surprised, "I didn't expect you to answer like this. I thought that the two of you and I had already understood each other during the days we spent together with the girl. I didn't expect that the girl would not want to stay with me forever..."

"Are you in need of someone to stay with you forever? You have a wife and two concubines, so what if I am missing one? I guess our fate only ends here. I have my own things to do, and you have your own way to go. If that's the case, why force it...?"

"Who am I in the girl's heart? Do I have a place in your heart? Does the girl think that I am not important to you?"

"What's the point of asking such a question now? So what if it does? So what if it doesn't? After a while, we are out of this door, and it will be difficult to see each other again in the future. Wouldn't it be more frustrating to talk too much and leave things unfinished? "

Pao'er's face was unusually calm, and there was no trace of emotion in her eyes. Her words were spoken so coldly that Tian Xing couldn't help but feel a little disappointed.

"How do I feel about the girl? After getting along with her these days, does the girl not know at all? If possible, I would marry the girl as my wife, but now I have a last resort reason. I can't marry the wife, why don't you You can't understand my difficulties, why do you say so heartlessly?"

"I believe you are in trouble, and I did not force you to marry me. I will go back to the Central Plains soon, and it will be difficult to see each other again..."

"No, no, no!" Tian Xing suddenly reached out and grabbed Pao'er's shoulders, "You... don't go back, you stay. I am sincere to you. The main wife and the side wife are just a status. I love you Youqing, why do you have to care about a status? Isn't it enough to have me?"

Pao'er pushed Tian Xing's hand away and said, "You and I have been together for many days. Although you have never mentioned your identity to me, I guessed that you must be from a prominent family. Having three wives and four concubines is normal. I Although I was born into poverty and was not a girl from a big family, I longed for the most common loving life of men farming and women weaving, with husbands singing and wives accompanying each other. The owner of the place where I lived had many wives and concubines, so naturally there were a lot of troubles. I really don’t want to live that kind of life. Are you willing to live in seclusion in the mountains and forests with me? Just this small courtyard, a few acres of vegetable land, grazing sheep and horses..."

"I……!"

"You can't, so why do you ask if I have you in my heart! So what if you have me in my heart? I'm not important enough for you to give everything for me. I'm just a different one among the many women you know. Maybe in the future You will have more special choices in a few years. You won’t and you can’t give up everything you have now for me. I understand and sympathize with your difficulties, so why don’t you let us say goodbye quietly like this? Don’t talk too much and leave each other with a little bit of the past worth remembering, isn’t it?”

What Pao'er said made Tian Xing unable to refute it. He was very sure that he couldn't go far away from Pao'er and devote themselves to the countryside. Pao'er was right!Tian Xing also suddenly realized that she was not important to him to the point where he had to have her. He even began to doubt his feelings for her. Maybe it was a momentary impulse, maybe it was just fresh, maybe he was coveting her beauty.

Tian Xing suddenly doubted all the feelings he had for Pao Er. She was so different!Different from the women he had seen before, she was so beautiful that the first time he saw her in Taixu Taoist Temple, her heart and soul were taken away, and he lost his reason and thinking. Her dazzling light obscured Overwhelm everything, make him blind, make him forget everything

All the things that happened in the past few days suddenly flashed before his eyes. The words of the poor boy were like a basin of cold water, drenching Tianxing from head to toe. Freed from the spell she cast, he carries his world on his back. To him, women are just a must-do for him to grow his family. The love between children is even more out of reach and insurmountable for him. Chasm, for responsibility, for his world, and for the land and water where his people live, he carries the world on his back. He carries too many missions and responsibilities, so what does a woman mean to him... …

(End of this chapter)