tokyo creator

Chapter 358 Strange Soul ([-])

——"So, what is the name for the original world of Huiyuan?... Just like we usually use 'Babylon' to call our current world, right?"

Earth.We generally call it, "Earth".

——"So, what kind of world is 'Earth'?"

Ordinary world.It's not that I'm being perfunctory, but there really is almost no difference between 'Earth' and 'Babylon'.

Geography...Ethnography...Country...

Historical process...level of scientific and technological development, lifestyle...

Okay, I’ve said so much, you should almost understand it, right?Basically, almost like twins except for a few subtleties.

ah!By the way, I thought of a wonderful metaphor: the earth and Babylon are like "this city" and "neighboring city". They are different, but they can be said to be the same. In short, there is no essential difference.

——"Then, what kind of person is in the gray field of the earth?"

Ordinary people.Well, it's not that I'm being perfunctory, but I'm really ordinary, no different from the original Hui of this world.

Going to school, going to college, going to work... Ah, except for one very important difference: I have not been exposed to any supernatural things on earth.

Another point is... on Earth, I am in another country.

——"...It seems that I shouldn't continue to call you Huiyuan. What is your real name?"

It doesn't matter, that kind of thing.

Because I don’t want to remember that kind of thing, and it doesn’t make sense.After all, I had no desire to go back.So what's the significance of the original name?

— "You don't want to go back? Why not?"

Because no one cares.

——"...Do you mean no one is waiting for you?"

Yes, no, no one is waiting for me.

——"No lover or partner?"

I have always been single and never been in a relationship.

——"Where is the family?"

Both parents are deceased.

—— "... Where are the other relatives?"

After the funeral of my parents, there was no further contact.

——“Where are my friends?”

There was one in middle school...but we have no contact since college.And since college, I haven't been close enough to anyone to be called a friend.

——"... Then don't you usually have no one to talk to?"

...Of course not.Who do you take me for?I'm not autistic, nor dumb, nor do I live alone in the mountains.

You always have to talk when you go to a convenience store, right? 'Tall latte', 'Okay.Does the bento need to be heated? ', 'No need', 'Can I apply for a membership card? ', 'No need'... That's it, no difficulty.

At work, I will also communicate well with my colleagues. 'The project's deadline is coming soon. ', 'It's too late, this part will go online after the debugging is completed', 'It would be better to adjust the plan, I'll talk to the supervisor'... and so on, my colleagues all said that I have clear ideas and clear expressions.

— "No, I mean... don't you gossip with people at all?"

will not.

On the one hand it is not necessary.Relationships with colleagues are colleagues.There is no need for a collegial relationship to become deeply personal.

My life, on the other hand... is really nothing worth mentioning.

For example, my colleagues will talk about these topics because they play MOBA together. If I don’t play, I naturally have nothing to say.

Being with friends and family is another matter.Even I understand that even meaningless words between family and friends are a way of fulfilling the obligation to care for each other... Oh, but I don't have friends or family.

——"What about on the Internet? People who are usually very silent in real life may be very talkative on the Internet. Because... people always have to express themselves."

I've tried this too...I tried to use vlog to record my life, but after uploading, there were only single-digit clicks, no likes and follow... Probably, the number of clicks was just clicked in by mistake, right?
When I encounter some hot posts in the forum, I used to express some of my own opinions.Most of the time no one responds like a transparent person.Occasionally... I will be ridiculed and insulted.

I also tried to persuade the other party, but found that even if I racked my brains to write something objective and fair, I would only be regarded as an enemy by both parties.

Then I realized it.Perhaps the purpose of speaking was not to understand each other from the beginning.

As time went by, I became indifferent.Even online, I will not express any opinions.I will also be silent.

...because it makes no difference whether you are silent or not.The result is the same, right?
——"That is to say, you don't know how to chat, socialize, greet, or visit with people... So what do you do when you are not working?"

Read books, watch animations, watch movies, or play stand-alone games.

I like "plots" and "characters", and I like watching "them" or "them" live a variety of lives, meet all kinds of people, and have all kinds of things happen.

——"...Unexpected. I thought Haiyuan didn't like such emotional things..."

No no, that's not the case, you misunderstood.It is precisely because my life is so peaceful, so peaceful that even 'thinking' is not necessary, and even 'self' is blurred... So the only chance to laugh or cry is to watch these.I am a normal person, so I still have this understanding: the basic functions of a "person" still need to be confirmed and maintained frequently.Otherwise, isn't it abnormal?
Although there is no chance to use it now, what if there is a chance to use it in the future?If I find that I can't regulate my emotions smoothly, I still have to see a doctor.

Well, yes... or should I say: I always have to make sure... I'm not broken.

——"...Okay. So, why don't you go out?"

If you stay at home for a long time, of course you will go out for a walk to adjust your mood.

Eat hotpot alone, watch movies alone, and perform surgery alone.No problem.

——"So, why doesn't Huibara want to go back?"

Well.

Ok.

...Because to sum it up, that world doesn’t seem to need me.Right?
That world doesn't hate me or treat me badly.

But it's just that...it feels like I'm dispensable, to this extent.

So, it doesn’t matter if you die of boredom, it doesn’t matter if you don’t go back.

...Well, it's like this: because in that place, no one said to me...that she only had me, that she needed me.

No one said to me... that I had to like her.

Even, add the suffix of "forever".

……

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……

The Q&A stops here.

In fact, Hui Yuanchu has always maintained a calm face, answering every question he has until now.

But Arthur couldn't ask any more questions, and was showing a rare look of confusion and bewilderment.

Jack crossed his shoulders first and spoke.

He seemed to have felt something. He no longer talked about various sutras at length like usual, but just said a short sentence: "This is loneliness."

"Oh my, Hatsu-chan is so pitiful..." Laixiang had been sitting in Haiyuan Chu's arms all the time. When she heard this, she hung on his neck and kissed him, "But at least Laixiang still has him. Are you accompanying Chu-chan?"

"That's right. Even if I'm what I used to be, with no pride, no jealousy, no curiosity...but at least, Lai Xiang is still there." Hui Yuanchu said indifferently, "Lai Xiang should be the fairest to everyone. Isn’t it one of the... poor people or rich people?"

But he paused, and still showed a regretful expression: "—but Laixiang will not be with me forever after all."

"You don't have to wait until you are completely old. In fact, when you are 40 or 50 years old, Laixiang will gradually leave me, right? ... I will never look back."

"At that time, it will be even more lonely. At that time, there will really be nothing...

"...If it were other daughters, it would be fine if I were not favored by them. But if I was recognized, then I would be accompanied by them until my death.

"But Laixiang, you are so fair and ruthless. When the body is young, you will pester them whether they like it or not. But once the young girl is approaching, Laixiang, you are always the first to dislike this body Leaving because of old age.”

Laixiang was not annoyed: "Hehe... So, we should cherish the present more and leave more beautiful memories?"

Hui Ren, who had been silent for a long time, suddenly said: "Haiyuan, I understand you too."

He looked up at Hui Yuanchu and said seriously: "Before Jack...I was never told that I was needed, and no one thought I was important. My mother would only say that - I wish I had never been born." .”

"When a person is needed, he also needs a reason."

"But the reason for being needed is unreasonable... If you have it, you have it, and if you don't have it, you don't have it."

"To take the simplest example, the more beautiful a woman is, the more she is needed by others." He grinded his teeth unconsciously, "...so, the more I hate them, the more I want to kill them."

At this time, Arthur finally came to his senses.

"...Is there really a person in the world who has no friends?" He rubbed his temples and said, "...How can he live like this? I don't understand."

Hui Yuanchu shrugged and said, "So... Arthur, you can't understand someone like you who has reduced 'being popular' to a passive skill."

After a pause, he glanced over and said, "Honestly, Arthur. You've been saying 'my friend my friend', but you're actually pitying me."

Arthur was taken aback, and quickly retorted: "I'm not! I'm not! Don't talk nonsense!"

Hui Yuanchu sighed and looked at him: "I'm not blaming you, it's just that you don't realize it either... Anyway, thank you, Arthur, you are a good person."

"..."

Then, Jack, Hui Ren, and Hui Yuanchu looked at Arthur with a repulsive gaze.

Arthur said with a bitter face: "...Then I am really sorry for you three?"

"Hahaha——" Laixiang was the first to laugh, leaning forward and backward in Hui Yuanchu's arms.

(End of this chapter)