I just want to live in peace, I refuse to fall in love

Chapter 98: Will Ou Nisang give up on me (please order first)

"Does Mr. Shirakawa have a crush? If not, how about considering my daughter?" Mrs. Miyagi was indeed joking this time.

"Eh?" Shirakawa Kazuya was stunned for a moment, but then he saw that Mrs. Miyagi was just joking, so he didn't take it to heart and continued eating.

"Eh?" Xiangzi was stunned. She didn't expect Mrs. Miyagi to be so straightforward. Why didn't the daughter become anxious and the mother became anxious first?
"Eh?" Nagata Chinatsu was stunned. Does her mother have the ability to read minds?Find out that you also have a crush on Bai Chuanhe?
The three of them said "Hey" at the same time, causing Mrs. Miyagi to cover her mouth and burst into laughter, with a beautiful wave rising in her chest.

"You're just kidding, a child as outstanding as Shirakawa-kun will definitely not fall in love in high school."

Mrs. Miyagi waved her hand and confidently spoke out the answer that would be absolutely wrong in the future.

"Mom, seriously, don't make random jokes!"

Nagata Chinatsu breathed a sigh of relief, patted her chest and complained to Mrs. Miyagi, but she also had a strange and inexplicable feeling in her heart.

Mrs. Miyagi picked up the chopsticks and said, "Okay, okay, no more words. Come, eat the food, eat the food."

The dinner table became lively again. Kazuya Shirakawa told two cold jokes, making Mrs. Miyagi and Chinatsu Nagata laugh. Xiangzi did not laugh, but just lowered her head and ate the food.

She had been a little depressed after Mrs. Miyagi made a joke, but she hid it well. This state lasted until she followed Shirakawa Kazuya back home.

"What's wrong, Xiangzi? I think you've been a little unhappy since the beginning." Shirakawa Kazuya sat on the sofa and took a long breath of comfort, trying to expel today's fatigue from his body.

Xiangzi came over and sat next to him, resting her head on the armrest of the sofa, raising her calves on his thighs, covering her face with the magazine on the sofa, and replied dully, "Nothing."

Xiangzi was wearing school uniform pants today, which were placed on Shirakawa Kazuya's legs. The legs of the pants were rolled up slightly, revealing a section of white socks that were stacked.

Shirakawa Kazuya turned his head to look at the ceiling, looking up at the dusty corner in a daze, and heard Xiangzi's voice coming from under the travel magazine.

"Does Onisang have someone you like now?"

Shirakawa Kazuya looked at the source of the sound, but he could only see the cover of the magazine, which showed the maple leaves in Kyoto at night.

He was in a daze, wondering why Xiangzi suddenly asked this.

"Xiangzi, you."

"Does Onisan like anyone?" Xiangzi interrupted him and asked again, with a tremor in her voice.

Seeing the unprecedented seriousness in Xiangzi's voice, Shirakawa Kazuya fell silent again just as he was about to speak.

He thought carefully before replying, "No. At least not yet."

He didn't dare to talk too much, and he couldn't guarantee the future, but at least now he only had study, love, etc. in his mind, and he didn't have any specific ideas.

"That's it." Xiangzi's voice came from underneath the magazine, her tone lighter.

Since Shirakawa Kazuya said no, it must be no, and he would not lie to himself.Never in ten years.

She was relieved and sat up directly. The magazine fell on her lap, and then fell to the ground.

But Xiangzi didn't pay attention to the magazine that she usually liked to read very much. Instead, she moved closer to Shirakawa Kazuya and stared into his eyes with her own eyes.

The distance between the two is no more than a punch, so close that you can almost see your own reflection in your eyes.

Shirakawa Kazuya felt Xiangzi's breath on his face, feeling a little itchy, and moved his head back a little, "Xiangzi, what's wrong? Is it because of Mrs. Miyagi's joke today?"

Although he had little experience in relationships, he was not a complete fool. He could guess the reason after thinking about it. "Yeah." Xiangzi looked at him, with a firmness in her eyes that Shirakawa Kazuya had never seen before.

"Onisan."

Xiangzi gently called Shirakawa Kazuya.

"what happened?"

Shirakawa Kazuya had never seen Xiangzi like this before, and he felt a little at a loss. He didn't know what to do. He sat motionless on the sofa.

"If I become..." Xiangzi quickly changed her words before she could finish her words.

"If one day you have a girlfriend, will you leave Xiangzi?" She lowered her head, looked at Shirakawa Kazuya's white and slender fingers, and asked this question.

Shirakawa Kazuya thought it was something else and was already thinking about how to answer.Xiangzi's unexpected question made him a little stunned.

"can you?"

"Do you know?"

"Will you give up a burden that will only cause trouble?"

Xiangzi kept asking, slowly leaning her face against Shirakawa Kazuya's chin, her fingers deeply embedded in the sofa, and her body was trembling a little.

Bai Chuanhe also felt that his neck was a little wet and hot.

Looking at Xiangzi who was lying in front of him, sobbing softly, Shirakawa Kazuya suddenly realized that he had always ignored the loneliness and expectations in the other person's heart.

His already somewhat vague memories slowly became clear again and came to mind.

He thought of the night when they reunited in Fukuoka after not seeing each other for many years, when Xiangzi timidly walked out from behind her mother; Xiangzi who was abandoned in a big city by her parents' random decision; Xiangzi who knocked on her door alone that morning with her luggage on her back.
Being abandoned by her parents in a strange city and walking alone in a foreign land, will Xiangzi be afraid of loneliness?Will you feel abandoned?
I will.

He thought of Xiangzi who was still in Jiushan Town many years ago. It was Xiangzi who dug potatoes in the field with him; Kouko; it was Kouko who ate apple candies with him wearing a yukata on the night of Obon.
At that time, both of them were children, carefree all day long, running under the scorching sun in August, making wishes under the fireworks on New Year's Eve, sitting on the ridge of the field, imitating the adults in the village talking about the wheat and rice harvests, and a gust of wind When it came out, the whole forest was blown loudly, and the small world was filled with tiny rustling sounds.
With the beautiful memories shared by the two of them, such a comfortable and happy Xiangzi, when she knocked on her door with anxiety, what kind of expectations did she have for Shirakawa Kazuya in her memory?
Childhood friend?Childhood sweetheart?Reliable big brother?

Have it.

Shirakawa Kazuya thought that the loneliness and expectations that he had ignored seemed too heavy. They had always been pressed deep in Xiangzi's heart and were never easily revealed to others.

Because it is hidden deep enough, it is hidden well enough, and it is also enough to suppress an inexperienced girl from breathing.

"Xiangzi."

Shirakawa Kazuya came from memories to reality, gently calling her name with a hint of hoarseness in his voice.

"You are not a burden. I have never felt that way. You are the motivation for me to move forward, and you are also the hope in my heart."

Hearing what Shirakawa Kazuya said, Xiangzi's sobs gradually grew louder and turned into tears.

Shirakawa Kazuya gently held Xiangzi's tear-stained cheeks and stared at those red eyes.

"In any case, I will not give up on you, nor will I forget you."

　Thank you for being here.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)