dark moon

Chapter 722 I Abandoned You

Yes, the same dream as the first time, Xiuer has repeated dozens of times, it is for this reason, after waking up this time, he can face everything so skillfully, and even knows everyone's behavior like the back of his hand, can Make preparations in advance.It was only when facing a certain wild animal, because that guy was so unpredictable, and the pranks were different every time we first met, so Xiuer would be unlucky every time, what other people would say and do, He already knew what would happen depending on his attitude.

He had a fierce argument with Judy, had an quarrel with Lisa over the task arrangement, hurt Sapph very much to keep them away, fought with Ferrus over the details of the ceremony, and even... was transferred The Brown Star Fleet wiped the three countries, together with their citizens, from the map of Parvatiga forever.

Trying step by step, falling down again and again, every failure means that the world in Master Kaiya's dream has been completely destroyed, and Shuuer steps forward on the destroyed world, trying hard to find a slim hope.

How many times did the dream repeat?Shuer can't remember clearly.How many worlds have been destroyed?Shuer was too lazy to calculate.How many times have you personally pushed the person you love most into the abyss?Shuuer didn't even dare to count.He tried his best again and again, but was disappointed again and again. The accumulation of frustration and guilt made Shuer's shoulders heavier and heavier.

It’s so tiring. I have no comrades, no support, and no one to share my feelings with and share my mental stress. I have no one to talk to, and I have to fight alone every time.Telling the people around you is meaningless. It has no effect except leaving them at a loss. Rather than letting them end in hesitation and anxiety, it is better to bear it alone. At least, Shuer believes that his ability to bear it is worse than several The girls are stronger.

Yes, as Lady Luna said, Shuuer is not a fragile person. In fact, his psychological quality is amazing. If it were anyone else, after repeating the same nightmare dozens of times, he would probably have become mentally exhausted due to despair. He collapsed, and no matter what he thought in his heart, Xiure could at least smile on the surface and face every familiar face. The smile on his face alone was worthy of Lady Luna's praise.

But no matter how strong your psychological quality is, there is always a limit. Once the limit is exceeded, the reaction is often stronger than that of ordinary people. Just like once a dam filled with water breaks, the destructive power will often increase exponentially.Obviously, Shuer has reached the edge of collapse. Even if he comes out of the dream, the pressure in his heart cannot be relieved. The dam full of water is in danger of breaking at any time, so...

"So, you wanted to come see me immediately?" The goddess was very satisfied with Shuer's decision. Faith is the spiritual sustenance of mortals, especially the priests. When they need it most, they can seek help from faith. Spiritual comfort, this is the choice that a priest should have.Maybe when Shuuer came, he didn't intend to tell the truth, but just wanted to meet the most important god to him, but Luna obviously did better than he imagined, and she could see through the pain and pain in his heart at a glance. Depressed, "I happen to be very free now, and I am very interested in listening to the stories in your dreams."

"My pleasure."

At some point, Shuer had already sat next to Lady Luna, skillfully filling the teacups for the two of them, including the tea leaves from his hometown, the brewing method from his hometown, and the goddess in front of him who gave him a new life in Parvadiga. Sir, all of this made Xiure gradually calm down, and he talked about his dream experience as if telling other people's stories.

"Actually, you know how to get out of Kaia's dream, right?" Shuer became more and more relaxed as he spoke, and the goddess did not interrupt him. She just listened quietly with her teacup in hand until Shuer's narration or After saying that her venting had stopped temporarily, she asked in a cold voice, "When you can't hold it anymore, why don't you quit in time?"

"I have my responsibilities. If I haven't found the answer, how could I quit casually? Oh, just admit defeat casually? I don't have such a hobby." Xiure said leisurely, leaning back on the chair with his whole body relaxed. , "Besides, I don't think I have reached the point where I can't hold on any longer. After all, whether it's a dream or reality, you will always be with me, right?"

"Yes, I am with you, but..." The goddess's voice was a little more teasing, "But what exactly did you do to me in the dream?" Xiuer's movements suddenly froze. , the smile that just appeared solidified on his face.

"You underestimate the connection between us, Shuer." Luna said lightly, "You are my apostle, and this is also my sanctuary. Although I can't see directly like spiritual contact here, I can feel your thoughts, but at least I can feel your emotions."

Xiure looked a little embarrassed and blocked his sight with a tea cup.

"From the moment you came in, I already felt that you came to see me with the idea of ​​​​atonement, and your heart is full of apologies." Although Xiure couldn't see clearly from the outside, he could feel Lady Luna. Her eyes were focused on his face, "That's why I didn't let you get up just now. If this can make you feel better, I don't mind. But even if I am a god, I am also curious. I want to know what it is. Why do you feel so guilty when you can even make up oracles at will?"

"Heh, heh." When he was mentioned about his feat, Xiure laughed a few times with his eyes wandering.

"You just woke up from a dream, and you haven't had time to do anything worthy of apology. Oh, you can't feel guilty just because you slept for too long." The tone of the goddess was very relaxed, but the words she said But it was not easy at all. "The only explanation is that in the dream, you did something that you thought was unforgivable and wanted to ask for my forgiveness. So... what did you do?"

It sounds ridiculous, but it is just an act in a dream. Who will be responsible for the act in a dream?However, for the clergy, this kind of thing is not funny at all.

A qualified priest must respect and worship the gods from the heart, and always implement this belief from consciousness to behavior.Therefore, even in dreams, it is impossible for the clergy to do anything that is disgraceful to the gods, otherwise this belief will be cast a shadow.

Of course, the behavior in the dream cannot be known to others, so no matter what you do in the dream, you will not be condemned. But unfortunately, faith does not allow self-deception. Unless you cannot remember the dream, otherwise, the priest himself will not be condemned. Know clearly whether you have blasphemed the gods.

"I..." Xiure opened his mouth, hesitated for a while, then lowered his head and said, "I gave up on you in my dream."

(End of this chapter)