I really don't want to be her world

Chapter 212 210. I really don’t want to be her world

The other entrance to the community where Tang Yimeng lives is indeed as she said. It is very inconvenient whether going out or coming in. But what I have to say is that if you come back from Nanxuan Beixuan, you can enter through this entrance. The community is indeed very time-saving. Otherwise, you have to go around a street and come in from the opposite entrance, which will take about half an hour.

He sent the girl downstairs and left directly. While waiting for the bus at the bus stop, Yuan Shu also remembered what Tang Yimeng said when chatting with him. The girl made it clear that she neither liked nor disliked Xiao Zuowen. , just finds it novel, which means that she is actually not very interested in this way of expressing her feelings.

Yuan Shu felt that there should be no problem with this understanding. It was just because Tang Yimeng was a girl and she was more reserved in speaking, so she didn't explain it very clearly. But this does not mean that the young man did not understand it well. If Tang Yimeng really is If she really likes this way of confession, there is no need for her to act neutral.

Sitting in the car going home, Yuan Shu opened the conversation interface with Tang Yimeng. After sorting out the words in his mind, he typed: "Mengmeng, there is actually something I have never told you."

"what?"

Tang Yimeng asked.

"That's it... I've actually liked you for a long time. I've wanted to tell you for a long time, but I've never been able to find the chance. I thought about it for a long time while sitting in the car, and I thought now might be the most appropriate time."

"..."

Tang Yimeng did not speak, but hit six points.

"I want to be with you, but I don't know if you are willing..."

Yuan Shu didn't finish his words. He wanted to hear Tang Yimeng's reply. He had already said it to this point. If Tang Yimeng still didn't understand, then Yuan Shu really couldn't help but say it.

"I actually already know."

Tang Yimeng replied.

"Really?!"

Yuan Shu was a little surprised and pleasantly surprised, but more importantly, he was excited!

"Ah."

Tang Yimeng replied briefly.

"Then... do you agree?"

Yuanshu's hands trembled as he typed.

"Okay, actually...I've been waiting for you to speak~"

Tang Yimeng readily agreed. Looking at the tilde at the end of the former sentence, Yuan Shu could imagine Tang Yimeng's shy expression at this moment, and immediately his whole body couldn't help but feel excited.

"Hum hum hum~"

At this time, Yuan Shu, who was leaning on the back of the chair with his eyes closed, snickered repeatedly. The next moment, he suddenly opened his eyes wide, then stood up to calm down, rubbed his chin and said to himself: "No... this way of expressing love" Isn’t it too straightforward?”

Shaking his head repeatedly, Yuan Shu felt that if he confessed like this, it would be too hasty. Tang Yimeng might not only refuse to agree, but would also be scared away by these words. No, no, he had to simulate it again. He had to stand Only by answering his own words from the perspective of Tang Yimeng, can Yuan Shu truly confess his feelings to his soul!Triumphant return!

Nodding, the young man crossed his arms and immediately closed his eyes again, simulating the scene of confessing to Tang Yimeng in his mind...
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Around ten o'clock in the evening, when he saw that the lights in his grandparents' house had been turned off, Yuan Shu also walked to the door and turned off the big light in the living room. Lying on the mattress, he gently opened the small desk lamp, and then took the mobile phone on the ground.

call···

Taking a breath, Yuan Shu felt his small heart beating a little too fast in his left chest. After it gradually stabilized, the young man seemed to be doing some ideological work. After a while, he finally made up his mind, so The chat dialog box opens.

He quickly typed out a few words, and Yuan Shu quickly deleted them after he felt it was inappropriate. Then he typed another paragraph, but after looking at the paragraph he typed for a few seconds, he felt that it was not good enough and deleted it again. And go.

Hey···

At this moment, Yuan Shu couldn't remember a word of the confessions he simulated in the car in the afternoon. Now every time he typed a sentence, he felt that these words would definitely be criticized once Tang Yimeng saw them. She passed it, deleted it and changed it, but Yuan Shu couldn't find the right words to start. After a long time, when Yuan Shu was about to type again, there was movement on Tang Yimeng's side.

"What's the matter with you?"

Seeing Tang Yimeng asking himself suddenly, Yuan Shu was also taken aback, and he quickly replied: "What's wrong, what's wrong?"

"I saw that you were always typing, so I thought you were going to say something..."

Tang Yimeng said slowly when she saw this, she accidentally clicked into Yuan Shu's dialog box, and immediately saw that the young man was typing. After waiting for a while, she was curious about what the young man was doing, so she asked.

"Oh...don't say anything..."

It was only then that he realized that he was typing on the opposite side, and Yuan Shu couldn't help but feel his face burning, which was too embarrassing.

"Okay, then I'm going to sleep."

Seeing that Yuan Shu really had nothing to say, Tang Yimeng said.

"Well... I actually have something to ask you."

Seeing that Tang Yimeng was going to sleep, Yuan Shu quickly typed.

"what?"

Tang Yimeng quickly replied.

"that is···"

"You feel···"

"What do you think of me?"

After hesitating for a moment, Yuanshu asked.

"pretty good."

Tang Yimeng said that she thought Yuan Shu was acting strange tonight, but she didn't say anything more.

"Then...do you think there's anything bad about me?"

Yuan Shu saw that there was nothing in Tang Yimeng's answer that made it easier for him to answer, so he quickly asked again.

"No, what's wrong with you, asking like this all of a sudden?"

Tang Yimeng was a little confused.

"Nothing, I just want to ask what you think of me."

Yuanshu said.

"My opinion of you has always been good. I don't think there's anything bad about it."

Seeing that Tang Yimeng was just answering his own question, the young man seemed a little anxious. If Tang Yimeng didn't say something else, it would be difficult for him to speak.

After being anxious for a long time, Yuan Shu suddenly remembered the short essay he saw with Tang Yimeng at the station today. He typed quickly, "Oh, by the way, tell me, if I write you a short essay, will you?" Will you like it?"

"short essay?"

Tang Yimeng asked a question first, and then said: "What's wrong with you? What do you want to say?"

"Hey, it's okay. Forget it, I'll just tell you."

Seeing what Tang Yimeng said, he couldn't continue, so he simply said: "I just want to ask you, if... if I want to take care of you in the future, are you willing to accept it?"

Halfway through, Yuan Shu also replaced "loving you" with "taking care of you" instead.

After typing this sentence, the young man put down his mobile phone and looked away unnaturally. At this time, he could feel that his face was very hot, so he sat up, pulled on his clothes and said, "It's so hot..." "

His eyes slowly moved to the screen. Seeing that Tang Yimeng didn't reply to him, Yuan Shu's heart was pounding. What's going on? Why is she ignoring me?

Panic occupied the young man's mind for a moment, and he suddenly felt a little scared. Could Tang Yimeng be scared away by his words and not dare to reply?

"I knew I shouldn't ask..."

The young man cursed himself, and then hit the soft mattress with his fist. Now he was a little annoyed. Why was he so anxious to confess his love? Isn't it better to wait a little longer? It's okay now. He feels comfortable speaking out. Scared away, the relationship between the two may stop here...
Sitting cross-legged on the mat and brainstorming for a long time, Yuan Shu almost thought about all the worst possibilities. Soon, with a vibration, Yuan Shu, who was thinking, quickly picked up the phone and saw Tang Yimeng Replied: "I think it's better for us to be friends."

The girl's words were like a thunderbolt, making the young man dumbfounded. He felt as if he couldn't breathe at this time. Everything around him was terrifyingly quiet. The only thing he could hear was the ticking of the second hand of the clock. From time to time, Bai Bai, who was sleeping in the bathroom, heard low and subtle snores.

After being petrified on the spot for a few seconds, Yuan Shu felt that his hands were shaking uncontrollably, but soon he came back to his senses, and then said with a bitter smile: "I mean if... if this kind of Yeah, don’t take it seriously.”

Not daring to look at what Tang Yimeng had just replied to him, Yuan Shu let out a long sigh. At this time, he suddenly felt that his body was not so hot anymore. His sweat had cooled down. He shivered and lay down again. On the mat, she was quietly waiting for Tang Yimeng's reply.

But the little heart that was beating fiercely before now felt a little sad. A feeling of grievance and loneliness surged out from the bottom of his heart, making the young man couldn't help but scratch his chest. He couldn't help but feel sad. I like this feeling of distress, and want to neutralize it by the pain of my nails digging into my flesh.

"Actually... I have thought about whether we would be together."

Tang Yimeng did not directly reply to Yuan Shu's words, but said something else.

Seeing the girl's words, Yuan Shu suddenly became serious. He did not answer, but waited for the former to say the next words.

"But I don't think we're a good fit."

After waiting for a long time, Yuan Shu waited for such a plain sentence, but some words that made people feel more distressed and lonely. At the same time, the young man pinched his chest hard with his five fingers, but he himself Poker face.

"why?"

Yuan Shu felt that his body was quite heavy at this time, as if there was some huge boulder weighing him on his back.

"We are too familiar... If we are not familiar, I think maybe we can give it a try as you said, but... we are really too familiar. I don't like changes in familiar people."

Tang Yimeng's words were somewhat heavy. Yuan Shu frowned when he saw this. What are these words? If you are too familiar, you can't be together. If you are not familiar with each other, you can give it a try. If you are not familiar with each other, how dare you be together? Well, aren't you afraid of being cheated or bullied?
"But... how can you be with someone you don't know well?"

The young man asked as he somewhat didn't understand the girl's brain circuit.

"I know...we have known each other for so long, you should know me. In my heart, you are actually a very special and special existence. You are different from any boy I know. You mean to me The most special thing is that I can't treat you like any other relationship."

Tang Yimeng said in a very embarrassed tone.

"In my heart, you are like my whole world. You are the best friend of the opposite sex to whom I can talk to anything. I can say whatever I want to you, and you will protect me. You You will comfort me, and I feel that you are my safe haven. As long as you are by my side, I will feel particularly at ease. As you said before, you will always be on my side, even if I have to fight with the whole world. enemy, so... I really can't do it, and I can't imagine treating you as another kind of relationship. I'm afraid... I'm afraid of change. I'm afraid that once our relationship changes, everything will change. Everything has changed and no longer exists..."

Watching the girl typing a long paragraph, Yuan Shu gradually fell into silence. He was about to type, but he silently deleted all those words, because what he didn't expect was that he would unknowingly It became the whole world of Tang Yimeng...
"The whole world... I really don't want to be her world..."

Yuan Shu showed a bitter smile, which contained too much helplessness and sadness. What he had always wanted to be was someone who could create a new world for two people with Tang Yimeng.

Putting down his cell phone and lying on the mattress, looking at the ceiling quietly, the young man slowly closed his eyes and put his hand on his forehead. He sighed softly in a voice that he could hear: "But then again , being able to become her world is actually not bad. After all... for a person who has been rejected, this should be the highest level of good person card, right? The highest honor..."

(End of this chapter)