I really don't want to be her world

Chapter 214 212. I can’t accept changes. I’m afraid that everything will change after we get together.
"After thinking about it for a long time, I finally decided to write you a letter like this. Isn't this kind of short composition very popular recently? I just thought you might like it. I remember you said when you were at the bus stop, you really like this kind of letter. It’s a novel and unique feeling. Although I don’t feel anything about it myself, since you like it, I think I can write an article for you.”

Looking down, Tang Yimeng's pretty face reflected the light from the mobile phone screen, and in the dark eyes, the faint reflection of words could be seen.

"Although we have only known each other for a year, I always feel like we have known each other for several years. In fact, a lot of things happened this year, and there were also some small touching moments. I think it is best to write this letter The letter is a nice souvenir, so I hope you can read it patiently and slowly."

Tang Yimeng's slender fingers gently swiped the screen, and Yuan Shu's voice mixed with a faint echo sounded softly in his ears.

"Actually, when I first met you, I didn't expect that we would start like that. Looking back now, it feels like a routine in a romance novel. The male protagonist accidentally hurts the female protagonist. After a fierce quarrel, naturally... They broke up on bad terms, and then I met you by chance and stood up for you, which felt more like the plot in an idol drama. I never thought that what happened after these encounters would one day happen in reality."

"At first, my feelings for you were just plain and without any waves. When I felt distressed for the first time, it was when I heard you say that you had been caring about your relationship for seven years. From that time on, you were The image in my mind suddenly changed. To be honest, I have never experienced what it feels like to love someone for seven years, but I know that it is great and amazing, and most people cannot do it."

"But you did it, I really admire you. At the same time, I thought to myself, it turns out that true love does exist in the world, and there are really people who are willing to wait so long for someone, or in other words, really There are people who are willing to like someone secretly and silently for so long."

"When we were having dinner, speaking for you was something I couldn't help but want to say. At that time, I didn't understand why I wanted to speak for you, and I saw you get off the car and go home, and I was the only one sitting in the car. There will be a feeling of loss, and I didn’t understand why I had the corresponding emotions at the time.”

"But later I realized that these emotions all stem from my desire to protect you. I don't want to see you suffer any grievance, and I want to speak up for you. I know that sometimes you don't like to talk or defend. , choose silence, but I feel that as long as I am by your side, I can do this for you, as if it is another you talking."

Seeing this, Tang Yimeng took a gentle breath with her slightly open mouth. As her soft chest rose and fell gently, her pair of narrow eyes wandered around aimlessly. She couldn't help but put her fist to her mouth. , and then her eyes fell on the phone again.

"Since then, my feelings for you have changed again, but I haven't discovered it yet, or in other words, I still don't like you so strongly in my heart, because the feeling is so wonderful, even as a writer As for the novel, I also have feelings that I can’t write about, but I know that feeling is very real.”

"When you said you pretended to be your boyfriend and accompanied you to Happy Canyon, I was confused. I thought we were just ordinary friends, but what I have to admit is that I really like you a little bit. Of course, It’s not because I have to pretend to be someone that I like you. It’s just like the emotions I felt before, such as feeling moved, disappointed, and excited. They were all mixed together. I was waiting for an opportunity to change. And your words prompted me to make a decision. It was an inevitable decision.”

"If the liking that arose at that time was not love, then there really were no words to describe what I felt at that time. That heart-pounding feeling, if it wasn't love, what could it be?"

"When I was helping you teach those two scumbags a lesson, to be honest, all I was thinking about was how to protect you from harm in the future. Because I wanted to protect you, my feeling of liking became stronger, because I liked you more and more. , so I want to protect you even more."

"To be honest, the time I went to Happy Canyon was the happiest time I went out with you in the past few months. I was very excited and happy. It was the first time I went to an amusement park alone with a girl, and it was with someone I like. Going with girls is very special to me, it’s like seeing a new world, it’s very fresh, the whole day is full of unknowns, and I look forward to surprises that may come at any time.”

"Later I asked you about our relationship. You said that you think our current relationship is very good and you don't want to change it. In fact, I am not too disappointed or unhappy. I just think you are right. Maybe there is. When I was young, I thought that I was too selfish. I shouldn't move forward so quickly. I think I should follow your pace."

"Actually, I asked you that at that time because I didn't want you to be immersed in sadness all the time. I hope I can replace Yang Xiaoning and make you happy every day. For a person who is lovelorn, it's a good idea to fall in love quickly. It’s the best way to get out of the shadows. It may seem a little frivolous, but it’s really the most effective.”

"But since you think our relationship is very good, then I respect your choice. Later, we went to eat pizza and sing together. Every time we go out, I look forward to it and have a lot of fun, because when I am with you, I I feel refreshed. When I heard that you could leave a few years later, I really, really couldn't suppress the feelings for you in my heart. I felt that this might be the one time God gave me. An opportunity, an opportunity for me to be honest with you."

Seeing this, Tang Yimeng's pair of narrow eyes quietly flickered, and she blankly swiped the screen and continued to look down.

"But I came to my senses soon, because I haven't made up my mind yet. I think I have to find a good time to confess to you, or I just don't confess at all. I just endure it and like it silently. That's fine, because I'm very conflicted. I'm afraid that if you don't like me after I confess, we will be embarrassed and we may not even be friends in the future. But if I don't confess, then I won't be able to legitimately be a boyfriend. To protect you, sometimes, I think there is a limit to what a friend can do."

"Later, when we went to Nanxuan, it was the second day besides Happy Canyon that made a deep impression on me. Although I often eat and drink with you on weekdays, it was a completely different feeling that day. After hearing so many things, When Song's song "No Makeup" was played, I somehow suddenly had such a feeling. Many years later, I would feel that eating, drinking and having fun with her in that alley that summer seemed to have captured the whole thing for me. At the same time as summer, I also have forever with her."

"Although "Su Yan" is a sad song, the feeling I heard at that time was very lazy. I could hear the chirping of cicadas and birds. On a midsummer day, you and I were walking on the street. , it’s a very romantic feeling, not sad at all.”

"Maybe... maybe this is inner narcissism or some kind of fantasy that is at work, beautifying all of this to make it look unsightly, but what I am sure of is that no matter which song I heard at that time, I wish I had Everything can become our eternity. No matter when and where, as long as we think of it, we will smile unconsciously. It is a beautiful memory."

"And you came to my house a while ago. To be honest, I really thought you were just talking. I didn't expect you to actually come to see me. I was actually thinking at the time, such a simple, cute and innocent treasure Girl, how happy it would be to be with her. In fact, sometimes I am very jealous of Yang Xiaoning and Lin Yunfeng. If I can appear in front of them, will they not be there? It’s happened, haha.”

"Having said so much, I think we are quite suitable. We have the same personalities, similar family backgrounds, and mothers with similar personalities. We can also complain to each other about them. We both like dogs, and we can have fun with them. I like it. I give you nicknames, and you also like to tear me down. I know you, and you know me. I don’t know where we can’t get along. I like you very much and want to protect you. I don’t want you to do it again in the future. I feel hurt even a little bit sincerely, and I hope you can accept me."

Seeing this, Tang Yimeng no longer wanted to read any more. She didn't have the courage to read any more, and her throat rolled a few times with great difficulty.Tang Yimeng gently covered her pursed lips and turned-up nose with her little hands, and then walked quickly to her bed, hugged the big toy and leaned on the pillow, with her little face hidden behind the toy, making people laugh. It was difficult to see her expression clearly.

After a long while, the girl recovered from the emotion that made her lose control. She took a deep breath to calm down her dull and stuffy chest. Tang Yimeng's mouth was slightly open and she breathed softly. At this moment, Yuan Shu, who had not received any reply from Tang Yimeng, had already fallen asleep. The only things that could be heard in the darkness were the young man's faint breathing and the sound of the clock moving.

After sniffing, Tang Yimeng took several pictures of the essay sent by Yuan Shu and sent them to Pang Xiyuan one by one.

"Holy shit, what's going on? Stop scrolling, sister!"

Seeing that his phone was vibrating frequently and stuck, Pang Xiyuan quickly replied to Tang Yimeng.

"Look at this."

Tang Yimeng typed.

"What is this?"

After a second or two, Pang Xiyuan asked, and after a while she asked: "Is this...a love letter?!"

"Written by Yuan Shu."

Tang Yimeng said.

"what?!"

Pang Xiyuan was obviously a little surprised and asked: "Yuanshu wrote it to you? Did he confess to you?!"

"Well, I don't know how to reply to him..."

Tang Yimeng was noncommittal.

"Then there is something I don't know how to reply to. How to reply and how to reply."

"But... I didn't expect Yuan Shu to write a love letter to you, but this is in line with his style. After all, he is also a novelist. Expressing love in words is indeed a very good choice."

"But I have to complain. I took a look at the content. What do you two usually do? Why do you say something so affectionate and disgusting? It's like saying goodbye forever. It gave me goosebumps."

Pang Xiyuan laughed.

"Hey... don't make fun of me..."

Tang Yimeng was in a panic now and was in no mood to accept Pang Xiyuan's words.

"Do you still remember that Wen Jie called you a while ago and asked about you and Yuan Shu."

Pang Xiyuan asked.

"remember."

Tang Yimeng nodded.

"Actually, we both agreed that day. She called you and I called him to ask about you two. Yuan Shu told me at that time that he liked you, but he never knew whether to tell you or not. , and he also said that he didn’t want you to know about it.”

Pang Xiyuan confessed.

"So you two have known about him for a long time..."

Tang Yimeng was quite surprised.

"Yes, hey, let me tell you the truth. Wen Jie and I are very supportive of the two of you being together. Since he wrote you a love letter today, I will explain it to you."

Pang Xiyuan said with certainty.

"But we are too familiar with each other, and I can't accept changes. I'm afraid that everything will change after we get together."

Tang Yimeng had concerns that she could not change. This concern made her choose to escape and was unwilling to face Yuan Shu's confession to her.

"My silly girl, why are you so naive? When you develop from friends to lovers, things will definitely change, right? How could it not change? And what if it changes? Only when it changes does it mean that you have really become a couple. If you can't feel the change, it means you are just friends."

Pang Xiyuan felt that Tang Yimeng was really stupid, so he said sincerely.

"I don't want to change. I think we are good as we are now. If we change, maybe it won't be so good."

Tang Yimeng said stubbornly.

"Then it's up to you. I'm not here to be a lobbyist for Yuan Shu. Anyway, Wen Jie and I agree that Yuan Shu and you are the most suitable."

"Let me put it this way. First of all, he is down-to-earth. How about compared to Lin Yunfeng? Lin Yunfeng only sees his few bad friends. He can pigeonhole you for his friends, which means that you are not important in his heart at all. Where is Yuan Shu? He doesn't know how, so I just see you two hanging out together and eating together every day. I think he is much better than Lin Yunfeng, which means he only has you in his heart."

After that, Pang Xiyuan added: "Secondly, he is willing to be nice to you. Look at this group of men now. None of them are good. They will stop chasing after two or three days. The longest is only one week. There is no one who persists." Yue, look at those who pursue you, are there any who have been pursuing you for more than Yuan Shu? I don’t know if he can persist in crushing on you for a year, and I don’t know if he can persist for longer, but I know that he really likes you. your."

"Also, Yuan Shu and we are both classmates. We know everything about him. We can rest assured that he is with you. Although he looks like the male protagonist of an idol drama, in my opinion, he is reasonable at best and can be used to watch. , and you are not a member of an appearance association, you are both local, isn’t he better than anyone you can find in society?”

Pang Xiyuan sent another voice message.

After listening to the former's voice, Tang Yimeng said: "I know what you said, but... let me think about it again..."

"Anyway, the decision-making power is in your hands. I'm just telling you what I want to say and what Wen Jie wants to say. We don't interfere with your emotional issues, and we don't interfere with his either. It all depends on what you will become in the future. Your own creation.”

Pang Xiyuan expressed his intention again and said.

(End of this chapter)