nursery rhymes

Chapter 32
Yao Xin lingered at the door of the Public Security Bureau, constantly recalling all the scenes from last night to this morning in his mind.

Cao Yingnuo's chirping voice seemed to still linger in her ears.Cao Ying said: "Because I can protect my mother when I grow up."

When she watched Cao Ying enter the school, she couldn't tell what she was feeling.

Standing in front of the iron sign at the entrance of the Public Security Bureau with black characters on a white background, all the courage and determination I had accumulated last night collapsed little by little.As time passed, she thought about a lot.

What will Cao Ying do after she surrenders?
Who will take Cao Ying to and from school? How much shock will Cao Ying receive when she knows the truth?

After she went in and surrendered, would she never have the chance to see her child again?
No, no, she hasn't settled everything for the child yet, so she can't abandon it so hastily.

Yao Xin crossed the zebra crossing, rode an electric car on the roadside, quickly returned to the supermarket, and ran up the stairs.

This is not the time to surrender, and Cao Ying cannot be allowed to discover the fact and truth that her father and brother are dead.

A thought came to her mind, she closed the door, took a bone cutter and separated Cao Gang in the bathroom one by one, packed them in black garbage bags and put them in the freezer.After washing away the traces, he half-kneeled beside the crib to look at the cold and stiff little body.

She wanted to touch her young face, but her palms were trembling.I don't know whether it was because I used too much force when slashing, or because I was panicking after finally realizing what I had just done.

Finally, she decided to put the little child into a black bag and freeze it in the bottom of another freezer in the supermarket.

When she went to pick up Cao Ying from school in the evening, she happened to meet the kindergarten children who were also finishing school.A mother and daughter passed by her electric car, and she inadvertently took a second look.

The three- or four-year-old girl was wearing a pair of pink and white crystal slippers and was jumping up and down, holding her mother's hand. She was not easy to talk to, but she excitedly told her what she had learned at school.

So Yao Xin was thinking, if she was arrested, what kind of shadow would Cao Ying's childhood cast?
Children from other families can grow up happily. Her childhood was not good without the love of her parents. Should she let her own children fall into a miserable cycle?

Yao Xin was distracted and almost hit someone. After hurriedly apologizing, he parked his electric car beside the green belt only a dozen meters away from the school gate.

Taking advantage of the fact that there were still a few minutes before school was over, I took out my phone, found the number marked with my mother on it, and dialed it.

While waiting for the busy signal to be answered, Yao Xin's heart seemed to be beating out of his chest, and it was difficult to control it.

She didn't want to stay in the city of QHD or the location of Beidaihe for a whole day.She wanted to go home, take Cao Ying away from here, and escape for a few days to calm her mind.

When the call was answered, Yao Xin swallowed, struggled to hold back his tears and called out "Mom".

Although she has never relied on her parents since she was a child, this time, she hopes that her natal family can become her safe haven and give her warmth and peace of mind even for a short time.

"Mom, I want to take Yingying back to stay for a few days."

It suddenly occurred to her that the news of her second pregnancy and birth had not been told to them yet.After a year and a half of no contact, she didn't think anything was wrong.

She endured morning sickness on her own when she was pregnant with her second child.She gritted her teeth and endured the panic of giving birth at home.Even during confinement period, she cooked and washed diapers by herself, as if everything was as it should be, and she didn't need anyone's help.

But this time, she hoped that someone could help her and lend her a place to lean against and stop.

"What's the matter with you suddenly taking your child back to your parents' house? If the neighbors and relatives see it, they might make fun of our family. The quarrel and quarrel between you two is your business, don't worry about running back." What came out of it was a tone of reprimand.

Yao Xin didn't hear anything else said inside.She looked confusedly at the students queuing up from the school gate one after another. She wanted to laugh at herself, but it seemed like there was a weight hanging from the corner of her mouth and she couldn't pull it off.

After all, she had no sheltered harbor to dock in. Looking at Cao Ying running towards her, she hung up the phone indifferently.

On the way home, she told Cao Ying that her younger brother was taken back to her hometown by her grandmother to live for a while, and her father also went to work on the construction site.Cao Ying chirped and asked why her grandma came. She also wanted to go back with her brother, but she didn't mention a word about her father.

Yao Xin has no burden at all for the panic he made.My mother-in-law plays mahjong all day long and never cares about the living conditions of the couple.Cao Gang did not tell his mother-in-law about giving birth to a second child, so naturally she would not take the initiative to contact her mother-in-law.

Perhaps, she could spend more time growing up with Cao Ying and wait for the incident to come to light.

For half a month, the mother and daughter lived a quiet and comfortable life.The income from the small supermarket is enough for two people to live. Without Cao Gang's presence, the atmosphere at home will no longer be tense.Except for Cao Ying who would say "missing her brother" from time to time, it seemed that there was nothing in life that could stir up Yao Xin's emotions.

But only she knew that in the past half month, every night when she woke up in cold sweat, her heart suffered an unbearable beating frequency.

It seemed like the collapse happened in just a moment.

The little baby fell to the ground with a weak cry, the purple and plump little face, and even the baby in the dream quickly grew into an adult, and his face overlapped with Cao Gang's face
Yao Xin wrapped himself tightly in the quilt, trying to delete the horrific scenes in his mind, but the fragments were intertwined back and forth, becoming increasingly clear.

She raised her head and looked at the bathroom with the door open. In the darkness, the sound of chopping bones seemed to come from the small space.

She covered her ears and suffered night after night.

Someone finally noticed her abnormality and looked at her with concern.

Shang Lili placed the green shopping basket on the marble countertop, raised one arm, and leaned against the cashier.When Yao Xin was taking out the snacks in the shopping basket one by one with the scanner gun, Shang Lili suddenly held down Yao Xin's hand.

"You're wrong."

Yao Xin was startled at first, then broke away from Shang Lili's hand and continued scanning.The tone was as usual: "There's something wrong with you, why are you eating instant noodles again? When I asked you to come to my place for dinner, you said you were busy every day." After scanning all the food, he gave Shang Lili a figure with a 77% discount. "Seventy-seven yuan two."

Shang Lili took out her mobile phone and scanned the WeChat payment code, humming. "Where's the child?"

The other party only asked three words, and Yao Xin's heart seemed to be hammered.

She forced herself to calm down, but did not dare to raise her eyes to look at her friend. "You said Xiao Liang, he has returned to his hometown."

I thought Shang Lili would ask more questions, but the other party sighed angrily. "This man Cao Gang is really nothing. I heard you guys quarreling that day. Did he take the child back to his mother?"

Yao Xin suppressed the crazy emotions and nodded in agreement: "Yes, yes." She handed a pile of food packed in plastic bags to Shang Lili, still not daring to look at her.

Shang Lili took it, but threw it on the counter again.

"Still, why are you such a coward? Your child has been snatched away, and you don't know how to resist or go and get it back. That bastard Cao Gang spends all day just waiting to die. When the project is ruined, he doesn't know how to go. Find some other job to make money, live and drink, you don’t know I saw you at Haoxiang KTV.” At this point, Shang Lili suddenly stopped.

Yao Xin didn't say anything, lowered his head, waiting for her next words.

Sure enough, Shang Lili continued to talk, but it was not the topic just now.

"Yao Xin, divorce him. I will help you raise your two children. Anyway, I don't plan to get married again. It will be no problem for us to raise two children."

After listening to Shang Lili's words, something stuck in Yao Xin's heart seemed to dissipate instantly.Her eyes lit up and she looked up at Shang Lili's face.

Shang Lili didn't wear makeup today, a red pimple appeared on her forehead, and the sides of her nose were slightly yellow.

Yao Xin looked away and said in a low voice, "Let me think again."

Shang Lili picked up the plastic bag and without saying anything else, she just stretched her hand into the counter and patted Yao Xin's arm.

When Shang Lili exited the supermarket door and turned left and disappeared, Yao Xin sat down on the stool.

Perhaps, she could give Cao Ying to Shang Lili to raise.Based on the relationship between the two, she believed that Shang Lili would be as good to Cao Ying as her own child.

If she voluntarily surrenders and tells everything, her sentence may be reduced, and she will still have the opportunity to watch Cao Ying grow up.All nightmares and suffering will end here.

(End of this chapter)