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Chapter 191 Let's not meet for now

"Euni!"

With long hair that was messy and had no time to comb, An Youzhen drove all the way to Concubine Quan Eun's house.

She was sleeping soundly in the dormitory, but she didn't expect to receive a call from Quan Eunfei in the middle of the night. Just one sentence made her wake up completely.

"Lighten up."

Making a gesture of silence, Quan Enfei cautiously glanced into her room and looked at Zhang Yuanying who had closed her eyes before turning her head and closing the bedroom door with confidence.

"I just put you to sleep, so don't worry about it for now."

He shook his head, remembering what he saw when he opened the door for Zhang Yuanying, and still felt some lingering fear.

Late at night, I was enjoying the night view in front of the window with a cup of coffee, and making some simple preparations for the radio program the next day.

Unfortunately, the doorbell at home rang at this moment. After a brief question and answer, Quan Enfei recognized the gentle whimpering of the youngest sister who was usually the most protected and loved by everyone.

He hurriedly opened the combination lock at the door of his house, and what he saw was Zhang Yuanying who looked confused, as if he had lost his soul.

He walked into his house with some staggering steps, silently threw off his shoes, and walked to his living room barefoot, while the red scarf around his neck was also thrown to the ground.

He rolled himself into a small glutinous rice ball and curled up in a corner of the sofa.

There was no expression or demeanor in the empty eyes, just like a puppet on strings, lifeless and completely devoid of any life.

Ever since Zhang Yuanying fell in love with Xu Yunzhou, Quan Enfei could read happiness on her face every time she saw her lovely sister.

But this time, that fair face has completely lost its previous vitality and aura. She looks just like she did during the period when she was subjected to nationwide online violence, or even worse.

What happened today?
It took a lot of effort to finally calm down my sister's emotions, and I pieced together the general direction of the matter from the other party's stumbling tone.

"what happened?"

An Youzhen, who was originally very nervous, finally breathed a sigh of relief. He picked up a hairpin from Quan Eunfei's table and clamped it on his bangs. He tightened his eyebrows while fixing his hair.

"I just said that I didn't break up. I want to calm down. Both of us want to calm down."

Sighing, she lifted the coffee on the table. As soon as Quan Enfei's lips touched the cooled coffee liquid, she shook her head and poured it into the sink irritably.

I have known her for five years, and I am not afraid of her crying or being naughty. What I am most afraid of is that she will lock herself into her own world without saying a word.

She had seen such a scene once in the autumn four years ago. She originally thought that with Xu Yunzhou's company, she who had experienced a lot of slander and abuse at a young age would be able to gradually untie the shackles in her heart. Who knew she would so.

Just like what I expected half a year ago, how passionate it is when you love, and how uncomfortable and helpless you will feel when problems arise.

I just didn't expect that the day I expected would come so soon.

He shook his head and withdrew his gaze. The upset emotions gradually dispersed. Hearing the sound of making a phone call coming from the side, he slowly gathered back into his mind.

"Why can't I get through!"

After pulling her hair hard twice, An Youzhen, who had become much calmer after becoming the captain, became irritable again inexplicably.Smashing her phone on the sofa in the living room, she frowned and looked at the distant night scene, her eyes full of disappointment.

The man who always respected his seniors hung up the phone for the first time.

With a sigh, he climbed up to the rooftop of the company and breathed in the cold but fresh air. Finally, the heavy mountain that was originally pressing on him finally loosened a little.

He gently sat on the swing board, took the beer out of the plastic bag in his hand, and pulled the tab hard. The yellow-white foam immediately flooded his palm.

He put his arms on the swing and took a swig of beer. The yellow-white foam made him choke on his mouth.

He stared blankly at the city that was brightly lit even at night, and his eyes were empty as if he had no energy at all.

The winter wind is like a sharp blade, which causes pain.

But no matter how cold the north wind is, it can't compare to the pain in my heart.

I'm your girlfriend, why can't you tell me something first?
Shen Zailun, Nakamura Kazuyo and Lu Zhengyi all know about this matter, do you still want to hide it from me?

Do you plan to let fans all over the world know about it and tell me slowly?
What do you mean by not wanting to affect my itinerary?
Do you know how important you are to me?
Do you know that without you, I can't do anything right now.

Every time I texted you, I said I was busy, and every time I pretended nothing happened. I am your girlfriend, not a fan who comes to see you perform your acting skills.

What I need is not a boyfriend who just smiles and says yes, do you understand?
The Xu Yunzhou I want is a flesh-and-blood Xu Yunzhou who will need my help, will be hurt, will be sad, and will talk to me about his concerns.

I know that our status has brought a lot of pressure to this relationship. You always tell me that it is enough for us to stand together now and there is no need to worry about other things.

As a result, all the pressure is placed on you alone.

I want to share the burden with you, do you understand?

All the pressure is on you. I am so dependent on you and seem so fragile. As a result, I still blame you for not telling me bad things.

It seems that I must have done something wrong.

I want to know your life, I want to know what my Yunzhou is going through, and I also want to go through those hardships with you, do you understand?

Zhang Yuanying has never been a fragile person, and I don't need you to create this warm and safe illusion for me.

Do you feel more relaxed when you are around Nakamura Kazuyo and Masayoshi Noh?
Am I the only one who will become that burden in your heart?
Do you also feel that I am not suitable for you now?

Instead of meeting someone who only has a smile and acting skills in front of me, it is better not to meet each other from now on. We will not break up. It will be good for both of us to be apart for a while.

Those words, accompanied by the dull slamming of the door, pierced deeply into his heart.

Every time I think about it, I feel a heart-wrenching pain like a knife, a hundred times more painful than my own back.

　I'll start adding more tomorrow, this period is almost over. . .

　　
　
(End of this chapter)