rich concubine

Chapter 1311 Growing up is really painful

People always go through some things and grow up inadvertently. In the past, Qin Dailong was a carefree young lady. Whenever she felt a little unhappy in her heart, she needed to be coaxed and pampered by everyone. Now, she has also learned to restrain her temper. No matter what bitterness or grievances you have, you should swallow them yourself and don't cause trouble for others.

But sometimes, she has been depressed for a long time, and many things have become unsolvable. No one can help her, no one can solve her problems, and this feeling is not pleasant.

His father's love was deep and he rarely talked to her. Even if he knew that she was in a bad mood, he only ordered his servants to take good care of her.

Mother's love was so heavy that she couldn't breathe. She felt the pain in her heart without words. Who couldn't see it?
There are very few people who think about her from her perspective. Therefore, when Qin Yu said these words, Qin Dailong sighed and was willing to reveal what was in his heart.

"It's not that I don't want to go out, it's just that I really don't feel like it. I used to feel that home was just a place as big as a palm, and I was a place where I got tired of staying. I just wanted to go out. But after I got outside, I realized that nowhere is as good as home. Okay, except for the identity of Miss Qin, who would bow down to me?"

Qin Yu frowned slightly and said: "Now that I have finally come back, I want to shut myself in the house. It seems that as long as I am in Dailing Pavilion and don't go out, things outside will never affect me. I don't have to go." Don’t take it to heart even if you face it.”

"..."

"I know it's wrong to think like this, but I just can't control myself. Sometimes I really feel that being able to live like this is a gift from God. I shouldn't ask for too much. All those good things have been thrown away by me. Yes, I chose the wrong path myself, who can I blame?"

"Delon..."

Qin Dailong looked at him with moist eyes. She said: "My mother told me in the past that when I get married, I will grow up when I become a mother. Now that I am a mother, I still feel that I am not familiar with the world." Child, I clearly don’t understand anything, but I am forced to accept it all. Growing up is really a painful thing..."

Qin Yu's voice was hoarse and he looked at his sister with distressed eyes. He said: "Some pain will follow you all your life, but time is a good medicine. It will slowly eliminate your heartache. Dailong, you are too stubborn. You You seal yourself in the past, don't want to open your heart, don't want to face the future, you don't even want to live a good life, you say you just want to stay in Deling Pavilion, this is what you are escaping from."

Qin Dailong lowered her eyes in pain, and she took a deep breath. Her chest seemed to be blocked by a ball of cotton, and it became increasingly difficult to breathe.

"How do I move forward? How do I forget everything in the past?

Now I feel regret and hatred. I used to call myself the eldest lady of the Qin family, and I used to look down on others, thinking that no one in the world could live a better life than me. I didn’t cherish what others couldn’t get, but now I have to look at those things. Those who were once inferior to me are all better than me. They can marry good husbands and live a happy life... Why?Their starting point is obviously not as high as mine..."

"Dairon!" Qin Yu said in a serious tone, "Why do you think so now? Everyone is born different, why should we distinguish between high and low? Everyone chooses what kind of life they live, you If you make a wrong choice, you are wrong. Just change it and it will be fine. Why bother comparing yourself with others?"

Qin Yu didn't expect that his sister's resentment was so deep. She was obviously a kind girl before and had compassion for others. Now just because she is not doing well, she thinks that everyone in the world is not as good as her. Should people like her live in the same misery as her?

When did she start to have such a dark revengeful mentality?Qin Yu didn't know at all.Seeing his sister's pain, Qin Yu didn't want to put pressure on her. Instead, he blamed himself and said, "It's my fault. I've been too busy these days and haven't spent much time with you. We are connected by blood, and I didn't realize you were so important." I didn't have time to relieve you of your worries, which made you so depressed that you didn't even have anyone to talk to. Delon, you are my sister. From now on, whether you want to get married or stay in the house, this will be yours. There will be no change in our family, your surname is still Qin, and the child is the child of our Qin family..."

Before she finished speaking, Qin Dailong broke down and cried. She had been suppressed for a long time these days. She really had never found an outlet to release her emotions. When Qin Yu said these words, her heart felt like it was being suppressed. A hole was opened, and those bad emotions could no longer be closed.

Qin Yu touched his sister's head and comforted her, just like he did when he was a child.

In fact, the children of the Qin family have never suffered any grievances or harms since they were young. Qin Guogong and his wife protected them very well. Only when they grow up and become sensible can they understand what grievance is.

Qin Yuan has also been a proud man of heaven since he was a child. How has he ever suffered any setbacks?It wasn't until I grew up and entered the officialdom and met all kinds of people that I realized that the world was not as simple as I saw. After all, I was born in a noble family, and no matter how difficult the life ahead was, it would be much smoother than others.

In his official career, Qin Yu only needs to work hard. As long as he works hard, his future will be bright. However, when he returns home, he is just like a piece of chicken. He is as noble as the Duke's mansion, but also has inexplicable filial piety.

Qin Yun gradually grew up as a man and realized what a sense of responsibility is. Especially after so many things happened to his sister, he realized that if he didn't work hard, he would be passive and "get beaten".

The things accumulated by his father's generation were used on him, and they were safe for a while, but not for a lifetime. If he couldn't make a name for himself, how could he talk about life in the future?

He heard Qin Dailong sobbing and said: "I really don't want to get married, and I don't want to go out to see each other. I don't want to see the way they look at me. I can obviously hide and not be seen, but my mother always She wants me to go out, she wants to marry me out, but she knows I don’t want to! She knows clearly... I can’t slow down, I can’t let go..."

Qin Yu paused and said, "Dailong doesn't want to get married, so we won't get married. In the future, even if your parents are old, my brother can support you and your child. The child will grow up in the Duke of Qin's palace and will be a famous lady in the future. I I won’t let you two hold your heads up.”

Qin Dailong cried bitterly, only clutching the clothes on Qin Yuan's chest, and shouted "Brother" in pain.

Qin Yu closed his eyes and said: "It will all pass. As long as you are willing, everything will be fine. Delon, I am just a sister like you. You must be good, be good..."

Qin Yun was also afraid in his heart. He knew that his sister had been raised pampered since she was a child. After experiencing so many things, she had long been a taut string that could break at any time.

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(End of this chapter)