splendid star

Chapter 104 Xiaoju commits suicide by jumping into the lake
Since the last gathering of the four sisters, Xiaoju has been actively looking for a way out of her predicament.
At the last party, Yuqing and Siyi both tried to persuade Xiaoju to be herself. However, if she wanted to find herself, she must first have a job and achieve financial independence. But now that she is working, who will take care of Niuniu?Xiaoju looked at Niuniu who was enjoying herself carefree in the yard. She was sitting on a chair, dragging her cheek with her right hand, thinking hard.
Last time, Guan Lu suggested that Xiaoju entrust Niuniu to a childcare center. During this period, she also took Niuniu's family to visit several childcare centers. However, the other party either disliked that Niuniu was too young and refused to accept her, or they offered high fees. The childcare fee prohibits Xiaoju.
What should I do?Suddenly, Xiaoju had an idea. How about I just apply for a job as a teacher in a child care center?This can not only solve the problem of Niu Niu's childcare fees, but also achieve financial independence, and can pick up and drop off Niu Niu on time every day. It really kills three birds with one stone.
Thinking of this, Xiaoju's face showed a long-lost smile, and her mood suddenly brightened.Without further ado, Xiaoju quickly packed her things and took Niuniu out.
The mother and daughter came to a full-day care center that they had inquired about earlier. It was one of the few childcare institutions that could accept Niuniu's age.
Xiaoju brought Niuniu to the principal's office and said sincerely: "Hello, principal, my name is Xu Xiaoju. This is my daughter Niuniu. She is already two years old. I want to apply for a job as a teacher here. By the way, I will teach my child It’s all in our center.”
After hearing this, the principal replied with a smile: "Hello, Xiaoju, we are a high-end childcare center with very high requirements for teachers. Do you have a kindergarten teacher qualification certificate?"
After hearing this, Xiao Ju replied blankly: "Do you need a kindergarten teacher qualification certificate? I don't have one, but I have a bachelor's degree, so I should have no problem teaching children, right?"
The principal replied politely: "Sorry, Xiaoju, our teachers must have kindergarten teacher qualification certificates. This is also the basic policy of the education department."
After hearing this, Xiao Ju's mood suddenly hit the bottom. She lowered her head and thought for a while, then slowly raised her head and replied, "Director, I won't trouble you." After that, Xiao Ju planned to take Niuniu away.
"Wait a minute." The principal called Xiao Ju from behind, "It seems like there is no one to take care of this baby, right? In this way, we are also recruiting life teachers here. This position does not require a kindergarten teacher qualification certificate. Do you think you are interested? ?”
After hearing this, Xiao Ju was overjoyed and quickly thanked with a smile: "Thank you, principal, no problem, I can be our life teacher."
"It's just that you, an undergraduate, are a bit unqualified to be a life teacher." The principal looked at Xiaoju and replied with some regret.
"Unyielding talent, principal, but I have to ask, how are the childcare fees here? Also, how much is the monthly salary of the life teacher?" Xiaoju is most concerned about money now.
"For a child as old as yours, the monthly childcare fee is [-], and the monthly salary of the life teacher is [-]." The principal pushed up his glasses and replied with a smile.
"Oh," after hearing the principal's introduction, Xiao Ju's newly ignited hopes were dashed again. She replied awkwardly, "I'm sorry, principal, to bother you. Then I won't consider being our life teacher here." .”
"Okay, you can go check out other homes." The principal replied with a smile.
Xiaoju took Niuniu to several childcare centers that could accept Niuniu's age. In the end, either because of the childcare fees or wages, she had to give up.
After running for most of the day, mother and daughter were tired and hungry. Niu Niu kept clamoring for food. Xiao Ju had no choice but to drag her tired body back home with Niu Niu. It seemed that sending Niu Niu to a daycare center was not feasible. .
"Mom! I'm hungry!" Niu Niu whispered in her ear as soon as she got home.
"Niuniu, be good, mommy will cook noodles for you." After Xiaoju said that, she hurried to the kitchen to work.
Soon, the noodles were cooked, and while Xiaoju was feeding Niuniu, she was thinking about who she should find to take care of Niuniu.After much thought, Xiaoju decided to ask her mother-in-law for help.No matter what Niuniu says, she is still her biological granddaughter. She can't just sit back and do nothing all the time, right?
In the evening, Xiao Qiang's mother came back from playing mahjong.After Xiaoju put Niuniu to sleep, she quietly came to her mother-in-law's room: "Mom, I want to discuss something with you."
Xiao Qiang's mother glanced at Xiao Ju sideways and said nothing.
Xiaoju was silent for a moment and then continued: "Mom, I want to find a job. Do you think you can help take care of Niuniu?"
Xiao Qiang's mother replied angrily: "You can go to work, but you have to take Niuniu with you. Don't expect to throw this little oil bottle to me. I still want to live a few more years."
"Mom! Niuniu is your granddaughter after all. You should help take care of her, right? Also, do you think any boss would allow employees to take their children to work? Besides, Xiao Qiang hasn't been home for a long time. He didn't give me any money. Niuniu and I have to eat, right?" Xiaoju started crying as she spoke.
Xiao Qiang's mother glanced at Xiaoju with disdain and replied angrily: "Hmph! Look at you, you can't even look down on your own man and yet you have the nerve to cry in front of me? Why don't you ask your mother-in-law to help take care of Niuniu? She can't just use 8 yuan in gift money and do nothing, right?"
"Then where will my mother live when she comes? We don't have any extra room at home." Xiao Ju discussed in embarrassment.
"You can rent a house for her outside! You can't live at home anyway. I get upset when I see your family." Xiao Qiang's mother replied with disgust.
"Mom, do you know where Xiao Qiang went? He didn't return calls or answer calls during this period. I'm a little worried." Although Xiao Ju had already heard that Xiao Qiang was hanging out with Zhang Chunxiang, she still wanted to make some insinuations. Mother-in-law, let’s see if she knows about this.
Xiao Qiang's mother replied without hesitation and even triumphantly: "To tell you the truth, Qiangzi is now with his high school classmate Zhang Chunxiang." When she mentioned this, Xiao Qiang's mother couldn't help but laugh, " This silly boy finally got the idea. When you two first started dating, I asked him to break up with you and choose Zhang Chunxiang, but he just didn’t listen. No, his mind finally changed."
"Mom! So you knew that Xiao Qiang had cheated on you a long time ago, so why didn't you tell me!" Xiao Ju cried and asked, "Are you such an old man? I know you have always looked down on me, but why didn't you even I don’t even have a sense of right and wrong! Xiao Qiang and I haven’t divorced yet! If you say that, how can you expect me to stay in this house? "
"I advise you that it's best to move out and live with your mother. She will help you take care of Niuniu while you go to your class." Xiao Qiang's mother glanced sideways at Xiao Ju and replied with disgust, "Don't stay with me all day. It's wandering in front of me, and it's an eyesore."
"Mom! You!" After hearing what Xiao Qiang's mother said, Xiao Ju was so angry that she couldn't speak. What kind of family is this!She left Xiao Qiang's mother's house frustrated and crying.
Xiaoju stood in the middle of the yard, looking at the empty surroundings, and couldn't help but feel sad.This courtyard is like a big word "prison". Ever since she got married, she has been completely imprisoned here, in the dark.From the first time I came to meet Xiao Qiang's mother, to the wedding, and now, I have stumbled along the way, and I have suffered too many grievances.Now the mother and son of the Xiao family have teamed up to bully her without any bottom line. Xiao Qiang left home and cheated on her, and Xiao Qiang's mother thinks she is an eyesore. Maybe it's time to make a clean break and leave.
Xiaoju returned to her room crying, still unable to conceal her grief and anger.Although she knew that her own mother was unlikely to come over to help take care of Niu Niu, she still planned to give it a try.Xiao Ju picked up the phone and burst into tears before she even spoke: "Mom, Xiao Qiang cheated on me."
"What? You said Xiao Qiang cheated? When did it happen?" Xiao Ju's mother asked in surprise.
"Xiao Qiang's mother has known about this for some time, but not only did she not stop him, she also supported Xiao Qiang's cheating." Xiao Ju replied angrily and cried.
"Alas..." Xiaoju's mother let out a long sigh on the phone, "Xiaoju, if you cheat, just cheat. There are some men who are willing to guard a woman every day. Look at your dad, he has been with you for as long as you can remember. , just domestic violence against me. Decades have passed, haven’t I endured it all the way? Xiaoju, be obedient, maybe when Niuniu grows up, he will naturally come back to you."
"Mom! How can you think like this?" Xiao Ju expected to hear a few words of thoughtful comfort from her parents, but she didn't expect that even her own mother would persuade her to endure it.However, how can one tolerate such things that go against basic ethics? ?
After a moment of silence, Xiaoju discussed and begged: "Mom, why don't you come to the BJ to help me take care of Niuniu? My mother-in-law doesn't care about the children. I want to go to work. When I become financially independent, I will divorce Xiao Qiang."
"Divorce? How can this be done? Even if you die, you can't take this path! You finally married a BJ man, how can you just divorce her!" Xiaoju's mother firmly objected.
"Mom! I beg you, can you come to BJ and help me take care of Niuniu? I have to go to work, and I have to make money. Not only does Xiao Qiang not go back home, he doesn't even give me any money. How should Niuniu and I live? Ah?" Xiaoju begged with tears in her eyes.
"His father, look at this..." Xiaoju's mother was discussing with Xiaoju's father in a low voice on the other end of the phone. Xiaoju vaguely heard on the phone that her father said that the married daughter threw water, and Xiaohua was about to If you are married, you can’t go for a BJ at this time and there are objections.
After Xiaoju heard this, she sighed heavily and couldn't help but feel discouraged. "Xiao Ju, your father and I have discussed it. Otherwise, I won't go to BJ. The family is busy and we can't go away." Xiao Ju's mother replied after discussing with Xiao Ju's father.
"Mom, can I take Niuniu back to live for a while? I really don't want to stay in this house anymore." Xiaoju continued to cry and plead.
At this time, Xiaoju's father answered the phone and replied: "Xiaoju, Xiaohua is getting married soon. You can't live in your parents' house at this time, otherwise the woman will have objections. You see, Xiaohua finally found a partner. But we can’t let the marriage get blown away just because you’re back.”
"Dad! Let me ask you, am I still your daughter? Do you still care about my life or death?" Xiao Ju cried and asked loudly on the phone.
"Xiao Ju, you have to be considerate of your parents' difficulties, right? No matter what, you are already married and are an outsider in your parents' family..." Xiao Ju's father was still talking on the other end of the phone with his distorted views. Xiaoju couldn't stand the theory anymore and hung up the phone with an angry "pop".
Do I really have no way out?Xiao Qiang's mother felt that she and Niuniu were an eyesore at home and forced her to move out. Not only did her parents not come to have sex, they also refused to allow her to go back.Sure enough, once a married woman's family is unhappy and she is not financially independent, there is no way out!
Xiaoju lay on the bed and cried silently all night. She recalled everything she had done since she could remember.Along the way, she never enjoyed a few days of happiness, and all she was left with were bitter memories.I was born in such a family that values ​​boys over girls and is closed-minded and outdated. I remember that when I was young, I was either taking care of my younger siblings or doing endless housework. Invite a scolding or even corporal punishment.Later, after hard work, I finally got into college, but I had to bear the money for my parents to build a house and Xiaohua to marry a wife, just like making a deal.
Before getting married, she relied on her thin shoulders to shoulder the heavy responsibility of supporting the family, worked hard to earn money, and finally gave it all to her family.But her parents didn't seem to appreciate everything she had done for the family, and they still treated her as a tool at the critical moment. All this made her feel chilled.
Ever since she came to BJ and met Xiao Qiang, she had a moment of joy and relaxation.I thought I could finally get rid of that greedy and bloodthirsty family and start living a new happy life from now on.But he never expected that he would fall into another deeper pit and implicate innocent Niuniu.
Maybe I shouldn’t have come to this world?Or maybe you are already redundant?
The more Xiaoju thought about it, the more she became filled with grief and anger, the more she thought about it, the more her heart became ashes, and the more she thought about it, the more she felt chilled to the bone.Let's go!Maybe if he is freed, Niu Niu will be saved, and the world will be peaceful.
Thinking of this, Xiaoju stood up and sat at the table. She first wrote a long last letter to Niu Niu. She had to let the child miss his biological mother when he grew up.Then, she sent another message to Xiao Qiang: "Xiao Qiang, I know you are with another woman now, you should come back. After all, this is your home, and there is your mother and your daughter at home. I'm leaving, going to a place you can never find. You don't have to hide from me anymore. Farewell."
Xiaoju sent another message to her sister Xiaoqian: "Xiaoqian, take care of my parents for me. My sister is gone and will never come back. If there is an afterlife, let's continue to be sisters."
Xiaoju sent another farewell message to Yuqing, Siyi, and Guan Lu.
After that, Xiaoju gently kissed the sleeping Niuniu's little face again, and silently shouted in her heart: Dear daughter, my good Niuniu, mom is leaving. I'm sorry, please forgive mom for being cowardly and not being able to stay with you. When I grow up, my mother really can’t live anymore.
At dawn, Xiaoju staggered to the lake at the entrance of the village alone.Goodbye, this world, I'm leaving. After Xiaoju said silently, she jumped decisively.
(End of this chapter)