The legend of the king of crossing

Chapter 190 Zhao Xuan's Inner World

The door of the room opened again, and it was the first emperor Lizong who came in, but this time, it seemed that Lizong was already old, even though he was only in his sixties.

"I" saw Li Zong enter, hurriedly waved away all the beauties, stood up to greet him, and then said: "Father's holy body is not in order, and you have to deal with important affairs in the court, so you should rest more."

"Emperor, father's body is clear." Song Lizong pointed to the seat next to him after sitting down and said, "You can sit too."

"Yes, Father."

"Emperor, it's hard for you to be burdened by Jiangshan Sheji. Alas! Father, there is nothing you can do about it. You are my only heir, and the country of my Zhao family can only be entrusted to you."

"Father, you just don't feel itchy occasionally. You can rest for a few days. Father will not fall down. How can I leave father in this country? There are many things to learn for children, and you still need to listen to father often." Teaching is what it is." I felt "I" startled, inside and outside the palace, Emperor Lizong has always been "my" backing, and also the only backing, if this backing falls, what should "I" do Is good?From the heart of "I", "I" don't want my father to go west. First, my father is my backer. With my father around, "I" can continue to be the Taiping Prince and enjoy myself to the fullest. Second, "I" He still has feelings for his father.

Song Lizong smiled and said: "My son, people are born, old, sick and die. Even if you and I are the supreme, we will not be spared. I once said at the court meeting that you are the emperor of Taiping for ten years. This is indeed what I got from my dream. I know, but it’s not my fabrication. My son, you’ve grown up too, and I’m asking you, what do you think of Jia Sidao?”

"I" actually couldn't figure out the situation of the ministers in the court at all. It was only because Jia Sidao supported "I" that I liked him: "Father, my son thinks that Jia Sidao is okay."

Song Lizong probably also knew why "I" couldn't say anything, so he said: "I once placed my hope on those famous Neo Confucianists, but when the situation is critical and the court needs heroes like heroes to vigorously rectify the state affairs, these Neo Confucianists But no one can do it. Most of the advice they give me is to make a fuss about small personal matters. No matter what is noble, what is honest and sincere, it is useless. Such a sage's kung fu is too vain. I feel more and more tired of this, these sages are not as good as my cricket-fighting brother-in-law Jia Sidao, because Jia Sidao can still find ways to get money for military expenses."

"I" didn't know the meaning of what Song Lizong said, but just nodded indifferently.

After listening to it, I felt that the words of the first emperor still had some truth. These so-called great Confucians spoke clearly and logically, but when they were really asked to offer advice, they just shouted slogans and had no substantive suggestions.

Li Zong casually picked up a glass of wine on the table, drank it all, and then said: "Emperor, although you are not my own, but Queen Xie is your adoptive mother after all, and she didn't intend to make things difficult for you. Seeing that she has always been at odds with you, it’s because she hates you. In fact, your mother has always cared about you in her heart. People often say that she is a strict father and a loving mother, but when I come here, she is a strict mother and a loving father. Haha, isn’t it? "

Whether it is an emperor or a queen, even if they are high above, they are still human in essence, and human beings will have the seven emotions and six desires.The people of the royal family are not without kinship, but in most cases they are covered up by the infighting in the palace.

At this moment, I realized the trace of family affection in the heart of "I", after all, "I" also has feelings.

After Li Zong went out, I felt the thoughts of "I". Since it was the emperor's request, I should try it myself, maybe I can do it myself?Didn't the father say that he was the emperor of Taiping for ten years?If it doesn't work, leave the government to Jia Sidao to manage.

This is the last bit of self-confidence in Zhao Yu's heart, even though it is a quixotic self-confidence.

The idea of ​​"I" is very simple, but I feel that "I" shouldn't be born in the emperor's family, but fortunately, "I" has no competitors, otherwise I will really die a miserable death.

After a while, Xiao Qi entered the room and said: "Prince, it's not good, the emperor has passed out."

"what?"

"Prince, talk while walking, hurry to Ninggan Palace."

The scene in the room instantly switched to the bedroom of the first emperor of Ninggan Palace.

Song Lizong was lying on the bed with his eyes closed, obviously hopeless.Several imperial doctors from the imperial hospital stood silently, not even daring to breathe.Xie Daoqing looked stern, sitting on a chair beside the bed.

I saw "I" hurried into the house, came to the bedside, saluted Xie Daoqing and said, "Queen Mother, how is Father?"

Xie Daoqing glanced at me coldly, without saying a word, he motioned to the imperial medical officer at the side, the imperial medical officer hurriedly bowed his hands and said in a low voice: "Prince, Your Majesty is already in a deep coma, and the situation is probably not good."

"Be specific."

"Maybe, maybe it's just a few days away." The imperial medical officer said tremblingly.

Although "I" knew that my father was in poor health, I didn't expect it to happen so quickly, and I stood by the bed blankly for a moment, at a loss.

"Prince." Xie Daoqing's voice was cold.

"Ah, queen mother."

"The time of the official family is running out. As the heir to the throne of my Great Song Dynasty, you should make preparations early. The official family has high hopes for you. You know it well. I hope you can remember the teachings of the official family so that you can do it yourself." After Xie Daoqing finished speaking, he gave me a complicated look, and left without looking back.

"I" shivered involuntarily, with a sluggish expression, my legs softened, and I sat down on the edge of the bed.I can feel the fear of "I", and from the heart of "I", I can see Xie Daoqing's attitude towards "I", which is clearly contemptuous or even disgusting.

Xie Daoqing's glance when he left brought the last bit of self-confidence of "I" back to its original shape.

I gradually understood that this was Zhao Yu's inner world. The long-term depression made her mentality extremely weird, and she was only one step away from mental illness.And feasting and feasting are a good medicine deep in his heart. He uses this way of life to numb himself. Over time, it is like smoking opium, an addiction that is difficult to quit.

According to historical records, for a period of time after Zhao Yu ascended the throne, at least on the surface, he showed an upward heart, but this was just an explanation to the late emperor, because Zhao Yu soon sank, and his life should have been It's wine and sex.

At the beginning of human beings, is human nature inherently good or inherently evil?In fact, there are both, but in the acquired experience, it depends on which nature can dominate.

Everyone has two sides, just like my mask, but the mask on the surface can't cover up the truth after all.

The authenticity of "I" is intoxicated, what about me?What about my inner world?Are I and "I" really the same person?If so, isn't the inner world of "I" mine?If not, why can I hear and see the inner voice of "I"?

I found that the thinking in my mind began to be a little unclear, and I and "I" appeared intertwined again, which was completely different from when I just transmigrated into Zhao Yu's body. At the beginning, I actively devoured Zhao Yu's consciousness, and this Once again, it seemed that they wanted to merge again.

The situation in the room changed again at this time, the pagoda I had seen in the hallucination appeared around "me" again, and there was a small blood-red pagoda in the middle, this small pagoda was in the Above "I", and slowly moving downward from mid-air, while "I" is still sitting in the same place without knowing it.

"It's strange, how could there be any signs of leakage of my Dragon Qi towards Emperor Star?" Longhu Shandian, the Daoist master who had been watching the sky, had a look of surprise on his face.

"Look at the fate star, it seems that there has been a change." Zhang Tianshi did not know when he appeared beside Daofa.

Although the moonlight is still bright in the sky, the two Emperor Stars in the north and the south are stubbornly emitting a faint light. The Northern Emperor Star flashes and flashes regularly, and always maintains a constant brightness, while the brightness of the Southern Emperor Star is gradually increasing. weakened.

Daofa master and Zhang Tianshi looked at each other, but they didn't understand why.

The small blood-red tower is approaching downward bit by bit, and my intuition tells me that although this small tower is small in size, it has the power to oppress everything. Just relying on "I" is enough to be crushed into powder by it.

The last time I appeared in a hallucination, it was the voice of the old man in black that pulled me back, so what about this time? Will "me" be as lucky as me?

My anxiety was getting worse and worse, and I watched the small red tower fall, but I was powerless to help.