It's a diary

Chapter 114 2.27
I can't describe the feeling, it's depressing and depressing.There is a feeling that 4 will drop in the next second, and there is a feeling that I can't survive.

Why is this so.

Maybe I'm too greedy. I want a lot of things, but I don't have that much ability.

why.

I don't understand, my head hurts so much, I don't want to think about it.

The sun rises and sets.The same goes for the moon.After some repetition, the day is over.

Over and over again, a year passed.

Then I grew one year older, not only in years, but also in confusion about the future.

Blossom.Every year, around this time, I always seem to get depressed easily.

I don’t even understand why, and I don’t know what I’m feeling depressed about.

This is true in Beiyu, and it is true here as well.

Suddenly realizing this, I felt powerless.I feel that I am too small and that I am making a powerless struggle.

I also suddenly remembered it.

Every spring seems to be quite depressing.

Then I hope that summer will come soon and the weather will be hotter and hotter.

Now, it's not enough.

To outsiders, it seems to be a warm and mild 20 degrees Celsius, which is far from enough.

I'm so cold, so cold, so cold.

Why is it so cold? If the tonics I have been taking for so long have no effect, then why take them?If taboos are useless, then why should taboos be used?

My ultimate dream in this life is to be a cat.

Dream about it.

But I can only think about it in my dreams.

Not enough. Not enough.

It's still not warm enough and I want to stay in a very warm city.Preferably, only the summer kind.

I want to go hiking, I want to walk, I want to have a good sleep, I want to be healthy. "The time we got together was only two years. You think two years is a long time, but I say two years is very short. It passed in a flash. This only accounts for one or two percent of your life. You are still young. , there is still a lot of time..."

One or two percent, one or two percent.

Longevity.

I'm so timid.

Now maybe an ant is stronger than me.

I don’t know where my courage to walk alone at night has gone.Perhaps, it has also gone on its night path, but it has not come out yet, so it has not come to my side for the time being.

Deleted, deleted, modified, I don’t know how to continue.

I feel that I have become stupid.

I don’t want to be dumber, not necessarily smarter, but I shouldn’t be dumber.

So sad.I want to drink a cup of hot milk tea from Yihetang and eat another Wudalang sesame cake.It’s best to sit down and eat. It doesn’t matter where you sit, even on the roadside.

what.

There are four more days.

It's been a day.

Operating systems tomorrow, English the day after tomorrow, math the day after tomorrow, and the last day is the class of that teacher who looks very irritable.

I really, really wish I could die sleeping on this bed.sleepy.

It's so cold in the morning and evening.

Especially my hands and feet were so cold that I almost lost consciousness.I feel like my whole body is lifeless, lazy and sickly.

what.

I'm not anemic. . . . .

fell asleep.

Headache.

(End of this chapter)