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Chapter 20 Cage
In fact, Friday morning was actually just right, neither too cold nor too hot.Just because the weather was good enough that day, I can still remember it even today, Tuesday.

I went to have breakfast with the girl from the next class.

In fact, I haven't had the habit of having breakfast for a long time.

There’s nothing to explain (quibble), it’s just laziness!

If you want to sleep a little longer, if you want to be paralyzed for a longer period of time, you can just sit there.

After having dinner with her one time, we almost always went to have dinner together.

There are quite a lot of things we can talk about, for no reason, we just have a close eye and are sensible and mature enough.I don't know how to act like a child.

As I typed this, I seemed a little confused again.

In a sense, is it really good not to be childish?
Not so.

When you have a good relationship with someone to a certain extent, it seems quite endearing to act like a child from time to time.

Can't figure it out.

I still remember that I ate ham buns and soy milk that day.

I've never been a big fan of steamed buns.There's no reason for it, I just don't particularly like it.

But that soy milk is really delicious.

I vaguely remembered some of the stupid things I did before. ——On a winter day, I got up late.Because I didn’t eat anything at noon or night the day before, I ordered rice rolls from a rice roll shop.Inexplicably, I became obsessed with the free soy milk there, and kept drinking it slowly.Warm and sweet.Finally, I ate a third of the rice rolls and drank soy milk until I was full.

Earlier, probably when I was still in primary school.There is no way I can drink or accept soy milk.

I don’t know if it’s because of psychological reasons or what.

Maybe it was because I vomited while riding in a car.I'm inexplicably afraid of that smell.

After eating, we walked to the stadium.

On the way, I said to her: "Hey! Have you noticed that the ham bun inside is not ham sausage, but a hot dog?"

Even though I told her, she still walked faster than me.It's normal. Her legs are longer than mine, and my body is worse than hers.

"I found it, what's wrong?" She seemed a little confused.

There was a little excitement in my tone, "The hot dog sold alone costs two yuan! A ham bun is only one and a half yuan."

She understood instantly and replied to me with a smile: "So, you want to say, you make money with blood, right?"

"Yeah, yeah, yeah!" I nodded wildly.

She just smiled and said no more.

Probably not. We should have talked about something else later, but I forgot.

I can’t remember it now, so I can’t tell you.

In fact, I am still a little dissatisfied and don’t want to do exercises.It's not troublesome to do the exercises, but the troublesome thing is standing in a group, shouting slogans and returning to the classroom.

I don't like this, but there's nothing I can do about it.

Everyone is like this, and I don’t have a suitable enough, appropriate enough reason to refuse.And this actually makes sense.It's just my little bit of laziness.

Then, I don’t know what happened.Suddenly it started to rain. We saw all the students in other classes walking to the classroom consciously. She and I also wandered to the classroom.

We have different classes, so naturally we are not in the same building.

Friday!It’s ps!

I don’t know how to describe what was taught in class, just the homework, which was very impressive.

Crayfish, pudding, a promotional picture of a coastal city (eight or nine layers), a promotional picture of a mountain somewhere...

Now it’s just about learning to recognize tools and so on.

Then just do some homework.

Funny.

I don’t know if it will be difficult in the future, but now, life is quite happy.

I just don’t want to study information technology and learn that system. It really makes me bald.

It’s a bit difficult for girls to learn these things (?)

Anyway, it seems like it’s just not that suitable.

She is not free at noon.I went to eat by myself, then returned to the dormitory and started packing.

In fact, there is nothing to deal with!

I packed some clothes and brought a box of Oreos and a sandwich in case I got hungry in the afternoon.

After that, I wrote my last letter.I didn't sleep that noon and was rushing to write that letter.

Finally finished.

A false alarm.

In fact, it is not that exaggerated. In fact, I have not sent back those letters and books until now.

Even if I don’t write that day, it won’t be too late to start writing again when I return to Beiyu.

It’s just that I have to go to class early that day, so I don’t want to sleep.I hate being woken up just when I feel sleepy.This would actually make me feel even less energetic.

Class started at [-]:[-], and the female instructor in charge of our dormitory building started urging us to leave at [-]:[-].

It made everyone think that we were going to be late.

Rush to class.

I was like this too, but when I got to the classroom, I realized that there weren't many people there at all.

After thinking about it, I ran out to voice chat with Hippo again.

After all, it seems to be all nonsense.

I repeatedly emphasized that her bowl of wontons had been overdue for several months.She also promised again and again that this time, she would definitely please.

Of course, until now, I have not eaten hippopotamus wontons.

Woo woo woo woo woo.

In fact, it is because there is another epidemic in Beiyu.

In addition, I was not in Beiyu for the past two days.

I just returned to Beiyu yesterday afternoon.

At two forty, school was over. I grabbed my schoolbag and ran away. It was so full of joy!
Beiyu!
That is Beiyu, the cage that has trapped me for three years.Got in the car with a senior.Went to the station.

The first person we asked was a grandpa, and he said he was 15 per person.We felt it was a bit expensive and wanted to ask about other cars.

Then an aunt greeted us very warmly and said that we took her car last time.

My senior sister was completely unimpressed.

And I only came here in September.Last time, I took a motorcycle.

I have to say that during the National Day holiday, almost everyone went back.There are traffic jams and overcrowding everywhere.

There are so many people.

Because the aunt warmly welcomed us up, we still went up for the same price...

My senior sister told me that she wanted to take that grandpa’s car because no one seemed to care about him.

I especially want to say "Then why don't we go?"

Of course, it was unspoken.

I habitually looked outside, and when I raised my eyes, I met the grandpa's eyes.I was immediately frightened and lowered my head.

why?
At that time, I only had these three words in my mind.Why exactly, I don't know.

I didn’t know it then and I don’t know it now.

Why do some people live miserable lives?
Why do some people have trouble breathing?
Why is the sun so warm? Why am I still so sad after I walked out of school and encountered the freedom I have been looking forward to?
Why is my heart hurting?
I don't quite understand.am I wrong?What's wrong?...

The answers to these questions are insignificant. In fact, they are not important.

It doesn't matter whether you know it or not.

Because my heart already hurts!
Things have happened and there is nothing that can be changed.

Useless.

But, there aren’t that many useful ones.

If they were all useful, then they would all go to high schools, and who would come here?

Acknowledge your own ordinaryness and ordinaryness.It seems to be something that must be experienced and acknowledged in life.

Then, my heart was always heavy.

Also reminded of are some messy things in the past.So, along the way, I was thinking: Am I really such a failure? Am I too timid? In my life, I have been sorry to too many people.

Inside the station, I received news that the train was delayed.I have no temper, but deep down I feel endless irritability, and my whole person feels indescribably tired.

I couldn't sleep well that Thursday night either.

I had a dream that night. The dream was coherent and somewhat intermittent.I can't remember them all, but I can remember a little bit.

I won’t tell you the content of the dream, it’s my secret.

It's not a secret either.It’s just that the content is not good, that’s all.

I was on the train and the boy next to me was very good-looking.

I don't think so, but I remember that his hands were very beautiful, and he tapped the armrest next to the chair repeatedly, making a pleasant sound.

He got off the train one stop earlier than me.

To be precise, most of the people on the train got off one stop earlier than me.

They should be from their hometown in the countryside.

I returned to the terminal, Beiyu.

As I said, our home is very close to Beiyu Station.A few minutes before the train was about to arrive at the station, I could see the houses in our community.

When I got off the train, I felt the wind blowing in waves.

My hair was completely blown away. The rubber band that tied my hair fell to the ground. I squatted down to pick it up.

Then, with his hair loose, he slowly walked toward the exit step by step.

The wind was really strong.It blows nicely and is very comfortable.

The wind in Beiyu is stronger than that in Qingzhou.

This may be why I feel a little more at ease in Beiyu.

The road I walked was not long.

There's someone you want to see here, so don't just walk to the exit.Even if you have to go over mountains and rivers, it's not far.

I also have to praise it!

Very satisfying.real.

I got home and collapsed.

WIFI, WIFI!

I have been in school for so long and I don’t even have WIFI!

I kept burning data, so I had to take my time doing everything for fear of using too much data. (Actually, until now, I don’t know how much traffic I have available.)
I slipped out at night. I wanted to look for the hippo, but the hippo fell asleep and couldn't find her.

Fake is sick and I really want to see her.

But she said that when we meet, we should be nice.

I know it's hard to be sick, but it's because of the pain that I want to see her even more.

……

In the end, he didn't bother her.

I found the sign "I miss you in Beiyu".

It's pretty cool, but I didn't take any photos.

I drove around and around, and the wind blew for a long time before I got home.

The next day, I also rushed out to enjoy the breeze in the afternoon...

That's why I caught a cold.

Safe

(End of this chapter)