life and death deed

Chapter 100 Give me light
I looked at the several messages in my hand stupidly, and it took me a long time to recover.

I sighed, feeling indescribable discomfort and distress in my heart. I had carefully prepared for the game for so long, but just because she was afraid that I would get caught in the rain, she even gave me an umbrella when she abandoned the game. Why was she so stupid!
I'm really not that important, and I don't deserve her to be so nice to me...

It's not that I don't know that Jin Jiu'er is interested in me, but I've been pretending to be stupid all this time, or I've been escaping.

Because I was still thinking about Wang Mingming, and I also remembered that Jin Jiuer was engaged to another man. I always thought that we could never be together.

However, today, I think it is time for me to face it. As a man, I have the responsibility to end this fruitless ambiguity. This may be better for Jin Jiuer!
Thinking about it, I got up and went to her dormitory.

Sneaking away from the supervision of the dormitory aunt downstairs, I came to their door.

Lan Jie opened the door. When she saw it was me, she pushed me and didn't let me in. She closed the door behind her back.

"Let me go in and see Jiu'er." I said.

Lan Jie stared at me with a bad expression. After a while, she said, "Tell me first, how did you make Jiu'er cry?"

"I can't tell you."

I refused to answer Lan Jie's words.

"You scumbag!"

Lan Jie hit my body several times and cursed.

I wasn't angry and didn't say anything. She was a woman who didn't have much strength, so the beatings didn't hurt. Plus, I felt guilty in my heart at the moment. I felt better after being beaten a few times.

"Are you comfortable? Let me in when you feel comfortable." I said lukewarmly.

"You'd better comfort Jiu'er after you get in. Do you hear me clearly, pervert, scumbag?" Lan Jie said fiercely.

I nodded.

"Hmph..." Lan Jie snorted coldly and opened the door.

At this moment, the doorknob lock inside happened to be unlocked.

Jin Jiuer seemed to know that I was coming, she was standing behind the door.

"Sister..."

Looking at Jin Jiuer's appearance, I felt even more guilty.

Her eyes were all red and swollen, and her beautiful peach-leaf eyes were still watery.

I could predict how uncomfortable she was crying just a moment ago. I have never seen Jin Jiuer in such a mess.

Even if I misunderstood her last time, she only shed two lines of clear tears.

"What are you doing here?" Jin Jiuer looked at me aggrievedly.

"I'm sorry, senior sister, it was me who prevented you from participating in the competition that you carefully prepared."

I apologize first.

"You didn't apologize to me for anything. It's none of your business that you didn't go to the competition."

Jin Jiuer bit her red lips, as if she was trying her best to endure the tears that were about to burst out.

"It's all my fault, it's all my fault."

I would rather she cry. It's really unpleasant to me to see her pretending to be strong like this.

"Xiaojie, please go out first." Jin Jiuer suddenly said to Lan Jie beside him.

Lan Jie didn't say much, but when she left, she glared at me again with a warning look in her eyes.

Jin Jiuer and I looked at each other, and I saw grief in her eyes.

"Chen Nian, why did you lie to me?"

Jin Jiuer said.

I was a little stunned. After thinking about it for a while, I didn't realize that I had lied to Jin Jiuer.

"After dinner that day, I asked you if you had broken up with her. Why did you tell me that you had never been together? Chen Nian, tell me, why did you lie to me..."

Jin Jiuer's voice slowly became smaller and turned into a whisper.When I thought about it, it turned out that this was what Jin Jiuer was talking about.

"Why do you want to give me hope? Do you know you are really bad! When my world has turned completely dark, you gave me light again, you big liar!"

"I'm no worse than Wang Mingming, why are you doing this?"

"I just want to ask you a question right now."

Jin Jiuer looked at me tenderly, as if she wanted to melt me.

"go ahead."

I answered.

"Have you ever liked me? Even in a certain second, in a certain moment?" Jin Jiuer said tremblingly.

I really don't know how to answer. I'm not a saint. Jin Jiu'er is so gentle and looks so charming. How could I not have any feeling of liking her.

But what I am sure of is that I have never thought about being with the girl in front of me.

"Chen Nian, you can even make me happy for a moment..." Seeing that I didn't speak, Jin Jiuer's voice became increasingly sad.

"Yes, of course. Senior sister is so beautiful. She is a man who would not like her." After thinking about it for a while, I could only say something ambiguous.

This should not hurt Jin Jiuer's heart anymore.

"Then will you have me?"

Jin Jiuer was indeed no longer sad, but he posed a question to me that was more difficult to answer.

I thought of Wang Mingming and the fire of pursuit that had just been rekindled.

"Senior sister, it's impossible for us. You are already engaged. Didn't you say that you will get married after graduation? On the wedding day, you will invite me to attend."

I whispered.

"I'm just engaged, not married. As long as you nod, I'll break the engagement immediately! Even if there are any consequences, I'm not afraid to bear them!" Jin Jiuer spoke firmly, but looked at me with tender eyes.

I struggled internally.

It turns out that love is really unreasonable as Wei Kuan said. As long as you meet the right person, even if there is no wedding ceremony, one month is enough to create a deep love.

But how can I be so enamored by Jin Jiuer?

I wanted to cut the knot quickly and reject Jin Jiuer, but everything Jin Jiuer had done to me in the past few days flashed through my mind.

She seems to be the most tolerant water in the world, and her gentleness seems to be everywhere...

I really can't bear to make her sad anymore.

I can't shake my head!

But I thought of Wang Mingming again. Everything about her was everything I wanted to have.

I can’t even nod my head!

"Chen Nian, I know it's too sudden and it's very embarrassing for you. I'll give you time." Jin Jiuer said again.

"How long?" I breathed a sigh of relief quietly in my heart. I really need time to think about it now.

"From now on, I will leave school and go to any place in Yuncheng. If you are willing, then come to me. You are a Feng Shui master. It should be easy to find me in Yuncheng, right?"

"I will wait for you until the sun rises tomorrow. If you don't come to me after the sun rises, then I will never see light again."

"I'm also taking this time to calm down. This is time for you, and it's also for me."

Jin Jiuer slowly finished all the words.

"it is good."

I agreed without thinking too much. Maybe I am not a decisive person in nature. I really couldn't bear to refuse her anymore.

Jin Jiuer reluctantly showed a smile in front of her, like tulips after the rain, and she said softly:
"I didn't want to make it so difficult for you, but I really just want you to hold my hand. I'm sorry for making me selfish for a moment."

(End of this chapter)