i'm not a bad man

Chapter 123 Thriller
Before answering the call from Zuo Xiaowei, I looked up at the sky again. This is a habitual action I do when I am hesitant. I want an answer, and the answer must not be found in this troubled world. In my eyes, the starry sky is the cleanest. Looking at it, I may not necessarily make the most correct choice, but I will definitely not regret it because of this choice, because I have faced the depths of my heart, which is the same as the starry sky. Although I will encounter interstellar storms, my belief in longing for light has never been wiped out. The light will illuminate me clearly, allowing me to give up my emotions without concealment and become a carefree person.

I answered Zuo Xiaowei's call and waited for her question. "Han Chao, what do you mean?"

I controlled my emotions and replied: "I don't think you should question me. There are many ways to solve troubles. For the trouble you encountered, the best way is not to open the door to Chen Linqi. You can find a coffee shop or Since you gave up the best solution when discussing things in a teahouse, I don’t expect you to be grateful when others help you solve problems, or at least don’t find fault with them.”

Zuo Xiaowei didn't listen to my words at all. She asked again: "What is your relationship with Lu Xi? Why do you want her to get involved in our affairs?"

"Wrong, don't blindly expand the scope. This is purely your personal matter. It has nothing to do with me, and it has nothing to do with Lu Xi... She is helping you to get out of the siege and help you protect the situation in front of you. She knows that you are a It’s not easy being in BJ.”

"You're hurting my pride, you know that?"

After saying that, Zuo Xiaowei started sobbing. I couldn't understand her self-esteem and felt a little upset, but I didn't want to stimulate her emotions at this time, so I became even more upset.

"I hate every woman around you. You let someone I hate play the role of my savior. This is creating conflicts for me. Do you understand?"

I also emphasized my tone: "When you get to BJ, you are just hanging out in circles and society. Can you become smarter?... Even if I pretend to be your boyfriend and scare Chen Linqi away, what will be the consequences? Do you have any Have you thought about the consequences?...He may very well get in your way and make your album censored. He may also suppress you in this industry so that you will never get ahead. He is not the backer you thought he was at all. , you are just like a fool, wouldn't you even inquire about his character before cooperating?"

"If I weren't a fool, if I was chasing fame and fortune like your ex-girlfriend, would I like you?"

Zuo Xiaowei's words touched on my pain points and made me fall into silence. After a long time, I said to her: "This is not a good thing... You should learn to adapt to the environment."

"I don't want to listen to your preaching. I just want you to tell me, what is your relationship with her? Why are you always together in the middle of the night?"

Before I answered the call, I already knew that Zuo Xiaowei would ask me this, so I was mentally prepared and did not hesitate. I replied frankly: "I quite like her, but at the moment Still friends."

"Heh... what about me, who am I?"

"I can't control my emotions. I really don't have those feelings for you."

"So, what's the difference between you and Chen Linqi? ...No, there is still a difference between you. The difference is that you have got me, but he has not got me yet."

"I'm sorry, Xiaowei..."

Zuo Xiaowei hung up the phone, and I was in a daze. I couldn't remember how many times I had apologized to Zuo Xiaowei, and I didn't know if it was a desperate measure. I only knew that I I'm not lying, I'm telling you the truest feelings in my heart.

After a long time, I took a long breath and looked up at the sky again. I felt that this night seemed not to be completely over yet, because my heart could not calm down. If I could not calm down, I could not sleep. There were only nights when I could not sleep. It's the long one.

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I tried to relax myself by taking a walk, so I walked from the hospital to my residence.I passed by Qiao Jiao's residence and subconsciously slowed down...

Qiao Jiao once again decorated the yard with lights. It was precisely because she was in the light and I was in the dark that she didn't notice me passing by, but I saw her clearly. She was sitting outside the RV. Under the tent, he held his chin with his hands, looking at something in a daze, like a girl full of thoughts.I didn't dare to stop because I was afraid of her questioning. Suddenly, I felt that I was very unlucky. I clearly didn't get Luxi, but everyone was pointing their fingers at me. Looking at Qiao Jiao again, I didn't feel that she was full of thoughts. Now a young girl, she is a female devil who is getting ready to attack. She is not in a daze, but thinking about how to torture me to death because I robbed her beloved Luxi... She must be very angry in her heart. So I stayed up in the middle of the night and sat in the yard like a gas tank.

I didn't want to be the flame that ignited her. After trembling, I quickly walked past her residence.

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When I got back to my apartment, I took a shower with cold water, and then I felt calmer. I took two cans of beer from the refrigerator, and then lay on the sofa in the glass room, watching the night view of the city while using Beer to amuse myself.

During this process, I sent a message to Lu Xi. I also had to send her a message. I had to find out her attitude towards Zuo Xiaowei.

"When you go to BJ, do you really plan to call your uncle to have dinner with Chen Linqi and Xiaowei?"

After sending this message, I specifically checked the time. It was already 02:30 in the morning, so I didn’t expect Lu Xi to reply to the message. But what surprised me was that Lu Xi didn’t sleep either. She He replied to the message after a while, as if this long night was not peaceful for anyone.

"Why don't we have dinner together? This kind of thing is not something we just talk about casually."

Before I responded, Lu Xi sent another message: "But I don't think Zuo Xiaowei is willing."

I couldn't understand Zuo Xiaowei's current thoughts, so I was a little conservative when replying to this message: "She just called me. Judging from what she said to me, she might really reject it. .”

"Well, it doesn't matter if she doesn't go." (The author Wei Xing's public account, ***, you can view photos of the characters!)

"But it will appear that she is very ignorant of the world. If she really decides to hang out in this circle, this should be the best opportunity in her life."

"If she can really refuse such an opportunity, I think she is a very special woman. I admire her very much and even envy her a little."

I stared at this message for a long time, but I didn’t notice anything about Zuo Xiaowei that Lu Xi could envy, so I could only understand that it was a polite way of saying; Lu Xi was polite enough to Zuo Xiaowei. However, Zuo Xiaowei was full of hostility towards her. I wonder if Lu Xi would still be so generous after knowing Zuo Xiaowei's attitude?
Putting down the beer can, I took out another cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it. The sleepiness came so suddenly, I only smoked half of it, and my consciousness began to drift.I put out the cigarette in the ashtray, then turned over, covered myself with the big goose down jacket Zuo Xiaowei bought for me, and fell into sleep; and this was the first time since I met Lu Xi that I didn't reply to her message. It wasn't that I didn't want to reply, but I really felt that the matter was a bit complicated, and I didn't know if it would affect subsequent rehearsals. Zuo Xiaowei was afraid that she would not come back.

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I don’t know how long I’ve been sleeping for, but suddenly there was a chill on my neck, and I gradually woke up...

My soul is almost out of my body!Under the half-bright light before dawn, there was a person lying on top of me like a ghost on the bed. She was blowing on my neck, and her long hair fell on my face, and I couldn't tell. Qing is a human, a ghost, who...

I remember that I had locked the door, and the huge feeling of horror immediately made my scalp numb and my hands and feet sore and weak.

(End of this chapter)