i'm not a bad man

Chapter 13 Deception
Lu Xi and I stood next to a landscape lamp that was only three meters high. The light laid out a circle under our feet. I stood in the center of the circle, and she stepped on the edge of the circle. The cold wind on the beach blew randomly, and the light moved randomly. She was swaying against the light pole, and she would be in the circle for a while, and then outside the circle again, with an air of aloofness.

Under her gaze, I took out the box containing the records from the larger box and said to her: "It's dark and windy this month. You are wearing a mask and I am wearing a hat. If we two Designing a secret code for a connection or something, does it look like a criminal doing illegal business?"

"Don't you feel embarrassed? You just have nothing to say."

I smiled and replied: "I just have a rich imagination. You think I'm looking for something to say, but I really have such a picture in my mind. This picture is quite interesting and can make me happy." , so I share it with you..."

"It's so happy to be poor!"

She said something so salty, I really felt embarrassed. Maybe I can deceive others, but in front of her, I have no secrets. At least my financial situation is transparent in her eyes. As long as I I still have a little money to make a living, so I don't want to sell things given to me by others.

I coughed twice to cover up my embarrassment, and then said to her seriously: "I know you don't like me, but you don't have to deliberately criticize me... We are doing business now, and it's important to pay with one hand and pay with the other." Delivery, I have brought the goods, where is your money?"

"I'll inspect the goods first, and I won't pay you a penny."

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At this time, there was no one in the huge May Fourth Square. I had no image to speak of, but I didn’t expect that Lu Xi, who was carrying the halo of a star, would sit cross-legged on the ground with me, then open the box and check it carefully. Those records... Maybe she really was deceived, but there is no need for this, because I never doubted that there would be problems with the things Luan Yu gave me, and I also kept these records very well...

During the process, I lit a cigarette, and then said to her in a casual manner: "I saw the news. I originally wanted to call Sister Minhong and care about your situation, but I am in the world. , Integrity comes first. I promised not to appear in your sight, so I will never contact you again... However, there seems to be such a thing as fate between people... I am here If you sell something idle online, the buyer can be you... Just because of this fate, if we are lucky enough to meet again in the future, can you give me a smile?"

"Smiling face?... Put yourself in my shoes, if you were me and met someone like you, would you be able to smile?"

"Yes, a forced smile is also a smile."

Lu Xi finally looked up at me. There was a trace of boredom in her eyes, but I didn't care at all. Then she pulled her face away, laughed dryly twice, and said, "Look, this is a bitter smile."

"I'm afraid you really have to smile bitterly...this set of records of yours is not genuine at all."

"what?"

"This set of records of yours is pirated."

My mouth was open, my expression was frozen, and I even stopped smoking...

I remember Luan Yu told me personally that she spent more than 8000 yuan to buy this genuine product. At that time, I also said that she spent money indiscriminately. The more than 8000 yuan was enough for our travel expenses from XZ to XJ... She said that as long as it is something I like, she doesn't care how much it costs... As for XJ, we will always have a chance to go there once in this life.

At this moment, someone actually told me that these records were pirated and fake!
"Haha... Impossible. You didn't say that on purpose to lower the price, right?"

Lu Xi didn't care about my mood at the moment. She threw these records aside, then stood up and said to me condescendingly: "Come on, this record is not genuine, there is no way I want it... Why do I have to lower the price with you? "

"How did you know it was a pirated copy?"

She seemed to have understood it, and then said to me in a very organized manner: "Look at the logo, Sony Music's logo. The pirated version is more rounded, while the original version is sharper; there is also a cloth bag protecting the box, and the original version is darker. It’s thick, but the pirated version is bright and thin…Finally, you can look at vinyl discs, the genuine version has a groove design on the inner ring, and the pirated version has a flat disc.”

My heart was trembling so much that the hand that opened the box was also trembling. I held those vinyl records in my hand and read them over and over again, and gradually I was swallowed up by the feeling of suffocation...

Is this really fucking love?Even giving a gift is deceiving!

I was blinded by anger and kept talking to myself. Suddenly, I fell into silence. The silence was because sadness had replaced anger...

This kind of sadness makes me more and more powerless, as if I have died, transformed into a tasteless and colorless soul, and then I stay by the bedside, watching with my own eyes the woman I love most having sex with other men, and what happens. Every detail and expression during the relationship... This is not an extreme idea. Luan Yu is so good at deceiving. I am afraid that when we were together, she already had another man, so she left so completely and absolutely. As for me, who was very nervous, I couldn't even find any clues.

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"I can confirm that these records are pirated... but not everyone has the ability to identify them. Maybe your ex-girlfriend was also deceived by others, so she didn't know they were pirated."

I finally looked up at Lu Xi who was talking to me. I could no longer smile bitterly, so I replied with a sad smile: "She is such a smart person, she even has to distinguish the authenticity of Nike shoes that cost hundreds of yuan a pair... Wouldn’t she be able to recognize a set of records costing more than 8000 yuan?... In her mind, I am too cheap, so it’s only fitting that she use fake things to fool me!”

After saying that, I could no longer control my emotions. I lifted the box containing the records above my head, slammed it to the ground, and then stomped it...until the records and the box were turned into pieces.

I picked up the box and records, ran to the beach, and finally threw them all into the sea, and screamed at the sea monster...

What I hate is not piracy, but the nature of the matter... At least, during the time I spent with Luan Yu, I was sincere. I never deceived her, I was just like a child.

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I was finally tired, but the feeling of anger kept lingering in my heart. I just opened my mouth and felt the cold wind blowing into my throat. I even forgot that there was another person beside me...

When I looked back, Lu Xi was no longer there, and I was the only one left in the entire May Fourth Square and on the entire seaside.

She must have been frightened by my rudeness. Even if she left, we can't expect a celebrity to comfort an ordinary man in such a cold late night that people can't stay for long. What's more, she Still hate me so much.

In her eyes, I must be a mentally disturbed man, so every time we meet, it is accompanied by incredible events.

……

Time is a good medicine. I gradually calmed down the anger in my heart. I took my phone out of my pocket and took pictures of all the scenes I could see one by one. I wanted to use this method to remember this. A heart-wrenching night...

Maybe, there is really no woman in this world who can completely keep pace with me, and the life I long for is just my wishful thinking... Therefore, Zuo Xiaowei really shouldn't hate me, living a wandering life Although it sounds beautiful and romantic, as long as you are human, it is impossible to escape from the eyes of the world and live...

I understand in my heart why Luan Yu left, but I have never been willing to admit it. Today, the sudden incident of pirated records forced me to face it and weigh whether I should stay in Qingdao for a long time. , or do you insist on going your own way, leaving yourself on the road and becoming an unsociable ascetic?

Just when I was struggling to make a choice, my phone vibrated.

I opened it and looked at it, but it was not a WeChat message, but an unread message on the website that specializes in buying and selling second-hand items.

This was sent by Lu Xi: "Although I couldn't buy the 14 vinyl records... but the vinyl record player was pretty good... I took it away... I put the money in that Remember to take the big box with you."

Another gust of sea breeze blew, but a subtle warmth surged in my heart. I knew that this vinyl record player was just an ordinary thing. The reason why she took it away was just to find an excuse to keep it for me. Just some money to live on.

Although she is very cold, she is definitely a kind-hearted woman who cannot bear to see the sufferings of the world... Or maybe she is not cold at all, but I haven't been able to enter her life yet, and I have caused such a big trouble for her. That's why you treat me like this.

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I didn't immediately go to see how much money she left for me. Instead, I dialed Renran's phone against the cold wind that kept blowing... I wanted to talk to her. Maybe, I should really consider staying for a long time. This happened in Qingdao.

(End of this chapter)