i'm not a bad man

Chapter 175 You!
At this time, it was already 11:30 in the middle of the night. What I found incredible was that I actually witnessed a rush hour after work at this time. While I was talking to Lu Xi, the downstairs seemed to be magic. Dozens of taxis gathered. These taxis occupied both sides of the road, waiting for those who came out of the office building. They were extremely orderly. One passenger and one car left, and another car left. Filling the gaps, this kind of operation is like using a formula to solve a problem. It has been solved countless times by countless students, but there is only one answer. They must be going home, but looking at their numb and tired bodies, I can't help but feel a little I wonder, do they really have a home?And do those rented houses really give them a sense of belonging?

……

I admit that I focused on the changes in the environment because I didn’t know how to face Lu Xi. I was still a little panicked. If she was allowed to continue guessing like this, Luan Yu’s matter would probably be exposed. Since Using the word "expose" proves that I know that this is not the right thing. I have a strong sense of guilt in my heart, which makes my mood extremely complicated...

But Lu Xi didn't give up because of my avoidance. She kept looking at me, trying to get an answer from me.

I finally spoke: "I don't deserve to be your friend, because I have never considered you a friend from the beginning to the end. We are not the same kind of people. The reason why I have so much contact with you is just out of curiosity. Are you Celebrities... wait until the novelty wears off..."

Before I finished speaking, I was interrupted by Lu Xi. She said to me again: "It doesn't matter if you don't treat me as a friend... Sister Ran is always your friend. You promised to be with her before." We started a company, and now Sister Ran is extremely busy every day, but you just let her go, what's going on?"

"I'm such an irresponsible person."

Lu Xi ignored my words at all. She asked again: "Han Chao, when so many abnormal phenomena have appeared in you, can a lack of responsibility really explain everything?"

"In this world, not everything and every phenomenon needs to be explained... Do you know why the earth is round and not square? Do you know why people have emotions, birth, old age, sickness and death?... And you "The skating boy, why didn't he come back to you after so many years? Have you got the answer?"

I knew where the pain point in Lu Xi's heart was, so the invisible knife in my hand pierced the place where her wound had not healed; I thought: In this way, she should hate me, right?
But I was afraid to see her look of disgust towards me, so I turned my back to her and lit a cigarette to hide all my emotions.

I am more disgusted with myself at this moment than ever, because I am not good enough and bad enough. If I can do one of them thoroughly, I will not show it to her like this. Lots of flaws.

Thinking of the way Lu Xi was stung by me again, I began to feel exhausted in my heart.

……

"Han Erjin, do you know? I never threw away the deer that you broke."

When I heard her call me "Han Erjin", my heart tightened at first, and then I felt like I was enveloped by low pressure. In this world, maybe she and I are the only ones who know what the title "Han Erjin" means. After that time, I never drank as much as before, but I don't regret it at all, because that was the beginning of our friendship.

But even with such softness in my heart, I still turned my back to her and replied in an indifferent tone: "I know, I just accidentally entered your office, and the deer was on your desk."

"Then do you know why I haven't thrown it away?"

"I don't know. To me, it's just something that doesn't matter. As long as I have time, I can give one to every friend around me."

"But the fact is that you only gave me one person, not even Sister Ren Ran and Qiao Jiao... I repaired the deer and spent a lot of time. Just repairing it cost so much money. Energy, one can imagine how much thought you put into it when you did it... In this world, the most indestructible thing is the details. How could a man with such an interesting and soft heart become the person I see now? What does it look like?"

After a pause, Lu Xi said to me in a gentle tone: "It doesn't matter if you don't want to tell me the reason. I just won't explore it... But can you not hurt me like this? Even if I know You did all this on purpose, but I still feel very sad." My sadness was no less than hers, but I had no way to tell her. At this moment, she spoke first, as if she had opened the flood gate, and the surging flood came. The tide is about to break my psychological defense.

I finally took off part of my disguise and said to her in a lighter tone: "The deer is too broken to see. When I have time, I will make another one for you."

"No, even if it breaks, it's irreplaceable... Just look back at me."

"dont see……"

As soon as I finished speaking, Lu Xi grabbed my arm, then used brute force to turn me around, and said to me extremely seriously: "Do you think we are still friends?"

I'm about to break my guard.

At this time, she actually shook my arm and said, "Say it, just say it..."

My face, which had been tense all the time, suddenly became uncontrollable. I laughed, and even laughed out loud... I knew something was wrong in my heart, so I tried my best to restrain myself, and I wandered painfully between laughing and not laughing. While laughing, he finally sighed with emotion: "Damn... you!"

Lu Xi also laughed. When she laughed, I lost even the last bit of my will to resist. I laughed with her again. At the end of my laughter, I simply broke the jar, held on to the guardrail, and laughed loudly...

Laughter is really contagious, especially this kind of laughter without any reason. After I laughed, Lu Xi also laughed out loud with me. Listening to her laughter, I couldn’t control it even more, and the cycle continued. After a few times, we were all laughing so hard that by the end, I was almost exhausted!
I finally covered my stomach and said to Lu Xi, who was also covering his stomach: "Sister Lu, let's not laugh, okay?...If we continue to laugh like this...if we continue to laugh like this, both sides will suffer."

"You stop first."

"I try my best……"

I controlled my smile tightly, and so did Lu Xi, but this forcedly controlled expression was still so full of laughter, so I couldn't hold back and laughed loudly...

Smiling, laughing, I lay on the ground, and I no longer had the desire to control myself.

In my thick and complicated memories, I have never laughed like this since my family went bankrupt... The last time I laughed like this was with my first girlfriend in high school. We were in a hotel and she put on her underwear. On the contrary, the Lucky Cat in front seemed to be biting her butt. I found it very funny and laughed for a full 5 minutes... That kind of laughter really came from the heart, without any adulteration. Troubles and trivialities are just like my life at that time. I was carefree and had no idea what the pressure of living was.

Thinking of myself at that time and looking at myself in front of me, I couldn't help but feel sad. I finally stopped laughing. I just used my hands as a pillow and looked at the neon-red sky... and Lu Xi was leaning against me. On the guardrail, he looked down at me.

(End of this chapter)