i'm not a bad man

Chapter 178
After leaving the teahouse where she was negotiating with Chen Linqi, Lu Xi drove her car through the streets and alleys of BJ; my mood also changed a lot at this time, I seemed to have more leisure, and finally no longer I looked at this city with a pace that was too fast for me to adapt to with anxiety, so when the car passed through an alley again, I noticed those BJ guys sitting under the trees and basking in the sun, each of them holding a birdcage. , sometimes making fun of birds, sometimes chatting, looking leisurely and peaceful, but before that, I only saw those young people with breakfast in hand, chasing the bus and subway; therefore, the mood is really important to a person. It is so important, it will determine your perception of the world. Only when you are in a good mood can you discover the other side of the world.

Precisely because I discovered another side of BJ, I even thought about it in my heart, what kind of living situation would it be like if I lived in BJ for a long time?Most likely, I won’t be as anxious as most young people, because even if I live in BJ for a long time, I will not have the ultimate goal of staying in BJ. It is precisely because of my easy-going and happy-go-lucky character that even if I don’t have money, He is also freer and happier than most people.

……

After staring out the car window in a daze for a while, Lu Xi had parked the car in an open space. I turned to look at her, but she was holding the steering wheel with both hands, looking forward and asked me: "Chen Linqi just made an appointment with me. Why do you have such a big reaction when you sing?”

"He has made it clear that he wants to take advantage of you. If he is sincerely asking you to arrange a song, he must come up with a sincere price."

"Don't you hate me very much? It would be great to take the opportunity to add insult to injury. Why are you starting to protect my interests again at this time?"

I was stunned for a moment, and then I realized that this was Lu Xi’s language trap. In order not to seem contradictory, I bite the bullet and replied: "You have done me such a big favor, if I still use it before If I treat you with such an attitude, wouldn’t I really become worse than a beast?”

"People who are worse than animals will always be worse than animals, and they will not change like this..." After saying that, Lu Xi finally turned to look at me, and then said: "The reason why you went back to the small town with Zuo Xiaowei, gave up The promise you made to Sister Ran is actually to avoid me... You are afraid that if you get along with me too much, you will unconsciously express some contradictory emotions, just like just now, right? "

I looked at Lu Xi and was speechless. She was even smarter than Qiao Jiao. Qiao Jiao could only see some clues, and then through hard work and a little luck, she figured out the relationship between me and Luan Yu. The paragraph has passed, and Lu Xi has come infinitely close to the truth based on just guessing.

But speculation is not evidence. As long as I don't let go, she will never think that the sister-in-law who treats her in every possible way is my ex-girlfriend, because this in itself is a very unbelievable thing. Unless there is ironclad evidence, it is absolutely impossible to just You can figure out the truth just by guessing.

Because I was so sure, I didn't say a word, looked as if I was lost, and didn't make any eye contact with Lu Xi.

Lu Xi sighed, and then fell into silence.

……

After we separated from Lu Xi, I went to the hospital where Liu Jiujin worked. Chang Yuli's test results had come out. He had not lost the opportunity for a second operation. Liu Jiujin was going to operate on him tomorrow. If the operation went well, We can leave BJ tomorrow afternoon.

I am quite satisfied with this BJ trip. After all, I met Lu Xi, solved a very difficult problem, and gave Chang Yuli hope to become a normal person again. At this moment, I have nothing to spare. The idea is just to make sure that I will return to the small town, and then run our small town life with Zuo Xiaoweian steadily.

……

Chang Yuli and I sat side by side on a bench on the street. He kept looking up ahead, as if he wanted to see enough of the world, so I lit a cigarette and smoked while looking at the busy street. daze.

"Brother Chao, do you think my friends will change their views on me after I become a normal person?"

"I can't tell you. In fact, your biggest problem is not the defect in your eyes, but the inferiority complex caused by it. You are too kind to those people and are always available, so they will not be afraid of losing you as a friend. ...In fact, whether you are friends or lovers, you have to keep a sense of distance, especially those who are not really like in your heart. If you should ignore them, just ignore them... Only when you learn to ignore others will others realize you. importance." After a short pause, I added: "Don't take the neglect I mentioned as breaking up the relationship... Breaking up the relationship is a very immature behavior, and it is easy for others to see your character, artist. You can be so willful, but you have the aura of being the son of the richest man on your head, and you have to be moderate in everything you do. Being cold-shouldered will only make others want to get closer to you. Breaking off friendship means making enemies on all sides... Do you understand what I mean? "

"Ah."

Chang Yuli responded, and then said to me after a period of silence: "Brother Chao, I think you are a person who understands people and things very well. I can always learn a lot from chatting with you, so I admire you very much." Your...if I had a friend like you a few years ago, I would definitely not have been tricked so badly by Guan Yubo!"

"If I see something fishy here, I'll warn you."

"Why don't you do things with me after you go back..."

I looked at Chang Yuli, and there was both excitement and desire in his eyes. When I returned to the small town, I really had nothing to do for the time being. After weighing it for a while, I replied: "Okay, but you have to think about it." Okay, let’s do something first.”

Chang Yuli thought for a while and replied: "My dad just got a river reconstruction project recently. I asked my dad to come over for this project. Let's work on it together."

I shook my head: "You have the wrong idea. What you lack most now is not resources, but an opportunity to prove your ability. Therefore, the thing you want to do must have nothing to do with your father, and you need to complete it independently... Only in this way can you gain your father's trust to the greatest extent."

Chang Yuli fell into a state of hard thinking. He was probably used to relying on his father, so he couldn't adapt to the kind of independence I mentioned for a while, and he had no idea to achieve such independence.

I didn't bother him because this was something he needed to think about. …

Taking advantage of Chang Yuli's thinking, I took my phone out of my pocket. I wanted to call Ren Ran. Although she gave me those two bracelets, I really want to make the best use of them. time, you should still tell her, after all, this is not a dinner treat, but a friendship worth 20.

A moment after the call was made, Ren Ran answered the call. It was very noisy on the other end of the phone. I heard the sound of a chainsaw cutting. She seemed to be at the construction site. After the call was connected, she did not speak to me immediately. Directing a certain worker...

It’s really hard to imagine what she, whom we call the rich flower in the world, would look like wearing a safety helmet and standing on a dirty construction site. If I were here, she wouldn’t have to visit the construction site in person at all.

"Sister Ran, are you busy?"

"Wait a moment while I find a place where I can talk."

He was told to wait for a while, and after waiting for a full 2 ​​minutes, the phone gradually became quiet. Ren Ran said to me tiredly, "I came here early in the morning. The construction site has just started, and there are things happening everywhere."

I felt so guilty that it was hard to speak.

"What about you, have you learned to adapt to life in a small town?"

Ren Ran took the initiative to change the topic, and then I spoke: "I'm at BJ."

Ren Ran was a little surprised: "Ah! Why did you go to BJ?"

I spent some time telling her about the dispute between Zuo Xiaowei and Chen Linqi, and then after a period of silence, I said to her in a deep voice: "The final compensation plan is to sell the copyright of the song to Chen Linqi, and the remaining Pay 20 in cash compensation...I think...I want to sell the pair of bracelets you gave me..."

Before I finished speaking, I was interrupted by Ren Ran. She said to me in a very rare and stern tone: "No, these two bracelets are for your self-protection. You can't spend them on Xiaowei."

"Since we have decided to be together, protecting her means protecting myself."

Ren Ran was speechless.

I lowered my tone again and said: "Sister Ran, I can't go back to Qingdao. Now I'm really afraid of the wandering feeling, so I just want to stay in the small town safely. The word "safe" is easy to say, but it is easy to do. Getting up is easier said than done..."

"That is."

"Since stability is the principle for two people to be together, do you think that when something happens, can I only consider my own options? What's more, Xiaowei doesn't have the ability to solve problems herself, so she can't be her boyfriend. Friends and support, but put the hope of solving the problem on her parents. In this way, wouldn’t her parents be more despised by me and feel that they are entrusted to me even more?”

After pondering for a while, Ren Ran finally said: "Well, for this reason, if I insist on my own point of view, it will seem that there is no tacit understanding between us... If you want to do this, just do it. , it’s good to do this, so when you get along with Xiaowei again in the future, you don’t have to always have a debt mentality. "

"Thank you, Sister Ran... I will keep this favor in my heart, even if it costs me my life."

"Everything I do to you is without asking for anything in return. As long as you can live a good life."

……

After I ended the call with Ren Ran, I stood still and didn't move for a long time. It wasn't until the phone in my hand vibrated that I lowered my head...

This WeChat message was sent by Qiao Jiao. She said: "There seems to be a bit of fate between us... Today is my last day in China. I have to transfer from BJ tomorrow. I heard that you are also in BJ. Do you want to Have a meal together?”

(End of this chapter)